My name is Li Hao, I am 32 years old Chinese New Year's Eve, and I am a project manager of a large enterprise.
I have a stable job, a beautiful wife and a lovely daughter.
To outsiders, I am a successful person who lives an enviable life. However, there was a secret hidden in my heart, a secret that only I knew.
My secret stems from one night five years ago.
That night, I was drinking in a bar with a few friends and accidentally saw a young girl crying alone in the corner.
I walked over and asked her what was going on, and she told me her name was Xiaoyu,
Her boyfriend betrayed her, leaving her very sad and helpless.
I comforted her a few words and sent her home. From that night on, an unusual relationship was developed between us.
Xiaoyu is a gentle, kind girl who develops feelings for me, and I am attracted to her innocence and beauty.
We started to see each other more often, eating together, watching movies, and shopping.
Every time I am with her, I feel a sense of joy and satisfaction that I have never felt before.
However, I also knew very well that this relationship was immoral and that I could not let my family and career be harmed.
Therefore, I always carefully hide this secret from anyone.
As time went on, my heart began to be conflicted and struggling.
On the one hand, my feelings for Xiaoyu are getting deeper and deeper, and I can't imagine losing her;
On the other hand, my family and career are also very important to me, and I can't let them affect me in any way.
I started to distance myself from Xiaoyu and tried to see her less often.
However, every time I saw her disappointed and sad expression, I relented and returned to her.
Until one day, I found out that my wife had discovered my secret.
She didn't make a big fuss with me, just silently packed her bags and left the house with her daughter.
I know that I have lost what I hold most dear to me – my family.
Now, I'm alone in front of this empty home.
I began to reflect on my actions and choices.
I realized that I had betrayed my family and marriage in pursuit of momentary pleasure.
I lost a wife and daughter who once loved me dearly, and a girl who had genuine feelings for me.
I realized that the idea of "just not being discovered" hurt me.
I always thought I could control this secret and keep it hidden from anyone else.
However, the truth is that the secret ended up ruining my family and happiness.
Now, I really hope that my story will be a source of inspiration and a wake-up call for those who are going through similar predicaments.
Don't betray your family and marriage for the sake of momentary pleasure, as I did.
We should cherish the happiness and beauty in front of us, rather than chasing those short-term thrills and pleasures.
Because once you lose it, you can't get back what you once had.