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Under the peach blossom tree, the branches and flowers are gently swaying, and the fragrance is fragrant, and even the thoughts are light.
I have fantasized about various happy endings with you, but I have never thought that you and I will eventually be separated. I'm in my world, thinking of you "thousands of miles away".
I don't know, on this similar spring day, have you ever had a little thought about me.
When I first saw you, the peach blossom leaves fell, and when I looked up to reach out, it coincided with your eyes. You smiled lightly and settled in the bottom of my heart.
We used to laugh and play in the spring, and we used to show our hearts to the first snow in the winter.
At that time, it was very slow and warm. Looking back, now I just feel that it is far away.
We thought that the happiness that belonged to us could be stretched far and wide by time. I thought that since the first meeting, you and I would be the absolute protagonists in each other's lives. I thought that I was held in your arms and could smile warmly in your arms for the rest of my life.
However, reality still cuts all dreams and beautiful pasts to pieces, leaving only a place of pain.
You walked resolutely, and the helpless expression when you left, as if all the favors of the past for me were illusions.
Emotion hurts, and those who have loved can say that they forget and forget. Even if it is a few years of parting, you are still in deep pain in my heart.
After experiencing love, you will understand that loving to the point of not loving often does not require the insertion of others. There is always some affection that cannot withstand the years.
You are the one I want to forget and can't forget. You are the one I put down but can't put down. You are the one who hurt me deeply, but still cares about me.
01、
Even though my heart is like a mirror, I clearly understand that you will not look back, but the stubbornness in my bones to you still forces me to wait in the same place.
I don't dare to disturb your life easily, but I am always worried.
I will inadvertently inquire about your current situation in small talk with friends. I'll use that familiar number to get the latest developments in your life. I will be in the place where we used to go, looking forward to having a chance encounter with you.
I'd love to see you, to see what you look like now, to see if you're the way you were then. However, I am afraid to see you, afraid that seeing the happiness held by your side will hurt my heart.
I still love, so I will fantasize about reuniting with you again and again in all kinds of entanglements, and cut my own woven dreams again and again.
I have fantasized about the scene of my reunion with you countless times, but I am afraid that the time of my encounter will coincide with my embarrassment, so I suddenly stop thinking of meeting.
I know that I have no hope, I know that I am deceiving myself, but I am still reluctant to give you up from my heart.
02、
It is said that letting go of a relationship, forgetting a person who should have let go long ago, and talking about a relationship again can be discussed.
I have also tried my best to persuade myself to start over, but I have tried and failed many times, even if the people around me have a heart for me and are considerate to me, I still can't go against my true intentions.
I also hated my own excessive attachment, and I also hated how you could let go so easily and find a beautiful person.
You bask in the happiness that belongs to you, and you swear the vows you take together.
For a time, emotions surged into my heart, and I hated myself for not being able to put it down, so I blamed you for being too desperate.
Xu is too aware in his heart that all the current emotional dilemmas are of his own making. Therefore, in the end, I still hope that you can be happy from the bottom of my heart.
Yes, since you left, I have been an outsider in your life, and how can I expect you to worry about me as much as I care about you.
Love has long ceased to love, but I hope that at certain times that belong to us, you will be able to think of me, and you will be able to remember me that you once loved me so much.
I will learn to let go of you slowly, I will learn to stop suppressing myself, I will learn to accept the reality that you have already had new happiness.
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I always thought that time could dilute my love for you, but after experiencing it, I realized that I was just used to living without you and forced to accept the fact that you fell in love with someone else again.
Dreams are sometimes so magical, that night I dreamed that you took the hands of the people around you, smiled and walked into the auditorium, and exchanged wedding rings with the blessing of everyone.
Suddenly waking up and asking around for news about you, I realized that the dream was not a dream, but real.
The mind is suddenly relieved, and there is no longer any concern or fantasy about your realization.
I understand that you are still in the depths of my heart, but you have become the person I want to see in this life.
I will comfort myself, take care of myself, and tell myself that at least we have loved each other, at least we are all okay in our respective times!
Some people can only be passers-by, but they occupy most of our hearts. Some people are destined to lose, but they are still blessed from the heart.
Love you, thousands of times. Think of you, thousands of times. I wish you a good year! Fortunately, we did not live up to the encounter, fortunately, each of them was well!
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I am Hexu, a creator of the emotional field of warmth and happiness in the heart, writing emotional texts and warming the heart with words. Thank you for reading and deeply wish you peace, health and joy!