Some people say that life is a process of continuous choice. Our life now stems from the choices we once made.
If you were asked to make another choice about people and things you've met in the past, would you make a different choice?
Recently, I read a book written by a young Chinese writer Huan Monk called "Night. The book "Rain" is very touching. In the book, Liu Kunming, an oncologist at the Provincial Hospital, listened to three stories told by others during a bar drinking experience.
The three women in the story, with different names, have the same mystery and similar experiences, which makes people feel that there is a seemingly innocent relationship between them.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" > the story of Xiaobai in the 1980s</h1>
Xiao Bai is a new employee of the food factory, and as soon as he entered the food factory, he got the admiration of a man named Chen Shuping.
Chen Shuping is a relatively thick-skinned person, because the thick-skinned workers gave him the nickname of "bark".
Bark fell in love with Xiao Bai at first sight and launched a stalking attack on her, but Xiao Bai has been indifferent to him, at most nodding his head or a shallow smile.
Bark has a friend who is also named Lin Yong, who was secretly in love with another female employee named Lu Xiaomin in the unit. But after several contacts, Xiaomin found that Lin Yong always refused to come close to her, and was always very polite.
On a rainy night, when Lin Yong was holding an umbrella to help an uncle find a dog, he accidentally found Xiao Bai crouching under a tree crying, so he silently walked over to stand next to Xiao Bai and stood with an umbrella for a long time without saying a word.
Later, Xiao Bai squatted tired and cried tired, so she leaned her head on Lin Yong's calf, and Xiao Bai's body temperature quietly set off waves in Lin Yong's heart.
After a while, a man came over and took Xiao Bai away.
Because the bark did not get a response from Xiao Bai, he expressed his distress to Lin Yong.
Lin Yong remembered the man on the rainy night that day, and enlightened the bark and said that maybe Xiao Bai had a favorite man or the family had already set her up.
Later, after the observation of the bark, he found that Xiao Bai looked at Lin Yong's eyes and expressions, which he longed for and could not get, so he decided to give up and encouraged Lin Yong to chase Xiao Bai.
Although Lin Yong is also in love with Xiao Bai, when he thinks of the bark, he decides to hide this feeling in his heart.
A few days later, Lin Yong met Xiao Bai, who had injured his foot, and took the initiative to carry her on his back and send her home.
That time, Lin Yong saw the man again, saw the timid expression on Xiao Bai's face, and the look of gratitude and love in his eyes.
Chen Shuping, who was fruitless due to his frantic pursuit of Xiao Bai, later left the food factory. Lu Xiaomin, who accidentally saw Lin Yong carrying Xiao Bai on his back, also left the food factory.
In the end, Xiao Bai also left the food factory, leaving Lin Yong alone.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" > the story of Ruomo in the nineties</h1>
Fu Xijie works as a copywriter in a company in a city in three counties in the south, and he used to exchange letters with his pen pals every day.
One day, as usual, he went home and opened the mailbox to take out the letter.
When he opened the letter in the room, he saw that the recipient was a woman named Ruomo, and there was a sketch portrait of the recipient in the letter.
He looked at the address again, saw that it was him to the door, and only then did he react that the letter was someone else's, so he folded the letter paper into the envelope and resealed it.
He suddenly felt strange: the uncle who lived on the right door had been dead for more than 20 days, and the house had not seen anyone renting it, so how could there be a letter sent over? It was also mistakenly dropped into his mailbox.
After two days, he heard the neighbor's aunt say that the woman who lived opposite him came back late every day, and he didn't know if she was doing something unseemly.
Only then did she know that the house opposite had been rented to the woman named Ruomo half a month ago.
Because he had never met, Sijie became curious about Ruomo, so he wandered in the corridor to confirm that there was no one in the corridor, so he knocked twice on the opposite door, and when he saw that no one in the room responded, he stuffed the letter through the crack in the door.
At night, he deliberately stayed up late, wanting to hear movement outside the door and come out to see what kind of woman it was. But after waiting for a few nights, he quickly fell asleep, and in his dreams, there was always a woman who could not see her face clearly.
The next day, the postman came again to deliver the letter, wondering how there would be a letter when the uncle opposite Sijie died, and Sijie lied that he had borrowed the address of the uncle opposite to write to his pen pal, asking the postman to put all the letters on the door into his mailbox. He wanted to find out from Ruomo's letter.
In the evening, Sijie received a letter from his brother, who lived in the provincial capital, saying that his father was critically ill and asking him to go and see him for the last time.
Ever since my brother took his parents to live with him, the family house has been lived alone. Since his father was still dying, he asked the company for three months of leave, ready to accompany his father on his last journey.
Half a month later, my father was gone. After dealing with the aftermath with his brother-in-law, Sijie stayed behind to spend more time with his mother.
The brother bought a mobile phone for Xi Jie, saying that he met his college classmate Huang Shuqing two days ago and left her mobile phone number, asking him to contact Huang Shuqing, and heard that she was going to organize a classmate party.
Xi Jie contacted Huang Shuqing in time and joined the alumni association as promised. Huang Shuqing was the school flower of college, and he recognized her at a glance. Shu Qing heard that he was not yet married, so he said that he would introduce him to an object one day.
After the holidays, the first thing Siggy did when he got home was when he opened his mailbox. There were already many letters in it, many of which were of the same.
Sijie opened a letter at random, the letter was written by a man to Ruomo, it seems that she is very high, because she did not receive her reply, the man expressed despair.
Remembering that he had been away from home for three months, Sijie felt sorry for the delay in other people's letters, so he wanted to write a letter to Ruo Mo to apologize.
But he picked up a pen and knew how to write all night. It wasn't until I went to work the next day that I took advantage of my free time to write the letter.
Unexpectedly, as soon as he wrote it, he was arrested by a colleague who often bullied him, he got up to grab it, the other party pinched it tightly, only to listen to the "squeak", the letter was torn in half.
At this time, his long-standing anger broke out in an instant, he grabbed the pen holder on the table and threw it at the man, the other party avoided it, he grabbed a dengzi and threw it over, and resigned angrily.
After returning home, he wrote a letter to Ruomo under the pseudonym "Stranger", but the address of the sender could not write the address of Ruomo's home.
He suddenly remembered that his brother had a friend who had entrusted the house to him after going to the provincial city to develop, and that address could be used as his second mailbox to receive Ruomo's letters.
After that, Xi Jie would receive calls from Huang Shuqing every day, and every time he would talk about the south of the sea.
After writing a letter to Ruomo, he looked forward to Ruomo's reply every day, but none of them received a reply.
When he wanted to give up, if Mo replied, the content was simple and casual, which was his favorite style, he quickly replied to the letter, and then continued to wait for the reply.
Receiving the reply again, even Huang Shuqing felt his pleasure on the phone. He decided to continue to communicate with Ruomo.
One evening, he came home from outside and saw a woman standing across from him.
Her facial features are exquisite, and she has a long white dress. He was in a trance, and he knew that she was Ruomo.
Without waiting for him to say hello, she opened her mouth first, saying that she was a new neighbor and borrowing a screwdriver from him.
After he lent it to her, he was distracted in the room, and when she came over to return the tools, he was actually a little incoherent.
At night, he tossed and turned and couldn't sleep, so he decided to go out for a walk. So he came to Night Market Street. At the intersection, he saw a white dress with long hair and waist.
He recognized it, it was Ruomo. He looked at her silently until she quietly left.
Later, for half a month, Xi Jie did not receive a reply, nor did he see Ruo Mo again at the night market. Sijie lost his soul, and Shu Qing heard his loss on the phone again.
He felt more and more that Ruomo was a fan-like woman, and he didn't know what kind of feelings he had for her.
Finally on New Year's Day, Ruo Mo wrote back and said that he had been traveling for a while. Then their correspondence continued, and he once again saw her in the distance on night market street.
The last time was at night Chinese New Year's Eve Spring Festival. He saw her again in the night market street, and she saw him too and approached him.
With permission, he sent her home. Halfway down the road, it started to rain. They were sheltering from the rain in the roadside shop, and he took off his coat and draped it over her.
Looking at the cold winter rain, she said quietly: One day many years ago, it rained like today, and the weather was very cold, two people. But from that day on, my life went into the night, and I became a shadow under the lamp. ”
Sijie didn't answer the phone and didn't know what to say. After the rain stopped, they continued home and never spoke again along the way.
Later, Shu Qing called more and more, and repeatedly invited him to her company to help, but he refused. Ruo Mo slowly expressed his good feelings for him in his reply.
When Shu Qing came to the county seat to find him, told her about the failure of her marriage, and expressed that she wanted to be with him, he refused again.
Fast forward to the summer, Ruo Mo said that he no longer corresponded with the "stranger", but the two of them still maintained the habit of going to the night market, often returned to the community together, and became a couple in the eyes of the people in the community.
When they agreed to travel together, 3 days before departure, Sidge's doll, Marlin, came to see Sidge.
After Ruo Mo knew, he asked Xi Jie if he was still traveling, and Xi Jie replied vaguely, "Let's talk about it tomorrow", and Ruo Mo left without looking back.
Settle in Marlene, it's dark. Siggy went and knocked on Ruomo's door, and there was no sound in the room.
When he went to the night market street again, he saw Ruo Mo standing under the street lamp again. He was just about to walk over, but the street lights went out.
Later, he never saw Ruomo again, and a week later, a new tenant came to the door.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" > a dreamlike story from the 10s</h1>
In the winter of 2011, in a southern city, there was a very famous and distinctive bar called "Indulgence". The bar was opened by a foreign woman named "Like a Dream", who was nearly middle-aged and still had a charm, attracting a large number of young hardcore fans.
One day, a rich second-generation Huang Wei in his 20s took his friend Lu Erwu to spend money in a bar, and made a bet with the prodigal prince Liu Yilin, betting on whether Huang Wei could catch up with the dream within ten days, and the bet was half of the shares of their respective companies.
"Indulgence" has a characteristic, where the consumption is more than 100,000, no matter who it is, ru meng will personally accompany a free bottle of wine. On this day, Huang Wei spent 100,000 yuan, and Ru Meng did not wear the usual bandeau dress, but changed into a white shirt jeans and black half boots to accompany the wine.
Huang Wei took the opportunity to go to the island about Ru Meng, and Ru Meng refused to drink while drinking, saying that it was not the life she liked. After saying that, I flashed people when I finished drinking.
In the next few days, Huang Wei stalked and beat him, found out about Ru Meng's residence, and cheekily entered Ru Meng's house, but was still rejected.
When he wanted to leave in chagrin, Ru Meng suddenly fell ill in the bathroom, and Huang Wei rushed her to the hospital.
The doctor diagnosed that it was stomach bleeding, but it was not a big problem, and Huang Wei was relieved to leave the hospital.
Returning from the hospital, Huang Wei disappeared for two days, and no one knew where he had gone.
The betting period has arrived, and the game has been decided. Thinking that he had won Huang Wei's company, Huang Wei had transferred 99% of the company's shares to his friend Lu Erwu in advance, and Liu Yilin only won half of Huang Wei's 1% shares and 0.5%.
Although Huang Wei saved the company, his dream-like bet spread in the company and also reached the ears of He Yixuan, the girlfriend of the "political marriage" arranged for him by his father.
When He Yixuan tried to use family power to control him, he proposed to He Yixuan to break up. When depressed, he often goes to "indulge" drinking.
Over time, the relationship with Ru Meng has become much closer, and occasionally he will send Ru Meng home.
After He Yixuan found out, looking for someone to retaliate against Ru Meng and the bar, Huang Wei arrived in time and spent 300,000 yuan to give the gang of hooligans to calm the storm.
In order to retaliate against Huang Wei, He Yixuan married Lü Erwu and legally embezzled the shares of the company that belonged to Huang Wei.
After experiencing this, Huang Wei became nothing. The heart of the dream is also slowly approaching, and each other has the feeling of meeting a confidant.
Thus, the two had a covenant with a desert island. After a long talk and heart-to-heart exchanges on the desert island, the two got closer.
But after returning, Ru Meng began to avoid Huang Wei again. Huang Wei questioned Ru Meng and once again expressed his intentions. He knew that Ru Meng loved him and avoided just trying to struggle.
After determining that Huang Wei is true love for himself, Ru Meng bravely came together with Huang Wei.
Huang Wei made a request to bring Ru Meng to see his father during the Mid-Autumn Festival, and Ru Meng agreed, but only asked to meet Huang Wei's father at his home.
On the day of the meeting, Ru Meng was worried that Huang Wei's father would mind his age. When Huang Wei's father entered the door, both of them were stunned, and then you said a word to me, and began a silent war of words and words.
The more Huang Wei listened, the more confused he became, after his father left, Ru Meng did not have any explanation, but said that the next day he took him to see his relatives, and the next day Huang Wei knew that Ru Meng's mother had long since died. Leaving their dreamlike hometown, they shared a room in a hotel for the first time.
After returning to the city, they said goodbye to each other and returned to their respective homes. When Huang Wei went to "indulgence" again to find Ru Meng, he found that "Indulgence" had been completely unrecognizable and was being renovated into a hotel by others, and Ru Meng had disappeared and could no longer be contacted.
Huang Wei had a car accident on the way to find Ru Meng, he remembered the last time his father left ru meng's house, he said that he and Ru Meng broke up, he knew that Ru Meng quietly left in order to fulfill him, so he stopped looking. Back at the company, he chose to forgive, and Lu Erwu rebuilt the old good, and continued to start his own business.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" > we are all people with stories</h1>
When Liu Kunming returned to the hospital and saw the signature on the medical record of a female patient with stomach cancer, he knew the truth, and it turned out that Xiao Bai, Ruo Mo, and Ru Meng were actually the female patients in front of him: Bai Ruomeng.
The three stories he had heard were actually three different encounters in her life. In these three emotional experiences, she chose to escape, leaving her alone when she was seriously ill.
In the 80s, she met Lin Yong. In the 90s, she met Fu Xijie. In the 00s, she met Huang Wei. And Huang Wei's father is her former lover, a man with a family and a wife and children, a man who has consumed her youth and abandoned her.
Her current life stems from her past choices, others come and go in and out of her life, and she also comes and goes in other people's lives.
And isn't that also the case for each of us? So we are all people with stories. What kind of life you are living now stems from your original choices.
This time, Bai Ruomeng faced the disease, she wanted to escape, wanted to face death, and Liu Kunming's words dissuaded her, so that she would no longer give up on herself, actively cooperate with the doctor's treatment, and bravely accept the challenge of the disease.
Through the story of the heroine, I have questioned the "fate" statement, before I thought that everyone's life was arranged by fate, many things are predestined by heaven, how to circumvent it. But this book of "Night. "Rain" also makes me feel that fate is the result of my own choice, the so-called "things are man-made" is this meaning, what kind of choice you make, it will produce the corresponding result, that is, causality.
In the book, if Bai Ruomeng had not chosen to be Huang Wei's father's lover when she was young, if she had chosen any of the male protagonists in the three stories, her life would not have been the way it is now.
Therefore, life is a process of continuous choice, one step wrong step wrong, happiness will be farther and farther away from you.
Youth is fleeting, and it is good and cherished!
【Source: Network intrusion and deletion】