On April 1, 2003, a shocking news spread throughout the Chinese community - Leslie Cheung passed away unexpectedly
The headlines were dominated by the tragedy, which sparked countless speculations and discussions.
Just as the public was bewildered by the artist's sudden death, a suicide note was discovered, filled with deep sadness and disappointment.
The last 12 words of the suicide note are particularly touching: "I have never done anything bad in my life, why is this happening?"
This suicide note led many to speculate that the artist may have suffered from depression, which may have contributed to the tragedy.
However, the truth seems far more complicated than that, with more unrevealed stories hidden behind it.
Lack of love in childhood
In 1956, Leslie Cheung was born in a prominent family in Hong Kong.
His father is the well-known "King of Western Clothes", and his family is well-off.
However, behind this abundance, it did not bring the expected happiness to Xiao Guorong.
In this big family, he is only one of ten children, and he can't enjoy much of his father's love.
In his young spiritual world, the only thing that really accompanied him was a domestic servant who he affectionately called "Sixth Sister".
Later, there was even a movie "Sister Peach" based on her.
Leslie Cheung's childhood was full of lacklustre and loneliness.
Without the love of his parents by his side, he has an unusual desire for emotion.
It's a pity that even when he grew up, he still struggled on the road of emotion, and every relationship brought him a hard memory and deep reflection.
Career is not going well
In Hong Kong in 1977, 20-year-old Leslie Cheung ushered in a turning point in his life.
He participated in the Asian Song Contest of Hong Kong Lai TV and won the second place with a song full of international style.
This achievement not only earned him a reputation, but also allowed him to sign a five-year contract with the TV station, thus stepping into the brilliant entertainment industry.
For Guorong, this success is like discovering a ray of light in the darkness.
He was convinced that this was an opportunity given by fate and was determined to seize it at all costs.
He began an almost frenzied Xi, waking up at four o'clock every morning and singing until late at night, just to master every note perfectly.
Even though his throat hurt so much that he couldn't make a sound, he still insisted on practicing Xi.
"Guorong, you have to take a break, physical health is the most important thing. The advice of his friends seemed meaningless to him.
"I know, but I can't stop. Guorong's answer was always firm and decisive.
Soon, the TV station arranged a concert for him.
On that day, he threw himself into every song and performed it with all his might.
However, while he was expecting applause and cheers, there was a voice of indifference and mockery in the audience.
That night, Guorong cried alone backstage, and his mood felt like he had been hit by a hammer.
"It's me who isn't good enough. Guorong blamed himself in tears, blaming all his loss and pain on his own inadequacy.
However, fate always seems to love to play a joke on him.
Just when he was almost in despair, in 1984, he won widespread acclaim for his song "Monica", and then won the Golden Melody Award for "Unruly Wind", which gave him some comfort.
But behind luck comes always challenges. On the night he won the award, someone said to him, "A moment of splendor does not mean eternity." ”
"It's better than nothing. Guorong responded lightly, but a trace of uneasiness passed through his heart.
Immediately after, his career became the focus of the Chinese music scene like a rising star.
His singing voice crossed borders and even became the first Cantonese singer to enter the Korean music market.
However, at the moment of the brightest moment, his opponent Alan Tam also made a name for himself in the music scene.
The rivalry between the two gradually intensified, even affecting their fans.
In 1989, faced with this situation, Guorong made a shocking decision: to hold a farewell concert.
"I want to say goodbye in the most glorious moments. At the concert, Guorong tearfully said the decision in his heart.
His voice was choked, but it exuded a firmness: "Remember me as I am at this moment, this is the best gift I can give you." ”
That night's concert became the most memorable page of Leslie Cheung's music career.
Leslie Cheung's decision shocked his fans and peers.
They don't understand why he chose to leave when his career was in full swing.
"Why?" A loyal fan asked backstage at the concert with tears in his eyes.
Guorong looked at him, his eyes flashing with mixed emotions: "Because what I want is not just a momentary glory, but an eternal memory." ”
In the years that followed, Guo Rong did not completely leave the stage, he turned to the film industry, and used his unique charm to shine in another field.
His acting skills are equally amazing, every role is vividly interpreted, and he proves that he is not just a singer with his strength.
Even after choosing to say goodbye in his most glorious moments, Guorong's name and his songs still leave an indelible mark on people's hearts.
His story is not only about successes and challenges, but also about an artist's pursuit and persistence of his true self.
His life and career, like his singing, transcended the boundaries of time and became a timeless classic.
Feelings are complicated and bumpy
In Leslie Cheung's youth, love was like an unknown journey, full of accidents and twists.
His first love happened when he was on campus, and his encounter with Kwong Man-yin was his first exploration of love in his life.
Their relationship is like a flower in early spring, just blooming because the woman's family suddenly immigrated to Canada and died.
"I will write to you. Kwong Manxian said to Leslie Cheung when he parted.
"I'll wait for your reply. Leslie Cheung responded hopefully. However, that letter never came.
Later, Leslie Cheung met Mao Shunjun again, and the two were quickly attracted to each other and fell in sweet love.
At the suggestion of his friend Qian Weiqiang, Leslie Cheung mustered up the courage to propose to her at the age of 17.
"Would you like to marry me?" asked Leslie Cheung nervously and seriously.
Mao Shunjun seemed hesitant, her heart was full of confusion about the future.
"I... I don't know yet. She replied softly.
This relationship also ended in failure.
Leslie Cheung suffered successive setbacks on the road to love, and these experiences made him gradually lose confidence in women.
His heart gradually closed and was no longer easily open to anyone.
In addition to Kwong Manxian and Mao Shunyun, Ni Shibei and Yang Sinuo also appeared in his life, but these relationships also ended in failure.
A series of emotional setbacks made Leslie Cheung more and more confused and lonely in the emotional world.
However, at the most inadvertent moment, he met Tang Hede.
The appearance of Tang Hede is like a light that breaks through the haze, allowing Leslie Cheung to regain his emotional resonance.
They have known each other since childhood, and their relationship with each other has always been warm and pure.
However, as time went on, Leslie Cheung went abroad to study, and the connection between the two was also broken.
Fate always seems to like to weave surprises inadvertently.
In 1982, a gathering occasion brought them together again.
Since then, the relationship between the two has gradually shifted, developing a deep bond that transcends friendship.
For the sake of Leslie Cheung, Mr. Tang even resigned from his position as a bank executive and devoted himself wholeheartedly to taking care of Leslie Cheung's life.
"Why are you doing this?" asked Leslie Cheung once puzzled.
Mr. Tang just smiled and replied, "Because you are my light." ”
Leslie Cheung's heart was full of gratitude, and he took Mr. Tang to various public occasions, hoping to give him enough security.
Their relationship was never hidden, and their audacity went in and out together, causing widespread speculation in the media.
However, when the media gaze began to become sharp and intrusive, Leslie Cheung, fearing that Mr. Tang's life would suffer, decided to go underground in their relationship.
During this time, Leslie Cheung's career was at its peak, and the media's attention to him was increasing day by day, which caused great pressure on their relationship.
"I don't want you to get hurt. Leslie Cheung said to Mr. Tang in a late-night conversation.
But the pressure followed, and in 1997, under huge social pressure, Leslie Cheung decided to make his relationship with Mr. Tang public, hoping to end all suspicions and rumors.
This decision exposes their feelings to public scrutiny.
The Internet is full of ridicule and bad words about Leslie Cheung's sexual orientation, and these ruthless comments deeply hurt his sensitive heart.
He wanted to escape from this world many times, but whenever this thought came to him, he would think of Mr. Tang again, so he gave up the idea again.
Once, when Mr. Tang was not at home, Leslie Cheung secretly flipped through the newspaper that was hidden.
The newspapers were full of criticism and insults against him.
At that moment, he completely broke down and took extreme actions.
Fortunately, Mr. Tang found him in time and took him to the hospital, saving his life.
The doctor told Mr. Tang that Leslie Cheung was suffering from severe depression and needed constant attention.
Mr. Tang has been taking care of Leslie Cheung since this moment and has become his only support in life.
In 2000, Leslie Cheung prepared a world tour concert, hoping to give fans a visual feast. He is meticulous
Every detail was prepared, from the dance to the lighting, and he poured his heart and soul into it.
For this concert, he even invited a foreign stylist to design a unique and dazzling costume for himself.
Dressed in angelic costumes, he stands on the stage and feels like the embodiment of freedom.
However, once the look was made public, it was met with merciless criticism and ridicule.
The sharp words are not only a denial of his work, but also a blow to his expression of love to his fans.
Leslie Cheung's heart was deeply hurt. At that time, he was already suffering from depression and could not bear such external stimuli.
"They don't understand your art. Mr. Tang comforted him.
But their words pierced me like a knife in the heart. Leslie Cheung responded bitterly.
In 2003, the depression and stress that plagued Leslie Cheung reached its peak.
On April 1, he made an extreme choice in the fitness center on the 24th floor of the Hong Kong Oriental Culture Hotel and ended his life.
On this day, the entire entertainment industry was shocked and saddened. Countless fans and colleagues shed tears of sadness for Leslie Cheung's departure.
epilogue
With the passage of time, it has been 20 years since Leslie Cheung left us.
Whenever this generation of superstars is mentioned, countless people feel deep regret and respect in their nostalgia.
Leslie Cheung's life, like a bright but short-lived meteor, crossed the sky of the entertainment industry, leaving indelible traces.
Looking back at his life, it is not difficult to find that it was not just depression that led to his tragic end.
His life is full of family alienation since childhood, career difficulties, and the ups and downs and complexities of the emotional world.
These factors are intertwined and constitute a great challenge in his life.
Leslie Cheung's life is a colorful but also tragic legend.
His talent, charisma, and sensitivity allowed him to shine on the stage, but it also made him endure endless pain in life.
His story reminds us that in life, we should not be overly attached to certain things, but learn to let go and find inner peace and happiness.
Although Leslie Cheung's death has brought us deep regret, his music, movies and stories will always remain in our hearts.
His life may have ended, but the revelation and impact he left us will continue forever.
In memory, Leslie Cheung will always be that brilliant and amorous artist, and his light will shine on future generations to continue to move forward.