"When did you come back?" Sun Weixi on the other end of the phone did not have a good tone, full of complaints and helplessness.
"I can finish filming in a week or so", Song Chunli on the other end of the phone is full of guilt for her husband, Sun Weixi sprained her foot, collapsed in bed and could not take care of herself, but she could not take care of herself, and had to let his two students do the work.
"Even the neighborhood leaders said that at my age, it is the time to enjoy the happiness of children and grandchildren, but there is not even a son and a half daughter around, filming, you know filming all day, what kind of life you are living now." 」 Over the phone, Sun Weixi's voice was several degrees higher.
Song Chunli knew that she could not stand Sun Weixi in the matter of having a child, and she listened to Sun Weixi's complaints silently and silently wiped her tears.
Sun Weixi was almost angry, and he also knew that his tone was a little heavier, but instead comforted Song Chunli:
"You can shoot the scene with peace of mind, I'm fine", and hung up the phone.
Song Chunli hung up the phone, her mood could not be calmed for a long time, and her mood could not help but return to the year of filming "Adultery".
01
Song Chunli entered the Guangzhou Military Region Soldiers' Song and Dance Troupe at the age of 13, and from the first drama "Lei Feng" filmed, the role of "mother" became her exclusive role.
In 1977, after being introduced by a friend, she met Sun Weixi, a teacher at the Central Conservatory of Music, and the two of them started as "pen pals", writing letters when they had nothing to do, talking about their recent situation, talking about the problems encountered in their work, and sending each other a photo.
Half a year later, Song Chunli went back to visit her relatives and wanted to meet this masked but very familiar "boyfriend". So she wrote a letter to Sun Weixi, and before Sun Weixi could receive it, Song Chunli had already arrived in Beijing.
Song Chunli wore Andy Lau's military coat and was wrapped in a thick scarf, and even friends who met often did not necessarily recognize her at a glance, she walked on the campus of the Central Conservatory of Music.
Suddenly stopped by a young man riding a bicycle, although she did not know the other party, Song Chunli knew that the other party was Sun Weixi with the woman's sixth sense.
This meeting made Song Chunli and Sun Weixi's feelings heat up quickly, and a year later, the two were married.
But one is in Guangzhou and one is in Beijing.
So Song Chunli tried everything to transfer to Beijing.
At this time, the crew of the movie "Treacherous" produced by Bayi Studio found her, and if she could complete the shooting task well, she was likely to be transferred to Beijing.
This is a perfect opportunity for Song Chunli, who has been running around looking for a way to transfer to Beijing, so she used the acting experience she had accumulated over the years in this play.
This drama was filmed in Heilongjiang, and the real scenes were more than thirty degrees below zero in winter, if in normal times, Song Chunli was not afraid of this difficulty at all, but in the process of filming, she felt unwell, and every time it was her turn to shoot, the state was not very good.
After she went to the hospital to check, she realized that she was more than two months pregnant, at this time, she had already shot multiple scenes, and the crew would cause a lot of losses if they temporarily changed roles.
Song Chunli didn't know how to advance or retreat, so she called Sun Weixi:
"What should I do, I want this child, but it is too difficult to change corners halfway", Song Chunli cried.
Sun Weixi knew the difficulties of his lover, he could not choose for a long time, and Song Chunli was not in a hurry to make a decision on the other end of the phone, because no matter which decision was unacceptable to her.
But Sun Weixi still made a decision, and the regret caused by this decision could not be made up for by the best actress of the two Golden Rooster Awards.
02
"If you can't do it, don't want it first", hearing this answer, Song Chunli lost her voice and cried bitterly, and Sun Weixi could not have the slightest wavering,
"Go back to Beijing for surgery, the conditions in Heilongjiang are not good."
In this way, in the company of Sun Weixi, Song Chunli did away with the child at the age of 29, and only 6 days after the operation, she rushed to Heilongjiang, which is more than thirty degrees below zero, to shoot a drama.
This drama has been filmed for nearly 1 year, there are still many martial arts actions, coupled with insufficient warm measures on the set, Song Chunli did not adjust her body after giving birth, and when she wanted to have children, she found that her body was no longer allowed.
After filming "Treacherous Details", Song Chunli's acting skills have received rave reviews, and more and more directors have come to her to shoot.
After Song Chunli lost her first child, she wanted to focus on having a child, but when she encountered a good script, Sun Weixi would encourage her to shoot a scene, and told her very calmly:
"If you want children, just let it go."
Song Chunli watched the doctor conditioning her body while filming, during which she starred in films such as "Sister" and "Family Trivia", and also went to the Beijing Film Academy for further study in the acting department.
During this period, she was also pregnant several times, but due to the fact that her body was left with a sick root during the birth, several pregnancies did not save the child.
Successive miscarriages made it impossible for Song Chunli to get pregnant, and when the doctor announced the bad news, Song Chunli hugged Sun Weixi and cried.
Can't be a mother, but life still has to go on, so Song Chunli is fully engaged in work, and she has enough to be a "mother's addiction" when interpreting other people's lives.
In 1985, a "Mandarin Duck Tower" that reflected the marital status of elderly young people in the city almost sent Song Chunli to the podium of the Golden Rooster Award for Best Supporting Actress.
In 1992, song Chunli starred in the TV series "Wind and Rain Beauty", in which she played the mother of three children, Ye Xiuqing, a biological child, a stepson, and an adopted, Ye Xiuqing is a great mother, sacrificing her children for other people's children.
For this film, she won the Feitian Award for Best Actress.
In 1994, Song Chunli became the mother of five children in the movie "Nine Fragrances".
Director Sun Sha originally let Song Chunli's friend Bai Han play Jiuxiang, Bai Han is a mother in real life, and she can better understand how a mother transforms into a "superman" after there is no husband in the family.
After Bai Han went to Changchun Film Studio for a week, director Sun Sha called Song Chunli.
"You come over to play the role of Jiuxiang", she was still a little confused when she received the call.
"Isn't this role for BoHan"?
"Bai Han's kind of urban woman has more temperament, and after a week of shooting, it doesn't feel particularly like the rural low-level woman she imagined, and after telling her that she wanted to change corners, she gave me your phone."
After getting this role, she just interpreted the motherhood of losing her husband to raise children alone.
The film earned her her the first Golden Rooster Award for Best Actress.
Winning the Golden Rooster Award can be said to be the most authoritative recognition of her acting skills, so many reporters came to interview her, and the most asked her was about children.
She told reporters many times not to mention that what is done away from the child is sacrifice, because for the sake of art, there can be no regrets.
Later, she filmed more and more roles as a mother, and the sacrifice she had never let go of, but began to be stained with tears of remorse.
03
In 2001, Song Chunli won the Golden Rooster Award for Best Actress for the second time with the movie "Together Forever", and the winner of the Golden Rooster Award for Best Actress twice was Pan Hong before her, Gong Li after her, and after that, there was no one else.
And Pan Hong is unmarried and childless, and Gong Li is childless in marriage.
After "Together Forever", Song Chunli rarely played the leading role, but the mother she played was always deeply moving.
In the TV series "Circuit Prosecutor Group", Song Chunli played Hu Xue'e, the mother who took justice for her son, and her role was not much, but she was the one who received the most tears from the audience and the actors present.
In a crying scene, Song Chunli has a gray messy hair, wears a men's blazer, and dresses up like a city woman who is tormented by life and only sad but walking dead.
Song Chunli expressed all the sadness of this woman's life on the expression on her face, because the crying was too real, too deep into the play, Song Chunli could not get out of the scene for a while, so that after filming this shot, the staff pinched people, and fed medicine to let her ease up.
Song Chunli is not a mother, but she is more suitable than anyone to play a mother, and the mother she plays is sometimes strong, sometimes nagging, sometimes loving, sometimes harsh.
Therefore, many actors and journalists affectionately call her "Mother Song".
During the filming of the TV series "Love Sicily", actress Hong Jiantao played her son, and Hong Jiantao was often immersed in the mother she played, unable to extricate herself, giving rise to the illusion that Song Chunli was really his mother.
After the scene was filmed, in order to retain this good feeling, Hong Jiantao bought a jade necklace for Song Chunli, and said that Song Chunli was the best mother.
The more people say she's a good mother, the stronger the guilt that she can't have children.
After filming, she will push away all the socializing, spend all her mind on taking care of Sun Weixi, visit the park with him, visit the vegetable market, Sun Weixi reads, she will also pick up a book and silently accompany him to read, Sun Weixi will eat with about three or five friends, she will also go with him.
Even so, the two sometimes quarrel and get emotionally agitated, and Sun Weixi will express the resentment in his heart:
"If it were nice to have a child, we wouldn't even have a fight."
Song Chunli knew that he was alluding to the fact that she could not have children, and she had no words to argue with except sadness and guilt.
In order to fill the regret of not having children, Song Chunli and Sun Weixi combined and thought of hugging.
04
Song Chunli's eldest brother has a son named Song Chuyan, Song Chuyan has a good relationship with his aunt, when he was very young, he often lived in his aunt's house, and Song Chunli often bought her clothes, took him to the supermarket, and tutored his homework, just like mother and son.
After Song Chuyan graduated from the Beijing Film Academy in 2002, he starred in the first TV series "Public Security Bureau Chief", which Song Chunli took him to act with.
But Song Chunli couldn't open her mouth to ask others to help her nephew, so she called and asked him to break in by himself:
"Who you call, who you talk to whoever you want to contact often."
Song Chuyan also knows that his own path has to be broken, and his biggest confusion since acting is that others treat him as Song Chunli's nephew, not Song Chuyan himself.
Once, Song Chuyan went to audition, and after trying the play, he was very satisfied, he felt that he was bound to win this role, but when he went down the stairs, he heard others discussing him, so he stopped and wanted to hear what others said:
"Song Chuyan is Song Chunli's nephew, if it weren't for Song Chunli, he might not even have the opportunity to audition."
Hearing these words, Song Chuyan began to resist the fact that "Song Chunli is his aunt" and kept trying to get rid of this "crutch".
But his relationship with Song Chunli is real, so he and his aunt have acted in 13 film and television drama works, such as "Blood Oath", "I am not a murderer", "If Happiness Comes" and so on.
His efforts may not be seen by outsiders, but every acting explosion in the play makes him himself.
In the "Circuit Inspection Team" he played the death row prisoner Shen Guangjun, in prison, he played the unwillingness and guilt of his life like this to tears, his tears could not be collected, after the filming of this play, others called him crying, is an actor with a "water pump in his eyes".
In the 2022 hit drama "The World of Man", he also contributed to Song Chunli's level of acting skills, he played the Sun Chao Chao yi and sincere, but suffered from uremia, in order not to drag down the family, he chose to lie down after knowing the disease.
In being an actor, I want to desperately get rid of the influence of my aunt, but in my life, I want to be close to my aunt infinitely.
When he was not filming, he often went to see his aunt and uncle like his parents, cooked a meal for his aunt, played chess with his uncle, and sometimes took them on a tour, as if he were their children.
But Song Chuyan is fighting for his career, sometimes busy until half a year can not see his aunt, Song Chunli is not willing to delay the future of her nephew for the sake of heavenly happiness.
Therefore, when her good girlfriend Deng Jie took her adopted daughter to her house as a guest, she also had the idea of adopting a child.
In 2012, under the introduction of Deng Jie, Song Chunli, who was 61 years old, adopted a baby girl who had just been born a few months from the welfare home, and after having a daughter, she spent all her spare time after filming to raise children.
Sun Weixi is a music professor who has taught countless students throughout his life, and now he uses his teaching skills to teach his daughter to sing and play the piano, while Song Chunli will teach him to do housework, accompany her to write homework, and ride a horse.
Now that the daughter is 10 years old, there has been a great improvement in talent, material life and spiritual life are not within the reach of ordinary children, and Song Chunli and Sun Weixi, accompanied by their daughters, are old and strong, and their lives are full and happy.
Nowadays, Song Chunli has gradually reduced the amount of filming and shifted the focus of her life to the family.
epilogue
Song Chunli has played countless great mothers, she knows too well how to release maternal love, and now, nephews and adopted daughters make up for the biggest regrets in her life.
Happiness is not too late as soon as it comes.