Text / Li Zijian
Editor/Luy
In front of a video camera, Liu Sibo picked up a pen and signed his name on an operating document.
This time it was not filming on the set, she decided to have surgery to remove nine-tenths of her stomach and lose weight.
Before the operation, Liu Sibo was a special actor weighing 280 pounds. Because she was fat, she was selected by the director and entered the film and television industry. In the 12 years of entering the industry, she has participated in more than 30 film and television dramas, and all the roles are obtained because of fat. In order to maintain her figure, she can eat two roast ducks by herself, or three or four pounds of salmon.
In the past, Liu Sibo felt that fat has always been a disadvantage, and only when he is an actor, fat will become an advantage. In front of the camera, she felt comfortable and happy, everyone was smiling at her, and she began to not mind making fat her symbol, giving her confidence, dignity, and making friends.
But also because of fat, Liu Sibo was plagued by illness. She has "three highs", of which diabetes has blinded her left eye and had to replace it with a prosthetic eye, if the disease is not controlled, her right eye may also be blind, and her kidneys have serious problems, almost losing her life.
Sitting in front of the camera again, Liu Sibo is going to choose his life again.
After gastric surgery, Liu Sibo lost a lot of weight and his health improved a lot (Photo: Li Zijian)
Only when you are an actor, fat will become an advantage
Liu Sibo entered the film and television industry by mistake because he was fat.
At the age of 17, she weighed 260 pounds and was studying in her hometown of Zhuozhou, Hebei Province. The first contact with the film and television industry was in the summer of 2007, when a friend of hers signed up for a position as a crew actor and asked Liu Sibo to accompany her for an interview. Then the classic bridge appears: the interviewer does not stay, and the person who accompanies the friend is photographed at a glance.
Liu Sibo recalled that at that time, it was an entertainment program of a well-known TV station, setting up a sketch program for a famous actor and playing the other party's blind date. The blind date required to be fatter, and Liu Sibo was just right. The director took a look at her and thought that this girl was good, and there was a lack of such a fat actor in the entertainment industry.
Liu Sibo, who has never had acting experience, was taught by the instructor hand by sentence, and the performance achieved the expected results, and the on-site director and program staff were very satisfied with her performance and encouraged her to learn professional acting.
Liu Sibo never thought that he would be selected because he was fat. At that time, she had already applied for a normal college in Hebei, so she transferred to the acting department of a college in Beijing.
The tuition and miscellaneous fees of the normal college are 5,000 yuan a year, and the performance department needs more than 20,000 yuan, the family does not agree, Liu Sibo cries at home, must learn acting, firmly believes that that is his future.
Before entering the film and television industry, Liu Sibo thought that her fat figure brought her a sense of humiliation.
She remembers that because of her fat, when her father went out with her, he never walked with her, would not go out on the street with her, or even take her out to dinner. At school, some classmates hit her and ran away, "Call me big fat because I can't catch up with them." ”
Because she is fat, my relatives don't like her very much, and when someone sees her, they will say you don't stand in front of me like a pig. Relatives will mock her, fat like this, no one wants you to sweep the street, no one will ask you to carry goods at the supermarket, and the cashier will not want you.
From childhood to adulthood, fat brought Liu Sibo a deep sense of loneliness, and even he would dislike himself for being fat. There is no self-confidence, low self-esteem, "not cute, this is not good, that is not good, not worthy of others to make friends." ”
But the summer vacation of 2007 completely changed her destiny, in front of the camera, Liu Sibo was not sarcastic and ridiculed, but was respected in the performance, this respect came from the fat who once made her feel inferior.
In the director's affirmation, Liu Sibo saw his future: a fat body has always been a disadvantage in other places, and only when he is an actor, obesity will become an advantage. She was determined to learn acting.
In the face of the crying daughter, the family couldn't help it, agreed, and Liu Sibo has since stepped into the film and television circle.
Liu Sibo, a special actor at work (photo provided by the interviewee)
After graduating from the acting department, Liu Sibo successively received some film and television performance roles. There are many special actors in the film and television industry, in addition to the well-known actors who resemble great people, there are actors who are more than 2 meters tall or less than 1 meter, extremely thin actors, and fat actors who weigh more than ordinary people, Liu Sibo belongs to the last type. The director chose her because of her fat body shape. All her roles are obtained because of being fat.
When she was the fattest, Liu Sibo weighed 280 pounds, variety shows, film and television drama casting, etc., she won a number of roles with her fat body. At the time of casting, others were still there to audition, and she could sign a contract in five minutes when she met the director. Other actors, crew members, directors, etc., all praised Liu Sibo's fatness, believing that she was not annoying, but fat.
Liu Sibo said frankly that in the eyes of many people, fat is related to dirty, lazy, smelly body, etc., and there is a prejudice against fat people. But after becoming an actor, Liu Sibo, who is characterized by fat, feels comfortable and happy, everyone is smiling at her, no one looks at her with weird eyes, and there is no bullying and ridicule that used to be, "I don't mind fat becoming my symbol, fat can make me happy and make friends." ”
Once because of a broken love, Liu Sibo was in a bad mood, couldn't eat, lost a few pounds, and was immediately discovered by the director during filming and asked her how she lost weight? and said that if she lost weight, her body shape changed too much, and the scenes she had finished filming before would not be able to catch up. The director called the crew staff again, let Liu Sibo add chicken legs, let her eat well, don't lose weight.
Many times, in order to fit the role, actors need to lose or gain weight significantly, and Liu Sibo also needs to maintain a fat figure. She has no taboos on diet, and she can eat two Peking ducks by herself. Once at a dinner with friends, she ate four pounds of salmon alone, and when chatting with friends after eating, she ate another 80 shrimps.
fat, so that Liu Sibo received more roles, and her status in the crew began to gradually improve.
When Liu Sibo first entered the film and television industry, when he received some small roles, he received a one-time boxed lunchbox, and lined up with hundreds of people with the crew to receive a bento. After receiving the meal, a person eats in the corner.
After becoming a starring actor, Liu Sibo had her own stool when filming, and her name was written on it. Filming often has to wait, and with a stool of her own, she doesn't have to look for a place to put her tired body like an ordinary actor.
In 2012, Liu Sibo had an exclusive stool for the starring actor representing his identity for the first time, and an exclusive meal for the starring actor specially delivered to his hand, "When your name is marked on the special meal, the actor can be regarded as standing." ”
At that time, Liu Sibo did not expect that one day, fat would become a disadvantage again, threatening her life. And in order to save her life, she had to remove nine-tenths of her stomach and say goodbye to obesity.
Liu Sibo as a special actor (photo provided by the interviewee)
Because obesity may cause blindness, I still feel that filming is more important than anything
Aware of his physical discomfort, in early May 2019, Liu Sibo and his assistant came to Guangzhou to do roadshow publicity for a movie in which he participated. Due to the tight schedule, I have to meet with many people every day, and I can't guarantee enough rest, and when I get up early in the hotel the next day, Liu Sibo suddenly feels dizzy, closes his eyes, and when he opens his eyes again, there seems to be hair blocking the front in front of his left eye, and everything is black thread.
Busy work, so that she did not have time to go to the hospital for examination, Liu Sibo dialed a familiar doctor's phone, briefly talked about the symptoms, the doctor judged that it was fundus bleeding, suggested that she first go to the pharmacy to buy some Yunnan white medicine, take it to stop the bleeding first, and ask her to go to the hospital for diagnosis and treatment immediately after work.
Putting down the phone, Liu Sibo asked the assistant to buy hemostatic medicine, after eating it, and then went out to dock work, "At that time, the contracts had been signed, and the work had invited many people to meet, and there was no time to go to the hospital." ”
On the third day, the few black threads that Liu Sibo saw in his left eye slowly turned into pink threads, and then into red threads. She thought that this might mean that the symptoms had become lighter, but she didn't expect that it was coagulation after bleeding, "I was a little scared, but I still didn't feel much, holding on to the psychology of luck, thinking that it would not be a big deal." ”
Unable to see things clearly in front of you, handling work, treating people, especially walking, will have obvious abnormalities. Liu Sibo claimed that he was just a little uncomfortable and would walk a little slowly. She is afraid of affecting her work and dare not let others see that there is a problem, "For actors, being able to perform and film is more important than anything." ”
The film and television industry is fast-paced, Liu Sibo recalled that since entering the industry, filming for 12 years, there has been no normal schedule, and he has not slept before 4 a.m. Especially when taking on multiple film and television dramas at the same time, there is no time to rest.
Once, Liu Sibo filmed in four cities at the same time a month, and after the filming of this series, he immediately rushed to the next city. Seats on planes, trains, cars, and inter-city transportation have become places where Liu Sibo closes his eyes and sleeps for a while.
Because of sitting for a long time, her calves were swollen and she pressed a big pit. But at that time, she still felt that there was nothing more important than work, and she had to die on stage, "almost giving up everything for work." ”
Later, in Guangzhou for film promotion, Liu Sibo ran announcements during the day and asked colleagues to talk about work at night, and his eyes were uncomfortable, but he still had to hold on, not to fall, and did not want to discourage everyone's interest. She thought she was just tired and just slept, but it turned out to be useless.
Supporting his body and returning to Beijing from Guangzhou, Liu Sibo finally went to the hospital and was diagnosed with diabetic retinopathy: the left eye is stage six, the right eye is stage five, and it is possible to be blind in both eyes. Weight beyond the normal range of ordinary people is the cause of diabetes, which in turn damages the eyes.
Doctors recommend surgery, which can preserve visual function, but may not preserve vision. Simply put, it is to shake the hand in front of the eyes, which can be vaguely perceived, but it is impossible to see how many fingers this shaking hand has. Liu Sibo was a little scared and didn't quite believe it, so he went to another hospital and got the same diagnosis and treatment judgment.
Liu Sibo wrote the letter, but she asked the doctor to keep it secret and not tell others about her condition. She still wanted to be an actress, but no one would go to work for a patient, and whether her eyes would be blind was not in her consideration. "In my life, there is no life of my own, no travel, no rest, as long as I am on the play, even friends get married."
Only in the crew, Liu Sibo felt that everyone loved her. During the shooting day, the camera moved, and everyone's attention was on her. The staff would remind her, Teacher Liu, that there was a scene here, "but if I were engaged in other jobs, I wouldn't have such attention." ”
As an actress, Liu Sibo did not want to leave the film and television industry, she discussed with the doctor, whether she could not be hospitalized, prescribe some medicine, and must participate in work matters.
After a long delay, the condition became more and more serious. In January 2021, Liu Sibo was blind in his left eye and bleeding in his right eye. The doctor said that if you continue to be so fat, you can't control your blood sugar, and you may also lose sight in your right eye.
Liu Sibo stopped working, took about 100 pills a day, and gave two injections of insulin. She also has to control her diet, not eating rice noodles, and on the first day of the new year, every household makes dumplings, and she wraps the filling in bean skin, steaming and eating a bite.
But the disease develops rapidly, because of diabetes, Liu Sibo's kidney also has problems, and further development will cause uremia. In the future, not only will you be blind in both eyes, but you will also face kidney replacement, and you may even face death.
Cut off nine-tenths of your stomach, save your life, or continue to gain weight, try to maintain the status quo, and choose to be in front of Liu Sibo.
Before the gastric surgery, Liu Sibo said on social platforms that he hoped that this was the last time he was hospitalized (network screenshot)
After cutting the stomach, he lost 90 pounds, and the performance opportunity plummeted
The doctor formulated an operation plan for Liu Sibo, according to which she needed to remove nine-tenths of her stomach and keep only one-tenth. Surgery was scheduled to take place in early April 2021, but during the preoperative plan discussion, it was found that there was a high probability of heavy bleeding during the operation. However, due to the fragility of Liu Sibo's blood vessels, if blood transfusion is required during surgery, he cannot find a place where blood can be transfused.
After some consideration, the doctor decided to open an opening and insert a blue emergency tube in the back of Liu Sibo's neck. If the bleeding does not stop during the operation, if an emergency blood transfusion is required, the blood transfusion procedure is performed from the emergency tube.
Before the operation, the doctor made various plans to prevent various possible emergencies, but Liu Sibo could still die on the operating table. Liu Sibo discussed with his father, his father did not agree to the operation, and after many communications, his father said that it is your own decision to do the operation, but it is recommended that you consider it carefully.
In contrast, Liu Sibo chose to trust the doctor that if she did not have surgery, she would live without quality, and she would rather choose a dignified death.
After deciding to undergo surgery, Liu Sibo signed his name on the relevant documents of the operation, which was recorded by the camera. This is done to prove that she signed her name and agreed to the operation while she was fully awake and sensible, in case in the future, if something happened in the future, stakeholders such as relatives and friends said that the signature was forged.
At about 4 pm on April 21, 2021, Liu Sibo was pushed into the operating room, and 3 hours later, the operation was successfully completed.
Because the surgery also removed the nerve related to hunger, Liu Sibo has not been able to experience the taste of hunger. She has lost nearly 90 pounds and currently weighs 175 pounds. Diabetes-related drugs have been stopped, and blood sugar is controlled within a suitable range, but the perception of the left and right feet is poor after surgery, and even if it is broken, you will not feel pain, so you usually need to be more careful. Kidney function needs to continue to recover, and other abnormal physical conditions gradually return to normal with weight.
Eating habits have also changed a lot. Daily diet, maintain three meals a day, eat nutritious meals, meat, eggs, etc. according to the doctor's recommendations. Rice is eaten in a small half bowl, and dumplings can only eat six, while before you can eat more than 50 dumplings at a time, the amount of food has dropped a lot. The body has some symptoms of anemia, will take some blood nourishing nutritional products and vitamins and other conditioning, other daily life is no different from ordinary people.
After slimming down, Liu Sibo's advantage was no longer there, and job opportunities in the film and television industry began to decrease.
At the end of 2021, a well-known actor was preparing to participate in a TV station party, found Liu Sibo and invited her to play. But after learning that Liu Sibo had a gastric cut surgery and her body was no longer as fat as before, she lost the opportunity to cooperate.
Similarly, there are at least 20 opportunities to perform in film and television dramas, and she was originally intended to be invited to participate in the role, but after learning that she had slimmed down, she was not selected and gave the role to other special actors. Some familiar friends in the film and television industry accidentally saw Liu Sibo after the operation, because her figure changed greatly, she did not recognize her for a while.
Nowadays, Liu Sibo no longer recommends herself to participate in some film and television dramas and entertainment programs as before, and may not be too involved in film and television work in the future, but she still misses the experience of being a special actor from time to time.
She can't forget her past before she became an actress. Eat a lot, because fat can not engage in some professions, life is a mess, do not know what their existence value is, always think that they are a burden to the family. But I entered the film and television industry because I was fat; Gaining the respect of others is also because of fat. Liu Sibo always believes that personal value creation is reflected in work, while life is useless.
The sudden reduction of performance opportunities made 33-year-old Liu Sibo a little disappointed. For the first time, she realized that her career as an actor might come to an end. She frankly said that if there is a performance opportunity now, she needs the original fat body, and then add 90 pounds to be able to take the play, she will also choose to refuse, "No one invites to act, there is nothing, in the face of life and death, everything is a trivial matter." ”