On the night I decided to divorce, I posted a Moments message and received 25 missed calls. One of them has a special friend, I call her Xiaoyu.
It was a sunny weekend afternoon, and I made an appointment with Xiaoyu to go for coffee. Xiaoyu was my classmate in college, and we have always been very good.
We confided in each other about the trivialities of each other's lives, and then I told her about my plans to divorce.
"How can this be? what's going on between you?" Xiaoyu frowned.
"There is no affection between us anymore. We have gone further and further, and we have become irretrievable. I said weakly.
"You can save it. Xiaoyu comforted me.
"No, I figured it out. We are no longer fit together. I replied firmly.
The idea of divorce has been struggling in my mind, but when I actually say it, I still feel a little reluctant in my heart.
"Xiaoyu, I'm really grateful to have you by my side. "I sent her a message.
"Fools, we are friends and want to be together all the time. "Xiaoyu's reply warmed my heart.
I know that no matter what life will become after the divorce, I will have Xiaoyu by my side to support me. She was like an integral part of my life.
After a few days, I began to feel the complete change that the divorce had brought to me. Family and affection entanglements are also beginning to emerge.
Mom's words sent me into heavy thought. My separation from my husband has caused quite a stir in my family.
At this time, I deeply felt the pressure and responsibility from my family. They wanted my husband and I to be able to rebuild our relationship and return to the happiness and harmony we once had.
The good things of the past are gone, and there is no way to get back between us.
So, I found Xiaoyu again. She sat across from me and comforted me with warm eyes: "This is your own life, and the key to your family's happiness depends on the affection and mutual understanding between you and your husband."
Xiaoyu's words made me suddenly brighter, and I decided to find my husband and talk to him for a good time. In the company of Xiaoyu, I communicated with my heart and tried to find a solution to the problem.
The problems in the marital relationship over the years are not because of the estrangement between us, but because of the various concerns and differences in our hearts.
Moreover, my husband also confided in me about his stress and confusion. It turns out that the problems between us are not just one-sided responsibilities.
I am truly grateful to Xiaoyu for her support and encouragement for me to start facing marriage and family again and bravely solve problems.
The decision to divorce was a sign of my cowardice and a way for me to avoid the problem. Re-energizing and re-embracing the hope of family is also a fresh beginning.
And now, I need to continue to work hard to reinvigorate our family. As Xiaoyu said, my family's expectations are important, but more important is my happiness.
One day, I received a phone call from my mother. She found out about my divorce and was worried about me all the time.
Every time I make an excuse to push it off, I don't want to be in a relationship again so soon. My mother and I talked for a while, and she persuaded me to go home obediently, saying that she would find me a good family.
"I know your mother is doing it for your good, but she should also understand your thoughts. Xiaoyu said softly.
"Yes, I also hope she understands me. I'm just not ready to be in a relationship again. I said with emotion.
Xiaoyu listened silently, and suddenly she spoke: "Actually, I've always wanted to talk to you about something......"
For the first time, I remembered the conflict between me and Xiaoyu in college.
At that time, I heard some gossip about Xiaoyu. Although I didn't take it seriously, I couldn't help but want to know the truth.
She looked angry, and I retorted and made a lot of trouble. After that, we didn't talk for a long time.
For this matter, I have always felt that Xiaoyu is too sensitive, but I am unwilling to take the initiative to apologize. Even though we reconciled later, I always felt a little hesitant in my heart.
And now, I am caught in a new contradiction - I have decided to divorce. I knew it would be a disappointment for my family and friends, especially my parents.
I knew I would face questions from my family, and they wouldn't understand my choice. I began to worry that this conflict would cause a rift between me and my family.
Caught between these contradictions, I felt stressed. I hope my family can understand me, but the reality is so complicated.
Throughout the night, I thought a lot and my thoughts were chaotic.
Perhaps it is precisely because of these contradictions that the feelings between people are so complex and real. I learned that conflicts and disputes are unavoidable, and the same is true in the family.
I took a deep breath and stepped out of the house, ready to face the challenges ahead. In the future, there may still be many conflicts and disputes waiting for me, but I will try my best to face them, and hopefully handle the relationship between me and my family.