Recently, there was a hot word that detonated the whole network.
Paraquat.
This used to be a common pesticide used to control weeds.
However, because of the extremely high mortality rate of people, it was regarded as a "suicide weapon" and "water of death".
10 milliliters of paraquat can kill people.
The most frightening thing is that the process of death is extremely painful.
The lungs gradually fibrosis until they are completely suffocated.
"Give you time to regret it, don't give you a chance to live."
However, even so, many people still use it to kill themselves.
A 13-year-old girl in Henan who drank paraquat is still deteriorating.
Last weekend, another female anchor drank similar pesticides and died in vain.
Tragedies are frequently staged, which makes the hearers heartache.
Although the fuse varies.
But they all reflect an increasingly serious problem: the spiritual dilemma of modern people.
Coincidentally, there is a new Korean drama.
With the most advanced shooting method, the spiritual world of the frustrated people is exposed.
"Human Disqualification"
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The premiere of this drama was a blockbuster, ranking among the top 10 premieres of JTBC Korean dramas in the past.
Mainly thanks to the film-level team.
The choreographer is a pair of "king bombs".
Director Heo Qinhao, whose representative works "August Photo Studio" and "Spring Death", is a regular visitor to the Qinglong, Dazhong and Baeksang Art Awards (Korea's three major film awards).
Screenwriter Jin Zhizhi once wrote "Suyuan" with 570,000 people scoring 9.3 points on Douban.
《Suyuan》
The heroine Quan Du Yan, presumably does not need to be introduced more.
Not only did she win all the film queen trophies in South Korea, but she also became the second Cannes film queen in Asia with "Miyang".
The last time I acted in a TV series was five years ago in "The Proud Wife".
She has interpreted many fragmented and tragic characters, all of whom are self-stalking on the edge of morality and desire.
This time is no exception, she plays a married woman who struggles with her heart.
After committing suicide many times and having an unhappy marriage, she launched an extramarital affair with a young man.
"Miyang"
The actor of this young man is Liu Junlie, who is 13 years younger than Quan Duyan.
That's right, it is the "Dog Huan" in "Please Answer 1988" that many people still have a hard time.
In recent years, he has also been active on the big screen.
The film has joined forces to create this drama.
Douban score 8.5, good reputation.
The title is taken from Osamu Dazai's novella of the same name.
Although a completely new story is told, it is the same in spiritual core.
Beautiful and sad.
As one comment put it:
"I dived to the bottom of the sea and watched a play."
Before the male and female protagonists met, they each lived an unsatisfactory life.
The male protagonist, Lee Kang-jae (played by Yoo Joon-yeol), is 27 years old.
His job is the now popular "rental boyfriend".
In addition to being the lover of a rich woman, he will also go to wedding and funeral occasions and make cameo appearances as relatives and friends of strangers.
Accustomed to the emotional relationship of clearly marked prices, he became cold and selfish in life.
It is almost the year of establishment, and I still look for my mother to ask for living expenses.
When he learned that his mother could not take it out for the time being, he was able to say that he wanted to increase interest without shame.
Get rid of a "white-eyed wolf" alive.
But if you look down, you will find that he is not bad in nature.
He actually has a warm, considerate heart.
On a rainy day, the old man who sees the waste carton will take the initiative to go up to help.
A friend owed himself a large sum of money and committed suicide.
He said he had no money and handed it over to the police station.
But he still took out all his money to take care of the aftermath for him.
The death of his friend also made him re-examine his life.
When peers are living a stable life of starting a family.
He gave up looking for a proper job and earned a despised amount of money.
He knew that life should not be like this, but he did not have the courage to make a change.
If Lee Kang-jae is still just "mourned".
Then the heroine Li Fuqing (played by Quan Duyan) can be described by the word "miserable".
Her father named her Rich Love because he wanted her to become a rich and loving person.
However, at the age of 40, she failed to do so.
She was originally an editor-in-chief at a publishing company, but her work was plagiarized by a well-known actor.
Not only that, but she was also beaten by the other side.
This was followed by a miscarriage, leaving a great deal of mental trauma.
After leaving his job in anger, he has been unemployed for a year.
Desperate, she turned to housekeeping.
Cleaning the rooms of wealthy people is billed on an hourly basis.
Such a great change had taken place that her husband was completely unaware of it.
Not only that, but also helped her mother-in-law to be embarrassed.
Ruined careers, loveless marriages, repressed lives...
Overwhelmed.
She has always had suicidal thoughts, but she often feels ashamed of her father.
Father was her only dependent.
He had lived his whole life by picking up and selling scrap and poured all his love into her.
But as he got older, he developed mild Alzheimer's disease.
Shame, loneliness, pain... All emotions condensed into a wave of anger.
Fu Qing constantly brushed bad comments on the actors who plagiarized his own works on the Internet and vented his anger.
As a result, it provoked more right and wrong -
She was sued as a bastard powder that she had stepped on.
The paper wrapped could not hold the fire, and this matter was soon known to the rich family.
This is undoubtedly worse for her already desperate life.
One is a confused 27-year-old single man.
One is a disheartened 40-year-old married woman.
At first glance, the two people live in two parallel lines.
But it just so happens that Kang Jae and Fu Qing's father live in the same building.
Thus they had several wonderful encounters by chance.
Once, while waiting for the bus, Kang Jae bumped into fu qing's most frustrated moment.
She couldn't bear to tell her father the fact that she did housekeeping, and said in a joking tone that she wanted to accompany her father to pick up the garbage.
But he was rebuked: "The child must be better off than his parents."
When Fu Qing heard this, he couldn't help but cry like a child:
"I came into this world, but I didn't get anything."
And this is also Kang Jae's voice.
On the last train of the night, the two had their first direct communication.
Kang Jae handed Fu Qing a handkerchief.
In order to divert her attention, he also took the initiative to talk to her.
When Kang Jae arrived at the station, he was suddenly pulled by Fu Qing's sleeve.
Out of a deep sense of trust, they exchanged contact information with each other.
Later, Kang Jae accidentally bumps into Fu Qing, who plans to jump off a building and commit suicide.
He pretended to talk to her easily and pulled her back from the brink of death.
Later, they met at a wedding and stayed in the smoking room together to avoid the crowds.
I overheard the conversation between my husband and colleague in the lounge next door.
In other people's chats, Fu Qing and Kang Zai are the objects of ridicule.
The same embarrassing situation of not being respected, and the life without a way out, bring two similar souls closer and closer.
Ambiguous feelings slowly developed between them.
There have even been two "bold" acts.
The first time was in a motel, and Fu Qing asked Kang Zai to come out to accompany him.
The two men lay on the same bed, slowly removing their depressive feelings and gaining a brief moment of relaxation.
But nothing happened.
The second time was in a tent at the top of the hill.
In the darkness, Fu Qing reached out and touched Kang Jae's young but melancholy face.
On that day, Fu Qing prepared to jump into the reservoir to commit suicide, but was rescued by the police.
When asked to inform her relatives and friends to take it back, she called Kang Jae.
They poured out their vulnerabilities and showed interest in each other's lives.
The distance between the two is getting closer and closer, and it is becoming more and more ambiguous.
How could such a strong magnetic field be generated between them?
It is probably a common sense of loneliness that breeds a desire to understand each other and warm each other.
As they communicate more, they find that there is a more intimate connection between them.
Kang Zai's dead friend was actually a netizen with rich feelings.
The two met on the suicide forum and once committed suicide together.
Kang Jae wondered what people had gone through to make suicidal thoughts.
He thought he would despair without money.
But after getting to know Fu Qing, he found that this was not the case.
It turns out that those who have read books, who have gone to work, who have families, and who have fathers, will also want to have a light life.
Kang Jae couldn't understand it for a moment, but he was able to empathize with Fu Qing every time he was sad.
Willing to accompany her to chat, sleep, eat, go up the mountain, and watch the sea.
And the rich feelings that have always been insecure also have a contradictory desire to rely on and protect Kang Zai.
How to understand the feelings between them?
Naturally, it is difficult to use the phrase "unrequited love".
And it's clear that the creators don't mean to use this as a gimmick to attract viewers.
This emotional line is laid out rather slowly and hotly.
The episode is nearing the end, and their relationship still wants to say goodbye, want to touch and withdraw the state of hand.
They are like a mirror relationship between them, and they can see their vulnerability and despair in each other.
Therefore, they are willing to give each other the only desire to express and dependence.
When no one else understands why "Rich Love keeps getting angry."
Only Kang Jae cares about "how she is always so sad".
In order to see myself clearly, I can read the other person more deeply.
To describe the look and feel of this drama in four words, it is "full of staying power".
The more you look back, the more immersed you are, and the aftertaste is endless.
Many people in the Douban comment area said that they cried when they watched it.
"Every sentence is a voice."
This is thanks to the realism of the play.
There is no disease-free groaning, and all sentimentality is based on a thick background of reality.
In our daily lives, there are also traces to follow.
Take class differences, for example.
When civilians are violated by the privileged class, they are powerless to resist and defend their rights.
The rich career is ruined by the female star, and the other party does not even have to pay any price.
After switching to housekeeping, when Fu Qing cleaned the room for the rich, he was shocked by the price of designer bags and shoes.
At the same time, my father worked hard every day to pick up waste paper next to the garbage dump to make money, and ordering takeout felt luxurious.
Even after death, the differences still exist.
The deformed development of the funeral industry, for many poor people, do not dare to die without money.
Like Kang Jae's friends, they can't rest in peace after death.
And Kang Zai just helped with the aftermath, and he almost spent his savings.
And cancer, which money and can't do anything about, has appeared in several families.
These real problems can crush a person's soul.
Fu Qing once sought self-destruction in depression and despair.
The "Suicide Forum" she joined embodies the most core real-life problems of the show.
It also reflects the spiritual dilemma of the universality of modern society.
The problem is not limited to South Korea.
Around world mental health day, domestic state media released a set of data.
"About 280 million people worldwide suffer from depression.
The detection rate of adolescent depression in China is 24.6%.
The current medical treatment rate for depression in China is less than 20%."
This means that too many people are suffering enormous mental pain in places we can't see.
The source of suffering varies from person to person.
It is often a hidden pain that is not known to outsiders.
The anchor who recently broadcast the pesticide on live broadcast once told the camera about his depression.
For a long time, she suffered from emotional problems and online violence.
The barrage during the live broadcast is likely to become the last straw that crushes the camel.
For Fu Qing, the father's illness, the heavy blow of the career, the incomprehension of the partner...
Together, they weave into an unbearable heaviness of life.
Took away her ability to feel happy.
However, the play did not indulge in pain after all.
It allows us to see the most precious thing in life – love.
Not only love, but also love for others and the world.
Once, Fu Qing inadvertently saved a suicidal person while working.
His life was tight, but he still took the initiative to pay for medical expenses.
As a result, she received a cake from the other family as a thank you gift.
When I got home, I told my father:
"I helped someone today, and I finally feel alive."
When bringing warmth to others, it also confirms the meaning of their own existence.
The father also gave the cake to Kang Jae.
Coincidentally, it was Kang Jae's birthday.
Just as lonely people have a heart-to-heart connection.
Warmth and love also infect each other among good people.
No matter how dim and lonely the sky is, there is still light that can penetrate all this.
This is the cruel and gentle human world.
I hope that the people who trek in the darkness will usher in the day when the clouds will see the sun.