The dream and sad journey of the proud girl of the sky
In 1968, An Wen was born into a family of intellectuals, both of whom were highly educated and well-off. An Wen has lived a worry-free life since she was a child, and her playmates around her jokingly call her "the proud girl of heaven".
Perhaps it is the privileged living environment that has made Anwen cheerful and generous, she loves stage performances, and often pulls her sister to perform in a small theater arranged by herself at home.
When she was 10 years old, An Wen accompanied her second sister to participate in the entrance examination of Chinese opera, and to everyone's surprise, the judges took a fancy to An Wen's natural talent for drama, and decided to let her enter the juvenile class to learn Xi drama performance as a little girl.
Her parents were a little apprehensive at first, but they were soon moved by An Wen's extremely serious and dedicated attitude towards drama, and finally agreed to let her study in Beijing for further studies.
After entering the school, An Wen's understanding and charm were quickly recognized and appreciated by the teacher. Under the recommendation of the teacher, she was fortunate to worship Zhang Junqiu, a master of Peking Opera. Zhang Junqiu not only taught her classical opera performance, but also strongly encouraged her to carry out innovative practices.
Under the careful guidance of Teacher Zhang, An Wen's performance level has improved rapidly. She also gradually showed her own style on stage.
In 1985, 17-year-old An Wen began to get involved in the film and television industry, and has starred in many popular film and television dramas. In 1987, under the recommendation of her teacher Zhang Junqiu, An Wen got the opportunity to play the role of Qingwen in the hit drama "Dream of Red Mansions".
Her wonderful performance brought this role to life and was highly appreciated by the director. This also became an important turning point in her emergence in the entertainment industry.
However, just when her career was in full swing, the death of her mother was undoubtedly a huge blow to An Wen. In the double grief of life and career, An Wen could not hold herself for a while, and the whole person fell into a state of extreme vulnerability.
Fall in love and give up your career
In 1986, An Wen, who participated in the singer competition, met musician Su Yue on the judges' bench. It was love at first sight, and the two soon fell in love.
Su Yue is gentle and elegant, and very talented, and the common topics and cognition of An Wen are amazingly compatible. An Wen was also gradually attracted by Su Yue's understanding of life and music.
After a few months of dating, Su Yue told An Wen that she planned to go to Japan to further her studies. An Wen was silent, she understood Su Yue's determination to pursue her career, but she couldn't imagine the pain of separation.
"Then I'll go with you. Eventually, An Wen plucked up the courage to say this. For this reason, she chose to give up her fledgling acting career and resolutely decided to follow her love and fly to a foreign country.
After arriving in Japan, the two rented a small room of only 6 square meters in Tokyo. Life is poor, but it is full of happiness for An Wen. Su Yue's meticulous care made her feel loved and treated gently like never before.
"I can't remember how many times I cried during the days we were together, but I guess no more than three times. Recalling these days, An Wen had a sweet smile on her face.
In 1991, they had a simple and heartwarming wedding in a small church in Tokyo. Her husband's pampering and patience with her made Anwen feel like she had found a soul mate.
For the sake of this man, she willingly gave up everything. After returning to China, An Wen officially withdrew from the entertainment industry and lived a small life that only belonged to two people. She no longer regrets her original choice, because every day with her lover is the happiest in her life.
For love, I went to the soup to repay debts for nine years
If life always likes to joke, then 2010 is undoubtedly a cruel ridicule for An Wen and Su Yue. This year, Su Yue, whose career was booming, was suddenly arrested and imprisoned by the police on suspicion of fraud.
It turned out that many TV series he had invested in and filmed in recent years were unattended, and the company's capital chain was facing a break. In order to fill the hole, Su Yue did not hesitate to resort to fraudulent means and forged contracts to defraud money.
In the end, the snowball got bigger and bigger, and he finally couldn't get out and was reinstated by the French Open. This sudden change made An Wen's whole body collapse, she lost 15 pounds and couldn't eat for days. Friends persuaded her to let go of the past and move on with her life, but An Wen couldn't calm down, because what she really couldn't let go of was her almost blind love for this man.
So, An Wen resolutely chose to use her influence to repay Su Yue's debts. She returned to the entertainment industry to film, publish books, and hold concerts, and used all her salary and manuscript fees directly to repay the money owed by Su Yue.
In order to save money, An Wen herself lived a life of tossing and turning, often living in simple and damp cheap hotels, and even once forced to sleep under the bridge when there was nowhere to stay.
After persisting like this for 9 years, An Wen finally paid off her debt of 11 million. This allowed Su Yue's sentence to be reduced from life to 15 years. Just as An Wen was about to wait for her husband's release, a sad news that made her desperate suddenly came - Su Yue was diagnosed with terminal stomach cancer, and the doctor concluded that he might not live for more than a month.
"If I had known this would be the case, I would have chosen to die with him. An Wen later recalled the experience. Loving someone should be the best thing in life.
But sometimes, fate and timing can turn out to be cruel and unforgiving, making it impossible for two people who love each other to be together. Perhaps it is precisely because it comes and goes so suddenly that people choose to love madly in a short encounter and devote their lives to it.
I'm going to start over and be myself again
"If I had known this would be the case, I would have chosen to die with him. This is a sentence written by An Wen after Su Yue's death. After this joys and sorrows spanning nine years, An Wen's inner world has transformed.
She is no longer a girl who blindly pursues love, and she also understands the fragility of life and the impermanence of fate.
Su Yue's death killed An Wen's desire to return to the entertainment industry. She no longer has the intention of returning to her former career and devotes more time and energy to philanthropy. Perhaps because she knows the impermanence of life, Anwen hopes to do her part to help more people in need.
This became the motivation for her to start anew. "I always believe that there will be many beautiful people and things waiting for us in life. An Wen said. "No matter how many ups and downs my fate has, I have to be brave enough to continue to move forward and embrace the beauty that is still left in life.
On the way to start again, An Wen chose to forgive herself, forgive the past, and forgive fate for the joke on her. She learns to cherish every ordinary and happy day in her life.
Gathering with friends, visiting the park, and watching movies are all routines that she once took for granted, but now they have become rare and happy times. In the process, she slowly learned to let go and accept the imperfect parts of life.
In this way, An Wen gradually walked out of her grief and became her true self again. She will occasionally recall the bits and pieces of being with Su Yue, even if it is not a flawless ending, it is the love she once had.
"I'll learn to be genuinely happy for him. An Wen wrote. Because the truly complete self is still the girl who loves life without restraint.