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" The road is never finished, the scenery can never be seen"
△ Cao Fang
Not long ago, Cao Banchang released her new song "3170".
As I turned on the player and let her warm voice rush into my ears, my tired heart gradually soothed with her lazy melody.
She tweeted, saying:
"There's so much to say about 3170. It was the distance from my Banna home to my home in Beijing, and dozens of round trips were my growth trajectory; 3170 hours was the time to make this album, which was also the name of the new album. ”
Cao Fangfa records are very irregular.
Perhaps for a woman like her who is free and comfortable, a record that is restricted by regulations and constraints is more difficult for Cao Fang to complete.
Like Park Shu, she is a singer who pursues freedom, regardless of the chaos of the outside world, guarding the pure land of the heart, not worldly, not kitsch, after a thousand sails, she is still a teenager.
Mr. Park had said he didn't want people to do some out-of-context interviews with him because it wasn't about him. What he hopes is that more people will know him through songs, and what can really express him is his irreproducible music.
Cao Fang also mentioned her views on the interview program in the program, and she did not reject it.
But she hopes that the audience can feel her heart and attitude through her works, and feel her ease.
She is a freelance dancer who can wander between light and darkness, and can choose to go to a concert today or wear a normal dress to the market.
"3017" also expresses Cao Fang's growth trajectory from a naïve little girl to a mature and independent woman.
In this process, Cao Fang walked through many cities, saw many scenes, and slowly found that the place that could make her feel at ease the most had always been her hometown.
Cao Fang once said in an interview: "Freedom is the most precious asset of a lifetime. ”
She would venture to the North Pole, despite the ice and snow, and hike to find hidden cafes in the forest to explore the snow country.
When the shopkeeper's aunt asked her how she got here, Cao Fang replied, "Walking." The owner's aunt was surprised at how Cao Fang knew about this place, where usually only regular customers drove here.
Cao Fang replied, "From the map, it seems that this place is the farthest from the town, and it is in the mountains, there must be surprises." ”
At that time, Cao Fang was exactly what Park Shu said when he was young, as brilliant as a summer flower.
It is also like the us who shouted that the sky is high and the road is far away, and we are dying for a long time; we who think of a smoke and rain to live in peace; the one who is bent on getting rid of my parents and breaking into the world with an acoustic guitar.
Cao Fang also integrates the free heart of young people into her musical style, free and open.
Just like she showed in the song "Meet Me" that she wrote for her own life portrayal in 2005, she spoke of her youth and the life that most young people long for.
"The road is always getting farther and farther, the city and the garden, my label of freedom, here or there, brave."
Just like eighteen-year-olds, we always feel that if we don't dare to think, don't do it, don't try to break in, then what? While young, how can you not be crazy?
This is the "common disease" of most rebellious young people, bent on carving "cool" in their bones, eager to take a walk with the green-skinned train.
Sitting on a car, train or plane, excitedly thinking about the next day's itinerary, when bored, take a breath of heat on the window, and write the four big words "free and unbound".
Looking at the scenery outside the window flashed by, contrary to the direction of his hometown, he still proudly shouted in his heart, "I long for the vast, even if there is no fixed place." ”
Cao Fang was born in Xishuangbanna, Yunnan, a paradise where almost 360 of the 365 days a year are clear skies.
On her way home from Beijing to Xishuangbanna in 2008, she composed the song "Far Beyond the Sky", through which she wanted to convey the truest self to the audience.
Who can give me infinite vastness, looking at the sky, empty as me.
Who can give me a nest of freedom, sit on the roof in the morning light, and burn out a blank life.
Through Cao Fang's voice, you can feel her free fantasy thoughts, unrestrained emotions, and sing through the hearts of young people in the rebellious period.
This was Cao Fang at that time, as free as my poetic singer.
Like Cao Fang, in the eyes of most young people, the outside world is always beautiful, just like the sugar cubes in other people's hands are always sweeter than their own.
In life, we all want to be unrestrained, we all pursue freedom, and we all long to have a cage away from home one day, and we all wander freely according to our own nature.
In February 2010, Cao Fang embarked on a journey back to his hometown.
During this nearly two-month journey, Cao Fang passed through a number of arid cities.
Cao Fang, who has not carefully observed his hometown for a long time, after witnessing the strong contrast between the "beauty of yesterday" and "the drought of today" in his hometown, he was inspired to write a song about a beautiful home.
Cao Fang uses the power of music to evoke people's memories of happiness and awaken his nostalgia for his hometown.
In early April, Cao Fang returned to Beijing and suspended all publicity work plans.
After seven days of retreat, she finally created the charity single "Nanlan Palm", through which she called on people to cherish and protect our beautiful homeland.
A river will gently embrace the village
The wind took away the sand, the rain brought flowers, and watched the river flow slowly
Through Cao Fang's delicate voice, a quiet and peaceful, mysterious and strange picture gradually sketched out in his mind.
This is the hometown that inspired her creation, and what she sees through her eyes is a mysterious paradise full of exotic atmosphere.
A person's childhood is her life, and a person's hometown is her atrium.
No matter how far Cao Fang goes, she is the Xishuangbanna girl with the personality of a Yunnan person.
This journey back to his hometown, for Cao Fang, is like the meaning of the Lancang River, the mother river of Xishuangbanna, sung in the single: turn around and look back, it turns out that happiness is next to me, happiness is in the Lancang River, and it is in my hometown in Xishuangbanna.
It is always necessary to go through enough life grinding and precipitation before you can truly have the heart of a child.
Cao Fang chose to return to his home in Xishuangbanna and lived quietly for two years.
In Xishuangbanna, where the sky is clear all year round, Cao Fang suddenly remembered the ice and snow of that arctic circle trip and created "Glacier" with his pen.
Home is the place that gives people the most inspiration and comfort.
Recalling the rebellion, competition, and desire for the outside world during adolescence, always thinking of breaking away from the environment of his hometown, he looked back and found that the farther away from his hometown, the more he loved it.
Cao Fang said,
Suddenly found that I was an asteroid, running far back, running farther back, how many times around, only to find that my hometown has been there, warm, hot, it is the sun.
I feel particularly free here.
Therefore, she no longer pursues the so-called "cool" when she rebelled in her youth, and now Cao Fang hopes to contact everything around her in a softer way and appreciate the unique beauty of the land given by the word hometown.
We began to write essays in elementary school, and whenever we wrote about our parents and families, we mostly used the phrase, "Home is our haven from the wind." ”
Since he was a child, he has also carried "look up at the bright moon and look down at his hometown." "The mother's hand is threaded, and the wanderer's shirt is clothed." verses.
At that time, we could not truly appreciate the emotions of these verses because we were far away from our homeland, and we always felt that it was just the innocuous words of the literati and inkers.
But the reason why these words and phrases have been passed down for thousands of years is precisely because they have pierced the heart of every wanderer. The reason why we didn't understand it as a child was that we had not yet been able to taste the bitterness of the wanderer.
In the face of adolescent rebellion, we still put all this behind us and want to run out.
When filling in the college entrance examination volunteer, the mother felt, "The little girl's home, or don't leave home too far, it is inconvenient to come back after missing home." Choose a good school in the province, come back when you want to go home, and if you are wronged outside, I and your father can also go to see you. ”
At that time, where could I listen to this, I only thought that it was difficult to get rid of the five-year college entrance examination and three-year simulation, and now it was the time for me to fly in the sky and the sea.
When we come to a strange city as we wish, meet new classmates, new colleagues, and chat with people, we always proudly talk about our hometown, what unique places there are, and what fresh foods there are.
But these things, before we left our homeland, didn't seem to worry us so much.
Living in a foreign country, whenever I encounter a stall with cold noodles, I will always stop to buy some, and always talk to the stalls, if it happens to be a northeasterner, I excitedly talk to him about what temperature should be in my hometown now, and I should change those clothes.
My roommate in Guangdong is also like me, when I meet a vendor who sells steamed sausage powder, I must buy it back to the dormitory, and while excitedly bringing it to us to taste, I told us how much sausage powder she could eat in a meal when she was a child.
My mother, every spring, would go to the suburbs to dig up a lot of wild vegetables, pick out some of them to mail my distant aunt, my mother said, it was her aunt who let her mail, it was their favorite wild vegetables when they were young, the two of them always went home together while making trouble, and let Grandma turn it into a delicacy.
How homesick I am, I will use all means to find the taste of my hometown!
Teenagers are not homesick, homesick, and they are no longer teenagers.
At that time, the light left a mark on us, and when we left our homeland and then stepped into the former residence, we could truly realize that "the dew is white from tonight, and the moon is the hometown of Ming." "Emotion.
Get up early in the morning and open the window to smell the hometown wind.
After eating my mother's breakfast, I went for a walk on the side of the road, blessed a small grass, sat down to touch a small stone, said hello to my relatives and friends who met around the corner, played with my own elongated shadow in the wilderness for half a day, and walked with the sunset for a while on its way home.
After going through time, I can't help but think back to the words of my youth, "The vastness I long for, even if I don't have a fixed place", I can't help but feel funny.
Where are the islands, and how to define the vastness?
It doesn't matter far away, the hometown itself has a scenery worth a lifetime of nostalgia, and the place where home is is the beauty we have been looking for when we were young.
During the two years that Cao Fang spent at home as a child, he occasionally used a wooden stick to support a small table to make tea and drink by himself.
Or sniff the earth in the misty mountains and wait for autumn to come slowly. Turn off the music, climb to the top of the mountain and listen to the breeze for a moment.
As she said, "Love the end of the world, but can't help but miss the autumn here." ”
Years, ah, it not only quietly changes our appearance, increases our experience, but also secretly gives us a heart.
The 100-square-meter Beijing nest with chocolate-colored bedroom and peacock blue living room is also her happiness.
On days when she wasn't singing, she hid at home.
Clean up when you're depressed and get out of the kitchen when you're happy. Do-it-yourself meals that you can't enjoy on the go. And it is this kind of family warmth that the wanderer feels the most.
Occasionally stop, enjoy a quiet day, make a cup of tea, make a meal, read a book, no longer the people in the rush are tired, that is the breath of home, is the most authentic taste of life.
As she herself said,
"I said I was a real singer and I took my profession very seriously, so I would spend time that others might not understand, but I needed to live."
This spring, Cao Fang released a new single "Embraced Desert Island", fading the rebellious Cao Fang and facing real life more calmly in the chaotic secular world.
I slept soundly on the desert island where I could hug, always warm, always sparkling in the afternoon, and children running naked and frolicking to the pond in the distance.
And I thought about the foreign land of every face during the trek, always cold.
Park Shu wrote in an article "Twelve Years" published many years ago,
"It was God who made me wait twelve years to wait until I could be in the state of the record. In twelve years, Mom and Dad have grown very old, and everything around me and I have aged. Even my dog is old. ”
We all longed to be as brilliant as summer flowers, but time always gave us a good lesson and told us what to do.
Eat more meals with your family, clean up your house with them, and tidy up your room.
These things seemed to us when we were young to be the most things that could be done or not, and we always thought that I might as well come back two days late and play where and where to play.
The road can never be completed, and the scenery can never be seen.
We always have to encounter twists and turns in school, experience ups and downs in the company, and be tortured on the road; spend a few sleepless nights, survive some alone time, and know that hometown is the place that warms our hearts, and only then do we understand that the ordinary can also be the answer to life.
It is not to allow yourself to be willing to be ordinary, but to maintain an ordinary state of mind, not frivolous, not arrogant, ordinary and extraordinary, proud and humble.
A hundred turns, through the impetuous world, the original beauty, has always been there, waiting for our hearts to return.
The sunlight pushed away the dappled it to shine on me, through the small alleys who looked at each other
When I think of you again, the picture is warm
I came back from staying there
Who crossed the vast sea of people to get to know me, and who lost contact in the face of the vast sea of people?"
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