Li Youbin came into the world in 1962, and like any family, the arrival of a newborn brings joy. His parents are both workers in state-owned enterprises, so it can be said that they live in a step-by-step manner.
Li Youbin, like other children, also lived a childhood of being cared for by his parents. It wasn't until he was 6 years old that his life changed dramatically.
That year, Li Youbin witnessed the whole process of his parents' quarrel and breakup. Seeing his mother leave the house with his younger brother and sister, he couldn't understand what was happening.
He stood in the courtyard dazed and helpless, his father had returned to the house, and his mother had left without looking back. This image became a shadow in the depths of his memory, and it was often repeated in his dreams.
A complete family was shattered, and the absence of his parents brought a deep blow to Li Youbin. He began to blame himself and autism, worrying that everything was his fault, and if he was a good child, his parents would not quarrel.
On the surface, Li Youbin, who seems to be lively and active, has undergone great changes in his inner world. Seeing this, my sister took good care of her and tried to fill the gap left by her parents. Li Youbin was also accompanied by his sister, and gradually walked out of self-blame and haze.
When he was 10 years old, Li Youbin watched a drama for the first time, and the actors on the stage shocked him with their performances. Perhaps, acting can allow you to release your inner emotions.
Since then, Li Youbin has begun to yearn for the stage and dream of being an actor. When he graduated from high school at the age of 16, Li Youbin mustered up the courage to apply for the coveted Changchun Drama Academy, standing at the crossroads of life and taking a new step.
The 26-year-old Li Youbin is already a young and powerful person in the repertory troupe, with a solid business and a touching performance. In the troupe, he met an actress named Zhang Ruiqi, and the two fell in love.
Zhang Ruiqi is the pillar of the repertory troupe, not only sweet in appearance, but also outstanding in performance, and has many suitors. Li Youbin was witty and humorous, full of enthusiasm for acting, and finally touched Zhang Ruiqi's heart, and the two entered the palace of marriage with the blessing of everyone.
The life after marriage is plain but sweet, Li Youbin treats this small family wholeheartedly, and his simple love makes life unrestrained. A year later, they ushered in the crystallization of love - the birth of their son Li Xiaoke.
This home is finally complete. In order to give his wife a good life, Li Youbin began to consider the idea of Beijing's development.
With a lot of enthusiasm, Li Youbin took his wife and children to the unfamiliar Beijing to work hard. When he first arrived, he suffered a lot in the film and television industry without a background, and could only play some small roles.
But Li Youbin was not discouraged, relying on working hard in the morning and returning late, his acting skills gradually revealed, and gradually won the director's recognition and more performance opportunities. Finally, the family situation has improved, and Li Youbin has also got more and more opportunities for the protagonist.
Li Youbin's busy work left him with little time to go home, and he devoted himself to his career and gradually alienated himself from his family.
In 2005, 47-year-old Li Youbin ushered in the peak of his career - the TV series "Bright Sword" was broadcast nationwide, and the role of Li Yunlong played by him was deeply rooted in the hearts of the people, and everyone knew Li Yunlong's name for a while.
After years of struggle in the film and television industry, Li Youbin finally waited for his opportunity. It was supposed to be a joyous moment to share with his family, but the first thing he thought of was a woman - actress Shi Lanya.
It turned out that the two met as early as 2003 during the filming of a play. Li Youbin lost 10 pounds for this role, and his condition was extremely poor, Shi Lanya took care of him, and the relationship between the two quickly warmed up.
Shi Lanya is 13 years younger than Li Youbin, but she is well-informed, sensitive to feelings, and has a cheerful personality, which deeply attracts the rational and introverted Li Youbin. What's more, she knows how to take care of a middle-aged man's self-esteem, and skillfully captures Li Youbin's heart.
It was Shi Lanya's strong recommendation that Li Youbin took over the role of "Bright Sword", which he didn't want to take. In order to accompany Li Youbin, Shi Lanya pushed down all the notices and followed the crew to the cold ravine for filming.
Li Youbin, who is estranged from his wife, warmed up his relationship in the five months of sharing joys and sorrows with Shi Lanya. After becoming popular, he longed more for the warmth of home, rather than his wife could no longer meet such needs.
In 2006, Li Youbin divorced and was with Shi Lanya, opening the second spring.
During the 2008 Beijing Olympic Games, Li Youbin's relationship with Shi Lanya was exposed, and his behavior of abandoning his wife and children was condemned by public opinion. Li Youbin became unpopular because of his popularity, and was denounced by netizens for not fulfilling the social responsibility that an artist should have.
This also brought great harm to his son Li Xiaoke. Li Xiaoke was originally full of admiration for his father, but he didn't care when he saw that his father frequently did not return home. It wasn't until public opinion broke the truth that the son knew that his father had actually had a better half over the years.
For a teenager whose thinking is not yet mature, this is tantamount to a bolt from the blue. He began to blame himself, feeling that he must have done not good enough to cause his parents' relationship to break down.
Li Xiaoke became silent, and he couldn't give up all day. The previously cheerful personality has also become capricious. The already changeable psychology of adolescence suffered this unwarranted blow, and the son's inner world was irreparably traumatized.
Although his mother Zhang Ruiqi poured all her love into her son, he still couldn't let go of his father's farewell. Li Xiaoke lost his trust in marriage, lived alone in seclusion, and refused any girlfriend.
Now Li Youbin and Shi Lanya have been married for 13 years, and on the surface they seem to be living happily. But every time he thinks of his son, Li Youbin still tosses and turns in the middle of the night and can't sleep. The 38-year-old son has not yet married, which is the result of his indecision back then.
If the marriage could have been saved, my son would not have suffered so much trauma. But time is irreversible, and it is too late.
Li Youbin tried to make up for his son in various ways, but in vain. He went to the door to talk to his son, but was turned away. Every phone call was lost, and the son had already drawn a line in his heart.
It was too late to try everything to redeem it, and his actions had already cast an indelible shadow in his son's heart.
Li Youbin realized that his son's life had fallen into a trough because of himself. His indecision back then not only ruined a family, but also indirectly ruined his son's future.
This feeling of feeling sorry for my son will stay with me for the rest of my life. Li Youbin began to stay away from the entertainment industry and faded out of the star life, just hoping to clear the image that had been labeled, but the knot in his heart could not be unraveled.
He devoted all his energy to the training of his acting skills, hoping to release his guilt through a perfect performance. To outsiders, he seems to be popular, but only he knows the pain in his heart.
Li Youbin understands that all fame and prestige cannot be exchanged for his son's forgiveness. But he doesn't give up and is still trying to make up for his mistakes in his own way.
Li Youbin is an outstanding actor representative in the new era, and he perfectly interprets classic characters with his sharp performances, showing the spiritual outlook of the Chinese to the fullest.
After graduating from the theater at the age of 16, Li Youbin broke through in the film and television industry with keen insight and tenacious perseverance. From the initial trick, to the gradual emergence of the show, and then to the sky, he has proved himself with more than 30 years of hard work.
There is no pride of the sky, only unremitting efforts.
When his film and television career was in full swing, an emotional turmoil almost swallowed him. But Li Youbin did not choose to escape, but faced it bravely. He took the initiative to fade out of the screen and clean up the negative image in the minds of netizens.
As an actor, he returned his attention to the training of acting skills and presented more perfect roles to the audience.
Today's Li Youbin no longer needs to be famous, he plays every role as if he is piously focused. Without the star shelf and screen halo, he seems to have found the essence of acting - digging into human nature and touching people's hearts.
Li Youbin uses his acting life to interpret the unique and great souls of China.