Yesterday I attended a political event that was important for me and an important day for the whole family.
Facing him every day, my heart is full of contradictions. He cared for me in every way, hugged me and kissed me every day, and his actions bothered me immensely.
The old man's name is Wang, and because he is old and needs to be taken care of, his children have put the responsibility of taking care of him on me.
At first, I didn't have a good impression of Wang and I didn't have patience, but slowly, I found out that he was a lonely and helpless old man who needed care and companionship.
Every day, I cook for him, comb his hair and wash his face, and accompany him for a walk. He was always naughty like a child, always holding my hand and even kissing me on the face, which made me feel very uncomfortable.
One day, I saw him sitting in a chair, holding a photo of his youth in his hand, tears rolling in his eyes, I stepped forward and asked softly, "Grandpa Wang, what's wrong?" He looked up at me, smiled at the corners of his mouth, and said gently: "Little girl, look, this is a photo of me when I was young, and I was about the same age as you at that time."
He recounted his youthful past, when he was also a lively and cheerful teenager, and he fell in love with a girl named Lee.
In the end, they can only stay together silently and silently bless each other. Li was beautiful when he was young, but because of the era in which they lived, they could not be together, and he could not disobey his family.
I looked at Wang's eyes, which were full of nostalgia for Li and nostalgia for the bygone time.
I took him in my arms and gently patted him on the back and comforted him. From that moment on, I felt a sense of affection for the Wang family and understood his attitude towards me.
Now, the relationship between me and Wang is much closer, and although he is still depressed at times, I will chat with him and cheer him up.
Although I still can't let go of his actions, I have also learned to understand him and tolerate him.
For me, taking care of the Wang family has also become an attitude towards life and an understanding of family affection. Everyone has an old day, and warm care and companionship are important.
One day, I took Wang out for a walk, and we walked along the path, enjoying the warm sunshine. Suddenly, I heard someone shouting not far away, "Daddy, Daddy!" I looked up and saw a middle-aged man walking quickly, his face full of anxiety and worry.
This middle-aged man turned out to be the son of the Wang family, and his name was Wang Qiang. He lived in a foreign country and only occasionally came back to visit his father.
I tried my best to explain, but Wang Qiang didn't seem to believe it, he thought that I didn't care enough about my father. I felt very wronged that I had given so much and he thought I was worthless.
When I returned home, although Wang Qiang no longer accused me, his attitude was still very cold. My heart was full of grievances and incomprehension.
When I heard this, my heart was a little turbulent, and I couldn't help but start to wonder if I really didn't care enough about Wang.
I tried to communicate with Wang Qiang and hoped to explain it clearly. I elaborated on my care and attitude towards Wang, and at the same time expressed my own troubles and practical difficulties.
However, he made a new suggestion that I would be able to report on his father's situation every week, which made me feel even more uncomfortable.
During this time, I often felt that the atmosphere in my home was very tense. Wang Qiang's return has brought new breath to the family, but it has also added new contradictions.
I felt as if I had become the bomb disposal expert at home, and any word could trigger a new explosion.
I didn't know what role I was supposed to play in this family. I am both Wang's nanny and a member of the family.
Such contradictions and entanglements make me feel powerless. I couldn't face Wang's intimacy, nor could I face Wang Qiang's reproach, I felt like a trapped bird.
Maybe I'm expecting too much from the family, or maybe I'm not the right person to stay here. I felt myself overwhelmed by contradictions and confusion.
I thought that my relationship with Wang had become more harmonious, but one day I noticed something that caused my emotions to fluctuate.
The contradictions in my heart surged again, and I suddenly felt that there was no place to stand. All this made me fall into deep emotion and waver.
I felt both worried and helpless about this photo. The relationship between me and Wang gradually became hazy, and I don't know what he was thinking.
After that, I tried not to think about the photo, but when I faced Wang, the question always haunted my mind.
I don't know how I'm going to deal with this sudden psychological contradiction. It made my heart heavier, I started to talk less, and I laughed less and less.
However, even so, I chose to stay with Wang. I don't feel that the conflict between me and Wang is unsolvable, and perhaps, in this period of common life, I will find a solution.
I need to know what kind of feelings he has for me, and I need to know if his feelings for Lee still exist.
Although my heart was full of contradictions and confusion, I was reluctant to give up this relationship easily, because during this time, I deeply felt my affection for the Wang family.
This love may become a kind of motivation in our common life.
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Many times, Wong would suddenly become depressed and his temper would become irritable. One day, he suddenly lashed out at me and blamed me for not respecting him and not caring enough for him.
Wang's eyes widened, and his voice trembled and said, "What about you? What you see is only the surface, and no one will really understand my heart.
It turned out that Wang became emotionally unstable because he missed Lee. I understand his feelings, but I also feel that his attitude towards me has become very harsh.
After some communication, my relationship with Wang gradually eased. I also began to listen to him more patiently and spend more time with him, so that he no longer felt lonely.
Everyone has their own contradictions and confusions, and only honest communication can really shorten the distance between hearts.
I've started to take my relationship with Wang more seriously and no longer just do my job mechanically. I understand that this is not just a job, but also an emotional exchange.
This experience also made me see that family affection is not simply sweet, but also needs tolerance and understanding.
However, just when Wang and I were getting along, a phone call disrupted our peaceful lives.
Soon, a year passed. My care for Wang has improved his physical condition significantly, and his children are very grateful to me.
One day, I entered the house and saw Wang sitting on the sofa in a daze, holding a letter from the children in his hand. With tears streaming down his face, he sat me down and handed me the letter.
I was shocked that such an accusation was a great insult to my personality and work ethic.
I endured their accusations, but inside I was extremely sad and angry. I began to wonder if Wang's children had other purposes, if they had other plans.
This incident has left me in a deep dilemma, and I want to defend myself, but I don't know how to say it. I wanted to explain it to the family, but I was afraid that it would exacerbate the conflict.
All this made me re-examine the relationship between me and Wang, and it also made me think more about family and family.
Probably this is the doomed end.