01
Xu Zhi, who came home from work, just opened the door when he smelled a familiar stench.
She secretly shouted "not good" and went straight to the crib in the room. Although the eleven-month-old Erbao on the cot has fallen asleep, his eyelashes are still wet, and the tear marks on his face are clearly visible.
The most worrying thing is that the baby's clothes, clenched fists, and chubby face, and even the corners of the mouth, are stained with sticky, strong odor, yellow mud.
Xu Zhi broke open all the windows of the room before unscrewing the door of the study.
In the study, the crackling keyboard sound was deafening, and the curtains were closed tightly.
Through the light emitted by the computer, Xu Zhi saw that in front of the huge desk, Lu Dapeng, who was wearing headphones, was facing away from the door, and he was chasing and killing in the dark.
She leaned on the door to observe for a moment, and saw that Lu Dapeng didn't realize that he was back at all, so she simply closed the door, walked quickly to the electric gate, and pulled down the opening of the line in the study.
In less than a minute, Lu Dapeng walked out with a surprised look. Seeing the lights in the living room, I quickly understood what was going on.
However, he blurted out and asked: "What nerves are there?" ”
Xu Zhi: "Go see your son yourself." ”
Lu Dapeng frowned and asked, "What's wrong with him?" His tone was full of impatience.
Xu Zhi looked at his uncaring look, and suddenly his anger rushed: "What's wrong?" He ate all the! ”
Fierce verbal swords were sparked by this.
"Can I be blamed for this? He was clean when I put him up. ”
"How long ago did you put him in bed?" How long he cried, do you know? Are you worthy of being a father just like that? What if he crawls out of bed and falls and hurts himself? ”
"You didn't know me for the first time, I said earlier, I am neither worthy of being a father nor a husband, I only ask you to let me live, why can't you do well?"
02
As soon as Lu Dapeng's words fell, Er Bao's loud cry came from the room.
Her son's cry was like a sharp long thorn, which instantly punctured Xu Zhi, who was as inflated as a balloon, so that she could no longer be distracted.
She just wanted to clean up the baby first.
Taking advantage of the gap when she entered the room, Lu Dapeng opened the electric gate at the speed of lightning and re-entered the study.
Xu Zhi picked up Erbao, who was crying non-stop, skillfully untied the diapers that had been scattered, took off his clothes for him, and carefully wiped off the yellow on his skin with a wet wipe, before wrapping him in a towel and picking him up to make milk powder.
When she poured boiling water into the bottle, her son's soft lips kept coming to her face, and he sucked hard as long as he caught her. Sucking twice saw that it didn't taste right, and then ripped his throat and snorted.
The corners of Xu Zhi's eyes were sour, and his heart was full of sorrow.
The night before, something happened at the nanny's aunt's house to go back and deal with it, and she had to take four days off.
As the manager of the largest jewelry store in the city, Xu Zhi lacked skills, so he had to send his eldest daughter to his in-laws' house more than 20 kilometers away overnight, and said good things so that the child's father, Lu Dapeng, would bring two treasures at home for a few days.
Unexpectedly, this was only the next day, and this situation happened.
What makes her feel sad is that the child has such an irresponsible father, but he can't do anything about it.
Moreover, it seems that this family has to be personally managed by her to run on a normal track. Lu Dapeng, who is the pillow person, still does not appreciate it, and calls for divorce at every turn.
Xu Zhi's reluctance to divorce is not because he is worried that he will not be able to find a partner in the future, but because he pities the two children.
Then, her feelings for Lu Dapeng were the same as when she first met him at the age of twenty-four. I feel that although he is a little overactive and difficult to control, his essence is not bad, his appearance is also handsome, and he plays well with himself.
She still felt that if they were given a little more time, they would definitely be able to go back to the beginning.
03
The day before the nanny returned, it was Uncle Lu Dapeng's 70th birthday.
Before entering the table, many relatives stayed in the hotel lobby, teasing the children and chatting about home. While speaking, I don't know who brought the topic to Xu Zhi's family.
An elder patted Lu Dapeng, who was sitting on the sofa looking at his mobile phone, on the shoulder and said: "As far as your boy's life is good, he married a good wife, not only looks beautiful, but also gave birth to a son and a daughter for you, but also saved your life twice." You can't fail her in this life. ”
Someone next to him quickly chimed in: "Exactly." Even if you have any disagreements and quarrels in your later life, you must restrain yourself and let her score three! ”
Xu Zhi bypassed Erbao's shoulder and quietly paid attention to Lu Dapeng's reaction.
At first, Lu Dapeng could still put away his mobile phone with a humble expression and nodded in agreement.
But when more people said later, especially when some people talked about the accident three years ago, describing how Xu Zhi used the weak shoulders of a woman to carry the ship of fate of their small family and take him back from the hands of death, thus saving their family, Lu Dapeng's eyebrows crouched into a three-dimensional Sichuan character at a speed visible to the naked eye.
The uncle and uncle sitting next to Lu Dapeng were unaware of his changes, and still said to themselves: "You don't have any skills, and you don't have a serious profession, it's hard to say, it's not a serious job, you change to another woman, maybe you have run away a long time ago!" ”
"The grace of dripping water should be rewarded by a fountain, and the most important thing to be a person is conscience. She saved your life today, and you will have to pay it back tenfold a hundred times the day he does..."
No one expected that when Lu Dapeng heard this, he suddenly looked up at Xu Zhi.
Xu Zhi's gaze dodged and collided with him.
In the next second, Lu Dapeng's face was livid, meeting Xu Zhi's gaze, standing up with a "whoosh", and flying into the banquet hall.
04
When I came home from dinner at my uncle's house, it was not yet dark. Lu Dapeng sent Xu Zhi to the underground parking lot and prepared to go out as usual.
Xu Zhi held the child silently and stopped at the front of the car.
After a few seconds of stalemate, she heard that the car came in again at the entrance, and she saw Lu Dapeng turn off the lights, thinking that he was going to turn off the fire and go home with him, and took the lead to walk towards the elevator room.
Who knows, before she took a few steps, Lu Dapeng's car drove out a distance at a lightning speed.
When she reacted and turned around, she saw a black smoke remaining in the air, as if telling his determination.
Xu Zhi was a little angry, but he had to helplessly carry the child home.
Lu Dapeng didn't return until after one o'clock in the morning.
Moreover, when she got home, she didn't care that she and the baby had slept down, closed the door and cabinet, and used the cup after drinking water, as if she was deliberately pulling hatred with anyone.
Xu Zhi was woken up and simply turned on the light and sat up.
After Lu Dapeng washed up and returned to the room, Xu Zhi was already sitting on the leather sofa in the room in high spirits: "You are not afraid to wake up your son?" Never consider that I have to go to work tomorrow morning? ”
Lu Dapeng's eyelids did not lift: "Any choice in this world comes at a price. ”
Xu Zhi bit his lower lip and looked directly at him and asked, "You want to say that as long as I don't agree to divorce, I will stop thinking about peace, right?" Have you thought about the two children and what should they do? ”
"It seems to me that they would be sadder when they grew up in a family without feelings."
Tears of humiliation swirled in Xu Zhi's eyes, if it weren't for his residual feelings for him, if he didn't want his children to live in a single-parent family, who would be willing to violate himself like this, and be aggrieved and begged for everything?
"I already knew that you were so ruthless and unrighteous, it was better to listen to them three years ago and let you die."
Because of the large mood swings, her nasal voice is a little heavy, and the pause in pronunciation is also a little strange.
But before she finished speaking, she was rudely interrupted by Lu Dapeng: "As long as you have feelings and righteousness, you are a virtuous wife unparalleled in the world, the most conscientious woman in all of China, my reborn parents, and the immortals who have fallen into the mortal world, is that enough?" ”
05
Xu Zhi looked at Lu Dapeng, who was on the verge of losing control, and didn't know how to answer.
In the next second, Lu Dapeng flicked the shirt on his hand, sat on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands, and muttered: "What they said is right, you are as kind to me as a mountain, and I can't even be a cow and a horse in my life." But I really have no feelings for you, I don't want anything, just ask you to let me go free, okay? ”
Xu Zhi couldn't see him like this. With a soft heart, he stood up and approached him, trying to take his head into his arms like he had done before when he had not had a divorce.
But before Lu Dapeng could get closer, he quickly bounced away, picked up the shirt on the ground and left.
Xu Zhi looked at the hand that stayed in the air, listening to the sound of the door closing outside, his chest suddenly began to spasm like a large lump collapsed, and the tears finally broke the embankment.
In the rain of tears, she seemed to return to the autumn evening when she first met Lu Dapeng.
At that time, she was still working as a cashier in a supermarket. When she came home from work and passed through a dark alley, she noticed a person sitting under a small tree on the side of the road.
Through the glimmer of her phone, she noticed that the man seemed to be bleeding from his arms and legs. Frightened, she immediately made 120 calls.
The injured person was Lu Dapeng, which was also the first of the "two helps" that people said.
Later, Lu Dapeng heard about her out of nowhere and launched a fierce pursuit of her.
Xu Zhi is an honest rural girl, at first she thought that Lu Dapeng was the kind of street slipper who specialized in fighting, and did not want to deal with him.
Later, Lu Dapeng repeatedly explained that he was hit by a motorcycle that night, and the driver who caused the accident ran away unscrupulously, so that Xu Zhi was willing to contact him.
06
It was not until he got married and gave birth to his daughter that Xu Zhi knew that although Lu Dapeng was not a street boy, he did not do engineering as he said, but lived by letting out accounts.
The main area of activity on weekdays is a few fixed tea houses.
Lu Dapeng has a wide way to make money, and in the second year of marriage, the money handed over to Xu Zhi every month is almost 10,000 yuan. Before the age of thirty, the garage is full, and the call for friends is unsatisfactory.
However, new troubles followed: rumors about him and the women outside were like waves in the breeze, wave after wave.
Day after day, the two quarrels and quarrels, and their relationship deteriorates.
By the time Lu Dapeng had an accident three years ago, he and Xu Zhi had actually clamored for separation many times. It was Xu Zhi who didn't want to, and his parents didn't allow it, so he dragged it out.
On the night of the accident, the gas leaked and caught fire in the teahouse where Lu Dapeng was located, and several of them fainted due to inhaling too much smoke, and finally burned and seriously injured.
As soon as Xu Zhi arrived at the hospital, he received a critical illness notice.
The doctor said that Lu Dapeng's burns were large and his condition was extremely bad, so that the family should be mentally prepared. Xu Zhi's legs softened on the spot.
After that, in less than ten days, Xu Zhi's savings and in-laws' pension money bottomed out. She had to take the transfer records in Lu Dapeng's mobile phone and ask for money one by one.
But the tree fell and scattered, and those people did not say that it was not yet due, but they pushed that they had no money in hand, and they clearly wanted to pay the bill.
Desperate, Xu Zhi had to lick his face to borrow from relatives and in-laws, and also asked his boss to advance three months' salary.
In the days when she sold her face everywhere to borrow money, but Lu Dapeng was lying unconscious in the hospital, her own father and in-laws said that life and death have their own destiny, and Lu Dapeng had a lot of money before the accident, and would rather put it in the hands of others than stay at home, this is his fate.
But all that flashed in Xu Zhi's mind was the affection when the two were together, and she couldn't abandon him, gritted her teeth and sold Lu Dapeng's car, and stood up for a few more days.
07
Later, Lu Dapeng's life was saved, but his neck and front arms were covered with striking scars, and she tried to borrow money for him to do skin grafting and scar washing.
When he finally recovered, Lu Dapeng had almost no scars on his face, arms and neck.
Finding out that she was pregnant with Erbao, Xu Zhi happily told Lu Dapeng the good news. Lu Dapeng originally did not agree to ask for it, but later he couldn't stop Xu Zhi from moving in his in-laws as a lobbyist, so he reluctantly agreed.
Today, three years later, Lu Dapeng has already recovered part of the money he lent out, the teahouse owner's compensation has also come by a small half, and the family's foreign debts have basically been paid off.
He also bought a used car.
Because Xu Zhi was unwilling to resign, he specially hired a nanny to take the child specially.
It's just that what Xu Zhi never expected was that Lu Dapeng's attitude to life had completely changed since he returned from walking around the ghost gate.
Not only did her relatives and friends lament her difficulty and rare affection, she behaved particularly perfunctory, but also the whole child was full of food and drink.
It seems that the family's personal contacts, his daughter's study and Erbao's eating, drinking, and Lasa have nothing to do with him. Once Xu Zhi complained, he shouted for a divorce.
Xu Zhi was exhausted, but he had to endure it again and again when he was burned by that fire.
Nanny asked for leave Lu Dapeng allowed Ren Erbao to make a mess on his body, but he played games until he forgot about me, and he tried his best to oppose himself and never forget to mention divorce, which deeply stung Xu Zhi's heart.
She suddenly felt that such a self was too humble and too pitiful.
Whether it is to her home or to Lu Dapeng, she is always giving everything she has, and she has a clear conscience.
With her preciousness, she fully deserves a better man and a better life.
08
After Lu Dapeng slammed the door and left a room of silence, Xu Zhi finally opened his mind and understood that once a man changes his heart, he does not need to save it and cannot save it.
Her relationship with Lu Dapeng did not change because she saved him again and gave birth to a son for him.
After wiping away her tears, she took out her phone and began to rummage through the template for the divorce agreement.
Lu Dapeng took the agreement, only glanced at the title, then directly turned to the end and signed his name.
There are some things he may not tell Xu Zhi to death, he is actually not really ignorant, does not understand that Xu Zhi is good to him and has kindness to him.
In turn, it was precisely this relationship between "grace" and "owed" that made him feel guilty and deeply burdened.
The grace of dripping water is rewarded with a spring, and rightly so.
But when people treat this grace as a never-ending statement, it becomes hypocrisy and a burden. The guilt in Lu Dapeng's heart turned into an endless feeling of torture, prompting him to just want to speed up his escape.
After finally escaping from the catastrophe, he was still worried after being attacked by the unexpected surprise that came before tomorrow, and he just wanted to live every day with peace of mind and comfort.
Therefore, in his opinion, he is not ungrateful at all to cross the river and tear down bridges, he just wants to rebuild a relatively relaxed and comfortable environment for the limited rest of his life.
—End—