Twenty-seven, Su Jing who returned
The three-day holiday of New Year's Day is over quickly, and for the holiday, I have such a mentality: I am always looking forward to the future vacation, and I am always in the memory of the past vacation.
When I said goodbye to the holiday with a reluctant mood and came to this factory in the mountains with some frustration, I found that the factory had actually decorated it during the holiday days, and it seemed that it had made a lot of effort. There are several rows of bonsai neatly arranged on both sides of the factory gate avenue, but I don't know where it was rented, but it also looks pleasing to the eye, several colors of flowers are arranged in an orderly manner, red, purple, yellow, three long flower belts extending to the front of the office building. In front of the office building, there are huge banners hanging on the central plexiglass, several huge words "Leaning on the Heavenly Painting Sword" are placed in the middle of the red banners, while the walls on both sides are hung with more than a dozen banners, almost all of which are cookie-cutter blessings, while the usually deserted parking shed is full of all kinds of cars.
Lao Wang and I had just sat down in the office of the production workshop, and the beautiful girl at the front desk came to us and told us that we were going to a meeting in the big conference room. Lao Wang and I both shook our heads helplessly, but there was no way to do it. So we had to grab our notebooks, put down our work, and walk toward the luxurious office building.
Then, as expected, it was a whole morning meeting, Lao Wang and I sat down in the back of the office, the boss was still foaming on the stage, he boasted: We want to 'lean on the sky to draw the sword', we want to be the leader of the industry... However, after repeating a few of his official words, followed by a long period of boring and tasteless nagging, a lot of data, previous data, contrasting data, current data, blueprint data, listening, listening, but a wave of sleepiness poured in.
I spent the morning in such a daze, sometimes thinking about whether I felt like I was wasting my life, and after a meeting, I didn't seem to remember anything, and I didn't know what the meeting would do to me. Lao Wang and I came out of the conference room and walked straight to the factory canteen, because the meeting was so long that it was an hour later than the previous lunch time. At lunch, Su Jing sent another text message, she told me to go to the next factory door, I asked her what was wrong, she replied that she wanted to invite me to drink water. I replied to her as I ate.
After eating, I went straight to the factory gate, and when I looked at her somewhat haggard face in front of the small shop, I knew that she must not have stepped out of that state of mind. She saw me smile and grimaced reluctantly, and then we went into the little shop next door. It is still a bottle of peaches and a bottle of Coke, and Su Jing's peaches are always cold. We came out of the small shop and walked bored along the somewhat wild yellow dirt road along the factory wall.
Along the way, Su Jing rarely spoke, her face always seemed to be covered with a layer of gloom, she didn't say anything except take a sip of soda from time to time, and when she walked with her this time, she also felt that she was in such a hurry.
"When was the last time we walked like this?" After a long silence, she finally started the topic first.
"Maybe it's been a while!"
"Hmm, repetitive things, different content." She drank the cold peaches of this cold day.
"Oh, in fact, under the modification of time, there is nothing in this world that can be described as repetitive, even if the content is the same."
"Does change reveal invariance, or do we think of change as invariance?"
"Let's have both."
"Maybe!"
"Well... By the way, did you go out on New Year's Day? ”
"Well, I went to Jinggang Ancient Town." Su Jing replied very plainly.
"How do you feel, are you feeling better?" I asked.
"A ticket, a piece of music, a sad journey." She put her hands behind her back and said at a strange pace, "What about you? Then she stopped on the path and asked.
"Well..., a hotel, a story, a seal of memories." I hesitated for a moment before answering.
"It's neat and symmetrical!" She smiled, "Well..." Suddenly she pressed her hand to her lips, with a strange look, "Let's add a horizontal batch to it." ”
"A mood." I spoke casually.
"Oh, yes, let's call it a mood."
At this time, Su Jing suddenly became a little lively again, but not long after, she suddenly returned to a quiet state, just like when she first met her in the small shop. At this moment, she seems to be the opposite of the time when Ann was in Xishan Park, Ann is a quiet personality pretending to be active and wants to paralyze herself, su Jing wants to pretend to be quiet to change her active self.
Then, Su Jing was silent, and I was silent, she kept walking like this, and I kept following her around the factory wall.
"Actually, you're doing that."
"Huh?" I looked into her serious eyes and started to look a little confused again.
"Instead of talking like those people, it's better to be as quiet and real as this." Just like when I went to Jinggang Ancient Town this time, a person sat quietly on an antique wooden stool by the river, quietly drinking bean sesame tea, pouting crisp ginger crisp candy, smelling the aroma of roasted fish all over the street, the quiet river water, flowing clouds, round marble tables, and the smell of the ancient house next to it, and the trance put people in a time and space that does not belong to this era. Then quietly watch all kinds of pedestrians pass by, middle-aged couples, groups of students, girls in pairs, their faces are either quiet, or excited, or intoxicated (but I have never seen a lonely person like me, and I have never seen a lonely look like me).
Although such a quiet trip is destined to be lonely, it is the most real, the purest, and it also sees things that have never been seen before, and that is also the mood that only a person can experience when he travels. It was a mood that was completely unexplained in the reading era before, and when reading, it was usually a group of people going out to play. ”
"A journey by one! Sounds good. ”
"Oh, that's the only thing you'll say. Last night, when I was chatting with my college classmates in the group, they were surprised that I was running out of the trip alone, and they all said that I was not far from the nerves. In fact, I know that I just forgot about him, and the gap after he left was not filled, so all I left was loneliness. The day before yesterday, on the bus leaving for the ancient town, a person sat on the car, wearing earplugs, listening to music, but I always remembered the time when we were together.
I remember the first time he asked me out, he was stupidly holding a bouquet of roses, but he did not dare to take it out, and when I was holding the flowers, I said to him loudly, I am going to eat Pizza Hut, I invite you, you pay. Then he smiled, took my hand and walked in the direction of Pizza Hut. When I look back and think about it, I feel that life at that time was so simple, pure, and beautiful.
When a person travels alone in that ancient town created with modern technology, I suddenly seem to understand a lot, and the things that are usually knotted in my head cannot be sorted out, and the things that cannot be expressed seem to be clear. In fact, the distance between life and life is only a change in mentality, and the gap between love and love is only to see whose soul can remember the love that was once for a longer time. Maybe as you said, put it down when you can't pick it up, and pick it up when you can't put it down. At this moment, my soul can't forget that love after all, but now I have to choose to forget, because for what has been lost, we can only choose to forget. Although I still can't forget it at this moment, I think that with the passage of time, I will eventually forget it. It's just that it will take time. ”
"Yes, perhaps the only thing that can wash away everything in this world is time." However, sometimes when we choose habitual forgetting, it is because we are afraid that what we have lost will always be habitually lost, and the people who are searching for you will always habitually forget you, so we often choose to forget. Forgetting, in a sense, is not really forgetting, it merely heralds the sealing of one memory, but at the same time it may be the beginning of another, because something is so much so much that it must be sealed. ”
"Maybe, hopefully I won't be forgotten by the so-called habituals, as you say." Man, always have to look ahead! Su Jing said.
Then we started walking back, and when we got back to the factory gate, she turned to me and said, "Yan Yan, these days I really thank you, sincerely." ”
"Didn't you say that once before?"
"Oops, it was before, it's now, it's a different meaning!"
"Well, got it." Looking at Su Jing's serious expression, although she said something sad, I saw an optimistic and cheerful her heart.
"One more question?" She changed her hippie smile and suddenly asked shyly.
"What?" I looked at her with some doubt.
"That..., don't you have a girlfriend yet?" She said 'that' for a long time, and this time she didn't say it as casually as she did when she asked me for the first time, and this time she kept looking me in the eye when she asked me.
I looked at her eyes, and my first reaction when she asked me was Lin Ying. However, Lin Ying is far away in Shanghai at the moment, not to mention, she can't be considered my girlfriend at all, and we seem to have just begun to get acquainted with her before leaving.
"Uh...", I thought.
"It doesn't matter, you can say what you don't want to say." Su Jing said.
"Nothing." I thought for a moment and then replied.
"Oh!" She smiled, but her face suddenly turned a little red, and then she hurried toward the office building.