Huang Ziling sent a 20,000-word long article to restore the cutting of his wrists and breaking the news, and after being rescued, he asked his wife: Why did you save me?

Taiwanese artist Huang Ziling released the "nuclear bomb-level" revelation on June 19, and again released a horror long response of more than 20,000 words on July 19.

The melon eating big V briefly summarized the content of 20,000 words:

Huang Ziling said that this article alone took 25 hours and one month to conceive, but many words and contents are repetitive, and only important points are discussed below. Huang Ziling responded to why he released three videos on June 19, saying that the most direct thought at that time was "Anyway, after the afternoon, I am gone, I don't care about anything, I don't want any face, no more!" Make an explanation and complain about my soul to let go, right? ”

Huang Ziling recalled that two days before he cut his wrists, he accidentally watched a documentary by Japanese author Osamu Dazai, and he was making radical actions.

Huang Ziling tried to commit suicide by cutting his wrists after breaking the news on June 19, his wife Meng Gengru suddenly hit the wooden door hard, and after a while he woke up from the wound and fell into a coma shortly after, only feeling that the ambulance was running bumpy, and at night although he woke up but did not regain the ability to speak, the first thing he said to his wife was to cry and say to his wife, "Why save me?" "Huang Ziling said to his wife that he didn't want anything, let the employees be dismissed, sell things, and quit the entertainment industry, but his wife just listened and did not execute.

Meng Gengru's wife did not see the film on the day of the incident, it may be that the two had a spiritual rhino, she hurriedly left the meeting and rushed to the home to find Huang Ziling, broke the door with brute force, and saved Huang Ziling's life.

The day after being rescued, Huang Ziling took the water that his wife filled from the hospital, drank two sips of water, and said, "The water is delicious." ”

Huang Ziling's treatment process was not good, there were many unknown pipelines inserted in his body, his whole body was weak and unable to move, and he once had to help urinate, and the shame and baggage of the artist became unimportant, and he wanted to thank the medical staff and relatives and friends who helped accompany him. During the entire treatment process, Huang Ziling could not contact people other than his wife and medical staff, and remembered that his 1-year-old daughter was full of debts and could not cry. After being discharged from the hospital, he locked himself in the bedroom, once connected with his master Zhang Xiaoyan and others by phone, cried for 2 hours, simply shaved his head to reflect at home, and was worried about spreading negative energy to his daughter, only dared to meet his daughter for ten minutes every day, and "cried in seconds" every day as long as he recalled it.

Master Zhang Xiaoyan described Huang Ziling: "The body of the 50s, the emotions of the 50s." ”

Huang Ziling said that he dared to look at his mobile phone on the 8th day of rescue, spoke to his best friends on the 9th day, talked to his wife on the 10th day, did not have frequent urination and difficulty in urinating on the 12th day (or abnormalities caused by catheters and diapers), dared to take pictures of his daughter 10 days later, and dared to let the assistant take screenshots of the private messages of netizens to him after 17 days.

Huang Ziling believes that the past one is version 1.0, he was rescued and became version 2.0, he will move forward to version 3.0, apologize again in the text, and understand that his sins are serious, it is impossible to be forgiven by all people, and he wants to be a better person in the future.

Huang Ziling's article of more than 20,000 words is mainly to let the outside world understand his mood changes, and may also be reducing his psychological burden, but the police opened a case for investigation as early as July 12, charged with three crimes of sexual harassment, drug use, and molesting minors.