In the autumn of 1953, Feng Feifei started her musical career in an ordinary Taiwanese family. The family of five is crammed into a small house of only a few dozen square meters, the father works hard in a dilapidated truck, and the mother is busy with needlework all day, and the time passes in a simple and warm picture.
This is not rich, but full of love, which gives Xiaofeng Feifei a tough and stubborn character.
She loves to sing, and often sings to the air on a small wooden stage behind the house. The adults in the neighborhood watched her focus and sometimes pulled out a few copper plates as encouragement.
However, the burden of life made it impossible for her parents to support her to pursue her illusory music dream, and only hoped that she would find a job as soon as possible to share the family's finances.
When he was 15 years old, Feng Feifei signed up for the county's singing competition, and in order to have a good "look" on stage, his mother turned out the nylon socks he wore on his wedding day and let her wear them.
The bright socks slid all the way down to the ankles on the skinny calves, making Feng Feifei, who was singing, lose his center of gravity for a while and almost fell off the stage. The laughter of the audience became the deepest pain in her memory.
Her mother reassured her that it was just an accident and told her to give up her dream of studying hard. The girl didn't complain, but the next day she turned into a singer who had no place to live.
She wants to use her singing voice to compose the gorgeous music of her dreams, no matter how difficult the road will be.
17-year-old Feng Feifei came to Taipei, a bustling big city that opens its arms to all strangers and hides countless ups and downs in life. She found a nondescript bar as a resident singer, and the guests from all over the world were drunk or awake, and did not appreciate her singing much carefully.
The meager salary was only enough to fill her stomach, and she sent someone to live temporarily at her aunt's house under the fence, eating other people's leftover vegetables.
The aunt was friendly at first, but when she saw that she was not famous for hanging out in bars all day, she became more and more irritated with the niece's existence. Once Feng Feifei rushed home hungry after work, and found that her aunt didn't leave her a single meal.
Only then did she realize that in this city, no success meant nothing. So she moved out of her aunt's house and rented a small attic on the outskirts of the city to survive.
During the day, she earns money from odd jobs and busking, and continues to sing in bars at night. Unfortunately, the singing voice didn't bring her much money, and her landlord kicked her out in a fit of rage when he saw that she was living an irregular life.
In this city, she was once again homeless.
When she finally gets a job at another bar, the doctor's conclusion makes her hopeless – you have lost hearing in your right ear and will probably never be able to sing again. However, she did not give up, and still gritted her teeth and sang stage.
Even if defeat strikes again, it will not be able to knock down a heart that pierces the night.
In 1977, 24-year-old Feng Feifei finally ushered in a turning point in his life. That year, Qiong Yao filmed the movie "I Am a Cloud", and among many singers, she was chosen to sing as the theme song and became the soundtrack of the film.
Feng Feifei seemed to have met a bosom friend, and interpreted an unforgettable picture with that unique magnetic voice.
This was the first stop on her diva road, and the album sold 150,000 copies upon its release. Feng Feifei has officially become a household name in Taiwan, and major media are vying to report her news and dynamics.
Compared with Teresa Teng's previous low-key in Taiwan, she quickly entered the public eye and was mentioned together with Teresa Teng's name. Between the two of them, an undeclared competition and a new round of "post-fighting" began.
To some extent, this is more like an example that the outside world has repeatedly compared. They were born in the same year and studied under the same master, and they were sisters on the road of music.
But Taiwanese people need idols, and news hotspots need hype, so the two were pushed to opposite sides. The success of "I Am a Cloud" undoubtedly made Feng Feifei feel sweet, but there was also unavoidable bitterness behind it.
Even though she won the Golden Voice Award for Most Popular Female Singer in 1978 and 1979, the public's impression of her has been deeply dyed with the color of "competing with Teresa Teng".
However, Feng Feifei himself and Teresa Teng have never made any discord public, perhaps ...... Under this impetuous and dazzling surface, they still cherish the authenticity and friendship of singing back then.
In 1981, 28-year-old Feng Feifei made an unexpected decision when her career was in full swing - she announced that she would temporarily leave the stage and teach her husband and children full-time.
The groom is a wealthy Hong Kong businessman, 14 years older than her, who has had a failed marriage and a son. This marriage was led by her friend Ling Feng in the music world, and on the day she went to church, countless fans who admired her were reluctant.
In fact, Zhao Hongqi is not the best of those suitors. He has an introverted personality and is not deep, but he has a deep affection for Feng Feifei. Sitting in the limousine, Feng Feifei's bright eyes were full of happy tears.
She thinks of her parents, who were crammed into a small room as a child, and now they can live a decent life; Thinking of the bitterness of working hard, now she will have her own small family.
Zhao Hongqi later became her most solid spiritual pillar. The couple worked hand in hand through the many ups and downs of life until death separated them. When the red face is getting old, will Feng Feifei occasionally miss the youth when she left the stage? Her choice makes the second half of her life more complete, because fame and fortune will eventually fade, and protecting her family is a woman's greatest mission.
After eight years of seclusion at home, Feng Feifei once again heard the call of the summoning song. A songwriter wrote "Applause" specifically for her style, and the moment she listened to the lyrics, she burst into tears.
Her husband Zhao Hongqi was also moved by this sincere melody, and since then he has given up business and become Feng Feifei's only audience under the stage.
In 2003, the couple jointly planned the "Feng Feifei 35th Anniversary Concert" held in Taipei. The 50-year-old singer chose the ivory stage decoration, and her enthusiastic and unrestrained performance touched the hearts of every fan present.
After the meeting, she admitted that her husband's understanding of her dream of being a singer was the biggest motivation for her to stand here. The audience resounded with thunderous applause, sweeping the bits and pieces of their 30 years together on the stage.
Six years later, Zhao Hongqi died of lung cancer. Feng Feifei was grief-stricken, she gently sang "I Wish You Happiness" in front of her husband's portrait, and tears fell one by one. "It's the most beautiful thrill of my life to meet you, and I will always protect you for the rest of my life......," she said.
The singing voice penetrates time and space, and it is Feng Feifei who finishes singing, and what he listens to is the bits and pieces of their lives. She also has the same bond with the fans in the audience, which is the most touching charm of her gorgeous singing.
In 2009, Feng Feifei felt throat discomfort during a performance and found that his vocal cords had calluses. She thought that it might be because she was old and hurt her throat from singing, so she explained to her fans that she needed to recuperate.
No one knew that she had been diagnosed with advanced lung cancer at that time. Not wanting his family and friends to worry about this, Feng Feifei was admitted to a hospital in a remote area alone. The white ceiling of the hospital room became the most familiar sight to her, accompanied only by the occasional lawyer and assistant.
In the past three years, she endured endless pain and silently counted the last days in her heart.
On January 3, 2012, Feng Feifei, who was dying, turned off her ventilator, and she didn't want to trouble others. When I left, I was reminded of the first time I walked on stage in 1963, and the cheers of the audience seemed to ring in my ears again.
She didn't leave a last word, because she believed that the ballad that she had completed in her life was the best farewell to this world.
In order to prevent her family from suffering the grief of the death during the holiday season, she asked her cronies to hide the news for a month before it was announced. Even in the last moments of her life, Feng Feifei did not forget to think about them, and in this way, she completed her last protection of her relatives and friends.
If there is one word to sum up Feng Feifei's life, it is "tenacity". The unique sadness in her singing comes from the girl's persistent pursuit of music.
We marvel at her and then give up her career after becoming famous, but we should admire her will to never give up her dreams in the face of all kinds of hardships.
Fans still perform her songs over and over again, which is a nod to the gorgeous and gorgeous singing of that era. But more importantly, Feng Feifei used his 59 years of life to completely interpret what it means to be truly guarded and precipitated.
We have lost her for more than ten years, and the splendor of her soul still hovers in the land of music.
This is Feng Feifei, a person who has always believed in sincerity. She's strong, she's soft; She was radiant, and she left low-key. She touched the world with her heart, and the world will never forget it.