In the middle of the night, I was sleeping soundly, and the baby suddenly arched into my arms.
I didn't think too much about it, I directly hugged him to sleep, and after a while I suddenly felt something was wrong, the child was short of breath, and his body was a little hot.
Something is wrong, the child has a fever again!
I can't remember how many times he had a fever, and each fever was like the beginning of a nightmare for me...
Can't take care of too much, rub the eyes of the pity to get up, take the child's temperature, wipe the body, feed him to drink water, a moment of kung fu fiddling, the child finally sweated, the body is comfortable a lot, so he fell into a deep sleep.
By this time, I was already sleepless and thought a lot.
Including the recent state of life, I began to reflect on myself, whether it was really arranged properly, and whether I was doing something dedicated.
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Tell me about my recent situation! It's almost in a hectic rhythm.
The daily work is full, because of the frequent overtime, many things are either not done in time, or can not think of to do, for me, the biggest problem is that the self-discipline is too poor.
Including for children, there is no good companionship, in the blink of an eye he has slowly grown up, understand more and more things, but I slowly can't keep up with the rhythm.
In terms of health, due to the nature of the work, I need to face the computer for more than ten hours a day, and my body has also sent me signals, especially in the past two days, my cervical spine has begun to hurt more and more, including the waist is also painful.
In terms of personal growth, it is even more slow to move, seeing more and more people around me changing, I began to be anxious, do not know what to do?
Said well to do the Little Red Book, has not been in action, did not find a way to suit themselves; Say good to read, WeChat reading is very good, but reading is always not as hard to read as paper, and it is easy to be disturbed by mobile phones; Well, I got up at five o'clock every day, but I always heard the alarm clock ringing over and over again, and I didn't get up until six o'clock...
In the morning, I wanted to hurry up and do something, the front foot just got up, the back foot child had woken up, and it was impossible to do something quietly. Then he started fiddling with the children again.
Because the time to work is relatively early, I have to go out at 7:20 and send my children to school, so the morning prime time is wasted.
Working hours, more busy, work for more than a year, almost no punctual work, each time will work overtime for an hour or two, as long as an overtime, the evening time and plan will be chaotic.
Often at eight or nine o'clock at night, for the child to help homework, wash, coax him to sleep, everything is packed up, it is already ten o'clock at night, lying on the bed, still thinking about how to relax, can't help but go to sleep.
So every time I will regret infinitely, blame myself, shame...
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For me, when I go to work, I want to do more meaningful things, especially in the morning and evening prime time, if I can do something I should do, or do something meaningful, I will make my life more fulfilling, and I will make my life better and better.
In my spare time, I insisted on writing on the self-media platform, and also helped an excellent teacher run a public account to try to make myself excellent, but this was not what I wanted.
Especially in the past two days, I found that there have been big changes in the company, our department is about to change dramatically, and I don't know what the challenge I am about to face, but I know something, that is, the department has become the same basic salary to speak on performance.
Such a reform makes many colleagues cry bitterly, but I do not have much impact, the company's reform, but also let me firmly do my own side business, to their own life more B choice.
Reflecting on their current state of life, growing up too slowly, blaming themselves for their sense of purpose is not strong, and lack of action.
I have read a sentence in the book: a person who wants to change is usually caused by the environment, and if he lives in a comfortable environment, it is not easy to change. Many people have a stable job, a relatively warm small family, a house no matter how large the area, generally the desire to change is not large.
If a person wants to grow up as soon as possible, he should not be satisfied with the status quo, but strive to make his life better.
For example, my current economic situation is really terrible, there are debts, renting a top-floor house in the city, cold in winter and hot in summer, enduring suffering every day, seeing that many children have signed up for study classes, but because of the lack of living, they have not acted for a long time. In such adversity, I should change the status quo and try to change.
The first is to pay off debts, want to pay off hundreds of thousands of debts, the second is to buy a car of their own, do not want to take the car of relatives and friends every time, there will always be a feeling of inferiority; Third, the side business exceeds the home page, use my hobbies to live, my hobby is words, I must play my strengths.
If you have a goal, you have to put it into action, and the lack of motivation is the reason why the sense of purpose is not strong.
The goal is too high, too vague to have no action, and even do not know how to complete, so you still need to set a stage goal, then the first thing is to improve your present.
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Next, I also hope that my life can be improved in all aspects, especially in the morning and evening, and I must find a way to use it.
Regarding not waking up at five o'clock in the morning, I also made an adjustment for myself: go to bed at 11:30 at the latest in the evening, and make a plan for the next day's work in advance.
Put the alarm clock in the living room before going to bed and get up from bed when it goes off. Then drink a glass of water, or take a shower, do a full-body exercise, try to make yourself more awake, and have your own independent space.
In terms of personal growth, to continue to learn, this learning also needs to be concretized, self-media era, need to learn a lot of things, recently, I will spend part of my time on the study of the Little Red Book, will also do a plan, every day to learn a little, in addition, I have joined the Little Red Book Training Camp, intend to follow the pace of the teacher, seize the little red book outlet.
In life, I am very inferior, more introverted, not very like to talk, but this, I think I can work hard to overcome, in the future, not only to write something in words, I will also let myself share something of value in front of the camera.
Some things, when you start doing them, can be very bad, and over time, after practicing continuously, you will slowly become an expert, which requires the strength accumulated over time.
About the growth of children is also irreversible, in the self-growth at the same time, but also to give children more companionship and growth, I will set aside 1 hour a day to effectively accompany children, such as reading, playing companionship, etc.
The body is the capital of the revolution. Whether it is me or a child, we must pay attention to our own body, only when the body is good, there are more opportunities to do what they want to do.
Therefore, we must protect our bodies well, which is the most important thing, about insisting on exercising for at least half an hour every day, we must stick to it.
Everyone's life will experience a lot of ups and downs, my life has never been smooth, full of ups and downs, I believe that after the storm is a rainbow, my rainbow is coming, look forward to the miracle together.