Those who escape into the empty door should have no desire or want. But in Japan, there is such a woman, after cutting her hair into a nun, she does not avoid alcohol and meat, and indulges in male color. And for violating the rules of Buddhism, not only was she not expelled from Buddhism, but she was even awarded a cultural medal by the Japanese government.
A modest traditional marriage
This maverick woman, named Harumi Setouchi, grew up in a traditional Japanese family. Influenced by her family environment, she, like many traditional women, is very conservative in her feelings. But because she often witnessed her mother being scolded by her father when she was a child, Setouchi Harumi had already planted a seed of rebellion and rebellion in her heart, and she was able to take root and germinate only when she had an opportunity.
While studying at Tokyo Women's University, Harumi Setouchi met music theory teacher Jun Sano, and under her father's arrangement, the two successfully married. Out of support for her husband's career, Harumi Setouchi followed Jun Sano to China to continue her studies.
The experience of studying in China left a deep impression on Harumi Setouchi. It was also in this land of China that she and her husband conceived their first child, and the two lived a dull but beautiful life.
But the good times did not last long, and with the defeat of Japan, most of the Japanese were sent home. Although China's neighbors were still friendly to Setouchi's family, they eventually returned to Japan.
Jun Sano went to Tokyo to continue her work, while Setouchi Harumi was left in her hometown, and the change in the environment had already troubled her, and the dwindling communication with her husband made this originally blooming "rose" wither.
Utter disappointment in feelings
By chance, Setouchi Harumi met nineteen-year-old Kinoshita Otohiko, and the freshness and vitality of young people made waves in her heart, which was as silent as stagnant water.
Since the marriage with Jun Sano is still in the maintenance period, and Kinoshita Otohiko is her husband's student, Setouchi Harumi still can't hold back the throbbing in her heart when she knows that she shouldn't, and she fell in love with Kinoshita Otohiko without hesitation.
During her love with Kinoshita Otohiko, Setouchi Harumi was also tormented in her heart, and this disloyalty was contrary to the education and philosophy she received from childhood, but she really could not disobey the truest voice in her heart.
In the end, she still told everything up, which naturally could not be forgiven by her husband, and she was greeted by an angry husband and a rain of punches and kicks.
But the seed of rebellion in Setouchi Harumi's heart has taken root, and she resolutely ends her marriage to her husband and boldly chooses to elope with her sweetheart. However, the sweetheart is not a good person, and in the face of the cruel reality, the previous strong love seems to have all become a joke. The young Kinoshita Otohiko soon grew tired of the relationship and turned to other people's arms.
Setouchi Harumi was so devastated that she could not recover this broken relationship, and could only put her bitterness and tears into words, and began her writing career.
Like many people who are frustrated in love and proud in the workplace, Harumi Setouchi quickly rose to prominence in the field of literature, and her unique writing style has attracted countless readers. In addition, she also met the third man in her life - Renjiro Koyama because of literature.
Wandering between various men
However, just when Harumi Setouchi felt that her life was gradually getting right, reality once again gave her a headache. Her relationship with Hitoshiro Koyama ended because it was broken, but Setouchi Harumi met Kinoshita Otohiko, who claimed to have changed her heart.
After all, this man was the cause of her initial breakthrough of the shackles of marriage, and Setouchi Harumi still did not completely let go of the unsatisfactory relationship after more than ten years, and renewed her old relationship with Kinoshita Otohiko.
But Kinoshita Otohiko can get tired of and betray her the first time, and there will be a second time, not to mention that this time Kinoshita Otohiko originally took a fancy to her money and reputation. Soon, Kinoshita Otohiko left after taking advantage of Setouchi Harumi, and the similar experience to that year made Setouchi Harumi deeply shocked and completely disappointed in her feelings.
At this time, the unfriendly voice of the outside world made Setouchi Harumi feel frustrated in her life, and after several tosses and turns, she finally chose to cut her hair as a nun, converted to Buddhism, and became Setouchi's silent listening.
In the Buddhist gate, she still goes her own way, and she even began to wander between various men, not talking about feelings, only focusing on enjoyment. After jumping out of the red dust, she is no longer afraid of worldly eyes, and begins to follow the truest thoughts in her heart to become the person she wants to be.
Not to mention the Japanese environment at that time, even today, this kind of practice that dares to break through ethics and face the truth is rare. Setouchi Harumi was much despised in Japan at the time, but she no longer cared about the evaluation and opinion of others, but focused on living her life.
In 2002, at the age of eighty, Setouchi revisited the China she cherished, a short but extremely happy time in her life, and she missed this experience in China in her later years.
Revisiting the place, she said that she often felt guilty, thinking that Japan's war of aggression had killed too many Chinese people.
It may be difficult to find a second woman as maverick as Setouchi in all of Japan. After seeing through the red dust, she gladly accepted the criticism and scolding, and forgot it; For adoration and adoration, she smiled and treated it indifferently.
She also loved vigorously at first, crazy for feelings, but after thoroughly seeing her heart, she lived her truest appearance.
In fact, it is human nature to like the new and dislike the old, but some people can restrain themselves with morality and responsibility, while some people dare to face the truth. There is no way to compare which of the two types of life is more meaningful, it is just your own choice.