Author: Xuan Gui Editor: Lü Jing
Source: Journal of Marriage and Family
ID：hunyinyujiating99
A while ago, Zheng Zhihua was banned by Facebook, and he did not expect that this prodigal singer in Taiwan who was nearly 60 years old and had been on the song scene was pushed to the cusp of the new crown epidemic.
Through the Internet, he satirized that the "stupid pill (Taiwanese) people without self-consciousness" were blinded by the ideology of the Taiwan authorities and unconsciously became the biggest accomplice of these "cold-blooded and greedy conspirators".
A mouthful of "dumb pills", self-blackening ability is simply a level; not only scolding, but also accompanied by a calligraphy painting:
This is not the first time that Zheng Zhihua has used calligraphy to spicyly comment on Taiwan's current affairs; when the United States verbally donated vaccines to Taiwan, and Taiwan had not yet received the vaccine but typed the word USA in advance, Zheng Zhihua could not help but ridicule the Taiwan authorities -- Advance deployment, advance cloth, and advance not to die.
In the face of the Taiwan authorities' opaque information on epidemic control and control, he satirized that Chen Shizhong, commander of the epidemic command center, was worthy of being a "clock", and every day at two o'clock in the afternoon, he only announced the time on time, and there was no disclosure of any useful information at the press conference, just a spiritual shout.
After the ban was unblocked, Zheng Zhihua angrily said that he wanted to close his personal social platform account. But many netizens strongly objected, hoping to continue to hear his voice for justice.
Anger was eventually extinguished by concern for current events. A few days after the end of the "silence", Zheng Zhihua still couldn't help but speak up. And this time, he still pulled the "sarcasm" to the full.
He satirized Taiwan's fight against the epidemic like a joke: love can generate electricity, and no vaccine is used to fight the epidemic;
Regarding the pro-Japanese and pro-American phenomenon of the Taiwan authorities, Zheng Zhihua said: "People here do not speak English but help the United States to guard the door, and people here do not speak Japanese but recognize The ancestors of Japan...
In just a few lines of text, there is ridicule, there is helplessness, and there is a kind of heartache that makes people cry and laugh... Some netizens said: "This is the most profound and best interpretation of taiwan's current situation that I have ever seen!" ”
Today's young people may not know that this is the "unruliness" in Zheng Zhihua's bones. Behind the sharp words, it is the insight after being beaten by life, and the soberness after the washing of life.
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The wandering and rebellion behind the inspirational singer
Many people know Zheng Zhihua in a party in 1992. At that year's Barcelona Olympics, the Chinese delegation won 16 gold medals, achieving the best Olympic record ever. In order to pick up the Olympic athletes, CCTV organized a party.
On this stage of hundreds of millions of people's attention, Zheng Zhihua took the stage on crutches and sang the song "Sailor". At the end of the singing, the applause from the audience was thunderous, and "Sailor" has since swept across the country and spread throughout the streets and alleys, becoming the most popular song of the year. Zheng Zhihua became a hit and became a hot singer in the Chinese music scene.
After his popularity, his story was also known to more and more people. Gradually, the audience knew how much strength it took on the stage for the legendary singer who had healed a generation with his singing voice to stand in front of the public.
Zheng Zhihua was born in Taiwan in 1961, in fact, he had two older brothers and two sisters, but before he was born, an older brother died prematurely, and the fortune teller said that he was killed, "Zhihua" was from the Buddhist language, and his parents hoped that this name could subdue his natural rebellious spirit.
A high fever at the age of 3 caused Zheng Zhi to suffer from polio, and when children of the same age could run and jump, he could only rely on crawling to move his body. It wasn't until he was 7 years old, through surgery, that he was able to "walk" on crutches.
The long and gray childhood made Zheng Zhihua develop the habit of loving to observe life, and he also picked up a pen from time to time to write and draw, recording life and mood. This keen insight makes his creations reach people's hearts and easily resonate with people.
Because I understand, I am compassionate. The tortuous growth experience from a young age has made him full of compassion for small people in society, and many of his creative inspirations come from this.
The song "Fallen Angel" was written by Zheng Zhihua to a woman in a wind and moon place.
He once met this woman at a noodle stall, and "I knew at a glance that she was mixed in the wind and moon field."
Seeing her again, the woman faded her heavy makeup to become the owner of a noodle shop. She told her story that her husband was sick for a long time and her children were weak. She had to go to nightclubs to earn a living to support her family. Finally saved enough money to take down this store.
Zheng Zhihua was very touched and promised to bring a gift to the woman's son next time. A few months later, when he came back with gifts, he found that the building was empty. The neighbor said that the woman committed suicide and the man left with the child... Zheng Zhihua wrote a song to her:
"Looking in the whimpering alleyways won't get back your first tears."
Just put the soul in an empty pocket
Go to another stranger."
For the sake of reality, she played a dancer; for love, she played a mother. In this life, she has played children, played women, played many roles, but she has never played herself. She's a good actress, but she's a bad screenwriter.
In 1984, a serious mine disaster occurred in The Haishan Coal Mine in Taiwan, and 72 miners were buried deep in the well and killed. At that time, the Taiwan media was full of reports from senior officials of the Taiwan authorities who were "concerned about the coal mine disaster."
Zheng Zhihua collected information about the mining accident, went to the scene on crutches, ate and lived with the miners' families for a month, learned about their real situation, and wrote a poem that became the prototype of the lyrics of his first solo album "The Story of Lao Yuan".
"People from their hometowns were flooded by mines and lost their lives;
Urban people are overwhelmed by desire, but they lose their souls. ”
Every lyric is his concern for the fate of the little people and his contemplation of the current state of society. It is precisely because his creations always come from the real society, so every song is enough to touch people's hearts, some people say: everyone has a Zheng Zhihua in their hearts.
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The two women in his life changed the trajectory of his life
When people are admiring this "singer fighter" and hoping that it will create glory again, Zheng Zhihua quickly retreated from the peak and disappeared.
In 1999, a year after completing her twelfth album The Last Night City, Zheng Zhihua married zhang Yuya, a designer who was 7 years younger than her, and immediately announced her retirement from the music scene, when he was 38 years old.
When he was young, Zheng Zhihua once declared that he was only in love and did not marry. It turned out that in his early years, when he was at his worst, he had experienced a first love that made him "difficult to reconcile" for life, and due to the opposition of the girl's family, the two finally regretted separating. After the loss of love, Zheng Zhihua wrote more than 10 songs, silently pinning his feelings and sorrows that he could not let go in the song and buried deep in his heart.
Over the years, Zheng Zhihua has always felt that he is a wandering man all his life, and he wants to dock, but there is nowhere to put it. In the more than 3 years of dating Zhang Yuya, he did not want to get married, because he was worried that his leg disease would affect others. But Zhang Yuya held him in tears, "Everyone has flaws, and what is invisible is terrible." I love you like this, because of the truth and heart. ”
True love, thinking of your good, is more receptive to your bad.
"The love that ended in my early years was a thorn in my heart, until I met my wife. I know that this life is her, she does not dislike me, I am willing to give up everything for her, to give her long-term companionship. So Zheng Zhihua left the music scene and left time and companionship to his family.
After marriage, he wrote a song for his wife, "A Man Like Me", and the truth was revealed:
"Men like me are not as strong as you think,
Men like me drift in the world,
If your tolerant chest is the harbor where I anchor,
Let me find a place to rely on between dreams and reality. ”
If the appearance of his wife Zhang Yuya softened his hard heart, then the arrival of his daughter completely melted his heart.
In 2000, Zheng Zhihua's life added another joy, and their love crystallized - daughter Anqi was born. For his daughter, Zheng Zhihua confessed: "I used to be a very bad man (smoking, playing mahjong), but I was a very good father. My dad can score at least 90 points, except for my father, who is not as handsome as other children, I have everything that my father should have. ”
Due to physical defects, Zheng Zhihua's own childhood was not perfect. In order to make up for his regrets, he did his best to accompany his daughter to grow up. Help his daughter bathe, change diapers, read for her; smoke addiction attacks, as long as the daughter is around, he must endure not to smoke; the original day and night are reversed, and now the work and rest time is all the same as the daughter; every night to sing "Memory" to the daughter, often have to sing countless times before she can fall asleep. He said that the only person who could conquer me in this life was my daughter.
When Anqi was a child, Zheng Zhihua also hoped that she could be like herself, like to write and sing, and write a beautiful brush, because she was Zheng Zhihua's daughter. But Anqi did not have any of these hobbies of her father, especially no interest in writing brush words, and Zheng Zhihua was once very depressed.
Once, after he forced his daughter to practice brush writing for several hours, her daughter ignored him for a day. If it were before, anyone who ignored Zheng Zhihua like this would have gone crazy. But now he's actually beginning to reflect on himself: if his daughter can inherit his strengths, she can enlighten herself in some aspects, of course, it is great. What if I don't know? 99% of children in the world do not necessarily follow the wishes of their parents.
Thinking of this, he took the initiative to apologize to his daughter: "Although Daddy is older, his hormones are still very young, so I apologize for forcing you to write." After apologizing, Zheng Zhihua also took the initiative to establish a family rule: "Daddy's speech to Angel in the future cannot always be based on his own position." ”
Although Anqi's preferences are not at all like her father Zheng Zhihua, she also has her own unique hobbies. Zheng Anqi likes opera, when she was 4 years old, she watched "Madame Butterfly" at home alone, so boring and lengthy Italian opera, this little child can watch tears. This made Zheng Zhihua very surprised: How can my daughter be stranger than me?
In addition, Angel also enjoys dancing, English, crosstalk, violin, yoga, all plants and insects. Pulled by his daughter to go on an outing, the daughter happily basked in the sun, but Zheng Zhihua hid in the shade to drink coffee; the daughter always took some flowers and plants to ask him what kind of variety, Zheng Zhihua's answer was: "Red is the flower, green is the grass." Later, when she heard others praise her father, Zheng Anqi would say dismissively: "Hum! He doesn't even have the most basic common sense of plants, what's so great! ”
What annoyed Zheng Zhihua the most was that her daughter liked all animals except humans. She used to put lizards in boys' drawers, scaring people so much that they didn't dare to come to school. She raised countless bugs at home, which scared Zheng Zhihua into not entering her daughter's room.
The daughter grabbed a caterpillar and asked him when he could become a butterfly and what kind of butterfly he would become. In order not to be slandered by his daughter, Zheng Zhihua had to check the information all night, but the next day he was still confused. When her daughter didn't get an answer from him, she would despise him: "How can you be so inferior!" Zheng Zhihua humbly apologized, eager to find a hole in the ground to drill into.
Not only that, but this father was managed to death by his daughter. "I always thought that my wife had always been very indulgent to me, and that she didn't care about me at all. With this 'lawless' daughter, I learned that she was an undercover agent sent by my wife. ”
After becoming a father, Zheng Zhihua completely quit gambling and tried to push away all socializing. But this is not enough, Angie stipulates that he can't go home more than 7 o'clock in the evening, and after 7 o'clock, his daughter will open the "death serial call" before he arrives, constantly asking: "Why haven't you arrived yet?" When the fire rushed to the house, the daughter would block Zheng Zhihua at the door for questioning. After the questioning, a letter of guarantee will be written, and the letter of guarantee will be signed and sealed, and the next time you commit another offense, you will be severely punished.
Sometimes Zheng Zhihua is busy with work all day and forgets to take care of her daughter, and she will paint a picture: the father in the painting is buried in work, and there is a crying little girl behind him. After Zheng Zhihua saw the painting, he would immediately stop working at hand, apologize to his daughter, and then play with her to meet all her requirements.
Zheng Zhihua did not dare to play poker with people, and if she found out about smoking, she would have to write a long review.
Dad is in the field, And Angel will call every day to "check the post": "Dad, remember that you are a man with a family!" After this admonition, he asked, "Have you smoked?" Have you ever been at the table? Have you ever dated a pretty aunt? "I often ask Zheng Zhihua scared, but after getting a satisfactory answer, Anqi will gently instruct her father to pay attention to safety, take medicine on time, and tell her in advance when she returns to Taiwan...
When it comes to his daughter, Zheng Zhihua is always full of love, and he is grateful to God for giving him such an elf and eccentric daughter, so the years have spared him, and he is reluctant to carve the marks of wind and frost and tribulations on his face. He said: "I never worry about being forgotten, the only thing I care about is my daughter, whether she will have a smoother and happier life than I am." ”
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Although he retreated, he never let go of the oar of life
The company of his family has gradually made this former "fighter" gradually become soft. Usually, Zheng Zhihua will post some self-written words, painting works, and lacquerware on Weibo. Constantly looking for the small fortune that was once lost in life.
With his daughter's encouragement, he began to pick up his paintbrush again, looking for the fun and dreams that had been stifled away as a child. In May 2018, Zheng Zhihua opened an exhibition in Beijing called "Coddling". The 36 oil paintings are highly colored, all of which are cartoon images.
Zheng Zhihua's music is critical, implying his concern for society and his clear attitude. Similarly, his paintings also have realism and the meaning of the times, "Many people think that my paintings are quite cute at first glance, in fact, there are hidden knives in laughter, and salt in sugar." ”
For example, "Who Is Naked" talks about aesthetic homogenization, "Habitual Action" only poses one action when people take pictures, and "Porcelain Poppy" talks about the harm of drugs.
Whether singing or painting, he felt that he always had to leave some evidence to live.
Although Zheng Zhihua, who is nearly a year old, has retired from the jianghu, in his heart, he is still the hot-blooded tough guy who dares to speak out for the people and speak out.
People have sighed, Zheng Zhihua or Zheng Zhihua, not old at all, still sharp. In time, he was like a beacon lit by the stars; when he retreated, he was still the sailor who paddled against the waves.
Heaven gave him an incomplete body and created his imperfect childhood. However, he never chose to bow to such a fate, nor did he ever make a compromise, as his song sings, "What does he say about this pain in the wind and rain?" Wipe away the tears and don't be afraid, at least we still have dreams. ”
He used his tenacity, full of strength, to fight against the unfair fate, and used his own enthusiasm to live his own hot life.
In life, each of us is crippled, but some people's imperfections are visible, and some people are invisible. As the famous saying goes, everything has cracks, and that's where the light comes in. In the face of the imperfections of life, we can still choose to be optimistic, strong and brave to pursue a beautiful heart and a complete spiritual world.