She is the goddess of theater in people's eyes, the queen of the Golden Horse Shadow, and the queen of the Golden Bell, but no matter what kind of label and aura she wears, what she clings to is not these external things.
For her, acting is what she wants to do, not a star.
Immersing herself in the role to experience different lives, and jumping out of the role to observe different human nature, being an actress, or a real and free "vulgar woman", is something she currently feels is very important.
It's okay to be a vulgar woman
Defining the common
I haven't seen such a real and jumpy star big living person at the award ceremony for a long time.
Recently, Xie Yingxuan, who has been running with her for eight years, won the Golden Bell Award for "Heaven on the Fourth Floor", but when she delivered a thank you speech, she was too excited to make an outrageous big oolong -
Mistook the object of thanks for the screenwriter of "Vulgar Girl Cultivation 2".
When she reacted, she subconsciously burst into rudeness: "FXXK!" The atmosphere of the scene once reached its climax.
Because it was too embarrassing, she herself knelt down to the director of "Heaven on the Fourth Floor" afterwards and "begged for mercy".
However, the meme of "Farke Vision" also made her quickly out of the circle, arousing the curiosity of many netizens.
Speaking of the name Xie Yingxuan, many people may not be impressed, her most well-known TV series is "The Cultivation of Vulgar Women" that she accidentally thanked for a slip of the tongue on the award stage.
Maybe this is fate, some netizens said that Xie Yingxuan, who has such a true temperament, is simply a copy of the heroine Chen Jialing.
Vulgar woman, in the play, is also the meaning of ordinary, the heroine Chen Jialing is also an ordinary middle-aged woman who can be seen everywhere around us - 39 years old, no house, no car, no husband, no children, and lost her job in the workplace...
When accepting this role, Xie Yingxuan was under the pressure of the halo of the queen, and Chen Jialing became the salvation she gave it a go, "At that time, I felt that I had to go and play, this role is cheesy enough, ordinary enough, and real enough." She's partly like me. ”
Yes, Xie Yingxuan, who is out of the role, is also a "vulgar girl".
Until the age of 39, she had been working in the theater, because she did not meet the mainstream beauty, auditions repeatedly failed, acting in comedy as a supporting role, and at the worst time there was only 1,000 Taiwan dollars in the card, and she had to live by gnawing the old.
Even when making the first movie, the director couldn't see it and couldn't help but stuff her with a stack of money to let her live her life well.
But it was precisely this movie "Who Fell in Love with Him First" that made her win the Golden Horse Award actress. Since then, all kinds of aura honors have come to the door, however, Xie Yingxuan, who is used to being a "vulgar girl", is very uncomfortable.
She likes to appear in front of the crowd in the guise of a character, and in her cognition, she is just an ordinary person who becomes a performer, with no great ideas and no great stories.
"I'm just a normal person, I'm really bored."
Xie Yingxuan's story is indeed ordinary.
She was born in Tainan in 1979. Like many children, her parents' vision for her future is to become a teacher or nurse, who knows, Xie Yingxuan's thought has turned her otherwise ordinary life trajectory around.
She entered high school as a dance student, and at that time, the teacher took students to Beijing Art University to visit the campus, because she felt that Xie Yingxuan's personality was creative, and specially took her to the drama department to see it.
The first impression of the theater venue was very bad, looking poor, dirty and messy, but at that moment she saw that life seemed to have another possibility, "That kind of appearance without rules makes me very relaxed, sometimes Capricorn just needs to pursue that 'no rules'." ”
She decisively decided to change departments, but took two exams before being admitted to the drama department of Taipei University of the Arts.
For her, this persistence is not a great counterattack story.
At that time, she also had the idea of confusion and giving up, but felt as if she should do the acting thing, "Later I found that what I like may not only be acting, but exploring people and exploring myself." ”
But obviously, exploring the process is undoubtedly painful and lengthy.
When she was engaged in stage performance in college, she also had the dream of becoming a leading actress, but she auditioned many times but was never selected. Near the year of graduation, Xie Yingxuan asked a teacher with inner confusion, why did she always fail the audition?
The answer he got was cruel, but Xie Yingxuan accepted it safely.
The teacher said that she has a special voice, tall and thin, but in terms of a mainstream beauty, you are a special type.
This means that she can't play the heroine of an idol drama, nor can she challenge the heroine of the main drama, many people may be unwilling after hearing it, but Xie Yingxuan, like thousands of ordinary people, quickly accepted her role positioning.
She began to play supporting roles in stage plays, mainly in comedy, "At that time I wanted to be the best-looking clown." ”
After graduating from university, Xie Yingxuan joined the troupe.
When it came time to really make a living from acting, Xie Yingxuan actually didn't dare to tell others that she was a theater actor. For her acting skills, she has always had a little inferiority.
At that time, she ran around with many troupes. Life in the troupe was very hard, she had stayed in moldy hotels, sat in sleepers from Beijing to Shanghai, and wore thin suspenders in winter to perform without heating, but that time was happy for her because life was simple.
But because the theater performance is not stable, Xie Yingxuan was financially embarrassed for a period of time and needed to rely on her parents to survive, "My mother even has to consider whether to buy a pair of 199 shoes on the side of the road for half an hour, but she dares to spend it on me." ”
But occasionally seeing her insist so hard, every once in a while, Xie Yingxuan will be asked by her mother, do you want to go home and become a teacher?
Xie Yingxuan has rarely been obsessed with anything, but her only obsession is acting.
Even before the age of 40, in the eyes of the outside world, she is not married, has no children, and even has no money, and the life path ahead seems to hide some invisible sense of oppression.
Xie Yingxuan also struggled, saying that her mental age had somehow stopped at 27 years old. At the age of 35, she suddenly found that some people always looked at her like a respected senior, and she was a little resistant to this kind of look, "In the end, should the mind catch up with the growth of the real age?" ”
Later, she gradually thought about it and decided to go at her own pace.
The judgment of others seems to be unavoidable, whether it is the label of being older single or the status quo of no house or car, she is willing to accept it all.
She said that she is still on the road of dreams, and it is enough to keep moving along this road.
is also 35 years old, Xie Yingxuan broke into the film and television industry without any plan, and the crew of "Anesthesia Storm" came to the door and asked her to play Xiao Zhengxun's classmate Song Shaoying in the play.
This role only has a few lines, but after Xie Yingxuan played it, she was nominated for supporting actress in a miniseries at the 50th Taiwan TV Golden Bell Awards. Perhaps the acting skills have been affirmed, and more and more people have asked her to film after that.
However, Xie Yingxuan, who entered the entertainment industry, whether it is the role or herself, is constantly refreshing the definition of "vulgar woman".
Xie Yingxuan has said many times in interviews that she is not mainstream beautiful, but what kind of beauty, there is no label that can classify her.
When others are pursuing beauty, Xie Yingxuan firmly walks in the opposite direction, "Actresses definitely have other things besides being beautiful." ”
What she has is probably to give each character her own soul.
In 2018, Xie Yingxuan took over the first heroine in her life, the vulgar-looking Liu Sanlian in "Who Fell in Love with Him First".
In the play, her life is a mess, after her husband dies of cancer, the beneficiary of the insurance after death is a third party, in addition to pulling her rebellious son, she also has to go to the door to collect insurance money.
In the face of the lies left by her husband, her hysteria is mixed with the humble vulnerability and suffering of a widowed and tragically betrayed woman: without a little love, just... Not a little, not at all?
This role is not pleasant, she has a bitter face, sloppy, and even a little vulgar, but Xie Yingxuan has become a film queen.
Later, Chen Jialing in "The Cultivation of Vulgar Women", Chen Wanqing, who is not bound by worldly feelings and is free and dashing in "Lonely Taste", to Zhang Qi, the daughter of the tight and deadlocked mother-daughter relationship in the recent "Heaven on the Fourth Floor", Xie Yingxuan performed different middle-aged women's faces, "In fact, it is our usual appearance, and it seems that girls rarely perform their ordinary appearance before." ”
Xie Yingxuan has achieved these "vulgar" roles, and these roles have also made her.
It's just that being a "public figure" that everyone praises makes her feel a lot of pressure.
In the past, she didn't have to wear a mask and hat when she went out, and she could hang out at random with her friends, but now she rarely goes out because she is asked for an autograph.
She doesn't understand why people ask for autographs from her. In her opinion, she is obviously an ordinary person who needs to work and earn money like everyone else, why do you need her to sign that name?
Even if she has become a household name, Xie Yingxuan still believes that she is a simple actor.
She said that every year there are actresses, and she wants to put that label in 2018 and move on.
Today, the 43-year-old Xie Yingxuan has added honors after the film and has countless halos, but she still has insoluble confusion and life problems like ordinary people.
For example, the family will worry about job instability, no pension, no decent red envelope every festival, and no way back when you are older?
The former Xie Yingxuan did not have any sense of crisis about his future future, and he spent as much money as he had. If she still has money on her card, she'll spend it all and do things she hasn't done before, like traveling abroad.
But at the age of 40, she began to think about the issue of pension, which is some of the troubles that ordinary people have.
She set herself the goal of buying a house, but she did not dare to buy it in Taipei, and complained that it was the same as ordinary people, "Taipei is too terrible, and the housing price is not affordable after working all our lives." ”
She lives a simple and satisfying life, and is usually only interested in eating. The first luxury brand-name bag in her life was given by her friend Zeng Baoyi after winning the award, and she is still reluctant to carry it, saying that she will be a family heirloom in the future.
Yes, it's cheesy.
Xie Yingxuan also had age anxiety, once the label of older singleness is attached, it seems that there are fewer and fewer roles that can be played, and if she does not get married and has children, she is constantly stared at by society maliciously.
But she felt that there was no need to trap herself in the rules and regulations of society.
She believes in true love, but she doesn't want to marry for the sake of marriage, and she doesn't need another him to complete herself.
A person's life can also be full and happy.
She makes her own fruit drink, and the aromatherapy lamp is turned on next to her, which has a special taste;
She will come to a walk-and-go trip with friends, and occasionally encounter a downpour, which is also a unique itinerary;
Faced with the confusion of whether a 40-year-old single woman wants to get married and have children, she did not live in other people's standards and expectations, but decided to freeze her eggs.
She treats the whole process as an experience worth documenting and observing, saying that she is not fighting against anything, but longing for what she can choose for herself.
Ordinary girls have anxiety and confusion at every age, she is all experiencing, while moving forward, observing the world to find answers in life.
Even though life still has a long way to go, she is willing to use her experience to tell everyone: don't be anxious as a laywoman, you can live a little easier.
This "ease" is not useless chicken soup, nor does it make people lie flat, but makes people correct their mentality.
Life is short, even if it is a "vulgar woman", she must live brilliantly and enthusiastically.
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[1] Character: The 43-year-old confusion of the "vulgar girl" Xie Yingxuan
[2] [Mountain Chat] Xie Yingxuan's love: A 40-year-old woman, something more important than finding true love?
[3] Verse: Goddess's Path to Actress: Xie Yingxuan's Paranoia and Playfulness
[4] Marie claire: Xie Yingxuan, not beautiful but also cute! Talk about "Vulgar Girl Cultivation 2" Chen Jialing: The beauty that accompanies the transformation of the fall