If Tao Yuanming is reincarnated in Germany, it is probably hermann's appearance.
Hermann Hesse, in his 40s, who has experienced two marriages, lives alone in Switzerland, is not accustomed to the current situation and the world, is a lonely rich man, he comes from an intellectual family, is familiar with Laozi and Zhuangzi, and likes literature, music, art, and drinking.
He hates crowds and socializing because people always make him feel boring, cheesy, and hypocritical.
Sometimes, he also hated himself, especially the self in front of the world in the sleeve, hypocritical, polite, well-dressed, vain and snake, talking and considering the feelings of others, and whenever this happened, he always felt that the old wolf from the wilderness in his soul would always laugh sarcastically on the side.
He looks decent, always reveals extraordinary insights when he talks, but he hates the small citizens who follow the rules, and he always feels that such a life is meaningless, it is a shell, but the operation of society depends on the efforts of the small citizens.
So he likes to rent in middle-class homes — with proper jobs and a well-organized home.
This kind of division, how like contemporary workers, no one wants to be a screw, every day for a few pieces of silver, nine to five o'clock in a line of life, when busy there are 996, 007, the poetry and the distance buried deep into the heart.
Occasionally, I will be sad, I will be numb, I will miss my youthful self, I will also want to go out to travel, I want to go to the mountains, I want to breathe the air without pollution, let the stretched green pave the field, and let the wildflowers in the field heal our hearts.
In everyone's heart, there lives a small beast, perhaps a wolf with destructive tension and grinning teeth; Maybe it's a little wild cat that comes out at night and sticks out its claws when it's angry; Perhaps unwilling to eat for a little food, he gave up the sky and the birds of freedom; But in order to live, we all have to take good care of ourselves, hide well, and live as a popular person, a down-to-earth and reliable person.
The city is a busy and delicate assembly line, more screws, but also more people who want to be screws and can't.
When we are busy at work, we feel suffocated and lack ego.
But once we stop, we panic, as the last hot topic said, how long can you not go to work? If you don't go to work for a week, you will feel very cool, and if you don't go to work for a month, you will panic.
Mortgages, car loans, credit cards, and Huabei all remind you that you have to work hard to have tomorrow.
Try to move the bricks every day, otherwise you will have to find a job tomorrow; Strive to play a positive, upward and solid self; Even if you are already fragile and broken in your heart, you have long wanted to run.
We are all qualified actors, and the various wonderful details we have acted in have long been more than enough to get a small golden man.
But who is happy? Who is not yet for life.
Just like Tao Yuanming said, he thinks of his heart as his own service, and he is sad and sad.
The body is like a cage of the spirit, and who can be truly happy? Maybe there is only death, people come to the world, living is affliction, people only have to save themselves.
Life is sometimes a slow hammering process, a process of domestication; I don't know when we started, we went from daring to do and dare to say, daring to make trouble to becoming cautious, carefully calculated, and no longer strong; We go from buying, buying, doing, yes, yes, and living in obedience, becoming buckled, thinking, waiting, and looking again.
Sometimes, learning to refuse is also a kind of wisdom, and we are like the steppenwolf in the magic theater, even if there is saliva dripping from its mouth, we have to pretend that we don't want to eat the lamb, and we can even stretch out our claws to gently stroke it, just like an old mother stroking a cub, even if this behavior makes our hearts sick.
Hesse's Steppenwolf is a bit magical and a little split, it is more like the inner OS of a depressed + manic patient, the world in the book is false and real, it is difficult to distinguish, but its understanding of the world, the exploration of survival, even today, is very new, if you are also a person who loves to think, if you also have a lot of confusion about reality, if you feel lonely, confused, like encountering a real ghost hitting the wall, you can also read it, maybe you can calm down.