Today, a special fun contest was held in the company. The colleagues were divided into several groups, each showing their own strengths.
We got in the car, Zhao Meng plugged in the Bluetooth player, and a gentle song came out of the speaker. Under the street lamp, her side face looks particularly feminine.
For some reason, an indescribable wave of emotion swelled up in my heart. Maybe it's this song, maybe it's the scene where everyone laughed together just now.
"Thank you for the ride today. "I broke the silence.
"It's okay, it's a bit boring on the road, it's better to have someone with you. She laughs.
"However, our company seems to explicitly prohibit such behavior, and if I were discovered, it would be miserable. I said with some concern.
"You don't have to worry, I'll take responsibility with you. There was a hint of firmness in her voice.
The car drove through the night, and there was silence between us again. I can't imagine what would happen if I were actually punished for prohibited behavior.
Maybe God is testing me.
The next day, I was asked to go to the office by the company's HR department, and it turned out that my behavior had been reported.
Looking at the serious expression and resolute tone of the personnel manager, I reluctantly accepted this fact. Later, I was alone outside, not knowing how to face the rest of my life.
Then, to my surprise, in the days that followed, I found that I was deeply in love with the proud and stubborn Zhao Meng.
She gave me a lot of help and support, and let me experience another kind of warmth in life.
She taught me a lot of ways to survive and taught me to be self-reliant. I gradually realized that my feelings for her were not just ordinary feelings, but deep love.
At the same time, Zhao Meng's family problems began to bother me. Her parents were very unhappy with our relationship.
Every time I see them, I feel very cramped and don't know how to deal with their doubts and criticism.
Zhao Meng is often entangled because of this. She loved me while not being able to go against her parents' wishes.
However, this paradoxical problem seems to be far from being easy to solve. My days with Zhao Meng became more and more difficult, and the pressure was like a heavy mountain pressing on us, weighing us out of breath.
Despite the challenges and pressures of life, I decided to face it and work hard. Due to my unemployment, I began to actively look for a job, and I understood that without a stable job, it would not be possible for our relationship to be approved by our parents.
Just when I was in despair, a company was willing to give me a chance. I started a new job, and although the salary was not high, at least I was able to get out of my previous situation and rekindle my hope for life.
However, I found that this new job was very hard, and I had to be busy until late at night every day, and overtime became commonplace.
My life seemed to be occupied by work, and I even began to wonder if I could really give Zhao Meng a happy life.
After I gradually adapted to my new life, a family conflict that had been infinitely magnified by me began to haunt my heart.
In the past, my parents and I always had a disagreement, and even had conflicts over my choice of work or lifestyle, they didn't understand me, and I didn't understand them, as if there was always an insurmountable gap between us.
After meeting Zhao Meng, I tried to think deeply about myself and my family. I began to understand that my lack of understanding of my parents might be because I wasn't looking at things from their perspective.
This makes me feel grateful from the bottom of my heart.
However, just as I was trying to get closer to my parents, something happened that bothered me.
There was a hint of worry in her eyes. I walked up to her and asked her what was going on.
"Do you know Zhao Meng?" she asked simply.
"You know, she's my colleague and my partner now. I replied, somewhat puzzled.
"I know he's very important to you. But...... She already has a boyfriend. Her voice was soft and full of helplessness.
The news hit me like a bolt from the blue. I felt sad and lost unexpectedly.
"Mom, this may not be what you think. I tried to explain to her.
"I know you're in a difficult situation right now. But what you need now is someone who can support you and give you a sense of security.
Her tone was full of helplessness and worry.
Faced with my mother's advice, I was conflicted in my heart. I didn't intend to take advantage of her emotional support for me, and I didn't want to take her care lightly.
At the same time, I understand my mother's concerns, she wants me to be well, but she can't help but interfere in my life.
I seem to have been on the verge of vacillating emotionally and at home all this time. I hope that I can find a solution to overcome these contradictions and rediscover my own peace and happiness.
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Although my time with Zhao Meng has been in turmoil, I am also grateful for her concern for me. During this time, although I still had no job, I was keenly aware of the indifference of the society around me.
However, when I returned home, I realized that my relationship with my parents had also changed dramatically. The once gentle and kind mother became angry and irritable, and began to be harsh and difficult to treat the father.
I tried to persuade them to calm down, or to find a solution, but they all seemed to turn a deaf ear to my words.
This was a huge blow to me because I had always looked to their marriage as a role model for my own future.
In the midst of such contradictions, I gradually felt lost and did not know what to do. Maybe I should try to find my own way out and find a way to get myself and Zhao Meng back on our feet.
However, perhaps in the midst of these contradictions and challenges, I will find my own answers.