Acceptance: When do you perceive that the other person doesn't love you anymore? When?
7
I was soft in nature, just like I only dared to sit on the side of the court and watch He Yuan play silently, I liked this matter, and I didn't dare to say it easily.
The bravest thing I ever did was probably to write a confession letter to He Yuan and ask the team's classmates to pass it on to him.
Unexpectedly, he refused so crisply and thoroughly.
Thinking of this, I couldn't help but have a little gambling in my voice: "I don't choose him, do I choose you?"
He Yuan narrowed his eyes, suddenly lowered his head slightly, and approached me:
"What's wrong with choosing me?" Am I still inferior to your cheating ex-boyfriend?"
His tone was tinged with sarcasm again, and my eyes were sour, and I couldn't care less about this somewhat ambiguous posture, so I turned my head and left.
He Yuan did not catch up.
The light that fell on my face went from dark to bright, and I stood in the door of the box and slowed down for a while, making my expression look as calm as possible.
However, I was about to push the door in when it suddenly opened from the inside.
Lin Ke stood in the doorway, his eyes frozen on my face for a moment, and when he fell behind me, his look suddenly became a little ugly.
I turned my head, only to find that He Yuan didn't know when he had followed again.
After a moment, Linke suddenly spoke:
"I said how He Yuan was fine in Beijing for six years, and suddenly came back this year... Meng Zhi, you have already hooked up, right? What right do you have to condemn me?"
His eyes were cold, and there were inexplicably many obscure emotions in them.
It's just that...... His accusations against me for the false accusation made me completely lazy to guess his thoughts, only to feel a wave of anger pouring out of my heart.
I was about to refute Lin Ke, but He Yuan opened his mouth one step ahead of me.
"Why, if you make your own cheating garbage, it depends on everyone being the same?" Rest assured, I'm back because of a job transfer, and as for tonight... That's called seeing righteousness."
With one hand in his cargo pants pocket, the other reached over and flipped the back of my neck, and I realized that the collar of my sweater had actually folded in.
When he was done, he said lazily to me, "Okay, let's go in."
From beginning to end, he didn't look at Lin Ke head-on.
Du Ling said he was bking, and sure enough.
I nodded slightly, and was about to cross Lin Ke into the door, but he suddenly reached out and clasped my wrist tightly.
"Let go!"
I subconsciously threw it away, and the next second, a faint sweet fragrance suddenly drifted over.
When I returned to God, I found that it was Qu Xinyao.
She looked at Link, then at me, and frowned slightly:
"Meng Zhi, you and Lin Ke have already broken up, why do you want to pestering him endlessly?"
The tone sounded justified, exactly the same as countless times before.
I finally couldn't bear it anymore, took a step back, stared at the two people, gritted my teeth and scolded, "Brazen!"
"Obviously, you have no shame in pursuing Lin Ke before he broke up." Now that I have broken up with Link, what position are you taking to question me? Do you think I'm going to be like you, with no moral bottom line?"
Lin Ke and Qu Xinyao looked at me in shock, and Han Yan couldn't speak.
Probably because I used to be silent and tolerant, they felt that I would never fight back, so I became more and more unscrupulous.
But at this moment, He Yuan, who was standing next to me, seemed to have accumulated a little courage to support me, so that I finally expressed the emotions in my heart.
I suddenly remembered that at the beginning, before the college entrance examination, I went with He Yuan to take the independent admissions examination of F University.
After the interview, my face was very ugly, and a boy next to me sneered twice, saying that I would definitely not be able to record.
He Yuan was originally looking down at the book, but when he heard it, he suddenly raised his head and looked at him, and the corners of his lips were slightly ticked:
"Even if she can't record it, you can?" I take myself a little too seriously."
His words gave me the courage to fight back.
I lifted my eyes and looked at the boy:
"Chen Ze from the thirty-seventh class of high school, right?" If I remember correctly, your written test score seems to be the last. Is that why you wish everyone had a bad interview result?"
Chen Ze's face suddenly turned livid.
Later, after the interview, we walked back together, and when we walked to the corner of the stairs, He Yuan suddenly raised his hand and rubbed the top of my hair:
"Looking silent, people will really find pain points."
Memories come back to mind.
I didn't want to look at Link's expression anymore, so I squeezed them into the private room, took my coat from the coat rack on the side, and walked to the door as I put it on.
Du Ling caught up with me and walked outside the door with me, but took the initiative to take a step back when she saw He Yuan:
"Classmate He, I suddenly remembered that there is still something to do, are you free to wait?" Can I send Zhizhi home?"
He Yuan nodded casually, "Yes."
"Well, that's going to bother you."
She poked me lightly in the back, "Go, Zhizhi, I'll find you another day."
8
It wasn't until I sat in He Yuan's car for a long time that the violent emotions in my heart slowly subsided.
He reached for the air conditioner, put one hand on the steering wheel, and asked me sideways, "Address?"
I reported the address of my home.
He Yuan casually responded, then suddenly leaned over and reached out to pull out the seat belt from the other side of me: "Buckle it."
As he looked down, the soft ends of his hair brushed my cheeks, tickling to the touch.
A faint cedar aroma wafts into the nose.
My face suddenly turned red rapidly.
With the action of fastening my seat belt on my side, I lowered my head and said somewhat panickedly, "I, I can come by myself."
He Yuan started the car and chuckled, "I'm afraid you won't find it."
On the way back, light snow gradually drifted outside the car window, and the cold gray ground was wet, and soon covered with a thin layer of white.
He Yuan parked the car downstairs at my house, a cold wind poured in, I carefully stood on the ground, turned my head and thanked He Yuan:
"Thank you... He Classmate."
He stood by the side of the car, and the smile under his eyes suddenly faded: "Classmate He?"
"Meng Zhizhi, I've never seen you so polite."
Behind him was a street lamp, the light was dim, it was late at night, it was snowing again, and the green belt of the community had withered away.
In this scene, only He Yuan, who was standing two steps away from me, jumped out vividly with open vitality.
I immediately thought of the third year of high school, before the winter vacation, it snowed for several days in a row, so in the physical education class on Friday, the teacher simply let us move freely.
Everyone started a snowball fight childishly.
He Yuan's personality has always been stubborn, and no one dares to provoke him.
But Du Ling and I had a good time, and all of a sudden, we confiscated it, and a ball of snow fell on his head.
Realizing that something was wrong, I turned my head and ran, but unfortunately, the man's short legs were short, and he had just run two steps, and he Yuan, who was chasing him, grabbed his hat.
Seeing that he was about to smash the snowball over, I quickly covered my head and shouted, "I have a cold!"
The snowball suddenly stopped in mid-air, and countless emotions surged and fell silent in the bright eyes behind it.
He casually threw away the snow, and his cool fingertips reached over and rubbed off a small piece of snow on the tip of my nose: "Keep warm."
With that, he let go of my hat, turned and left.
"Hurry up, be careful you have a cold again."
He Yuan's slightly hoarse voice rose and pulled me back to reality.
I looked up at him and realized that even after six years, the complex temperament of his emotions was still fascinating.
If.
If the original ambiguity was not my delusion, he finally agreed to my confession.
If the person who accompanied me through six years of youth was not Lin Ke, but He Yuan.
Will the ending be very different today?
I felt a surge of courage in my heart: "It's too cold, do you want to go up and sit down and have a cup of tea?"
It was almost the New Year, and my parents went back to my grandmother's house today to get bacon sausages, because it was too late, so I simply stayed there.
So, I'm the only one in the house tonight.
He Yuan sat on the sofa, stared down at the glass in his hand for three seconds, and then raised his head: "Tea?"
"That... There is no hot water at home, I am burning, you first drink some red wine to quench your thirst."
What a botched excuse.
I confessed that I was too nervous to relax with some wine and then have the next conversation with He Yuan.
Sure enough, He Yuan sneered, as if he had seen through my thoughts, but he still looked up and drank the half of the glass of red wine.
I sat across from him, sipping the red wine from my glass, wondering where it would be better to cut the conversation.
Reminiscing?
After all, me and him... I haven't seen it in six years.
Thinking of this, I took a deep breath and asked him, "How did you come back from Beijing this year?"
"The company set up a branch here, and it happened to have a more suitable position for me, so I came back."
When he finished, he paused slightly, and then said, "And..."
9
And what, he didn't finish.
I plucked up the courage to ask, "Is it really just because of this?"
"Or else?" As if he had heard some funny question, he sat up straight and ticked the corner of his lips, "Classmate Meng Zhi, according to your point of view, can I still do anything else?"
He actually called me Meng Zhi classmate.
I instantly thought of the letter of rejection that left no room, and my heart became sad again.
"Or do you think I came back from Beijing because of you?"
A low voice came into my ears, but it was like a thunderclap, and my sanity was also blown apart by this sentence.
Catalyzed by the alcohol, I pounced, grabbed the collar of his sweatshirt, and approached his face.
Alcohol spreads between breaths.
"How can you call me Meng Zhi classmate..."
I finished speaking with some grievance, so I reached up and kissed him.
He Yuan did not push me away, but closed his eyes.
After knowing each other for nine years, it was as if it was the first time I had seen him look so docile.
Originally, I wanted to have some wine, and when I relaxed, I would talk to He Yuan about the previous things.
But I overestimated my own alcohol intake.
By the end, I had almost completely lost the ability to think, grabbed him by the collar, and cried and asked:
"You didn't push me away, doesn't that mean you like me too?" If so, why did you reject my confession in the first place?"
He Yuan frowned, "What confession?"
And then the rest of the day, I don't remember at all.
By the time I opened my eyes, it was already the next morning.
In the quilt, he wore only a thin undershirt.
It was delayed for a few seconds, and the memory of last night's break slowly returned to my mind.
My heart was shaking, and I vaguely felt that things were not good.
Sure enough, when I packed up and walked to the living room, I saw He Yuan sitting on the sofa, looking down at his mobile phone.
He was still wearing the sweatshirt he had worn last night, but it was rubbed a little, and there were still some unknown traces of liquid drying up on his chest.
Hearing the movement, he looked up.
I saw a tooth mark on his chin and a weak leg that he almost couldn't stand.
"What happened last night, you should remember it all, right?" He put the phone in his pocket and looked at me with a raised eyebrow, "Meng Zhizhi, yes, I haven't seen it in six years, and I'm a lot bolder."
"I..."
I was speechless for a moment.
But strangely, the mood was not as flustered as originally thought.
He Yuan didn't look angry.
This means that while something went wrong halfway through, the result wasn't much different from what I had assumed.
Thinking of this, I plucked up the courage and raised my eyes to look at him again: "I know, I will be responsible for you."
He Yuan was stunned for a moment, and his mood seemed to have become much better. He looked at me with his chin propped up, "How are you going to take charge?"
My mind wandered for a moment, and I was silent for a while, and then tentatively asked, "If you were single now, would I be able to chase you?"
What answered me was He Yuan's sudden action of getting up.
I was startled and watched him walk up to me, looking down at me slightly, the emotions in my eyes were complicated for a moment.
He said, "Okay."
10
I took the toast tablets from the fridge, briefly dealt with He Yuan for breakfast, and then sent him downstairs.
"My parents are coming back soon, and I'll ask you out again after the end of the year."
I waved at Heyuan and then pointed to his sweatshirt, "... Go back and change your clothes."
Not long after He Yuan's car drove away, my parents returned.
They carried large bags of sausage bacon and saw me standing downstairs, which was very unexpected:
"Zhizhi, I didn't contact you with your father, why did you go downstairs and wait?"
I was a little weak-hearted, and I was busy taking two bags from their hands: "I'm afraid that your things are too heavy to carry, and I want to come down and take care of them."
While my mother lamented that I was too sensible, she scolded Lin Ke twice, saying that he must have been very kind to me before.
At this point, she immediately stopped speaking, as if she knew that she had lost her words, and looked at me with some regret.
I shook my head, "Mom, I'm all right."
It's really okay.
Because I found that after last night, those in my heart who were attached to The six years of time with Lin Ke and the pain of his cheating Qu Xinyao quickly faded away.
In its place was the heart of He Yuan, who had been deliberately forgotten for six years and then surged up again.
Two days later, Du Ling came to me again and asked me if I knew that after the party that day, Qu Xinyao and Lin Ke had quarreled.
"Qu Xinyao said that Lin Ke still had you in his heart, and Lin Ke did not immediately deny it, and she was even more angry." Du Ling laughed and said, "Sure enough, I was the third in command myself, and I was afraid that the garbage would be picked up by others again."
I didn't speak.
She asked me again, "By the way, didn't bking send you home that night?" Did you talk again later?"
「...... Nothing."
Actually, there is.
From the moment I said I wanted to chase After He Yuan, I began to rack my brains to find a topic to chat with him.
He replied to me very promptly, and even heard that I had a bit of a cold, and went downstairs to give me a medicine.
The memories that were left behind six years ago are being recovered little by little.
Du Ling sighed with some regret, "Actually, if you can be with He Yuan, it will be very good, he will stay at home and develop in the future." And, to be honest, from high school, I thought you were a better match for bking. There are so many girls in our class, he is only the most special to you."
"Unfortunately, after graduation, it was Lin Ke who confessed to you, and he didn't move at all."
I wrote a confession letter to He Yuan, and even Du Ling didn't tell me.
Therefore, she did not know that He Yuan had rejected me in the first place.
Thinking of this, I felt a little uncomfortable again, and I quickly diverted the topic.
On the morning of the first day of the Chinese New Year, I said Happy New Year to He Yuan, and he also replied to me in seconds: "Happy New Year, Meng Zhizhi."
Because the next day was Valentine's Day, I plucked up the courage to ask him out:
"Are you free tomorrow?" There's a New Year movie that's not bad, can you come out and watch a movie together?"
After a while, He Yuan replied, "Tomorrow there is something to do, another day appointment."
My mood plummeted.
Something?
Is it to go to relatives, or... Going out on a date with another girl?
Soon, I knew what was going on with him.
Because at lunchtime, my mother suddenly mentioned the blind date to me:
「...... Your aunt Wu's neighbor's son, can have a career, and you for a year, when the university was Peking University. Originally going to settle in Beijing, his parents followed him, but at the end of the year, his job was transferred and he suddenly came back."
"I said I was busy studying during college, and I never talked about a relationship..."
The more I listened, the more familiar it became, and I couldn't help but interrupt my mother and ask, "What is his name?"
"It seems to be called He Yuan."
I was stunned, and my mood became terrible.
My mother didn't notice it, and was still nagging to me about the advantages of He Yuan.
At the end, she asked me with some caution:
"How about, why don't you meet first and have a meal to find out?" Tomorrow is time, and the days are good."
I was silent for a moment, gritted my teeth and agreed, "Okay."
11
The next day, I dressed up and rushed to the scene in a menacing manner.
As soon as I entered the door, I was looking at Shanghe Yuan.
Calm, unbridled, even with a little light-hearted smile.
I walked over and sat down across from him, stared into his eyes and asked, "Do you know who I am?"
He Yuan immediately smiled, "Meng Zhizhi, are you stupid?"
I endured the sourness in my heart and asked him:
"Since you promised me to chase you that day, why did you come on a blind date today?" Does it matter if I can be one of your many candidates?"
By the end, there was a faint cry in my voice.
I can accept that He Yuan doesn't like me and rejects me, but I can't accept that he is chatting with me hotly while just using me as a spare tire.
Listening to me ask this, He Yuan's expression had a rare hint of helplessness.
He sighed and asked me, "Since you all said you wanted to chase me, why did you come on a blind date today?"
"It's not because I know it's you!"
"Me too."
He reached out, gently took my hand on the table, and repeated, "Meng Zhizhi, I'm just like you."
...... yes?
Under He Yuan's explanation, I finally understood.
He first confirmed with the Aunt Wu that the blind date was me, and then agreed to come down.
"Yesterday I asked you out, why didn't you just say it?"
"I'll surprise you." Also, since you said you were going to chase me, it would be more reassuring to have this matter in front of the elders."
He regained his casual look and handed me the menu in his hand:
"Okay, let's order." I've already bought a ticket for the movie you talked about yesterday, and we'll watch it after dinner."
I also lost my temper, took the menu, ordered a few dishes according to my own and the tastes of He Yuan in my memory, and then concentrated on eating with my head down.
The theater where he bought his tickets was in the opposite commercial block.
It is the New Year's Holiday, and it is Valentine's Day, and the mall can be described as crowded.
He Yuan and I walked side by side to the door of the theater, He Yuan went to the side to get tickets, and I went to buy popcorn Coke.
As a result, just after reaching the end of the line, Yu Guang suddenly caught a glimpse, and two familiar figures walked obliquely.
It was Lin Ke and Qu Xinyao.
The next second after seeing me, Qu Xinyao immediately narrowed his smile and turned his head to look at Lin Ke's expression.
Lin Ke looked at me and pursed his lips, "You're alone?"
"What's the matter with you?"
As soon as I finished speaking, He Yuan took the ticket and came back.
Seeing He Yuan, Lin Ke's look suddenly became extremely ugly, and the look in his eyes looking at me became more and more obscure.
He Yuan glanced at them, did not stop for a moment, and looked at me again: "The ticket is ready, let's go."
His attitude, as if the two people in front of him, were no different from ordinary passers-by, and it wasn't even worth him wasting half a look.
I reached out and took his arm and turned and walked toward the ticket gate.
From beginning to end, like He Yuan, I didn't look at Lin Ke again.
12
The movie is actually an ordinary New Year romance film, decent, and the ending is also a reunion that everyone has always loved to watch, lively and lively, which is very in line with the atmosphere of the New Year.
However, when the male and female protagonists finally embraced and kissed each other, the atmosphere in the theater suddenly became ambiguous.
I sat in the last row, looking at the inseparable little couple in front of me, a little embarrassed, and a little stupid.
In the midst of the entanglement, a warm hand reached over and gently covered the back of my hand.
This contact gave me great encouragement, and I clasped my backhand with He Yuan's ten fingers, turned to the side and whispered, "You lower your head a little."
Then kiss it.
The kiss was short, and the dragonfly passed like water, but I was completely awake at the moment like I was drunk that night, so when I stepped back, my face quickly turned red.
Fortunately, the light in the movie theater was dim, and He Yuan didn't notice, he just put his forehead against my forehead and said very quietly, "Meng Zhizhi, are you so bold now?"
I pretended to be calm: "I said I was going to chase you, of course I have to take the initiative."
After watching the movie, He Yuan sent me home and then said goodbye to me where he had parked last time.
When I went upstairs and looked down at the window, I found that He Yuan had not left.
He stood where he was, leaning against the street lamp, a slug of smoke between his fingers, flickering in the darkening sky.
I suddenly realized that in fact, He Yuan had always had the habit of smoking.
It was only because I had chronic pharyngitis and coughed when he smelled smoke, so when he was in front of me, he rarely even pulled out the cigarette case.
Obviously, he seems to be a casual and casual person, but he is extremely careful in this kind of thing.
I raised my hand against my chest and clearly felt my heart beating faster.
"Zhizhi."
My mother's voice interrupted my thoughts, and when I turned my head, I realized that she and my dad were standing behind me, carefully asking:
"How did you feel when you met Xiaohe today?" Did you have a good chat?"
「...... It's good, he just sent me home."
My mom seemed relieved:
"That's good, that's good." You get along well with Xiaohe, he is very kind to you, and my mother thinks that this child is more reliable than Lin Ke' person..."
I listened patiently to her warm nagging and couldn't help but think of before.
In the time when I just broke up with Lin Ke before the New Year, I had not yet re-met He Yuan and had not picked up the love I once liked him.
Even insomnia until late every day, because as soon as you close your eyes, you will have a picture of Lin Ke and Qu Xinyao being particularly intimate.
The most desperate and helpless time was when my parents stayed up with me little by little.
Thinking of this, I took a deep breath, walked over to hug my mother, buried my face in her shoulder, and said in a muffled voice:
"I'll get along with him, Mom, you don't have to worry."
13
After the New Year's holidays, I went back to work.
I work in the provincial capital, and my hometown is in the nearest third-tier town.
After I went back, I learned that the branch set up by Heyuan and their company was not far away, and there were only six subway stations away from me.
Probably by coincidence, the house he Yuan rented was in the neighborhood opposite me.
Because of the proximity, frequent contact has become logical.
At the beginning, it was I who took the initiative to ask He Yuan to have dinner together after work every day, and later, as long as I didn't work overtime, this became a tacit understanding.
That night, approaching DDL, I stayed up at work until eleven o'clock to get out of work because I was staring at a plan.
The subway has stopped, I want to take a taxi home, only to go to the park door to pull out the mobile phone, only to find that I don't know when the battery is out.
Now it was impossible to go back and recharge, and I stood in the bitter night wind, unprepared.
It was also at this time that a familiar black sedan stopped in front of me. The car window rolled down, revealing He Yuan's face.
He frowned, and his expression looked a little cold: "How did you shut down?" The phone is dead?"
"Hmm... Busy changing the plan, did not pay attention."
I got into the car, rubbed my cheeks with my frozen fingertips, and whispered, "It's so late, how did you think of picking me up?"
"Because it's so late, you don't reply to the message, and the phone is turned off."
As he spoke, he started the car and glanced at me sideways:
"Two days ago, there was a girl walking at night and encountered the news of robbery, Meng Zhizhi, I don't trust you alone."
I ghostly remind God of last year.
That day when it was raining heavily, Lin Ke personally drove to pick up Qu Xinyao and went home, letting me take a taxi alone, and when the queue arrived at me, it was already midnight.
In fact, I was very timid, it was too late that day, plus I watched a lot of social news, I was also scared to death, on the way home I have been on WeChat and Du Ling connected to the wheat, until I arrived home safely.
Then I saw Qu Xinyao's circle of friends.
Even though I don't have feelings for Link now, the sadness at the beginning is real.
The car stopped at the entrance of the neighborhood where I lived.
After getting out of the car, I was about to say goodbye to He Yuan, but he got out of the car and said that he would send me downstairs.
"It's too late, I'm afraid you're not safe."
I walked side by side with him through a dark road, through the green belt, downstairs where I lived.
"After working too late, call me directly and I'll pick you up."
"Okay, you go up." He waved at me casually, "Get home and rest early."
After I arrived home, I sent He Yuan a message of safe arrival at the first time, and then put down my mobile phone and went to take a shower.
That night, I was not sleepy for a while, so I lay in bed thinking about the past.
I was timid, and He Yuan always knew this.
In high school, people often play movies before studying late.
If it was a horror movie, I would be scared to death with the prelude, and I wouldn't watch the movie, so I ran straight out of the classroom and went to the hallway to relax.
At this time, generally He Yuan would follow out, lean against the corridor railing next to me, and bury his head in mobile games.
I asked him why he didn't go in and watch a movie.
He Yuan looked up at me, and his tone seemed very casual: "I've seen it before, so I came out to breathe."
As a result, he does this in almost every horror film.
At that time, I was stupid enough to ask him, "Do you like to watch horror movies?" How come I've seen every one of them?"
Only now, I have reacted to it, and my original self is sometimes quite dull.
14
After that day, He Yuan began to pick me up after every overtime I worked.
Even a few times, after taking me safely downstairs, he turned back to his company and continued to work on projects.
I just learned that he was sent to the newly established branch, which belongs to the core personnel of the R&D department, which is very important, so he is usually very busy.
But even so, he often replied to my messages in seconds.
On the anniversary day, the company sent us a benefit - two tickets to the hot spring hotel.
I called He Yuan and asked him if he wanted to be together.
There were a few keystrokes on the other side of the phone, followed by He Yuan's voice with a little laughter:
"You're going to go to the hot springs with me?"
I blushed slightly, "Well, I heard that the hotel buffet is also very good..."
"Well, let's wait until this rush is over."
I could feel that the distance between us was getting closer and closer.
The feelings that were left in the river of time before were also recovered little by little, and even became more and more vibrant in getting along day and night.
He Yuan has a charming temperament that makes me very excited, and also has a thoughtful and meticulous and considerate care.
Occasionally, when I talk to my mom, she'll say, "You're a good match for Xiaohe."
It's just that...... Every time I think of the rejected confession letter, I still lose the courage to confess to He Yuan again.
When I went out in the morning, I made a special appointment with He Yuan and ate together after work in the evening.
However, just after work, I received a call from a strange number.
"Meng Zhi, it's me, He Zhinian."
I was a few seconds late to remember that this person was a member of our high school basketball team and lived in a neighborhood with He Yuan's family.
At the beginning, because I took the driver's license, He Yuan was admitted to Peking University again, so he was very busy, and the time of the two people has not been right.
The confession letter I sent to He Yuan was entrusted to him.
Later replies were also given to me by him.
"What?"
"Link is drunk at the bar and keeps chanting your name, can you... Come over?"
I wanted to say no, but he said:
"You better come over, when you first confessed that to He Yuan, I have something to say to you."
This matter was so important to me that my heart sank, so I reached for the car and went straight to the address he had given me.
On the way there, I suddenly thought of a question: Didn't He Zhinian have a good relationship with He Yuan? When did he and Linke get so acquainted?
With the warm light, I walked quickly to the corner table and reached out and knocked on the tabletop.
Lin Ke raised his drunken misty eyes and looked at me: "Zhizhi..."
"You're still with He Yuan, aren't you?"
I took a deep breath and said, "What does this have to do with you?" Lin Ke, it was you who cheated first, and you didn't question my qualifications."
"Then you shouldn't choose He Yuan either!" He had already rejected your confession, do you think he really likes you?"
I suddenly froze, leaned down to support the tabletop, stared at him, and said word by word: "How do you know that He Yuan rejected my confession?"
He Zhinian pulled me aside, and his voice was full of apologies:
"I'm sorry, Meng Zhi. I admit that the letter was not delivered to He Yuan at all, including the "reply letter," which was written by Lin Ke."
It was like a thunderclap in the clear sky was splitting from my mind, and my face was pale, and I could hardly stand still.
"When I finished the college entrance examination, my mother said she would take me to meet a good girlfriend for decades. When we met, I found out that her girlfriend's son was Lin Ke. I had a great time with Linko and he told me that he really liked you. He Yuan was not there for a few days, so after I believed you gave it to me, Lin Ke knew about it, and I gave it to him along the water..."
Finally, he hesitated and took a packed box from the backpack behind him:
"Actually, at that time, He Yuan couldn't always collide with you, and he heard me say that he wanted to go swimming with you, so before going to Beijing, he also asked me to give you something."
15
I don't need him to say the rest of the matter.
He Yuan did not receive my confession letter, but I thought he had rejected me.
His gifts were not delivered to me at all.
"Some time ago, He Yuan actually asked me about this. I didn't tell him the truth at the time, but after thinking about it, I thought I should tell you the truth."
In the face of his apologetic face, I could neither say harsh words nor forgiveness.
At the end of the day, it's me who's not brave enough.
Even if I received such a reply, as long as I had the courage to ask He Yuan at that time, the result would be completely different.
Behind me, a drunken Link was still chanting, and I put the gift box in my bag and turned and walked over to him.
He suddenly raised his head and asked me with a sneer:
"If you hadn't been sitting on the edge of the basketball court and helping me with my wounds during the game, would I have misunderstood that you were interested in me?" You are so with He Yuan now, so what was our previous relationship? In the previous six years, you said that you liked me countless times, was it all fake?"
I suddenly felt that he and Qu Xinyao were really a good match.
One is self-righteous, one is indomitable.
The point is that both people have no moral bottom line and will never feel like they are at fault.
I picked up the bottle on the table and dripped the whole bottle of wine off his head.
"I was sitting on the edge of the basketball court doing the question to see He Yuan, treating your wounds because I was a life committee member, and from the beginning, the person I liked was He Yuan." 」
I gritted my teeth and restrained the trembling in my voice: "Those six years were originally stolen from He Yuan."
"Link, I didn't like you for a long time, and now that I know the truth, I just feel disgusting, you know?"
Lin Ke sat there drenched, confused, but did not move.
He looked up at me, and the light under his eyes went out inch by inch, revealing a little bit of despair.
I walked away without looking back.
On the way back, I opened the gift box in the taxi and found a book inside, "Love Letters" by Shunji Iwai.
Memories flow back in this moment.
In high school, the class let the movie go.
When I saw the ending, I cried a lot, and told He Yuan, who was sitting next to me, that I liked Fujii's introverted and affectionate confession too much.
It turned out that he heard it, remembered it, and tried to convey his heart to me in the same way.
It's just a yin and yang error, and I received it every six years.
After getting out of the car, I walked into the neighborhood with the book in my arms and sat on a bench under the street lamp.
The night was cold, and I finally stopped suppressing my emotions and buried my face between my knees and cried bitterly.
At this moment, the emotion that came to my mind was not resentment, nor regret and regret.
Just infinite astringency and sourness.
My fantasy was finally verified, if I hadn't missed He Yuan in the first place, if the person who accompanied me through my youth had always been him, these six years of life would have been completely different.
I shed tears silently for a long time, until I dimly heard a familiar voice: "Meng Zhizhi?"
I looked up.
He Yuan stood in front of me, a few steps away, and my tear-stained face was reflected in the clear pupils.
"What are you crying here—"
His eyes swept over and landed on the book in my hand, and his tone suddenly stopped: "Is this book still in your hands?"
I heard the tone as if there was a hint, and looked at him in shock.
He Yuan came over, reached out and gently patted the top of my hair, and sat down next to me.
The night breeze was slightly cool, and between the body temperature transfers, the skin of the back of his hand gradually warmed up.
"The last time you were drunk and asked me why I rejected your confession, I thought it was a little strange because I had never heard your confession. On the contrary, in my impression, when He Zhinian sent you a book, your attitude towards me suddenly became very cold, and later with Lin Ke, I felt that this was a very euphemistic refusal, and it was quite in line with your consistent personality."
"So, I went to ask He Zhinian."
"He didn't admit it, but I actually guessed something—for example, the book didn't get to you at all, didn't it?"
I sucked in my nose and nodded my head slightly.
He Yuan pulled the corner of his lips: "Sure enough."
The air was quiet for a moment.
Suddenly, he said, "Actually, in my junior year, I saw you once."
I looked at him in amazement.
"There's a competition, and the final is held at your university. I followed the teacher who led the team and saw you and Link at the entrance of the gymnasium."
He said, and smiled a little, "You look up at him, you look at him very intently, and you don't even notice that I walked across the road."
"Then the competition ended, I didn't stop, I just went back."
My heart was sour and astringent, and I was very uncomfortable.
He Yuan suddenly spoke again: "Meng Zhizhi, now that you have received this book, can you tell me the answer?"
「...... What?"
He turned his head to look at me, his eyes serious, and his voice was slightly deep: "After six years, are you still willing to fall in love with me?"
The night wind swept around me with subtle sounds that passed over my ears.
I clearly felt that the heartbeat in my chest was getting faster and faster, and more and more intense, like a drum.
It's a deeper heartbeat than it was six years ago.
Eventually, I nodded seriously, "Okay."
He Yuan smiled for a moment, then held my head and kissed me directly.
16
I told my mother about my relationship with He Yuan.
She was so excited that she wanted to invite the matchmaker Aunt Wu to dinner, and said that she would tell He Yuan's mother about the good news.
I heard something was wrong, and only after questioning did I learn that during this time, she had played several rounds of mahjong with He Yuan's mother, and also went shopping together, establishing a very deep friendship, and looked forward to me and He Yuan together.
I also told He Yuan about it.
He raised an eyebrow and smiled, "Then the next time I go home, I'll go with you to see my aunt first."
Later, when I met Du Ling, I also talked to her.
She looked very excited, scolded Lin Ke twice in front of me, and began to praise Yuan: "I said that you and bking are the most suitable!" Let Lin Ke's dog thing and Qu Xinyao go for a long time!"
I smiled faintly, "But I don't want them to get better."
If he had just cheated on Qu Xinyao, maybe according to my usual personality, I wouldn't have bothered much.
But he intercepted my letter to He Yuan.
At that time in the middle of the year, the project that Lin Ke and Qu Xinyao had previously cooperated on, an APP that claimed to be able to help find a soul mate, finally began to be promoted.
At the same time, I canceled the anonymity of the original post, and then posted the link to the classmate group and the major network breaking news platforms.
A selling point is to find true love and soul mate APP, the project leader is indomitable, digging the wall foot of the small three for six years, and cheating scumbags, how can this wind review be good?
Later, I heard that Qu Xinyao's company talked to her and sent her to other cities to do marginal projects.
Lin Ke was directly dismissed, and the company also deliberately posted the dismissal announcement on the Internet to show that this project has no relationship with Lin Ke from now on.
"Their feelings were already wrong, and after this matter was exposed, Qu Xinyao directly mentioned the breakup, which was very gratifying."
After Sharing the gossip with me, Du Ling sighed again: "I have always felt that with your personality, it is estimated that this matter will not be resolved in the end." I didn't expect you to kill with a direct blow, fierce people--Bao, you honestly confessed, were you influenced by He Yuan?"
I thought, "Maybe there is."
Since high school, he has always been the one who gave me courage.
It's the same now.
After bidding farewell to Du Ling, I looked at it, and it was already dark, and there was a message from He Yuan on my mobile phone:
"Work overtime tonight, you eat first, don't wait for me."
I had a whim and planned to bring him a meal.
An hour later, I stood at the door of Heyuan Company with a small stir-fried yellow beef packed from the Xiang Restaurant downstairs.
The girl at the front desk was very enthusiastic to come and ask who I was looking for, and I was suddenly a little nervous and raised the lunch box in my hand:
"That... I'll bring dinner to He Yuan."
The little girl suddenly realized, turned her head and trotted in, shouting: "Hegong, your girlfriend has come to find you!"
Soon, He Yuan stood in front of me with a slight mess of hair.
I cleared my throat and whispered:
"You're so busy today, you probably haven't bothered to have dinner, have you?" I packed you a little stir-fried yellow beef downstairs..."
He stared at me for a moment, then suddenly reached out and put his arm around my shoulder: "Go in and say."
In the pantry of their company, I met several colleagues of He Yuan.
Everyone greeted me warmly.
"Hey!"
"It turns out you're a shiba berry."
I was stunned and looked at the smiling young man, "What shiba berry?"
He Yuan handed over a warning look, but unfortunately ignored by the man:
"It was He Yuan, when I was in college, many little girls in our school confessed to him, and he didn't agree to any of them." At the time, I thought there was something wrong with his sexual orientation. And one time in the lab, he was staring at his phone screen and smiling, and I looked at it and saw that it was a group chat, and there was a note that the people who had been talking were talking."
"Last October, the company set up a branch, and he was the first to sign up and said he was coming back. Later, I asked him if it was because of Shiba Berry, and he didn't deny it."
I was stunned.
Last October... Isn't that the time when Lin Ke cheated on Qu Xinyao, then proposed to me to break up, and then showed love to Qu Xinyao in the circle of friends?
"A lot of talk."
He Yuan said coldly, took my hand, and pulled me to a separate small room next to me:
"I went to dinner, love dinner, unlike some people who can only pity Baba to order takeout, understand?" 」
The man was angry and cursed a dirty word.
I felt the warm touch coming from my hand and secretly glanced sideways at He Yuan.
The corners of his lips were slightly tickled, and he looked like he was in a good mood.
I couldn't help but lose my mind slightly.
So...... Last year he suddenly came back from Beijing, is it really because of me?
I stayed in Heyuan's company for several hours, until late at night, when their work finally came to an end and they left work smoothly.
There was no one in the park anymore, and I took He Yuan's arm and thought silently about my thoughts.
But his voice suddenly sounded.
"What are you thinking?"
I kicked the pebble at my feet and said in a muffled voice:
"I thought that someone as proud and free as you thought I had rejected, and then I heard that I was with Link, and would no longer have any contact with me."
He Yuan was silent for a moment.
"Yes, I'm a very proud and conceited person. If it is someone else, as long as they have rejected me once, there will be no further intersection in the future."
"But because it's you, I don't think it's okay to try again."
He spoke slowly and earnestly, allowing me to perceive the emotion and power contained in this voice.
Just like on the court next to the acacia tree, he noticed that I was watching, and made the three-point jumper more beautiful.
I sucked on my nose and just felt my eyes sour.
He Yuan pulled his hand out of his pocket, reached over, and hugged me hard.
This embrace was unusually warm, dispelling the chill left on me in early autumn.
He whispered in my ear, "Meng Zhizhi, I have missed you for six years, and I can't miss the rest of my life."
The sky was dark, and the sky was full of galaxies.
I closed my eyes and hugged him back hard.
"I think so too."