◎Guangzhou Guangwai Affiliated Foreign Language School Senior 1 Class Chen Jian ◎ Instructor: Su Xiaolian
Looking at 2020, the college entrance examination that has been postponed under the epidemic seems to be special enough. However, when we look to 2021, the epidemic situation has suddenly returned in Guangzhou under the condition of long-term stabilization in China. And the model of a new college entrance examination, for non-candidates, seems to be a news that can sigh two sentences. But when you, as a test taker, sit in the exam room, listen to the cold electronic female voice, ring the bell five times, and lift the pen, you will find that the college entrance examination is just a college entrance examination, which has nothing to do with the environment, has nothing to do with the period, and is only related to you and your pen.
If I had to think back to the college entrance examination I just took, what would I think? The study of sports? Who is independent of each other? Mother's Surprise on Mother's Day? Or is it carbon peaking and carbon neutrality in electrons and biochemistry that move in and out of the magnetic field? There may be these shadows in my memory, but the sense of loss and loss when I hold the pen and the disillusionment that arises from time to time when the bell rings are enough for me, at least now, to make waves in my heart on a long and lasting time scale.
If I take any other exam, fail or make a non-technical mistake, I can accept it calmly and shyly say that I will not do it next time. But only when I sit in such an examination room can I understand what it means not to start over, and there is no regret. All the future you imagined in your leisure time is compressed between the lines of the exam questions, and the one who is born is happy, and the wrong person dies and weeps. We can say that the college entrance examination is not the only thing in life, but no one wants to listen to this after the college entrance examination is smashed, and sitting on the examination room, I don't even have the leisure to think about this sentence.
This time to do the question, there is no classmate to discuss, no teacher to give analysis, and even after the test, it is estimated that there are few people who want to correct the answer. But it is such an exam that will make you understand what it means to "write" your own life. As for the epidemic situation after the examination room, the new college entrance examination model prepared for several years of research, in front of the solemn examination room and even in front of the paper, you will not think at all. In the eighteen years of life that is not long, not short, it seems that this time I am really grasping my own life - no one can participate, and I can only rely on myself to grasp myself, make decisions for my own life, hold up the oar that I have built, go through the bustling crowds, and seize the brightest starlight under the night sky.
The college entrance examination is the end of a journey and the beginning of another journey. Whether it is a ritual or a grind, I don't know, but on the next journey, there may be more complicated and difficult things than the college entrance examination. May I also have the same spirit as Horace—life has no draft, the snow melts is spring, whether the road of life is getting wider or narrower, no matter where the storm blows me, I will go ashore as a master.