Wang Siyu: A letter to so-and-so

Dear So-and-So,

See the letter as it is. Suddenly I get a call from you saying that you have an incurable disease, like thunder on a sunny day. I don't believe anything, I think this is a reason or excuse that you don't want to associate with me, I didn't expect the wall of friendship built in a year to fall down. Even if you really have such a disease, I will not abandon you, I will do my best to accompany you to the end of time, as long as you have a glimmer of hope for recovery I will cling to it. I don't care if you delete or block me, as long as you want to express gratitude to you, there are many ways.

I feel that the passage of time is inexorable, and there is nothing more merciless than the passage of time. Spring back to the earth, Vientiane renewal, the cold winter has passed, even the oncoming wind is mixed with warm air currents, everything is happy to open their eyes, I like Mr. Zhu Ziqing's "Spring", everything has just begun, whether for you or me, there are still two-thirds of the time waiting for reclamation this year, the big red lantern has not yet been picked, the grass has begun to sprout, even the color of the wicker has begun to change slowly, all this you don't feel? From the fifth day of the first lunar month, the footsteps of spring are approaching, day by day seems to repeat, in fact, all the changes have long been conceived in the unspoken, it is difficult for you to imagine what those hibernating animals are doing? A few days ago, there were big snowflakes floating, like flying willows, which melted before they landed. In the mirror of spring, all the good things have just begun, so why do you want to leave me like a kite? I think there's still so much left to be said, how much more hasn't been done. I remember that you helped me through the difficulties of life again and again, you soothed my dry heart with spring breeze greetings again and again, but unfortunately I went to society early, experienced sour, sweet and bitter in the university of society, cold and warm, I walked through cities, but did not find a corner for me to live, I have seen many landscapes, but I have not found a place that attracts my soul, all that is presented in front of me is a moment of passing smoke and clouds. I wandered like duckweed for many years and then returned to my hometown, when I left home to find the coordinates of my life, exhausted my youth and physically and mentally exhausted, and found that everything had long been wrong. Even my family never respected me as an individual of life, and I continued to live alone. To everyone, they all seem to feel superior. I have already seen through the human condition. Just never explain it in front of others. I don't like to talk non-stop. Only love to read and write, like to communicate with people with similar souls, don't look at the soul can not see and touch, but you can clearly feel his existence, every time you talk to him, it is like talking to another self, can not say why, is to feel that the heart is comfortable when communicating, while afraid of the passage of time, I hope that a minute and a second can go slower.

Do those official positions feel awkward when they are called? When others call you director, don't you know that these are all things that make people have illusions. The name lasts longer than the official position given to you, even if you leave your job one day after you become famous, the name still accompanies you, and what lasts longer than the name is the body. You're a doctor who knows more than I do.

I don't care if your body is healthy or needs to be repaired. Being sick is sometimes a reminder that who cares about its existence when we have a healthy body? We realize its importance when the body warns, but doesn't it? Illness is like fire, the more you hide from it, the more it burns, and if you don't care about it, there is nowhere to hide. Many times what needs to be repaired is not the body, but the mood, the state of mind. The heart is wide and broad. How many years have passed on us from birth to the present? Have we ever ignored the body in the little bits of time? "There is wine tonight and drunk tonight" "What about borrowing wine to pour sorrow?" "When we still feel that there is a lot of time, taking cigarettes and alcohol to squander time, once upon a time we forgot our own body, the body is like a huge container for nicotine and alcohol, once upon a time we forgot our own body, a wisp of negative emotions flowed into the heart and liver, we forgot whether the stomach could bear it, enjoying the taste of the mountains and the sea, squid abalone fin, whether it was early in the morning or in the evening. Why there are 24 hours a day, I thought about it for a long time, and finally figured it out. It turns out that these 24 hours are the 24 solar terms that flow in the body, and at which hour there is what to do. You see, why is it in the morning when the chicken dances? and not sub-time. Because from 11 o'clock to the child, the various organs of the body begin to detoxify, just like the beginning of the flower stage of each season, not all overnight. If the peach blossoms bloom early, they will be frozen. The body doesn't accompany us for a day or two, we should be able to feel its point. Not everything you eat will be digested. The biological clock in the body and the laws of the growth of all things are something we can never change.

Another year of spring breeze, our every day is the most precious gift from Heaven, the ancients cloud: thirty and standing, forty not confused. Let all the words you want to say be left for tomorrow, there are unfinished songs in your heart, and there are unfinished stories waiting to continue. In every day of life, no one has the right to give up. How many people in this world need time to extend their precious lives, how many people are still waiting in their mother's womb for a new life, and how many people lose their lives unconsciously. Maybe each of us needs to go to the hospital for a walk, go to the cemetery to see, how many people are just alive and have tried their best? Every day is a gift, and if you cherish it, life will bloom like a flower. Don't seek appearance, it often deceives people, do not seek wealth, the gold will eventually dissipate, look for someone who can make you smile, a smile can make a gloomy day clear. Sometimes competing for fame and profit, sometimes pursuing wealth, the more you go to the second half of life, the more you know how to save the essence, delete the complicated and simplify. Flip through the Tao Te Ching one day when you are fine, and on a lonely day, reading it will give you inspiration in life.

It was another bright day, the sky was a faint light blue, the oncoming wind was gentle, spring was a season full of life and hope, how many flowers were still waiting to bloom, how many harvests were waiting to be cultivated hard. Wise you must go down bravely even in the dark days, no matter whether the wind or rain awaits you in front of you, the heavens have given you a solid arm, dancing with the unknown fate, the proof that can defeat you needs to be experienced, and everything that cannot defeat you will only make you stronger. In the spring, there are not only no flowers but also wind and sand, and after walking through the wind and sand, you will usher in the warm blossoms of spring...

February 24, 2022

Yu'er

About author:Wang Siyu, female, shaanxi Ansai people, member of the Ansai Writers Association, freelance, love literature, sometimes have works published in "Northwest Literature" and self-media public accounts.