Deng Chunyan was born in an ordinary rural family, her parents both worked in the fields, and she grew up in a poor family. After graduating from junior high school, she began to work outside the home to earn a living.
Deng Chunyan is mediocre in appearance, introverted in personality, limited by knowledge and insight, she does not have much expectations for life. When she was 23 years old, a little sister from the same village introduced her cousin to her, and this man was her current husband.
Deng Chunyan had no idea of falling in love, but under the persuasion of the people around her, she started contact with the other party. After the two dated for more than a year, Deng Chunyan decided to register her marriage with him and became husband and wife.
Her husband is the only child in the family, and his parents dot on him very much. Soon after marriage, Deng Chunyan discovered the problem in the character of this seemingly simple rural man - he was lazy and played with life.
This put tremendous psychological pressure on the young Deng Chunyan, who realized that she had entered a marriage that was destined to be difficult.
The days after marriage were torturous for Deng Chunyan. The biggest problem in the nature of her husband Li Lei (fictitious name) is laziness. He worked in a small printing shop in the village, and because the owner was a distant relative of his mother-in-law, his work was exceptionally tolerant and relaxed.
But Li Lei doesn't cherish this job at all, he often arrives late and leaves early, and 3 days a week is already the limit. Colleagues always laughed at him, "It's not unusual for the sun to come out of the west, just as rare as Li Lei's insistence on working 20 days a week."
Li Lei not only has too little time to work, but also usually sticks to the house and does not do things, all the housework falls on the shoulders of Deng Chunyan alone, and she is physically and mentally exhausted. For the sake of the child's future, Deng Chunyan quarreled with her parents-in-law several times, but they always shielded Li Lei, firmly believing that he was working hard outside to support his family.
Deng Chunyan gave birth to a daughter for her husband 3 years ago, and she had no choice but to swallow her anger temporarily. However, Li Lei later contracted the bad problem of gambling, and even mortgaged the car and his wife's gold necklace for the gambling money.
This became the last straw that crushed Deng Chunyan, and she could no longer tolerate this unsuccessful man.
One day, Deng Chunyan went to her yard to pick up vegetables for dinner as usual. When she passed by the carport, she found it empty and the electric tricycle was missing. She suddenly felt an inexplicable panic and loss.
Husband Li Lei was late at this time, and said with a panicked expression that the car was stolen at some point. Deng Chunyan already knew in her heart that her husband must sell cars for gambling money, and immediately questioned him about the truth.
The two had a big quarrel because of this, and Li Lei shamelessly said that he would let his sister buy him a new car in a few days. Seeing that he never changed, Deng Chunyan was so angry that she was dizzy.
She brushed her sleeves away and decided to pack her bags and go back to her parents' house at once, no longer believing in this morally corrupt man. Before going out, Deng Chunyan glanced at her sleeping 3-year-old daughter in the house, and felt infinite pity in her heart, but for her own sake, she could only be temporarily separated.
She got into the car to her mother's house, tears rolling in her eyes, confused and helpless about her future life.
After returning to her parents' home, Deng Chunyan was preparing to start a divorce lawsuit. A few days later, her husband Li Lei's uncle and aunt came to visit and persuaded Deng Chunyan to go home on behalf of Li Lei.
They said that Li Lei was very remorseful and promised to quit gambling and hand over the financial power of his family. Although Deng Chunyan was shaken, thinking of her daughter's future, she still politely refused.
After more than ten days, the uncle and aunt came to the door again, saying that Li Lei had gone out to look for a job and gave him another chance. Deng Chunyan was more resolute this time and directly said that she would not believe him anymore.
When they met for the third time, the aunt begged Deng Chunyan with red eyes, saying that for the sake of her 3-year-old daughter Xinxin, she should also forgive Li Lei once. Deng Chunyan almost moved her true feelings this time, she didn't want Xinxin to have a complete home, but the memories of those injuries came back again and again.
She thought about the humiliation she had endured all these years, and the terrible future that her husband might gamble again or even sell his daughter. Deng Chunyan closed her eyes in pain and solemnly told her aunt that she had decided to raise her daughter alone.
After experiencing the three times of her aunt's visit to persuade to no avail, Deng Chunyan's determination to divorce has been firm. She understands that she is not without love, and when she first got married, she even had fantasies, trying to please her in-laws and trying to integrate into her husband's life.
But Li Lei finally lived up to all her love and dedication. Not only did he not pay attention to the work he sent to the door, but he also indulged in gambling all day long. Deng Chunyan could no longer believe that this man had any possibility of repentance.
Because she knows Li Lei's nature well, she is even more worried about entrusting her daughter's future to him. Three-year-old Xinxin is still so innocent and cute, Deng Chunyan can't imagine what kind of tragedy she will encounter if she lives with her gambler father.
She understands how difficult her choice is, but this is to protect her daughter's final bottom line. Maybe she won't be happy again in this life, but it's the right decision.
Deng Chunyan no longer has nostalgia and nostalgia, and just wants to end this absurd marriage as soon as possible and keep her daughter away from that terrible man. She believes that after a while, her daughter will also understand her mother's good intentions.
Faced with a broken marriage, Deng Chunyan no longer has any longing and expectations. She plans to continue farming in her hometown, doing odd jobs to make ends meet, and raising her daughter alone. Maybe the future will be very difficult, with limited income and very poor life, but she no longer has to endure an insensitive gambler.
Deng Chunyan reminded herself all the time that for Xinxin's good future, all these hardships were worth it. She is still young, and she wants to earn enough money for Xinxin's school through her own efforts, and then maybe she will also go out to work so that her daughter will no longer suffer.
Deng Chunyan didn't dare to expect too much love, she only hoped that Xinxin could grow up peacefully and stop having those nightmares. She believes that the difficult times will eventually pass, and the mother and daughter will work together to overcome the difficulties and usher in a new life.