More and more young people are "crazy" - abandoning silence and straightforwardness, young people are using this temporary escape to vent and reflect, press the pause button for the fast-paced life, and also recharge themselves.
Not long ago, People published a call for calls for crazy moments, which received an enthusiastic response from readers. Among them, the most crazy people are going on a "special forces" trip, many people choose Biansai, leaving footprints in Mohe, Lhasa, Yinchuan and Ordos, the highest proportion to Xinjiang, in those photos from Dunhuang, Bayinbrook, Duku Highway, under the Tianshan Mountain, they always leave a free back, turn around and walk into the great scenery.
We also received a lot of pictures of the sun and the sky, sunrise on the top of the mountain, sunset on the sea, orange, gold, pink, light and dark, but eventually dawn again. People are also beginning to go abroad and return to the world, and readers @belly hitched a ride on the first go-around flight to Boracay in the Philippines, experiencing a sea parachute and underwater diving; Reader @Rochelle went further, going to Kenya and seeing the Great Migration of African animals.
Another option for "going crazy" is to go to a concert. Many readers have appeared in the performance scene of Jay Chou, Mayday, Universal Youth Hostel, Pain Yang, Blackpink and even the new girl group NewJeans, I don't know if you who are reading this push together at this time have also shared the same lyrics in the chorus? Cultural life is being restored, and the bonds between people are once again closer. When people go to meet idols, it is a reunion of old friends, and it is also to find the self that was once full of expectation and excitement.
There are also people who go crazy in their daily lives. For example, refusing the unreasonable demands of his family, openly arranging leaders who work unfairly, picking up a broom to go to the line late at night who is still drinking and punching, practicing crawling in the laboratory... We also received more than one photo of lying or lying on the ground – on the steps, on the beach, on the grass, looking weird but pleasant.
In this discussion of the meaning of "madness", "self" and "courage" are the two words that are most frequently mentioned, and perhaps only at the moment of making a crazy move can we truly understand that the meaning of life is not to follow the rules. Of course, some people mention regret and cost, and it is in these twists and turns of life that we probe ourselves step by step.
As reader @Xiaoshui concluded, "We gradually realize our insignificance and powerlessness in the process of going crazy, but my dear friend, this is life."
Wen | Li Yuning
Editor|Huai Yang
"It's a sight I've never seen before."
For the way to go crazy, many people choose to go out and release themselves in the open world. Of course, as a broad "adventure", there are also people who choose to start a new way of life and rejoice in every small or huge gain.
@Leyi 19 years old in Beijing
At the end of the semester, despite DDL with many papers, I bought a ticket for the high-speed train from Beijing to Ulanqab and embarked on the journey alone. In the Huanghuagou scenic area, small trains, cable cars, and all kinds of transportation are abandoned, and a person hikes on an almost unmanned boardwalk.
I walked more than ten kilometers in total, and when I lay on the slopes of the steppe, I felt that everything was worth it; Speeding down the prairie road at eight o'clock in the evening, blowing the evening breeze and watching the increasingly beautiful sunset, I want to make that road endless.
@为露娜祈福的高 27 years old in Beijing
On the last day of the age of 26, he drove all the way north, aimlessly, and as a result, he drove aimlessly, and a large area of water, grass, sand, and horses and people on horseback began to appear ahead. I rode my horse too. After getting on the horse, I asked the horse raising brother where I was. "Welcome to Hebei!" With a word from my eldest brother, I found out that I had actually left Beijing.
It was my first time riding a horse in a real sense.
@貘貘子 28 years old in Beijing
Three months use weekends to fly to 8 cities to see spring, and what is missed in three years will rush back at once.
@Lindy 30 years old Shenzhen
I was driving with two girls in Iceland, carrying jet lag, and the next day I learned that it was the edge of the cliff. In the Arctic Circle of Russia, I encountered a polar night ice storm with the same sister, found that life and death only took a moment, and after being rescued, I was grateful for everything, and at the same time drank the Arctic Ocean in the Arctic Ocean.
@小曾 19 years old Foshan
Exam month, at ten o'clock in the evening, someone suddenly mentioned a mouthful, wanted to eat a late-night snack, and someone followed a mouthful, the school's late-night snack is not delicious, or go out. So, seven people, seven bicycles, on a road that is basically empty, riding and nagging loudly, blowing the wind and going crazy, cursing school exams, and talking nonsense about riding to Lhasa. After riding for thirty or forty minutes, I finally saw the first shop, ate a barbecue, drank a drink, and picked a road that I had not traveled to ride back.
That night, after going crazy, there was always a feeling that lingered in my heart. Midnight whistle, the love that Haruki Murakami described in a book, so that night, I plucked up the courage to confess to the girl I had liked for a long time. Perhaps, many times, we forget that we have a lot of freedom, always stuck in one place and crazy, but when we do go out, everything is so good.
@芝麻糊 26 years old Guangzhou
After resigning, in winter, in order to see the starry sky in the desert, a person ran from Guangzhou to Dunhuang, and in the night of minus ten degrees, he looked at the starry sky in Mingsha Mountain, there was no one around, the cold wind was bleak, the world was only cold and quiet, and the stars on the crescent spring of Mingsha Mountain. But I didn't expect that the gate of the scenic area was also closed, and finally I climbed out of the scenic area through the gate. Walking on the road in the early hours of the morning, there is no one around, the snow rustles under the feet, lonely and healing.
@可爱张张 20 years old Qingdao
In mid-May, the weather was not yet very hot, and my roommate proposed to go to the beach to play, a little hesitant, but I thought about it, how many times can I look at the sea without worry, put on a beautiful skirt and put on delicate makeup, and walk with friends? In this way, even in the cold weather of spring, we clever we secretly put autumn pants in our skirts. In fact, this dress is the most revealing piece of clothing for me, and I didn't even have the courage to try it on when I bought it. But when I put it on, my roommates praised it as very beautiful, and took beautiful photos of me, and I was very impressed by the friendship between girls. I decided that I would not take off my armpit hair in a skirt for the whole summer and beyond!
@lithium 19 years old in Beijing
Senior sister is about to graduate, and before the graduation ceremony, she and the person I like go to the bar for the first time, and I am unconscious. I slept until noon the next day, thinking that I would miss the graduation ceremony, but the ceremony was postponed to the afternoon due to heavy rain in Beijing, and I happily lay down in the playground and slept.
@グロッシュラー 23 岁广州
The evening of January 30, 2023 is a special time for astronomers - comet C/2022 E3 returns to Earth after 50,000 years. My friend and I hit it off and climbed Baiyun Mountain at night on this big winter night. The early stage of the "feat" went smoothly, but as the time got later and later, the true power of the mountain forest slowly revealed - cold! Finally, when I climbed halfway up the mountain, I couldn't stand the cold, and I went home.
To speak of gains, it is almost nothing. Considering that Comet E3 is only magnitude 5 bright, I didn't expect to be able to catch it successfully with the naked eye at the beginning, and the winter stars, I only recognized the most classic Orion, and I didn't even find the winter triangle. The whole incident can only be said to be an attempt by the romantics to find some glimmering practice from the boring life of day after day, two o'clock and one line.
@Nicole 29 years old Liangshan
Mr. He gave up the hard foundation of entrepreneurship in the big city for 9 years, took the old people, cats and dogs, and returned to the countryside to start living. The reason is too much pressure, life is involuted, and we agree to change our lifestyle. After coming back, the mood has been very different, there is no work and commute, life has more possibilities, planting flowers, planting vegetables, playing with hairy children, transforming the old yard, everything is new and full of energy. We have more time to work every day, but whenever we sit in the yard at night and count the stars, it feels very relaxing and worthwhile. Since you have chosen the countryside and the land, we must strive to make this choice seem correct.
@晚风 32 years old Dongguan
One weekday in June, I took half a day off in the morning to run errands. After finishing his errands, he found that he had stolen half-day leisure. It's about 5 kilometers to get home, it's better to walk back, this moment don't worry about work, family, finally can completely withdraw, I am myself. Looking up, the leaves are shining with the sun, and there are a few clouds floating in the clear blue sky, I really envy the clouds, and I hope that I will make a drop of water in my next life, which can flow into the sea with the river and float with the clouds.
"Whoever you want to see, go and see immediately."
Still others choose to meet desperately – idols or people who are precious to them. There is no substitute for a sense of presence.
@加班一个月去看周杰伦 24 years old Zhanjiang
A few months ago, I grabbed Jay Chou's concert tickets in Haikou, and the concert time was stuck during the mid-year inspection, I worked overtime for a month, and I worked overtime even at noon for the next few days, and finally one day and a half vacation self-driving trip to Haikou, and then worked overtime after returning, but I felt that I was great and ridiculous at the same time.
@Yellow 29 years old Shanghai
Suddenly fell in love with a certain K-pop girl group and watched their variety shows and videos like crazy. I never wanted to go to Korea in my life, but I bought tickets for their first fan meeting at a high price and watched their scene with a group of fans who were much younger than me. Maybe because the days don't feel up or down, there is no rush, and you need to find an exit. The detail is that I have been watching their performances on stage with my eyes wide open, and many people have videotaped, and I am not willing to record these moments with my own eyes.
@Catherine 26 years old in Beijing
Last May, I finished graduate school in New York, but for various reasons, I had to stay another three months before leaving. After the grand graduation season, the song ended, and after my best friend returned to China, for several days in a row, I stayed in my apartment without going out, and I didn't even open the curtains.
But one morning, I suddenly realized that I was living in one of the most wonderful cities in the world where the most wonderful things happen every day, so why should I be trapped in my room? So, within three months, I watched seven or eight concerts one after another, the farthest being flying from New York to Los Angeles, sharing rooms with strange Chinese fans; At the earliest, I went to Central Park at five in the morning to watch the outdoor recording of free TV; The cheapest is the Coldplay Philadelphia station summit ticket that you can buy for more than 20 knives, but you have to shop at a friend's house after the performance; The most difficult part of the language is to watch the original French musical "Cathedral Age" at Lincoln Center, there are no subtitles throughout the process, and you can only guess the plot while watching.
The most expensive of them was that I spent a thousand knives to watch a Korean boy band's American tour. I've never spent so much money on any one-time expenses, especially after converting the currency unit, and I didn't think about it for a whole week. My sanity prevented me from tapping the hand on the screen to confirm the button for the umpteenth time, but my emotions cried out, go, go. Just this time, I thought—never again.
That day, I carefully prepared for the response and stood outside Madison Garden, waiting to enter. That was the first time I really watched a K-POP performance, but it really should be the last time - the scene was too noisy and crowded, and the brothers on stage seemed to be singing out of breath, far less than 45-year-old Chris Martin.
Looking back a year later, most of the things that bothered me at the beginning have been solved by myself, and the memories of these months have begun to blur, but I still remember myself waiting in line that afternoon. For me, it was also a madness, in fact, they helped me through some difficult nights, obviously myself.
@早点睡觉好不好 18 years old Wenzhou
One night, my thoughts of him suddenly flooded and I couldn't suppress it, but when he returned to school that day, I decided to sneak out of the house and sit in the city study he had been to. I sat where he had sat, saw the words "crazy" engraved on the table, and paced again the path where I had walked side by side with him, and at the end of that solitary walk, I raised my head, looked to the left at an angle of about 45º, and said goodbye to "him".
At that moment, I felt like a neurotic, but I really wanted to do a neuropathy as well.
@可可 24 years old Haikou
My "crazy" moment was also named the highlight of 2022. At that time, I had just finished a foreign relationship, and I was doing a job I didn't like very much, I met Crush on the Internet, inexplicably cooperated, and after three days of chatting Fall in love, he was in Nanjing, but I was in Hainan. One day on the way to work, I was talking to him about the morning rush, and he suddenly said, "Do you have to go to this class?"
I said, too, not on.
"Okay, pick me up at six o'clock in the evening."
I thought he was joking, but unexpectedly, he suddenly threw a screenshot of the ticket. In this way, I briefly escaped the dense troubles of life and played around for three days. When I left, I was reluctant, and in the blink of an eye, at the end of July, I was thinking about it, I bought a ticket, packed my luggage overnight, and arrived at the airport early. The leader sent a message on WeChat "I can't approve this fake", I looked at the plane at the boarding gate and thought, it's a big deal to leave!
All this may be a love brain statement, but I know that my madness comes from the "dissatisfaction" that has accumulated over time. As early as my junior year, I made plans to go abroad for graduate school, but when the epidemic broke out in 2020, my family said that they did not agree with anything. In my senior year, I failed the graduate school entrance examination, and my parents advised me to take the civil service examination during the spring recruitment, but I weighed it repeatedly, I really didn't want to waste five years of youth in the township to spend the "service period", and I chose the World War II graduate school entrance examination. That's it, everything seemed to be out of control and derailed from the year of the epidemic. That plane to Nanjing was my hope to escape. The moment I stepped on the plane, the control of my life seemed to slowly return to my hands, which was wonderful.
@渺渺 32 years old Texas
When I got married, Xiao Ning put her blessing in the wedding dress she gave me. We have known each other for ten years, and we have walked side by side. In the summer, when she was about to turn forty, we left our family and work and drove for two hours to see Zhang Xinzhe's concert. At the concert, I looked at her who hummed softly and said to her: Xiaoning, at the age of forty, you must love yourself and be freer!
For those two hours, we didn't have to be wives and mothers, just ourselves. Occasionally withdraw from life in order to better integrate into life.
@26 27 years old Guangzhou
On the night of my return, I arrived in Qingdao at 2 a.m., and before returning home from the airport, I met netizens who had been chatting for a week. We chatted in the car until dawn and he drove me home. The next evening, we met for the second time and went to Weihai together, thinking madly that we would always be together in front of that blue ocean. A month later, we lost contact off a cliff.
But I got a Midsummer Night's Dream. If it all started again, on the night I returned home, I would still go to see him without hesitation.
"It turns out that challenging authority is what it's like."
Living under high pressure, someone chooses to stand up, speak up, and loudly defend their rights.
@陶斯咏 29 years old Lanzhou
The dormitory is mixed, and there are often boys downstairs drinking and punching in the middle of the night. Usually, my roommates always urged me to hold back, but now that they have gone to the internship, I really don't have to bear it, so I rushed downstairs with a broom and smashed the door frantically. As soon as the other party opened the crack of the door, I kicked it open, crazy output, there was a boy by the door who kept apologizing to me, I yelled at them, "You don't let me sleep, I let you sleep on a whole floor!"
Sometimes don't be afraid, don't be afraid of other people's eyes, we don't cause trouble, but we can't be afraid of things, otherwise it will only make people blindly oppressed.
@Cyberfeila 23 years old Chengdu
During the Spring Festival this year, the family sat down to eat together, and my father said: "When you were a child, your so-called good friends have all found jobs, do you see that people still play with you now?" And in the future, you are not allowed to go to your uncle's house again, and your legs will be broken for you! After a full day, there is no place to play!"
This time, instead of being his good daughter, I nodded and said yes, and I dropped the bowl and slammed the door. That was the first time I "fled" in front of him, no, more precisely, the first time I tried to defend myself and resist. After going out, I clenched my fists and wiped my tears as I walked, feeling fear and excitement at the same time, it turned out that challenging "patriarchy" was this taste.
Later, my sister told me that after I left, my father stood outside the door like crazy and yelled my name.
@何吟 41 years old Shanghai
If there is a landmark event of madness, divorce at the age of 30. I have always been a good girl since I was a child, and when I was thirty years old, I had been negotiating with my ex-husband for almost a year, and I planned to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau for divorce on my wedding anniversary. Lying to my parents that the company needed a household registration book to do something, my mother suddenly gave me a hunch: "You're not going to divorce, are you?" Can't hide it, just admit it. My mother is a very strong person, and my father wants to save face very much, but that day I was very calm and courageous, "Today you just put a knife on your neck to threaten me, and I will divorce this marriage!" That was 2012, and I've been a single mom for almost 11 years now.
It was the first time in my life that I did something that only thought about myself and no one at all, and that I valued and cared about my feelings, which was not a sin, and there was no need to feel guilty. It was also from that time that I became more and more comfortable, more and more loving myself, being good to myself, and understanding that I had to satisfy myself before I had the strength to satisfy others.
@妤霖 22 years old Shenzhen
When I first entered the workplace, I was too stressful at work, I couldn't sleep all night, and then I got up at five thirty in the morning to submit my resume. I applied for all the suitable positions at another organization that I had wanted to go to, and sat in front of the computer until six o'clock in the morning. Maybe this madness was very quiet, and I felt very calm at that time. After submitting my resume, I made up the reason for taking leave, slept until eleven o'clock again, and continued to work in the afternoon.
Going crazy may not mean hysterical catharsis, but to give the mind a broader space to move, although unfortunately it did not finally break through last time, but now I don't feel locked up by this job.
@Ziggie 25 years old Shanghai
Before interning at customs, there was an old man (small leader) who handed me his cup and asked me to pour water for him. However, I'm a data analyst, and I'm not in an administrative position, and I don't have money for internships. So I raised my cup and touched him and said, "Cheers!"
@妙妙哇 26 years old Jinan
It was rare to walk out of the office at 5:05, and the team next door called me to ask if I wanted to work overtime today, help change the PPT, and asked where my home was, and even offered to send me a computer! Who understands, the family, refused to hang up the phone, went crazy to hang up people in the circle of friends, did not block anyone, and replied to their own comments: will not do PPT as a high commissioner?
After this time, I found that the workplace rejection is also very simple, not as open as I imagined, and then I feel that I can do such a thing when I encounter difficulties, and what else can stump me!
@泰德 28 years old in Beijing
After a day of exhausting work to usher in the conference work of nodding and bowing, the leader pulled the meeting to arrange the next meeting, and said for two hours without mentioning what needs to be done in terms of conference affairs, and finally, I couldn't bear to scare the leader in public, without mentioning our work, so what is the meaning of meeting together? And then slammed the door out...
Crazy for a while, looking back is a chicken feather, the adult world is not so much to do as you like, calm a good mood and have to accompany the smiling face and the leader to explain, recently really work pressure, you are more inclusive. My experience is that unless you really don't want to do it anymore and have a complete way out, the ability to cultivate patience should be a mandatory course for every professional.
@小卓西 31 years old in Beijing
One night when I couldn't stand the work, I ran to talk to a talk show, left work at six o'clock, didn't look back, and embarked on my journey to the open Mai. This crazy experience lit up my ordinary day.
@三毛 26 years old Jiaxing
After 2 years of mental pressure and fruitless communication with my direct superiors, one morning I suddenly went crazy, walking back and forth in the logistics channel of the company alone, crying non-stop, when I wiped my tears and stood up ready to collect my mood and go back to work, I found that I could not do anything, so I cried and clicked the resignation application.
Today is the sixth day of resignation, the official announcement day. I also regretted and struggled with this, was it too impulsive, but God told me through a fly that garbage should be accompanied by flies, and the garbage that was once put on me should be thrown away. Now I, that is, thank God, thank the flies.
@神奇小海螺 26 years old in Beijing
I applied for a crazy topic, but I went on strike before I could do it. At present, people feed seagulls on the beach to eat fries, their mental state is very stable, seagulls are delicious, and fries are happy.
@大胖 30 years old in Beijing
He ran four full marathons and one 50-kilometer cross-country for six consecutive weekends, and planned to rush to Chongli on the weekend of July 8 to participate in a 168-kilometer cross-country race to achieve the longest distance breakthrough and complete the marriage proposal at the finish line.
I was just an ordinary wealth manager of a bank, and I could have blown the air conditioner and talked about the market every day, but the bad market and endless involution in the past three years have completely worn down my will. When you can't realize your self-worth in life, you can only look for other emotional outlets. Packed up my luggage and embarked on the high-speed train for the return journey, although I knew that I would have to meet the life of the next day, but after thinking about it, I can run 5 marathons in a row, who else can compare with me?
"Insane, what else?"
There are also some people, who are "crazy" in the real sense, and just make seemingly strange actions on the street. But we always need a little more courage – when the disguise is removed, everyone can be "crazy".
@广坤 25 years old Hangzhou
When he was in school in Melbourne, there was a grandfather named Nathan in Melbourne, who went out every day holding carrots. Once I met him and chatted with him, and I asked him why he played like this, and he explained that purposelessness is to bring happiness to everyone.
After graduating and returning to China, I think everyone is quite stressed now, so whenever I have time, I will also wander the streets of Hangzhou with carrots. The first time I went out on the street with carrots was on New Year's Eve this year, at in77, I found that everyone was looking far away and feeling curious, but no one came to greet me, take photos or borrow carrots to take pictures. But the children are very curious and will be especially happy to say, "Wow, big carrot!!"
@杯子 17 years old in Beijing
In physical education class to play a game called "Human Evolution", the first step is to crawl rock-paper-scissors with other classmates on the playground, squat if you win, stand on one foot if you win, and finally stand completely upright, of course, if you lose, you will degenerate until you crawl. After playing this game, a few of my classmates and I liked the state of crawling and walking, and the three of us agreed to crawl around the playground, and quietly crawled behind our friends to scare them hahahaha (there are also many seniors who are scared by us). But really happy! It is recommended that everyone also find a wide place to try, liberate human nature, and be very cool!
@疯狂的小宇, 23 years old, Tianjin
This photo was taken when I was in Xiamen in May this year, in Huangcuo Beach, I really wanted to cry when I saw the boundless sea and soft sand, and at that moment I wanted to have intimate contact with them, so I just lay on the beach. And this photo was taken for me by a random passerby I found (that's not crazy enough for an i-person!). My sister, who took pictures at the time, asked me if I was shooting like this? I said yes, just shoot like that. I really liked it.
@思思 28 years old Shenzhen
I went to take pictures with friends, and I wanted to try hanging on railings and lying on stairs, but I didn't expect that the photos were really good. If you can't get over the hurdles in life, just hang on it, it's not a big deal.
@山药 21 years old Shenyang
Going crazy seems to have become a tacit understanding between me and my good friends. In the dead of night, walking on the road, and when no one was around, we looked at each other and knew that this was a good time to go crazy. My favorite thing to play with her is the "adult version of the family", we imitate the plot of the bloody TV series and start acting in sitcoms, such as I pretended to be a noblewoman who caught the mistress, and asked coldly: "Yo, just came back, and went fooling around with that woman again?" She would pretend to be impatient and follow: "They all said that we are just ordinary friends, don't you think so much, okay?" Me: "Ordinary friend? Yes, since we got married (my friend and I are girls!) I do this at home, so where do you give me a thanks? Is that vixen that good?" ...... What was gained? Got the joy!
@山楂点心 22 years old Foshan
I was very tired after the graduation ceremony, and I hadn't eaten at eight o'clock in the evening, and suddenly remembered that today was Thursday, took a taxi to KFC near the school, it was closed, and there was a tea restaurant upstairs, closed. Seeing a children's play area with swings, seesaws, trampolines and slides, it's interesting that the swings here have music when they swing, and when playing with these rides, it feels like going back to the "crazy" moments of my childhood, maybe my "crazy Thursday".
@卷二 24 years old Jiaxing
The day before yesterday, I suddenly wanted to have a wedding! An event for six brides was held today! We marry water, the universe, the future self, the past self, the moon. Even the priest's left earring was married along with the right earring! There were about twenty or thirty people in the room, but we only planned for ten minutes. I was impressed that a sister and my future self cried very sincerely during the process of marrying.
@懒青蛙 26 years old Guangzhou
I have been a very rule-abiding person since I was a child, including traffic rules, red light stops, green light walks, and every time I cross the street, whether there is a car or not, I will carefully look at the indicator lights. When I grew up, I was still a very rule-abiding person, and I never dared to raise objections in the face of abnormal working hours. At the end of a diligent overtime, it was almost twelve o'clock, and my colleague, who was also someone I liked, walked out of the building together. We blew the night breeze, under the dim street lights, and decided to ride for a while. At a traffic light intersection, we stopped, and I looked at the warning red light, and an urge suddenly surged in my heart, an urge to break the rules. I said to the people I like, today, every traffic light we pass, is it okay to break through? She said, OK.
So that night, we rode wildly on the road, ignoring every traffic light, riding for a long, long time, she was in front, I was behind, every time I ran a traffic light, she looked back at me, we looked at each other and smiled, as if two children who had done something bad but were very happy in their hearts, there was an unprecedented joy.
@彭快乐 23 years old Changsha
After resigning naked, I couldn't find a suitable job, one day I went out to get a courier, and suddenly it rained heavily, and I wanted to hide from the rain, and my inner voice said, go get a heavy rain! Then I boldly walked slowly to the express station in the rain, and then swaggered home, stepping on the rain hole like a child on the way, and just have fun watching the splashing rain! Just let this heavy rain fall.
The uncle who passed by said, "It's a soup chicken, and I laughed."
@麦兜 32 years old Nantong
Suddenly I decided to buy a house. What motivates? Maybe it's the rumbling of the door by the roommate next door, maybe it's the sanitation of the common areas that others don't care about, or the sweltering summer of the rent, or the landlord's mention that the house may be sold. The impressive details are that living in your own house gives you a sense of belonging, sleeping super comfortably at night, not closing the door, coming in and out at will, and leisurely. But after buying a house, I was burdened with mortgage pressure, unlike before, I said I walked away, I played if I wanted, and I thought about more things...
@临安 36 years old in Beijing
When I saw this call, the thought that came to my mind was: How could I go crazy?
I am 36 years old, have a stable job, and my daughter is more than 5 years old and growing up healthy. Although there are quarrels in marriage, they can solve problems every time and the relationship can go smoothly. As a typical middle-aged person, I often warn myself that the mind should be peaceful and the mood should be less volatile.
And what is madness? Madness is the concentrated release of inner appeals, the pouring of things that cannot be dissolved, earthquakes and volcanoes, emotional storms.
But I thought about it, would I go crazy? It seems that it will still be.
There was a period of time when work was stressful and there was an emotional breakdown. At that time, I used to ride to the park a kilometer away from the company. It was early spring in Beijing, and there was a pond in the park, and after work, I set up a stool by the pond and sat every day from dusk to the night when I couldn't see my fingers. Don't look at your phone. For me, it's a silent madness. I look at the dead leaves in the pond, at the wild cigu who has just stretched out of the water, and at the red carp scurrying around in the pond. The locust trees were still bare and desolate, but the holly spear was always green. I always feel that these scenes are making sounds, and this sound is reassuring.
There was also a time when I left work late and was tired both mentally and physically. There was a section on the way home that was unlit, one of which was still downhill and sharp, and every time I rode there, I was very uneasy. Later, I bought a 10,000-lumens flashlight, the brightness of which is equivalent to 5 car high beams, no matter how dark the space, it can shine like the scorching sun. From the faces of passers-by, I saw an expression of looking at a madman.
When I was most depressed, I signed up for a martial arts training class. I told the coach, "I don't want to hit sandbags, I'm going to hit someone." For decompression sports, I think boxing and jiu-jitsu in martial arts embody two patterns of madness: one is beating and the other is entanglement. It's just that I didn't expect that the coach would personally put on a fist hollow to hit me. After a beating, my stomach ulcers were about to recur. Jiu-Jitsu too, the coach taught me cross solid, if it had been fixed a little longer, I might not have been able to write this call. But it really calmed my heart. There is no other reason, it's good to be alive.
This is the madness of middle-aged people. Doesn't that sound a bit bland? Unfortunately, I can't go crazy to my heart's content, and I still have to think about the time, place, and scene. Everyone has heard the story of Sima Guang smashing the cylinder, just like using madness to relieve emotions, the fastest way is not to fish people, but to smash the cylinder.
We can only hope that this cylinder is not too expensive, as I thought, when you go crazy, you have to consider the price.
Other readers have expressed to us their thoughts on the meaning of the act of "going crazy" itself.
@石七 26 years old Chengdu
I've always thought I'm a very "crazy" person, but when I count it, I don't seem to have really gone crazy. I even asked myself, what does it mean to be "crazy"? Open your phone's photo album and see that everything is so normal and routine. Even the photos of tourists who go out to travel at the Dragon Boat Festival are so normal. One picture that may be worth sharing is the first time I bought scratch music in my life and thought I won 20 pieces, but the boss said that it was not scratched clean... I think I should go crazy once, shout once in normal life, it should be a hearty experience, but actually, I don't understand how to go crazy yet.
@Rachel 21 years old Chengdu
I've always heard that young people in China are crazy and can't really empathize. In the first two weeks after returning to China, various modes of communication between people, distribution of community facilities, the language of the Internet, etc. in my life made me slowly understand the crazy social environment. The feeling is that the structure presses the space. Especially for young people, in a society that is too tightly structured and single-minded, so much strength cannot be rushed up, and it has to go somewhere. The so-called madness, in my opinion, is to carry out some non-mainstream habitual approval behavior, let that breath come out. It may help avoid internal friction, but it is not the ultimate solution. It is more like a transitional period, hoping that these scattered "fairy qi" can open up territory for a new social and spatial order.
@噼里啪啦酱 30 years old Zunyi
It's good to be crazy, we only come here once in this world, and it's okay to live how you live.
Well, let's toast life and cheers!