After a life of going around, the talented Zhang Ailing repeatedly described with a cool and cold brush, and finally painted an image of Sun Yongfan's stepmother, which was mean, vicious, indifferent, and good at manipulating the typical stepmother...
"My father is getting married... If the woman had been right in front of her, prostrate on the iron railing, I would have pushed her off the balcony, a hundred. ”
This is the first reaction of Zhang Ailing, who is more than ten years old, when she hears that her father has remarried.
Children who are not involved in the world, their minds are as pure and clear as white paper; Zhang Ailing, who is partial and delicate, has always been repulsive and malicious to the existence of this stepmother.
Even if she had never met her stepmother, Sun Yongfan, even if her stepmother was the daughter of Sun Baoqi, the prime minister of the Republic of China, and a well-known celebrity in Shanghai Beach, that sensitive and desolate heart made the young Zhang Ailing full of cold contempt for this "mother-daughter love".
In this twisted relationship, a sudden slap also made Sun Yongfan completely bear the charge of "the most vicious stepmother of the Republic of China", she sought peace and forbearance all her life, but she was also criticized for a lifetime.
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I have always felt that Sun Yongfan's life is never good!
Even though her family was well-off, her father, Sun Baoqi, was the governor of Shandong in the late Qing Dynasty, and served as the foreign minister and prime minister of Yuan Shikai's cabinet during the Republic of China.
A noble family, mostly wives and concubines; Sun Baoqi had 8 sons and 16 daughters in his lifetime, and Sun Yongfan, who was born out of the house, ranked seventh in the rank of oldest, known as "Miss Sun Qi".
Because of the prominent family lineage, many daughters of the Sun family were rushed to marry by famous and prestigious families, so Sun Baoqi's family had princes, university scholars, foreign affairs officials, and a son Yuan Keqi who was married to Yuan Shikai.
On the contrary, the most famous of the many children is Sun Yongfan, the seventh young lady who married into the Zhang family as a continuation string; This fame is not that she did earth-shattering things, but became Zhang Ailing's stepmother, and in a dispute, the out-of-control slap has since become Zhang Ailing's pain.
After a life of going around, the talented Zhang Ailing repeatedly described with a cool and cold brush, and finally painted an image of Sun Yongfan's stepmother, which was mean, vicious, indifferent, and good at manipulating right and wrong.
Marrying into the Zhang family and becoming the stepmother of two children is not a voluntary choice of Sun Yongfan.
After a farce of her first love, her life has long been out of her mind.
At the age of 17, she fell in love with her handsome cousin; After the two had a relationship, Sun Yongfan wanted to stay with his cousin for life, so he informed his family of his love affair; Unexpectedly, it was strongly opposed by the whole family.
Only because: the children of the Sun family, the marriage is not rich or expensive, and this cousin's family is poor, and it is definitely not a good person to trust.
At the beginning of the love sinus, he always mistook the scene as the truth; In order to stay with his sweetheart, Sun Yongfan decided to commit suicide by taking poison with his cousin and martyrdom.
However, when she was bent on dying, her cousin regretted it and secretly ran to Sun Mansion to inform Sun Yongfan's family, asking them to go to the hotel to get Sun Yongfan away; It didn't take long for the cousin who had promised "not you not to marry" to make a marriage contract with another woman.
The prime minister committed suicide by poisoning the poor boy... Such news soon spread quickly and quickly in that feudal and conservative society.
But how can the rich and noble families with strict doors and no waves of stagnant water tolerate such absurd farces? Father Sun Baoqi only felt that he had lost his old face, and even let Sun use the phoenix to die; When the qi subsided, Sun Yongfan saved his life, but he was grounded by his father and trapped in this lonely and almost devouring deep mansion compound.
From then on, opium became her salvation; In the smoke-filled illusion, she hid all the shame and regret, and no longer counted on the marriage of the door and the almost heart-wrenching love.
Yes, the well-known love history, the huge consumption of opium smoking... It also completely severed Sun Yongfan's love and marriage.
Until the age of 29, under the matchmaking of his brother, Sun Yongfan, whose heart was like ashes, became the continuation of Zhang Tingzhong.
The Zhang family is also a big family, and Zhang Tingzhong is the grandson of Li Hongzhang; It's just that the world is turbulent and chaotic, the family road is ruined, and those rich and powerful people have long been in the clouds of the past, and only some ancestral inheritances can maintain a decent life.
Before Sun Yongfan married into the Zhang family, Zhang Tingzhong had divorced the original Huang Yifan, but Zhang Ailing and Zhang Zijing were still cared for by Zhang Tingzhong, which also decided that after Sun Yongfan entered the door, he was the mother of two children.
For the arrival of her stepmother, Zhang Ailing, who is precocious and sensitive, always harbors a kind of hatred; It seems that Sun Yongfan was the culprit in causing the divorce of his birth mother Huang Yifan and his father.
And the difficulties faced by Sun Yongfan are even more numerous:
First of all: the Zhang family's house is adjacent to Huang Yifan's mother's house, and the husband Zhang Tingzhong has a very strong relationship with the former brother-in-law, and the two even often meet with prostitutes to smoke a lot;
Secondly: although Zhang Tingzhong and Huang Yifan are divorced, Huang Yifan's influence is everywhere; Even the furnishings in the home are according to her preferences; And the servants are even more accustomed to her, as if they do not take the new hostess in their eyes.
Again: It is the hostility in the eyes of the stepdaughter Zhang Ailing, which is originally a naïve and messy age, but the arrogance and contempt under the girl's eyes always make Sun Yongfan feel powerless.
In order to defend his family status, Sun moved from the alley of Huang Yifan's mother's house to the old residence of Li Hongzhang, who had escaped from Madhesi; The old bungalow in the early days of the people was empty and large, and it was not suitable for a family of four to live in. But she insisted on moving, and she also moved with a beautiful style, which not only showed the origin of the descendants of the Li family, but also showed that the new housewife had a way of running the family.
In order to facilitate the management of the family home, she dismissed the old servants of the family; Don't forget to replace the painting of the entrance hall with the oil painting vase flower of his friend Lu Xiaoman.
When they first got married, because of Sun Yongfan's deliberate flattery, her stepdaughter Zhang Ailing also began to slowly try to accept Sun Yongfan.
Sun used a fan to comb Zhang Ailing's bangs, and Zhang Ailing did not resist; She deliberately asked Zhang Ailing's doll, and Zhang Ailing did not hesitate and directly handed it to her.
And Zhang Zijing was even more "reclining on the smoke shop, snuggling up behind Sun Yongfan like a kitten, with a calm look on her face, as if she had finally found a corner to settle down."
But the stepmother's various defenses of the family's status fell into the heart of the young Zhang Ailing, but thorns gave birth to thorns, piercing the bottom of the heart.
She once again determined that the stepmother's cunning and determination completely erased the existence of her mother Huang Yifan; This prejudice also accompanied her desolate life.
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Although Zhang Tingzhong was born into a famous family, his family road has shown that he has fallen in the middle; To this end, Sun Yongfan decided to personally take care of the family's finances.
She thought: Although the family's financial resources are tight, but her daughter Zhang Ailing is in the middle of the morning dew, the heart of a young girl, the most like beautiful clothes, can not restrain her dress.
Seeing that Zhang Ailing was similar to her own figure, Sun Yongfan packed a whole box of clothes from her early years and gave them to her.
Those clothes were purchased by Sun Yongfan when he was young, and the fabric was good, but he did not wear them several times.
But she did not think that these clothes, for an eight-year-old girl who combed her head and ten years old wore high heels, was not a gift at all, but an insult.
At that time, Zhang Ailing was full of strong hatred for her stepmother; The desolation of "yesterday is not now", the rebellious prejudice that the stepmother is not as good as the birth mother, let her finally write down the famous grievance:
"She could only live under her stepmother's rule, picking up the clothes she had leftovers to wear, a thin red cotton robe, the color of ground beef, and the inexhaustible clothes, as if she had frostbite all over her body. Winter has passed, and there are still frostbite scars—that kind of hatred and shame. ”
This passage has almost become ironclad evidence that Sun Yongfan abused his stepdaughter.
The relationship between the two completely deteriorated, and Huang Yifan returned to China in 1937.
Hearing the news that her birth mother was coming back, Zhang Ailing deliberately cheerfully said: "Daddy, Mommy is back, and our family can be reunited again." ”
As she spoke, Yu Guang glanced at her stepmother Sun Yongfan next to her, and her eyes were full of silent defiance.
Out of the instinctive reaction of women, Sun Yongfan was full of strong resistance to Huang Yifan's temporary return to China; She couldn't help but taunt:
"Your mother is divorced and interferes in your family's affairs. Since you can't put it here, why not come back? Unfortunately, I was one step late, and I had to be my aunt when I came back! ”
Behind such ridicule, it is actually Sun Yongfan's hostility and exclusion towards his love enemy Huang Yifan; But these words fell into the sensitive heart of Zhang Ailing, and they shattered her proud heart.
Her mother's return to China made her more and more intolerant of her stepmother.
Because she missed her mother, Zhang Ailing said hello to her father and went to Huang Yifan to stay for a few days; When I went home again, I was scolded by my stepmother for splitting her head and covering her face: Where have you gone these days, do you still know how to go home!
When he learned that Zhang Ailing had gone to Huang Yifan's house and that the itinerary was approved by his father, Sun Yongfan was completely angry; As if out of control, she slapped Zhang Ailing in the face, and then scolded: "Tell your father, do you still have me in your eyes?" ”
Zhang Ailing instinctively wanted to fight back, but was stopped by the servants around her.
The father who learned the news did not ask any questions and ran down to punch and kick Zhang Ailing.
Fortunately, the old servant He Gan, who was left by his grandmother, desperately pulled him away, and Zhang Ailing was not killed; But since then, Zhang Ailing has also been locked up in the attic by her indifferent father.
This series of acts made Zhang Ailing's father in her heart completely die; The lack of fatherly love has also become the warm emotion she has pursued all her life, whether it is the humility to Hu Lancheng or the companionship of Laiya, it is her healing of inner trauma.
After breaking up with her father, Zhang Ailing secretly fled to her mother; But her mother, Huang Yifan, also disliked her several times and three times, as a mother, she even said in anger: I really regret taking care of your typhoid fever...
Her parents are denying her, ignoring her, belittling her, snubbing her, abandoning her... Because he is not seen or cherished, he also regards the warmth of this world as a measure to weigh the pros and cons.
In this escape, Zhang Ailing's relationship with her stepmother Sun Yongfan was also completely destroyed.
To be precise, it was a slap under the dispute that completely ruined Zhang Ailing's last good feelings for her stepmother.
Even though Sun Yongfan had done his best to hope for her acceptance, he had also tried his best to make up for the maternal love she had lacked since she was four years old...
But the stepmother is the stepmother, what is willing to do it for their own good... This is Zhang Ailing's most stubborn cognition.
Since then, she has misinterpreted all good intentions into malice and cruelty, and in her cool and harsh writing, she has consumed the last warmth and kindness in the world.
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In 1937, the Anti-Japanese War broke out, and Zhang Ailing left the old mansion and wandered between the strange United States and Hong Kong.
Sixteen years followed, countless wars, famines, natural disasters... The stepmother and grandson lived with Zhang Tingzhong in a fourteen-square-meter cottage, accompanied by Hao.
Zhang Ailing, who is far away, has become a well-known female writer; Any article about her, Sun Yongfan will always buy and read.
Over the years, she has always silently followed Zhang Ailing's life, watched her vividly accuse the loud slap and her father's beating and house arrest, watched her easily describe herself as the most heinous stepmother, watched her state her inner grievances and twists in cool and sharp words...
Zhang Ailing's popularity also made Sun Yongfan known to the world; Different from Zhang Ailing's unlimited writer status, the former Miss Sun Qi, became the vicious stepmother of the Republic of China who was criticized.
In those years, she never defended herself, but as she did when she was young, she carefully took care of Zhang Tingzhong, who was not in good health, and then after Zhang Tingzhong's serious illness and death, she handled a simple but decent funeral for him.
Her friend, Shao Xunmei's wife, Sheng Peiyu, went to see her living in a fourteen-square-meter cottage; Sheng Peiyu didn't say much after she returned, but said: "She has been taking care of Zhang Ailing's father and sending him to the end, which is enough." ”
Between the lines, there is compassion that is understood.
Zhang Ailing, on the other hand, seems to have screwed up all her life.
The heavy psychological trauma of her childhood made her subconsciously produce fierce hostility and transparent and strong emotional isolation.
No matter what people and things are, she always has a skeptical attitude; Even for his brother Zhang Zijing, he was surprisingly indifferent.
Zhang Zijing is Zhang Ailing's younger brother, when her stepmother married in, Zhang Zijing was younger, coupled with her temperament and smoothness, and the relationship with her stepmother was more harmonious; But this kind of Zhang Zijing made Zhang Ailing hate iron not steel.
But what she didn't know was that her brother also needed love and warmth!
When Huang Yifan left, Zhang Zijing was still young, because of her mediocre seniority, she was not valued by her mother; Later, when he grew older, he also carried a pair of worn-out basketball shoes to live with his birth mother, but was categorically refused.
Growing up without love, it was his stepmother and grandson who gave him a warm home.
Her father's inaction has left Zhang Zijing with no chance to start a family; The only chance to get married, the woman wanted a Shanghai watch worth 120 yuan, Zhang Zijing could not get this money, and his father Zhang Tingzhong was also too expensive, and after the total, the family gave up his marriage.
Zhang Zijing was poor all her life, and once asked Zhang Ailing for help from as far away as the United States, but in exchange for refusal; Before Zhang Ailing died, she left her $300,000 inheritance and copyright to her friends Song Qi and his wife.
Many people can't understand it, but I think: this is her choice to completely escape her original family!
In his later years, Sun Yongfan also responded to the label of "vicious stepmother" given by Zhang Ailing.
She said: "Zhang Ailing has become a famous writer, if it is stimulated by me, it is not a bad thing." Evil infamy came at me, I am a person in my eighties, as long as I am not ashamed, the notoriety of the outside world I am willing to admit, everything does not matter. ”
Her whole life seemed to have been trapped since she was 17 years old.
Born in the prosperous family of Zhong Ming, but becoming a controversial stepmother, in the defense of self-status, has never been recognized and accepted... In this bumpy and difficult fate, it is full of the hidden pain of the old-fashioned woman.
In the long life, everyone carries their own fears and regrets, looking for the solidity and perfection in life; Whether it is the evaluation of others or their own responsibilities, in all kinds of lives, some people are trapped, and some people are relieved.
Unsolvable misunderstandings, unclear grievances, constant ties... All kinds of emotions come together to become a real life.
And the real life is always like this: bitterness, sorrow, frustration... If you can't change it, you should learn to accept and be relieved!
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