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In 1996, Yang Yaqin, the former first Flower Dan of the Bayi Film Studio, finally returned to Beijing.
The purpose of this trip is to cure the disease, but also to return the fallen leaves to the roots. Perhaps Yang Yaqin had a vague premonition of her body and hoped to leave the human world in a place familiar to her.
"Once the spring is red and old, the flowers fall and the people die."
Fifty years ago, the well-deserved first actress on the movie screen and the head of the Bayi Film Studio, Hua Dan, should have been highly sought after, why did she disappear in the bitter pursuit of love, and the hatred disappeared?
Overnight fame
In 1962. Yang Yaqin has just been admitted to the Avant-garde Drama Troupe of the Jinan Military Region and worked as a costume manager in the costume department.
By chance, the Beijing Bayi Film Studio came to the troupe to select actors and prepare to shoot a film called mine warfare.
Since the number of actors in the troupe at that time was not large, the leader called all the members of the troupe to audition.
Of course, Yang Yaqin is also among them.
At that time, Yang Yaqin was one meter and seven meters tall, with thick eyebrows, big eyes, handsome eyes and eyebrows, very simple and generous, with typical Shandong girl characteristics.
The director took a fancy to this young girl at a glance, and let Yang Yaqin, who was only 17 years old, play Tian Sister-in-law in the movie "Mine Warfare".
Tian Sister-in-law is a gentle rural woman, which is the first film role she played in her life.
Yang Jun, the nephew of Yang Yaqin, the current director of Bayi Film Studio, recalled: "Although she did not play much in the movie, her plot was particularly well set up, leaving a deep impression on the audience. ”
In "Mine Warfare", Yang Yaqin plays only a rural militiaman, and when the Japanese devils pursue them, she is a weak female stream, afraid but determined to stab the devils with a javelin.
Such a female soldier image suddenly hit the audience's heart, and the struggle, fear and bravery she showed to die fully demonstrated the weak side of human nature and the struggle to resist in the face of the righteousness of life and death.
Such a real and three-dimensional character image, with Yang Yaqin's heroic and generous appearance and firm eyes glowing with water, has become an audience memory of an era.
According to Lan Faqing, an actor at the Beijing People's Art Theater, when he was in elementary school, he watched "Mine Warfare", and at that time, the scene of receiving guns was very profound, and when he went to school, everyone was learning the classic scene that was deeply rooted in the hearts of the people.
Tian Yan, played by Yang Yaqin, faced the ghost and shouted in a righteous and awe-inspiring voice: "Pick up the gun and pick up the gun!" ”
This wonderful famous scene has aroused the trend of imitation by the public, and also made the film word of mouth, and has achieved a good reputation among the masses and in the film circle, and Yang Yaqin has begun to receive attention from all walks of life.
But she is well aware of the difficulties of an ordinary person with no experience and background in the show business circle, and has chosen to continue her original life and continue to be a stable costume manager.
Yang Yaqin, who has a simple and simple personality, has not yet imagined that the opportunity to change her entire life is coming.
Retreat to the ordinary, longing for independence and stability
With the hot screening of the movie, Yang Yaqin, who returned to the unit, also changed from a translucent small clerk to the central figure of the topic of the stars and the moon.
Always taciturn, she also made several good friends, and went to the canteen to eat at noon and had a companion.
"Yaqin, why are you still coming back to work?" Is it bad to continue filming? ”
When eating and chatting with colleagues at noon, this is the most frequently asked question of Yang Yaqin.
"I have not studied acting, the last time was luck, the next time is not necessarily, this line is unstable, if you rush to quit your job, there is no crew to find me, it is not over." 」
"According to me, you are so good-looking, you should go to make a movie, born to look like a big star!"
Yang Yaqin listened to her friend's advice and was not unmoved, but when she thought of her patriarchal family and her strong brother-in-law, she still pursed her lips and shook her head slightly.
"But whenever I can help the lining at home, I will try it, but the brothers in the family use it very much, and I have to send money back to help every month."
The crowd stopped booing and gradually changed the subject.
Yang Yaqin held the white rice in the unit canteen, but the corners of her eyes were wet. If it weren't for her efforts along the way, she wouldn't have been able to eat even a bowl of rice.
Thoughts suddenly returned to more than ten years ago, Yang Yaqin remembered the heartache since this road, and couldn't help but feel sad.
In 1944, Yang Yaqin was born in an ordinary Muslim family in Jinan, Shandong Province, and her mother died when she was two years old, losing her only loved one.
The four brothers and sisters were pulled up by their father, although they were sisters, they were indoctrinated with the idea of always letting their brothers, and the family's food, clothing, shelter and transportation were all tight to the elders and boys, as an old man and a girl, Yang Yaqin was often hungry and wore torn clothes.
At that time, Jinan, Shandong was still under the control of the Kuomintang army, and the war was raging, and in order to seek stability, my father was ready to take them out of Jinan.
But the family had just escaped to the city gate, stray bullets flew in, smoke was everywhere, young Yang Yaqin fell to the ground in a trance, his eyes were smoked to tears, and when he stood up in a daze, the family around him had disappeared.
In the distance, on the muddy path home from the city gate, my father and grandmother rushed away with my brother in my arms, unaware that she had not followed.
Yang Yaqin wiped away her tears and stumbled back home with her family's back.
When she arrived home, she found that her brother was eating the stick noodles, and the family seemed to have forgotten about running away, and they had forgotten her.
Yang Yaqin ate the half-mouthed stick noodles left by her brother with some pickles, and secretly understood in her heart that the only person she could rely on in her future life was herself.
In this way, she grew up in a cruel world without the escort of her parents and became a beautiful girl who was eye-catching.
At the age of sixteen, she quickly drew a strip, and her height of one meter and seven meters and outstanding appearance made her stand out from the crowd.
Due to the lack of family warmth and parental love since childhood, she is accustomed to enclosing herself in a tough appearance, in fact, her heart is very lonely and sensitive, longing for a care and comfort that belongs to her alone.
Yang Yaqin decided to go to the drama troupe for an interview, she longed for independence, eager to get a better life on her own.
Embarrassed, she did not even have a proper dress, or borrowed a half-old robe and a pair of leather shoes from her aunt, and the natural calf did not fear the tiger.
Luckily, she was admitted to the iron rice bowl, and from then on she could eat enough, wear warm, and have no worries about food and clothing.
The ups and downs of fate have given Yang Yaqin a unique temperament of being tough and delicate like a weed, which has enabled her to receive many opportunities and gifts in life.
Yang Yaqin did not expect that greater luck and opportunities were quietly coming, enough to change the trajectory of her life in the future.
Get appreciated again and officially enter the film world
In addition to the audience gradually remembering Yang Yaqin's name, her performance has also been seen by major directors.
Two years later, in order to celebrate the 20th anniversary of the victory of the War of Resistance Against Japan, bayi Film Studio decided to put the novel "Bitter Cauliflower", which was very influential in society at that time, on the screen.
The novel "Bitter Cauliflower" is set in Wang Guanzhuang, a mountainous area in Jiaodong during the War of Resistance Against Japan, and tells the story of the landlord Wang, the only one who colluded with the Japanese and Kou to run rampant in the township, juanzi secretly joined the anti-Japanese armed forces, and organized an armed rebellion under the leadership of jiang Yongquan, the leader of the underground party.
Juanzi, the president of the Village Women's Rescue Association in the original work of "Bitter Cauliflower", is an important protagonist. She not only carries the ideological progress of working women and the spirit of women's self-help during the War of Resistance Against Japanese Aggression, but also represents the image of a resolute and capable revolutionary woman during the great War of Resistance Against Japan.
Because of this, the director searched all over Beijing and did not find an actor who met the spiritual core of such an important role as Juanzi.
In order to better reflect the humanistic characteristics of the Jiaodong area, director Li Ang hopes to select Shandong actors to play the main roles in the film.
At that time, the motherland's great rivers and north were all in the hot screening of "Mine Warfare", and the effect of all aspects of the film was very good, and director Li Ang was deeply impressed by yang Yaqin's performance after watching her performance.
At this time, the director's heart was very eager to meet Yang Yaqin, a Shandong girl who made him remember.
However, they found the Jinan Military Region in Shandong Province, and they did not find the girl. It was as if she had disappeared out of thin air in show business.
After asking the leader, I learned that Yang Yaqin was not a professional actor, but a costume manager of the troupe.
After filming Mine Warfare, she returned to her job.
The director hurriedly asked the leader to call Yang Yaqin, who was at work, for a sudden and brief interview.
"Are you Yang Yaqin?"
"Yes... That's right. ”
"Which school graduated?" Have you had any acting experience? ”
“……”
Yang Yaqin stuttered and answered the director's question like a cannonball.
She wears uniform overalls, so simple that she does not have any dress, but the natural carving is very beautiful, even more beautiful than in the movie.
Yang Yaqin was very nervous to accept the director's scrutiny, she believed that she had no experience as an actor, and she did not have the essentials for acting, and could not enter the director's eyes.
I didn't want the director to be very satisfied: "You go back and wait for the news!" “
Almost without thinking much about others, Yang Yaqin was eventually assigned to play the role of Juanzi in "Bitter Cauliflower".
The actors who participated in "Bitter Cauliflower" later recalled that the script of the film was very solid, close to life, and perfectly showed his hometown and the county where the suffering was deep.
Everybody worked very well together, and everybody worked hard to make this great movie.
Yang Yaqin was very nervous about the director's appreciation, she was afraid of not being able to do such a good film, because of her inexperience, she was very diligent in preparing for shooting every day.
When she first entered the group to read the script, Yang Yaqin was in the stage of adolescent development, her figure was rounded like a balloon, and she was disliked by the casting staff for being a little too fat.
Yang Yaqin heard these words silently, did not resign indignantly or give up, she began to hardly sleep, has been climbing Kunshan next to the crew, twice a day back and forth, day and night.
Soon, her figure returned to freshness and dexterity, standing that was the simple, simple, natural and innocent Shandong big girl.
After her figure recovered as before, Yang Yaqin was most worried about the problem of acting skills. She was not systematically trained, lacked skill, and didn't even know which shot to look at.
Although she is not very good at acting, she is particularly obedient, allowing her to do whatever she wants, enduring hardships and tiredness, and working very hard and seriously.
There are a lot of fighting scenes in the movie, Yang Yaqin insists on not using a stand-in, fighting with men over and over again on the spot, looking for the most reasonable point of force and force, hoping to present the best effect, which is in line with the story arrangement and the reality of life.
In the film shooting, she often fell to the dark parts of her body are injured, many skin damage and bleeding, but never screamed pain, very spicy, after filming often patted the gray things on the clothes, did not care.
What Yang Yaqin really cares about is the accuracy of the performance. If you are not professional, you will bring your true feelings into it, do whatever it takes to invest in the role, forget yourself, and integrate into the role itself.
Because of this, many professionals are full of praise after watching Yang Yaqin's performance, believing that her reality itself is beyond the performance, and she is a good actor who really acts with true feelings.
Compared with the mainstream actresses at that time, Yang Yaqin was more angular and heroic, and such a unique temperament also created a highly recognizable screen image, Yang Yaqin became a hit, and was officially included in the Bayi Film Studio Actors Troupe.
However, people at that time were always held hostage by the fate of the times.
Before she could make a big splash, all her career and ambitions were forcibly interrupted by an indescribable period.
Subsequently, due to some special reasons, the literary and art circles were paralyzed, and her acting career was temporarily stalled.
With "Bitter Cauliflower" just having a name in the film industry, Yang Yaqin, who was compiled into the Bayi Film Studio, deeply felt the impermanence of fate.
Yang Yaqin was sent to Shanxi for labor reform along with most of the actors of the Bayi Film Factory, and the 24-year-old was broken before she could show her grand plan.
In order to continue to appear on the big screen, Yang Yaqin hurriedly married a warrior who was rooted in Miao Hong under the introduction of the leader, so that the days of respecting each other as a guest lived day by day, and she also gave birth to a daughter and became a busy housewife.
But Yang Yaqin has been trying to seize the opportunity and wants to continue her literary and artistic career.
It wasn't until 1973 that her life took a turn for the better.
The Beijing Film Studio received the task, and the preparations for the movie "Scout" began.
This movie needs a screen image with thick eyebrows, big eyes, and three-dimensional atmosphere. Yang Yaqin became the heroine destined in the director's heart.
At that time, Yang Yaqin's appearance image was one of the best, attracting attention and beautiful, and rough and bold enough, not squeamish and weak, very suitable for playing workers and peasants.
At the same time, in addition to appearance, Yang Yaqin's acting skills have also become more and more refined with the passage of time, and the experience and accumulation of life in the first two films have made her epiphany her own set of acting methods, and she has shown her pure acting skills in the movie.
There is a scene in which the scout played by Yang Yaqin meets the enemy head-on, and suddenly finds that the enemy is her own person who is undercover on the enemy side, her eye change is very natural and agile, from righteous awe to sad, almost as soon as she recognizes the other party, she will shed tears.
During the filming of the film, all her time was spent studying the script.
She insisted on refusing a stand-in, and she personally rode the horse, operating the horse to do the movement of the front hoof up and high, and the shot was filmed seventeen times until the director was satisfied.
In this way, Yang Yaqin's career is smooth sailing, basically one film a year.
She has become a household name, but she has no female star shelf, never ostentatious, very kind to fans, never pay attention to pomp, the group photo is always humbly standing in the back row, never happy to be in the position, the group photo can not find her face.
Although she has become a popular star, she still sees herself as an ordinary person in life and is not proud of her fame.
Her acting experience gradually matured, and at the age of thirty, she ushered in a bumper creative period.
After Yang Yaqin's comeback in "Scout" in 1974, he created the image of a number of workers and peasants with a correct and heroic appearance and temperament.
In the era of a single and desolate film industry, Yang Yaqin seized the rare opportunity to dominate almost all the films during the 1970s, becoming a veritable first Hua Dan.
At that time, many people felt that Yang Yaqin was not at all inferior to Wang Xiaotang in terms of acting skills and appearance.
With a fresh and bright smile, a straight and upright body, and firm and charming eyes, she has become a goddess in the minds of a generation.
The screen image created by Yang Yaqin represents the cultural imprint and spiritual symbol of an era, filling the spiritual gap of people in that era of scarcity.
During that time, Yang Yaqin can be said to have unlimited scenery and is at the peak of her life.
However, the gift of fate has long been secretly marked with a price. When her career sailed, her personal life was a mess. Yang Yaqin's whole life has been experiencing the pain of losing one or the other.
The rapids retreat in pursuit of true love, and the marriage is once again frustrated
The success of her career cannot fill the loneliness in Yang Yaqin's heart, and her backwater married life has made her heart desolate.
Yang Yaqin's married life did not have piano, chess, calligraphy, poetry and hops, only relatively wordless husbands and endless trivial chai rice oil salt sauce vinegar tea.
All her life, she always wanted to pursue something called true feelings, but she did not succeed in her life. Like all women, she hopes to have a warm family, but in exchange for her daughter's rebellion and her husband's lovelessness.
Daughter Yang Xiaojie recalled that her mother was very angry because of things at work, and drank a whole bottle of high-purity liquor after returning home.
After drinking, he suddenly felt sad and said to his daughter, who did not understand things: "You are so happy, it is really lucky that you can't drink." I drank a whole bottle without feeling it, and I won't get drunk as much as I want..." He continued back to his room to drink the next bottle.
Not even alcohol could help her get rid of her pain at work and in life.
I came home with a tired body, but there was no one close to me.
Yang Yaqin, who has a sensitive mind and longs for soul exchange, cannot stand such a painful and boring life, coupled with the gathering of young people and more photos for many years, and after countless quarrels with her husband, she decided to end this marriage that began in a hurry.
In the early 1980s, Yang Yaqin suddenly announced her divorce and took her daughter alone to make a living.
At this time, she was past the age of eating youth, and because she was getting older, no one asked her to be the protagonist.
Unwillingly, when she was frustrated in life, she met a man who changed the course of her life, a Hong Kong businessman.
Meticulous care and money sugar-coated shells made Yang Yaqin's heart flutter, and she fell quickly, and she was determined to abandon her acting career in the mainland, leave the Bayi Film Studio with the grace of knowledge, leave everything she had, and go to Hong Kong with her sweetheart to develop.
Yang Yaqin is full of thought that love can heal everything in her life and fill her perennial lonely and sensitive soul.
But love is only a part of life, and most of life is a down-to-earth ordinary practice.
In a different place, she could not communicate with the people around her, and she also lost her financial resources, relying on her husband for food, clothing, shelter and transportation.
A housewife with no possessions and nowhere to show her talents, the once radiant movie star gradually lost her luster and was humble to dust.
Soon, the husband lost interest in her, and the fiery love was consumed in constant quarrels.
Yang Yaqin has never had a sound, loving family life, the neglect of her family when she was young closed the window for her to express love, she does not know how to express her heart, and she has never reflected on her messy married life.
Soon, Yang Yaqin, who was depressed and idle, became obsessed with smoking and spent all day in his residence swallowing clouds and spitting fog, so as to numb himself and escape a chaotic life.
While the mainland film industry is gradually reviving its vitality and new stars are emerging in an endless stream, Yang Yayun has long lost her own position and has been forgotten by the public.
Eventually, the woman who had been smoking all day divorced again.
Why did Hua Dan, who became famous at a young age, come to the situation of frustration in both family careers?
Although the soul is gone, the classics live on forever
What a sacrifice it is to disappear on the big screen when the career is in full swing, to quit the film world for the lover, and to return to the family as the woman behind it.
Women don't feel bitter, but men take it for granted.
Children who lack the warmth of the family when they are young always hope that their other half can become a harbor for the family, can take care of their own possessions, and once they encounter rhetoric, they lose all their sanity.
Yang Yaqin is brave, she just wants to pursue a soul mate who truly understands herself and can fill her childhood trauma, but hopes to find a love that does not contain impurities.
I didn't think one wrong step at a time, one wrong step at a time. Full of sincerity but repeatedly disappointed, good people are everywhere, it is difficult to find people who know their hearts.
The battered Yang Yaqin collapsed and spent the second half of her short life in heavy tobacco and alcohol.
A generation of legendary actresses died of cancer.
In 1997, Yang Yaqin finally died forever due to the spread of cancer cells, at the age of 53.
Legend has it that all life experiences before people die will be played back in their minds like a marquee, and all the knots that cannot be put down and the memories that are unwilling to forget will go very slowly.
Her biggest regret before she died was that she didn't continue her beloved film acting business.
Zhang Ailing once said, if you know me in the past, maybe you will forgive me now.
Although Yang Yaqin withdrew from the Chinese film industry prematurely, she left a classic work and role that represented an era at the most beautiful age, and became a classic memory of countless people.
Although she ruthlessly left behind countless fans who loved her, the glimpse she left in the first half of her life was enough to become a lifelong memory and spiritual salvation for film fans.
No matter what kind of life is worthy of respect, whether it is the legendary experience of the film industry or the courage to pursue love, Yang Yaqin's life has been striving to pursue the vision in her heart.
What do readers think of such an actor? I wonder if you've ever seen a movie she starred in? Feel free to leave your thoughts in the comments section.