At the beginning of his birth, Zhu Xun's unfortunate life was cast
In 1970, Zhu Xun was born in Beijing into a seemingly ordinary intellectual family. Her father is a reporter for Xinhua News Agency, and her mother is a people's teacher, and I believe most people will envy such a background.
However, the initial misfortune befell Zhu Xun at this time.
Zhu's mother was originally looking forward to giving birth to a son, and named it "Zhu Xundong". Who knew that what came out of the cocoon early in the morning was a beautiful baby girl who was white and tender. At that time, Zhu Mu's face was suddenly full of disappointment, as if the whole world was empty.
She no longer had the intention of calling her "girl", so she simply called her "Zhu Xun". As a result, Zhu Xun was regarded as a superfluous existence. Among the three children in the family, the second eldest still has a nickname, but she is only coldly called "third son".
What's even more embarrassing is that not long after Zhu Xun was born, her mother left the family and went to Japan to accompany her husband who worked there. Zhu Xun could only send people under the fence and was raised by his grandmother.
The pain of a child's lack of mother's love is unimaginable. Seeing that his peers have a warm home, only Zhu Xun himself lives a life without a sense of belonging at his grandmother's house.
This sowed deep wounds in her heart as a baby.
At the age of 14, in order to get his mother's attention, Zhu Xun mustered up the courage to go on the talent show, but his mother still had little interest in her daughter.
The years of hard work during the study abroad in Japan
The girl's sadness didn't have time to fade, and 17-year-old Zhu Xun embarked on a more difficult journey in life. In order to win her mother's approval, she went to Japan to study at a university alone, without hesitation or even thinking about her own tuition.
On the first night of landing in Tokyo, Zhu Xun called home to report his safety, but was moved to tears by his mother's sentence "What are you doing, our family has no money for you to study".
It turned out that she couldn't count on her family for a penny. Seeing the high tuition fee of 120,000 yuan on his head, Zhu Xun chose to stand up his thin shoulders and face the first trough of his life alone.
During the day, she diligently went to class, and after school, she kept running between various part-time jobs. At the beginning, Zhu Xun worked as a waiter in a restaurant, and his orders often attracted the eyes of customers.
Later, she went to odd jobs to wipe down the toilet excrement and dirt. It's seven or eight o'clock in the evening, and his peers may be doing homework or playing at home, but the exhausted Zhu Xun still has to continue to work in order to earn more tuition.
After a few months like this, no matter how tough a person is, he can't stand such a desperate work. One day, Zhu Xun suddenly fainted on the road and was sent to the hospital by his classmates.
Doctors diagnosed her with a hemangioma and had to undergo surgery immediately. I thought that my mother would appear in the most difficult moment, but to her disappointment, her mother never answered her phone.
On the day of the operation, Zhu Xun could only lie on the operating table alone.
Give up your homeland to survive and regain your dignity in a foreign land
Just when Zhu Xun thought that her life had fallen into a low point, a phone call from Xinhua News Agency from Beijing saved her from despair. It turned out that the mother was suffering from cataracts and needed her daughter to return to China to take care of her.
This is undoubtedly a difficult choice for Zhu Xun, after all, she finally had her own hosting career in Japan.
However, the faint "need" for her mother still affected Zhu Xun's heart, so she resolutely chose to give up her hosting career in Japanese rock and set off to return to China.
In 2001, Zhu Xun, who was only 27 years old, came to the unfamiliar metropolis of Beijing. Just adapting to local life has kept her busy scratching her ears and cheeks. Fortunately, CCTV was recruiting a new host at that time, and Zhu Xun, who had been cold-eyed for a long time, seized the opportunity and successfully passed the interview with his outstanding ability and joined the CCTV family.
However, the success of his career has not come, and for Zhu Xun, who is not familiar with domestic culture, the first problem he faced turned out to be that the host of CCTV must perform completely off script.
At first, Zhu Xun made frequent mistakes and made gaffes, and was even threatened to be dismissed by the leader. Only in the middle of the night and early in the morning, what everyone doesn't know is that many times the host Zhu Xun hid in the corner of the CCTV building and cried tears.
But miracles always favor those who work hard. Zhu Xun, who has been practicing his basic skills hard as always, finally adapted to the atmosphere of CCTV's program after a few months. Subsequently, star big-name programs such as "The Wall is Coming" and "Guinness Night" came to the door one after another, and Zhu Xun's experienced hosting experience finally shined on CCTV.
At this stop, she established her status in the domestic hosting circle.
Love comforts the trauma of life, and the husband's family makes up for the lack of warmth
When his career was in full swing, Zhu Xun's love was also blooming in the best years. When participating in the special program to fight SARS, she met CCTV reporter Wang Zhi.
Wang Zhi is calm and introverted, completely different from Zhu Xun's outgoing personality, and the two can be described as a match made in heaven.
Wang Zhi's way of pursuing Zhu Xun is very special, he never flaunts how much he has done, but has been with him silently for a long time. Even when Zhu Xun's father was diagnosed with cancer and needed treatment, Wang Zhi's first reaction was to contact acquaintances to help find the best hospital.
This delicate and nuanced love is exactly the maternal love that Zhu Xun lacked when he was a child.
The two entered the palace of marriage in 2004. After marriage, Wang Zhi took great care of Zhu Xun, and every time he came home from overtime, he had to prepare hot meals for his wife by himself, and there were always desserts she liked to eat on the table.
Such a considerate husband seems to be made in heaven to make up for Zhu Xun's emotional gap from childhood to adulthood.
Not only that, but his father-in-law and mother-in-law also treat Zhu Xun as their own. was hospitalized once, and her mother-in-law praised her in front of the camera as the best daughter-in-law in the world. After a long absence, Zhu Xun finally found the feeling of home.
At the beginning, she was the only one left in the cold ward in Japan, and now this warm family is trying to fill the gap in her heart.
The pain of fighting cancer was once again ignored by the mother
In 2007, Zhu Xun, who was proud of her career and family, received bad news - she was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. Of course, if the normal treatment is not afraid, but if the surgical process is not appropriate, the host Zhu Xun, who is extremely dependent on his voice, may lose his ability to work.
The most feared thing is the threat of death.
No matter how scared he was this time, Zhu Xun knew that he was not alone. Wang Zhi took her into the best oncology expert group, from examination and laboratory tests to hospitalization, without letting his wife suffer any grievances.
He was always in the ward, cheering her on, and telling jokes from time to time to make her happy. What brought Zhu Xun the most strength was his mother-in-law's escort. The loving old man seemed to care for her more than her own mother.
In the early morning of the day of the operation, Zhu Xun was pushed into the operating room under the blessed eyes of her mother-in-law and husband. After she woke up, her father-in-law, mother-in-law and Wang Zhi took turns to take care of her bedside, for fear that she would feel a little unwell.
On the contrary, Zhu's mother did not mention the news that her daughter was critically ill. In this way, Zhu Xun lost the second chance to get his mother's love and care. But even so, Zhu Xun's heart is no longer so empty, because this home full of sunshine and fragrance is healing the wounds in her heart little by little.
The eternal pain in my heart The endless longing for my mother's dear
Zhu Xun's life has never stopped ups and downs. My father-in-law soon died of illness, and my father also died of illness. While suffering intense emotional trauma, she still hopes that her mother will have even the slightest care.
It's just that every time the outstretched hand misses.
At her father's funeral, she begged her mother to move in with her. Unexpectedly, my mother refused without thinking, and I didn't even bother to make up a reason.
At that time, Zhu Xun's heart was like a knife, and he only felt that it would be difficult to experience the taste of maternal love in this life.
Later, in a media interview, the reporter asked about the relationship between mother and daughter. Zhu's mother said in general terms that the children are all fine and she has nothing to complain about.
When people reach middle age, Zhu Xun will still dream back to her girlhood in the early morning, looking out the window at the stars and crying bitterly. She would shout, "Mom, do you love me or not?" Then there were always silent tears falling quietly on the pillow until dawn struck.
Unfortunately, childhood thorns in the heart are stabbed, and when you become an adult, you comfort yourself
Zhu Xun's life trajectory can be described as ups and downs, and her unfortunate childhood has left indelible scars in her heart. However, when she stepped into society as an adult, her circumstances changed in a reversal.
As the pillar of CCTV, Zhu Xun's popularity is increasing day by day. Every episode of the program she hosts is warmly sought after by the audience, and her reputation as "CCTV First Sister" has also made her the idol of many girls.
The success of her career satisfied Zhu Xun's desire to be needed, which also made up for the trauma of her mother's indifference when she was a child.
At the same time as the double harvest of work, Zhu Xun also found a confidant. She married CCTV reporter Wang Zhi and sincerely felt the warmth and happiness of married life.
Zhu Xun will joke that she is married to the "Almighty King". Wang Zhi's thoughtful actions just made up for her missing part of fatherly love.
At this time, Zhu Xun finally understood that no matter how much sadness there was in the past, she lived in the present and had the right to be happy and loved. Although she still has a glimmer of expectation and fantasy about her mother, it is no longer her whole world.
Zhu Xun learned to love herself and cherish the people in front of her, because all this is what she really has.
When her sister or friends ask about her childhood, Zhu Xun still skips those unbearable pasts. She decided it was like an umbilical cord, connecting her to her past self.
Now that she's grown up, she doesn't have to worry about those scars anymore. The future is still long, Zhu Xun looks forward to tears washing away the mud on his heart and giving himself a more brilliant life.
Mother is indifferent and hard to let go, but warmth will come to water the heart
Although he has a successful career and a colorful life, Zhu Xun still has an emptiness that cannot be made up for by other things for his mother's knot. For countless days and nights, she would sit alone in the dark living room of her home after work, her eyes empty, lost in contemplation and reminiscence.
On the face, he is still the CCTV gold medal host praised by everyone, but Zhu Xun, who can take off his makeup, is just a middle-aged woman who desperately longs for maternal love. It's just that fate didn't let her get her wish, and Zhu Xun's heart was still tormented by the trauma of not being paid enough attention.
Luckily, her husband and siblings were always there when she was at her lowest. Wang Zhihui quietly hugged her and patted her on the back. My sister also calls over from time to time to chat and support my sister in her own way.
It is this hard-won family affection that watered the heart in Zhu Xun's heart.
Since his father's death, Zhu Xun's mother has rarely contacted her daughter, as if she has severed this relationship. Only on Zhu Xun's birthday, his mother would make a phone call, hang up after a few brief greetings.
In this regard, Zhu Xun only sighed. Because she has a new home, and that's what she really relies on.