alive
Presumably, many people have read Yu Hua's book "Alive", in which Fugui's life was ups and downs, his family fell in the middle of the road, he was caught on the front line to fight, his relatives died one after another, and finally only an old cow and an old man were left, which made people really unbearable to watch.
In the past, I always felt that this was a plot that only existed in the book, that there could not exist in reality, and that I did not believe that anyone could withstand such pain, but in fact, reality was always more cruel and more ruthless than the novel.
The famous female writer Zhang Ailing once said: "In this strange world, no one can live a smooth life." ”
Yes, in everyone's life, there will be bitter and helpless things, in the face of a tortuous fate, we are often unable to resist.
And there is such a person in the entertainment industry, his life is comparable to the realistic version of "Alive", he is the 87 version of the Dream of the Red Chamber "Jia Rong" actor Yang Junyong.
01
Outstanding art student
Born in 1964 in an ordinary family in Beijing, Yang Junyong grew up with a cute and handsome appearance, and was very lively and active, often taking the initiative to perform the songs and dances he learned to his relatives and elders.
Watching his son like to perform so much, Yang Junyong's parents are very happy, signed him up for a lot of interest classes, and he can always see his figure in the activities held by the school, since then, Yang Junyong's dream is to become a star when he grows up.
In 1978, the Beijing Film Academy and the China Repertory Theatre cooperated to open a children's drama performance class, recruiting people in various schools, and Yang Junyong, who had been talented since childhood, was immediately selected by the teacher who came to select people, successfully guaranteed the Beijing Film Academy, and became classmates with Xu Yajun and Cai Guoqing of the same class.
After graduating from Beiying, because of his excellent grades, Yang Junyong was also found by the school, hoping that he could stay as an acting class teacher and continue to cultivate outstanding talents for the school, at the same time, the China Children's Art Theater also threw an olive branch to him, Yang Junyong was really difficult to choose between the two, after thinking about it again, he chose the latter.
02
Serendipity
When working in the Children's Art Theater, once, Yang Junyong went to a foreign country for a business trip, and happened to encounter the casting scene of the TV series "Dream of the Red Chamber".
With the mentality of trying it out, he also went to sign up for an interview, perhaps because he had rich acting experience, in the casting scene, Yang Junyong's performance was very outstanding, at a glance he was hit by director Wang Fulin, thinking that he was very suitable for the role of Jia Rong in the play, so he invited him to conduct the second round of audition, and Yang Junyong also passed without surprise, and successfully got the qualification to star in "Dream of the Red Chamber".
It is reasonable to say that such an opportunity is very rare, and Yang Junyong should be happy, but he has some entanglements and concerns about it.
First, there are still some jobs in his children's theater troupe, if you want to enter the crew to shoot a play, you must put down the drama being rehearsed, and the second is because you are not confident in your own ability, when working in the troupe, Although Yang Junyong's performance ability is not very bad, but among many actors, it is indeed not the best, and he is very afraid that he cannot be competent for the performance in the play.
For his own entanglement, Yang Junyong considered for a long time, asked colleagues and friends around, and finally, with everyone's encouragement, he still chose to take over the filming scene of "Dream of the Red Chamber".
In the process of filming the TV series, Yang Junyong worked diligently and studied the script as soon as he had free time, hoping to make greater progress in performance.
Just as the so-called kung fu pays off, once "Dream of the Red Chamber" was broadcast, it immediately became popular all over the country and became a classic in the film and television drama industry, and the actors who starred in "Dream of the Red Chamber" also went to a higher level because of this TV series.
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Career success
With his wonderful performance in "Dream of the Red Chamber", Yang Junyong has been favored by many directors, and major crews have also sent him invitations.
In the following years, he successively starred in large-scale TV series such as "Romance of the Three Kingdoms", "Kangxi Micro Service Private Interview 2", "Wu Zetian" and so on, creating countless impressive roles, and his acting skills were getting better and better, relying on his excellent ability, he could continue to shine in the film and television industry.
Some people say that Yang Junyong's achievements are purely his good luck, in the film industry of the same period, there are many stars who are hotter and more capable than him, but they just have no schedule and he picks up the leak.
In fact, no, every role has his destined actor, and Yang Junyong is the fate of "Jia Rong", saying that "Jia Rong" has achieved Yang Junyong, it is better to say that they are mutual achievements, because with Yang Junyong's perfect performance in the play, there is a living existence of "Jia Rong", isn't it?
And when we mention the role of "Jia Rong" in the dream of the Red Chamber, the first thing that comes to mind is Yang Junyong's face, which is the achievement he has.
In the subsequent career, Yang Junyong has also been living smoothly, although it is not a fire, but it is a little famous, but what people did not expect is that a sudden nightmare broke Yang Junyong's peaceful life.
04
Both parents died
In terms of personal life, Yang Junyong has always been very low-key, and when he was still working in a children's theater troupe, he had already found his other half to form his own family, although he rarely appeared in public with his wife, but the two in private have always been very affectionate.
When filming "Dream of the Red Chamber", in the face of many actresses in the crew who combine beauty and talent, Yang Junyong has never had any peach-colored scandals, which shows that he has deep feelings for his wife.
However, just when his career was successful and his family was happy, the heavens gave him a heavy blow, in 2010, Yang Junyong's father unfortunately suffered from cancer, because it was already advanced when he was found, and after trying his best to treat it for a year, he finally failed to withstand the torture of the disease and drove to the west.
The death of his father gave Yang Junyong a great blow, however, God did not intend to stop there, and shortly after his father's death, his mother was also diagnosed with cancer and died in a hurry due to ineffective treatment.
The successive departures of his parents made Yang Junyong unbearable for a while, he was immersed in sad emotions all day, and could not extricate himself for a long time, but fortunately, when he experienced all this, his wife was always with him, giving him encouragement and care, helping him out of the pain of his parents' death.
05
One blow after another
The leak in the house happened to rain overnight, perhaps because it was too hard to take care of the family, or perhaps it was the outbreak of depressed emotions in the heart for many years, less than two years after the death of Yang Junyong's parents, his wife was also found to have cancer in a physical examination, and like the two old people who had passed away, it was also advanced!
In the face of such shocking bad news, Yang Junyong's wife chose to bear everything silently, she did not tell anyone, seeing that her son was about to study abroad, her husband had also been filming in other places, and did not want her family to delay her studies and work because she was worried about her illness, she chose to delay treatment.
After sending her son abroad, his wife informed Yang Junyong of the news of her cancer, but at this time, she was already terminally ill and had no medicine to save.
Such news is like a blow to the heart of the couple, Yang Junyong blamed himself, watching his wife fight with the disease every day, tormented by the side effects of cancer, Yang Junyong was extremely distressed.
He took his wife to go all over the major hospitals, Western medicine can not go to find Chinese medicine, under the treatment of Chinese medicine, his wife's condition has improved, she has also been trying to fight with a strong mind and the disease, hoping that she can wait until the day when her son returns from school.
When they have free time, the couple will often make video calls with their sons, and the family encourages each other, hoping that the reunion day will come sooner.
However, the sky is not willing, after insisting on a period of time, because the cancer cells continue to spread in the body, even Chinese medicine does not work, the wife's condition took a sharp turn for the worse, was rushed to the hospital, when the illness was critical, she was still unwilling to tell her husband the news, afraid of delaying his work, so the unsuspecting Yang Junyong has been filming in the field, unable to accompany his wife.
In a break between work, he secretly ran to the remote utility room, called the family to inquire about his wife's recent situation, learned that his wife was critically ill, he immediately saw a black eye, a toe at his feet, almost passed out, fortunately, the crew behind the crew came in time to hug him, so he did not fall.
Although his heart is full of great sorrow, but the work still has to continue, Yang Junyong calmed down, in order not to affect others, he also asked the staff not to tell the news of his wife, so as not to delay the filming progress of the crew.
During the day, Yang Junyong tried to pretend to be a normal worker, and when he rested alone at night, he was finally able to pour out the sadness in his heart and silently shed tears.
Over the years, the family's expenses are like flowing water, parents and wives' medical expenses, children's living expenses and tuition fees, all supported by the money Yang Junyong earned by filming alone, such pressure, but also let Yang Junyong have to leave his family, work hard to earn money, hoping that one day they can be cured of their diseases, however, the day is not what people wish, the family has left him one by one.
He has endless guilt for his parents and wife, and for the sake of the family's life, he has to leave the family to earn money, cannot accompany his family, and does not take on the responsibility of taking care of the family, so that when his wife is dying, he has not been able to see the last side.
06
Heal alone
Those years were a lifelong nightmare for Yang Junyong, he could never forget that feeling, in the face of the death of his loved ones, the grief in his heart was not told.
In a later interview, referring to that dark time, Yang Junyong sighed: "I could only shed tears without expression, secretly went to no one's place to cry, and sometimes inexplicably, the tears fell on their own." ”
It can be said that it is sad to the extreme, and once said that if you can give him a chance to choose again, he will never choose to be an actor again, for this profession, he has a lot of ideas: "Because the conscience can not go, sorry for the wife and children, sorry for the parents." It can be seen that his heart is full of debt to his family.
After his wife left him, the desperate Yang Junyong once had the idea of taking his own life, probably still unable to rest assured of his only son, thinking that if he left like this, his son would have no relatives in this world and would become a lonely "orphan".
Yang Junyong really couldn't bear it, although he was extremely sad, he finally picked up the hope of life and lived a good life.
Even for the sake of his son, he absolutely could not give up the hope of life, he said to his son: "Grandparents and mothers have left us, but we still have to live well, only our hard life, can we be worthy of them, so that their spirit in heaven can be comforted." ”
After his son returned from studying abroad, Yang Junyong slowly put down his career, concentrated on taking care of his son's life, occasionally took some non-heavy drama, his biggest wish is to look forward to his son to quickly start a family, that way, his family will get up more and more day by day, and he will no longer feel lonely and lonely, optimistic Yang Junyong has been living with his son for his life, at this moment, he does not know that God does not intend to let him go.
07
Sudden heart attack
In 2020, seeing that his son is almost 30 years old, Yang Junyong began to urge his son to marry as if he expected something, and the son is also very concerned about his father, he can't bear to see his father alone, often persuade him: "Dad, you don't just worry about my business, but also take care of yourself, there are still a long days in the future, you should also find someone to live with, I will support you." ”
Yang Junyong shook his head at this, and he said to his son: "My only wish now is to watch you start a family, and only after you settle down will I have the heart to think about my own affairs." ”
In fact, Yang Junyong's heart has never had the idea of remarriage, his feelings for his wife have long been deeply rooted in the bone marrow, even if the heavens are eternally separated, they cannot erase his love.
He thought that he could wait for his son to marry and start a family with peace of mind, but the god of fate gave him another painful blow at this time.
On October 31, 2021, Yang Junyong suddenly had an acute heart attack while working, fell to the ground, and colleagues quickly dialed 120 to send him to the hospital, but he never snatched his life from the hands of the god of death, and on the way to the hospital, Yang Junyong had lost his breath and died at the age of 57.
Until the end of his life, Yang Junyong failed to realize his wishes, failed to see his only son start a family, and ended his bumpy life in such a hurry.
Yang Junyong's sudden death made his son an "orphan" with no relatives overnight, and he could no longer feel the love of his loved ones, and he could only face this cruel world alone and silently bear the pain of losing his relatives.
Maybe as bystanders, we can't empathize with him, but presumably it must be a great grief, and people can't help but cry just thinking about it, let alone him as a person in the bureau.
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Cherish life
Maybe we don't have the ability to keep the people around us, but at least, when we can still accompany them, we should do our best to enjoy every day of the moment and spend it with the people we love.
Although Yang Junyong has spent such a bumpy life, in the face of fate, he still has a senseless calm and optimistic attitude, and he will still greet the sun every day with an attitude of expectation, full of gratitude for life, full of reverence for life, and what reason is there for us to live a good life.
In fact, we are all survivors in various senses in this era, and no one knows which of tomorrow and accidents will come first, so the more precious it is now.