Inscription: Shi Yiheng Source: Zhang Xianyin
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It has been 37 years since I retired from the army. There were 24 soldiers in the village. However, at the comrades' meeting in August this year, I saw that seven of our comrades-in-arms had left this world. , Four people died of illness, but the way the other three died was heartbreaking!
Everyone's life is naked, no matter how high or low, it is just a form of life. From the start to the end, it's like going around in a circle. Some make larger pictures, others make smaller pictures. The process of life can be complex or simple, but only within a radius.
The first comrade-in-arms, Liu Chengjun, hanged himself.
Liu Chengjun is from a city near me. After he was discharged from the army, I became closer to him. Later, when we went to work in the city, we had less contact. But he often visited my parents and sometimes brought gifts. , sometimes helpful. I only see him occasionally during the holidays.
But in early September 2022, I heard the news that my father had hanged himself.
When I listened to my father, my heart was about to break. I thought I had misheard, but it turned out to be true. Instantly, I cried.
I really don't understand why Liu Chengjun, who is usually very enthusiastic and optimistic, chose to commit suicide in such a bizarre way.
Later I learned the truth about his departure from his father.
Since Liu Chengjun and my father visited me in March 2021, he has said that he feels a little tired and can't enjoy anything. At that time, my father thought, I must work hard to give him a break. If you still have no symptoms, go to the hospital for a check-up if you feel better.
When I went home on May Day in 2022, I went to see Liu Chengjun. Then I realized it didn't look good. I thought I had an argument with his family, so I didn't ask more.
Before leaving, he drank a lot of alcohol and suddenly said to me: "Good brother, I don't know how long our friendship will last?" If I'm gone, go home and go to the grave." "Come up and meet me!"
I patted him on the shoulder and said to him, "Don't take it for granted, we'll always be friends!" ”
But at the time I didn't understand what he meant. Now that I think about it, I really regret it. I blame myself for not paying enough attention. If I knew he was very sick, I would have taken him to the hospital for treatment, but he would rather hide it from me.
At the beginning of July 2022, he could no longer bear the pain and came to the city hospital for treatment. But after an examination, he was diagnosed with stomach cancer.
Perhaps because Liu Chengjun can't bear the torment of illness, or he is worried about spending a lot of money to bring trouble to his wife and children. In short, for whatever reason, two months after his diagnosis, he chose to hang himself. Life.
Now, every time I think of him, every time I see a photo with the troops, my heart aches.
The second comrade-in-arms, named Cheng Xiaohui, committed suicide by drinking pesticides.
In the family of comrades-in-arms that year, Cheng Xiaohui was the youngest. If he were still alive, he would be 58 years old this year.
Of all the families of comrades, I know him best. He went to school a year later than me. We went to elementary school and junior high school.
After retiring from the army, he inherited his father's lifestyle and became a fisherman on the canal.
One year I went to visit him. He and his wife were fishing in the river, and the two rowed a small boat to fish.
His wife put the silk mesh into the river and began rowing, while Cheng Xiaohui beat the gong and drum in his hand. Ten minutes later, they began to pull the net. Seeing the secret cooperation between the couple, I am very happy in my heart. Envious.
I watched them silently on the beach until they finished a step, and then I started calling out to them loudly.
That day we had lunch at Cheng Xiaohui's house by the river. I remember lunch that day, carp pumpkin boiled with local chicken. At parting, despite my repeated refusals, he forcibly gave me a bag of carp.
I thought the couple's life would last a lifetime, but in the winter of 2007, I learned that his legs had been broken for illegally dumping fish in the river.
After hearing the news, I and two other families of comrades-in-arms went to visit him. At that time, he was in a very bad state. We have no choice. After we gave him the money given to us by our comrades' family, we tried to comfort him. He hopes that he can face a difficult life.
Later, I heard that after his leg was broken, his wife served him for a long time and was often called "trash". Sometimes when his wife is in a bad mood, he constantly slaps her. The fish will bring it to the boat, deliberately washing it in the sun.
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Later, I received a call from my comrade-in-arms and learned that Cheng Xiaohui committed suicide by drinking pesticides. He died in heartbreaking fashion before the age of fifty.
No one knows what Cheng Xiaohui thought when he made this decision. Comrades-in-arms said that Cheng Xiaohui's place of death was full of cigarette butts. As you can imagine, he experienced unimaginable pain and struggle before taking the pesticide...
But after experiencing life and death, you will understand the cruelty and truth of life. Here, I don't want to comment on Cheng Xiaohui's wife, because everyone has their own difficulties. I'm just a bystander. How do I know what the suspect really means? Wool fabric.
The third comrade-in-arms, named Zhu Wenhai, died of self-immolation. After Zhu Wenhai was discharged from the army, he returned directly to his hometown. His town is more than ten miles from my home. Back in the village, he led a militia company that was in charge of family planning for several years. Later, on the recommendation of the city, he became the secretary of the municipal party committee. He was only 28 years old.
When he comes into town for meetings, he sits in my office. We don't mind talking about anything. Small talk is a blessing. Sometimes he also comes for lunch, hehe.
Comrades-in-arms and Zhu Wenhai are peace-loving people. I've been to his house and feel that he still retains the appearance of when he was a soldier. The fabric folds well, and her front and back yard are neat. I found that their lifestyle is almost the same as that of the villagers.
Zhu Wenhai's IQ and EQ are very high. Without two brushes, he could not stay in the position of secretary of the municipal party committee for long.
He enjoys a high reputation in the hearts of the people. Even if there is a dispute between neighbors, he will be asked to help mediate.
I remember one year, a woman in the village committed suicide in anger after an argument with her husband. Hundreds of people from his family of origin came to the city to make trouble. If not handled properly, people can die. Later, it was Zhu Wenhai who used his own skills to calm the matter.
I think that if my comrade-in-arms and Zhu Wenhai had not been born in the countryside, but in the city, he would have been a great businessman or company executive.
Later, he was transferred to his hometown and worked in the city. Whenever he went out of town on a business trip, he would call me and sit together. I realized we all had the same interests.
Time flies so fast, and in the blink of an eye we are all in our fifties. At the age of 54, comrade-in-arms and Zhu Wenhai resigned from the post of secretary of the municipal party committee and worked as a farmer at home. Later, the work did not work as he wanted, so he transferred the job to someone else and began to retire early.
When I went back to my hometown in the early summer of this year and drank with my comrade-in-arms and Zhu Wenhai, he said that he had two tumors on his back. He went to the hospital in town but found nothing. They are neither painful nor itchy.
But unexpectedly, when she went to the hospital for examination in July, she was diagnosed with bone cancer, and her son took her to Nanjing for treatment.
Disasters do not happen alone. While her husband was taking care of her in Nanjing, she was beaten by workers riding scooters when she went out to buy groceries. As a result, he suffered three fractures on his body. His son is also busy. In order to take care of him, he had to take a leave of absence.
Zhu Wenhai knows very well that with a disease like his, there is little hope of recovery. In the long run, it will not only affect the child's work and normal life, but also make the child suffer from it. Eventually, he will lose his life and money.
On the ninth day of his comrade-in-arms and Zhu Wenhai's hospitalization, he solemnly told his son: I will be strong all my life and will not allow myself to live without such "dignity". He asked for immediate discharge from the hospital and return to his home country for his final days. Time.
The son could not resist and agreed to his request. Unexpectedly, when he returned home in the middle of the night on the fourth day, Zhu Wenhai took advantage of his wife's sound sleep, lay on a torn sheet, walked around the yard, and poured a barrel of gasoline. To him. I turned on the light on my hand...
When the surrounding neighbors found a fire in the sky, they rushed to extinguish it, but fortunately, Uncle Zhu Wenhai's body was rescued from the fire.
Unexpectedly, he regained his self-esteem and gained the last self-control in his life.
When I remembered the brave and frustrated attitude of my comrades-in-arms and Zhu Wenhai when they left the world, my heart suddenly felt very sad!
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A person's destiny in this life always depends on his will. Many regret having to accept God's plan. Now, my only prayer is: Those who left our families prematurely, may you be free, happy, and safe in the rest of the world.
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