Wang Yi specially composed the lyrics of the song "Embracing the Future" for the 2022 Beijing Winter Paralympic Games, and was selected for the winter Paralympic Games Disability Fusion Original Song Exhibition and Performance Activity held by the China Association for the Promotion of the Cause of the Disabled.
The picture shows Wang Yi and Zhang Shengnan , a student at Beijing Foreign Chinese University (right), the composer of "Disabled And Healthy Communion, Embracing the Future". (Photo by Wang Jiuxin)
Author: Wang Yi, member of the Chinese Writers Association
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Xiao Yi tossed and turned, and had not slept well for several nights. If she hadn't thought that the cover of the magazine's appointment with her hadn't been finished, she wondered if she was about to become depressed.
In fact, it can't be said that it is depressed, that is, the heart is a little chaotic, it is good to be busy, but it cannot be calmed down, it cannot be during the day, and it cannot be at night. Just think about what I have experienced in the past six months, think of Yan Ke's smile at her that night, the hug he gave that morning... Her heart had revived since then, followed by inexplicable panic, and recently turned into a shameful smile at herself, and she turned sideways, staring blankly at the Pauline-shaped bedside lamp, and the switch pinched in her hand was turned off and turned off for no reason. Fluttershy said, "It's ridiculous, it's a joke to tell it!" ”
Speaking of Xiao Yi is also a very peculiar person, the results of various subjects during the student period are very average, mathematical, physical and chemical English basically belongs to half-work and half-reading and has not learned to understand, and the language composition is also written with a dragon and a snake's tail. The results can be imagined, not to mention high school, and it is barely strong to be admitted to technical school. This is not to blame her for not being angry, who made her naturally lame. A girl's family limps to school every day, which has to be treated with a lot of cold eyes. Even if you enter the society with some pity and give her some opaque dishwashing work, with Xiao Yi's "pretentious" temperament, it is even more impossible to accept the alms of others. What would it be like to keep a person's life at home for two years? Probably not so terrible as isolation, after all, this is an era of developed network communication, Xiao Yi naturally can't stay idle, she understands that the network is good for her in a sense. She submitted her resume online, trying to find a job that matched her painting, and from the beginning she didn't believe she couldn't find a decent job. The effort paid off, and two years later, a magazine saw a sample of her drawings and actually hired her. Work irregularly every week to complete the cover of the magazine in the monthly issue. It doubled Xiao Yi's confidence and maintained her decency.
The office space of the magazine was slightly crowded, and there were seven or eight workstations in an editorial room, and Yan Ke appeared at this time node. He was in charge of the stick figure illustration of the inside pages of the magazine, and Xiao Yi's workstation was adjacent to the seat. She rarely comes, and once she comes, she will clean up her acres and three points. She not only nodded to Yan Ke, but also to others. Probably in her cognition, respecting people is a kind of elegant courtesy, just like she has never felt that Yan Ke is special before. Although he talked humorously, treated people despite being gentlemanly, should be close to one meter and eight meters or so, and set up a pair of rimless glasses, but it was very ordinary.
If you have to find something with characteristics, you may often like to wear formal clothes to work.
The theme of this issue cover art is: Healing. Xiao Yi felt that it was a theme of "false big space" at the beginning of hearing it. Healing, there are too many places that will hurt people this year, everyone will be injured, everyone will experience hundreds of battles, and everyone will be scaled all over the body. How to cure? Who can really cure whom? She thought about it for nearly a week without sketching out a picture of "healing." "If you want to show healing, you have to think about the feeling of injury first." She involuntarily poked the original clean and pure white paper with her pen. Every week, she came to the magazine office with a stack of manuscript paper, climbed up the stairs one by one, and looked so difficult to others, but it didn't take much effort, just habits, using habits to cope with difficulties, and the reality was not so exaggerated. Yan Ke also walked up from downstairs and quickly walked in front of her. Dressed in a dark blue suit again, Xiao Yi stepped up one step more than Xiao Yi and turned around, reached out to her and smiled slightly, and said, "Give me the things in your hand, I'll take it first, and you walk slowly." Xiao Yi looked at him, his expression paused for a few seconds, and then he responded with a polite smile and handed him the manuscript paper in his arms, and before she could say thank you, he quickly walked up to the third layer. At the regular meeting, the editor-in-chief inspected the progress of the work of various departments as usual, and Yan Ke had eight illustrations in this issue, and without exception, he submitted the manuscript in advance. When asked about Xiao Yi's cover, she can only say that the theme of this issue is difficult to control, and she has not yet thought about how to show the correct solution to "healing".
When the leaders heard such a reply, they were naturally a little unhappy, and even thought that Xiao Yi had complicated the meaning of the understanding, and could only issue an order with a hard scalp, grasp the painting, and at the end of the month, it would have to be printed in the factory. The crowd dispersed at the end of the meeting, and she always stayed last to leave. Yan Ke also sorted out the information at hand, looked up and saw that she was slowly walking over, she said: "It's okay, there is still time, go back and think slowly, you have to think clearly before you can draw well." Xiao Yi didn't make a sound, but only saw the perfectly normal smile on his face.
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It was a rainy day, and the last time the magazine organized a video clip to build a team, colleagues projected the video onto the screen. In fact, this kind of activity, Xiao Yi generally does not participate, team building always has to "trek through the mountains and waters", she is indeed not suitable for integration. But this year, colleagues said that they were going to the resort to build a leisurely group, there were not so many complicated projects, and Xiao Yi was advised to go together. She still said, forget it, I am still troublesome, along the way will inevitably cause trouble to others, so I will not go. Yan Ke looked around and inadvertently said, "People always have to trouble others, otherwise how can there be a connection between everyone for no reason?" Then she appeared in this year's team building video.
This time, the team building magazine agency was really a rare generosity, and found a five-star resort hotel in the deep mountains. Xiao Yi carried a seemingly heavy backpack to the car, and her colleague asked her to go for two days, how many clothes did you bring? She smiled slightly and said that she had brought a set of clothes, and the others were pens and picture books, thinking about whether changing the environment could find new ideas. She and Yan Ke each sat in a window position, and on the way, everyone took turns to go to the front of the car to perform the show to cheer for the journey. Yan Ke has always been very popular with female colleagues, and if he does not go up and sing one or two songs, he will definitely not let these people stop. Xiao Yi had known him for such a long time, and indeed had to admit that this man was somewhat talented, polite and gentlemanly, funny in conversation, and talented. It's really interesting to think about him. Xiao Yi had been recalling the things that had hurt her over the years, she must have experienced them all, but how they healed later, she couldn't even remember them at all. It was as if I couldn't feel the pain at that time, after all, too much pain, too long would make people numb.
After dinner, the atmosphere of the sharing session is far more relaxed than the regular meeting in the conference room. Although Xiao Yi prefers to be alone, sometimes she also longs to integrate. Everyone sat down casually, trying to form a circle as much as possible, and the expression on the leader's face today was also slightly relaxed, saying: "Today is not not to talk about work, but to give everyone a reward since the work." Let's have a top 10 best awards ceremony! Of course, Xiao Yi felt that this was something that had nothing to do with her, and was holding her head to tinker with the cover. It was only in the midst of looking at the crystal lamp in a daze that she heard someone report her name, "Xiao Yi won the best cover award for the first half of the year!" She numbly adjusted her sitting posture, and did not react for a moment, only to see that everyone around her was staring at her and clapping her hands, making her suddenly feel a little overwhelmed. At the same time, he felt a warm palm fall on his shoulder as if to soothe her, and when he looked back slightly, it was Yan Ke who smiled at her.
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Xiao Yi couldn't sleep, the light came on again, and then it was forced to go out and turn on again. She called Qi Rong, swallowing and spitting, with all kinds of anxiety. Qi Rong couldn't bear it anymore and asked her what she really wanted to say? She said, nothing, can't draw lately, upset. Before she was ready to hang up the phone, she still couldn't help but ask Qi Rong more: "Do you remember Yan Ke of our magazine?" ”
The next morning of the team building, Xiao Yi tossed half a night in order to "cure", and rushed into the bathroom in the morning to wash up a handful of hardships and entanglements. What exactly is a cure? What does it take to be cured? After a quarter of an hour of scouring, he walked out of the room draped in wet hair. "The air in the mountains is just good! Early! She walked slowly all the way, all the way to continue to think about the "healing" thing. Not long after, Yan Ke trotted up from behind in a sports suit and automatically slowed down when he walked to her side. Xiao Yi turned his head to look at him and smiled politely. I thought to myself, it turned out that he was also such a energetic person when he changed into sportswear. He was doing small movements as he walked. They walked slowly, looking straight ahead at the landscape and the wooden bridge. He said, "Didn't sleep last night?" Haven't you thought of anything to draw yet? She nodded and asked him back, "What kind of action do you think is a cure?" At this moment, the seven-o'clock sun came out from the back of the mountain, and he didn't say anything, just stopped, smiled and looked at a strand of hair that was about to be dried next to her face.
Qi Rong was momentarily stopped by the voice on the phone, but after a while he suddenly remembered, and said in a somewhat excited tone: "Oh, I know, is it the one who always likes to wear a suit?" Looks pretty Sven. "Well, yes." Xiao Yi replied very lightly. Then he followed up with a sentence: "He is very good at illustrating, and he is really good at people." "So?" She heard Qi Rong's ill-intentioned tone and did not continue to respond.
After the team building returned, the date of submission was getting closer and closer. These days have not stopped raining, intermittently for almost half a month. After work last Friday, Xiao Yi never went to the magazine again, and it was supposed that Wednesday was the time to hand over the manuscript. But until now she hadn't even sketched it, and her mind was full of something else. When the team building was over that day and she was preparing to get on the bus to return, she suddenly received a call from home, which was bad news, and her grandmother suddenly died in the middle of the night. She stood in front of the hotel lobby, in a trance, not knowing what reaction to use to accept this matter, and could only stand still silly, with no expression on her face. Yan Ke ran down from the bus, crossed the porch to the lobby to find her, saw her solemn look and realized that she had something on her mind, he picked up the backpack she had left on the ground and asked, "What's wrong?" She didn't cry, and told him in a daze: "My grandmother left, and last week she said to go back to steamed steamed buns for me." She still couldn't cry, but involuntarily was taken into Yan Ke's arms.
"You... Moved? Qi Rong was not willing to hang up the phone, "Anyway, I was woken up by you, what else do you sell with me?" Didn't you just call to talk about it? ”
"I didn't even think about who I was going to do with me. Logically, it shouldn't. He's always been like this, quite ordinary. ”
But she did hug Yan Ke that day, and in the unexpected and reasonable, she may not realize that maybe she has been waiting for this hug for a long time.
"So what are you going to do?" Tell him, right? ”
"How to tell? What can I tell him? It was impossible to tell him. ”
"I wondered, how can you not face a person generously if you like it?" You have to boil it yourself, what's wrong with you! ”
"How can someone like me say such a thing? Surely you can't say it, it's ridiculous to say it, others will definitely think it's a joke, I don't want to make myself a joke. ”
"What's wrong with people like you?" Usually so much arrogance, when you encounter this matter, you say that you are a joke? You, let me say what good you are. If people are really interested in you, do you have to offer him up and worship him every day! Qi Rong knew too well that Xiao Yi would involuntarily put herself into a "humble" mentality in the face of people who were impressed, and she always thought that Xiao Yi should fight for it this time. So the "fierce killer" said excitedly, "Can you be a little out of the ordinary, what is unseemly?" Don't mess with your "morally high" theory, what 'I love you, it's just a matter of one person'. All the reasons for not daring to say it are blindness. You like others, you can't patronize yourself, and people who are liked also have the right to know. unless...... You're enough to bracate, boil slowly, until the chickens fly and the eggs beat. When the time comes, I will cry with you a few times, and you are a good man again. ”
At two o'clock in the morning, he was actually more awake than ever, and was tossed by Qi Rong. Xiao Yi couldn't sleep at all. From time to time, her voice came from the earpiece, saying, "Sometimes, when you think about things as complicated, it may be really complicated." The fact that you have a crush on a person shows that the person can understand you and maybe heal you. So as long as it is not against the law that you like, what are you afraid of..."
Xiao Yi picked up the picture book and pen in his hand again, as if a gradually clear outline was suddenly printed in his mind. Yan Ke has always given people a sense of humility and comfort, and the tone of his speech has always been so gentle, and the most important thing is that pleasing smile. Under the lights, or in the sun. No one has ever deserved Xiao Yi's use of such an exaggerated word as "fatal".
On Wednesday, the deadline for submission finally arrived. Rain, still like a stubborn girl, once she drills into the tip of the bull's horn, she keeps spinning in her thoughts, thinking about escaping from this whirlpool, but she can't bear to give up on herself. Xiao Yi went to the magazine in the afternoon, and it happened that as soon as she entered the office hall, someone rushed to tell her a good news: "Xiao Yi, the building installed the elevator yesterday, and there is no need to climb the building in the future." "This is really good news for Xiao Yi. The new elevator was full of ten people, Xiao Yi stood in the corner blocking the button, and the moment the elevator door was about to close, a thin and tall figure rushed to the last step. Colleagues began to complain in tongues, full and overweight. However, the elevator door still closed smoothly, "Just right, I visually predict that I can add another talent to step in." Xiao Yi had seen Yan Ke walking quickly in the fastest instant, and no one would notice that she had pressed the door button at the last moment, and Yan Ke didn't know. When she got out of the elevator, she didn't even dare to look at him and walked out in a panic.
Last night, Qi Rong still felt a little strange and asked her: "In fact, you have not known him for a year or two, how did this happen this time?" ”
"Yeah, how did it come to this?"
Xiao Yi finally handed in the manuscript at the last minute, and the cover was finally finalized by Xiao Yi within three hours in the morning. It is the picture of a girl in a dance dress with a lost and sentimental face, and a dolphin jumping from the water and smiling, gently caressing her forehead with her pectoral fins. Xiao Yi wasn't sure if the gentle dolphin could really heal the sad girl. But what she could be sure of was that Yan Ke's hug that morning was truly comforting to her. Maybe it was at that moment that she clearly realized that Yan Ke was special, and I couldn't have the slightest thought about him, just because he was too good.
Near the end of work, the rain outside is still falling. Before leaving work, he saw Xiao Yi still tinkering with bags in his seat, so he stood up and greeted her: "Let's go together, the rain downstairs seems to have begun to flood a little, I will send you to the subway station." Xiao Yi was naturally pleased, and was planning to give him what was in his bag before he turned around. But at this time, Yan Ke's mobile phone rang, and he glanced at the incoming call prompt. Listening to the incessant sound of rain outside the window, he used the afterglow to sweep Yan Ke's joy after receiving the call. He nodded and hung up the phone refreshedly, and continued to say to Xiao Yi with the same happy smile: "Let's go downstairs, my girlfriend called and said that she was downstairs at the magazine office." She drove the car, and we'll take you back!" "When I walked out of the magazine, the rain in front of the door had accumulated to the ankle position. Yan Ke's girlfriend ran out of the car with an umbrella, he hurried up to catch the handle of the umbrella, and held it with her hand, he smiled and introduced his colleague Xiao Yi to his girlfriend, and praised her in passing: "Xiao Yi is the only master of our magazine's cover design." She smiled habitually politely. Then he said, "The road area is watery, Xiao Yi is not convenient to walk, let's send her back together." Yan Ke's girlfriend was also a warm-hearted person, and lian lian agreed, pulling the car door to invite Xiao Yi to the car.
"Oh! No, you don't! Xiao Yi suddenly felt that his response was somewhat strong, and then eased his tone again and said, "Thank you, don't bother." The rain wasn't particularly heavy, the subway station was at the intersection, I took my umbrella and walked a few steps. "She definitely doesn't want to take the car. However, when she heard Yan Ke say that she was inconvenient to walk, Xiao Yi's heart seemed to be pricked by some kind of sharp needle. She carried a water-dripping umbrella waiting for the subway home, and her mind was full of pictures of Yan Ke and his girlfriend standing together and looking like a talented woman. With the subway door open, and the phone call from Qi Rong, she casually found a seat on the side and sat down, weakly not knowing whether to say a word. "Huh? What did you say? Loud, I didn't hear it. "The fractional rate on the other end of the phone is increasing.
"Gifts, not given out. His girlfriend came to pick him up from work today. This sentence was finally heard by Qi Rong. Soon I heard Xiao Yi laughing and saying, "Very good, at least I didn't become that ridiculous joke...
For a moment she thought she was asleep, and the picture that came to her eyes should be an unrealistic dream. Suddenly, Xiao Yi's whole person instantly felt a few violent jolts, and her dream was completely awakened. Suddenly, there was a panic in the subway car, and she looked at the people around her in panic.
Only to hear someone shouting in surprise from a distant carriage: "The subway has stopped!" There's water coming in, there's water coming in! As soon as these words were shouted, the passengers of the left and right carriages all appeared terrified. For a time, the entire space evolved into a thrilling plot in minutes and seconds. "Water... Water is seeping in! What's going on? More and more? What's going on here? "The subway was flooded with rainwater that had infiltrated it. In less than five minutes, several larger small lakes formed on the ground from small pools of water. It's almost up to the seat! Someone shouted again at this time: "Quick, pull the handle and stand on the stool!" Xiao Yi didn't say a word, but a cold sweat appeared on his face. She grabbed the armrest on the side like a climbing rope with both hands, and pushed one leg up with great effort, followed by another. She clutched the armrest, her legs curled up half a seat.
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Just when people were jumping up and down at a loss, the subway conductor rushed over, he reassured the passengers not to panic, while urgently directing everyone to evacuate from the tunnel sidewalk, but because the water flow was extremely fierce, the passage was very narrow, crowded so many people could not go over, but most people had to return to the carriage to wait for rescue. The carriage has long been formed into a river of confusion, and all the people can only climb back into their seats and stand to continue to be trapped. Xiao Yi opened her mouth to breathe, until now her thoughts were confused, she did not understand why in just a few hours, she had fallen into so many complicated disasters. And at this moment the nightmare has not ended, the current not only the water level is about to overflow the upper body, suddenly a tremor occurs again, the whole subway suddenly tilted to the other side, the water also went down the trend around once again in shock and wail, some people already have a weighing in their hearts, looking around everyone is holding the last bit of power in the mobile phone, sending WeChat or voice to important people. The boy crouching next to Xiao Yi had headphones stuffed in his ears, and when he saw that the people around him were slowly quieting down, he unplugged the headphone cable and released the music in his mobile phone. Xiao Yi suddenly heard the song "Ordinary Day", "This is the most ordinary day, do you want it too?" Don't chase, don't hurry up and walk home slowly..."
Xiao Yi's tears finally broke in an instant, and she helplessly hugged herself to face the most desperate moment of her life. She regretted that she had not just followed Yan Ke and his girlfriend to the car, and how much she regretted that she had missed the opportunity to say goodbye to her beloved for her own insignificant decency. She regretted not giving him the gift she had prepared for half a month before Yan Ke answered the phone, and she even regretted that she had not been able to become that "joke". She fumbled out her phone and opened WeChat between tears and rain, but didn't want to send a farewell message to anyone. Just come to this world for yourself, love such a person, and send the last circle of friends. Xiao Yi sent out a photo taken in the early morning, which was her newly completed cover, girl with dolphins. On this cover is also placed a gift box with a blue bow, which contains a tie prepared for Yan Ke today. Weak to gasp for breath, type out a few lines of text like this: I like you, like it to the point of wasting your life. Happy birthday to you!
Xiao Yi used the last bit of strength, and his fingers pressed the send button without heeding the call. The circle of friends sent out the next second, as if falling into the black hole outside the car window, Mu Ran appeared a glimmer of light...
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Testimonials
A "marathon" strong man who runs on the keyboard with one finger
Fan Xiaoqing, honorary chairman of the Jiangsu Writers Association
"There is always a beam of light because of your wonderful, we work together to run into the future." As written in Wang Yi's lyrics, words are the ideal light of Wang Yi. Since 2008, Wang Yi has started the road of writing with only one finger, and has published the prose collection "Running in a Wheelchair", the poetry collection "Growing Backwards in Silence", the novel "Winter Fireworks", and the short story collection "Worth the Trip to See You". Wang Yi is a "marathon" strong man who runs on the keyboard with one finger, which is the essence and concrete embodiment of the Olympic spirit.
Recently, I read Wang Yi's new short story "Swinging the Double Oar" and was very moved. Wang Yi has grown rapidly in literary creation, and her novels have become relatively mature and vivid, which makes people feel excited. First, the writing kung fu is very long, the language is mastered and used freely, and the reading is flowing; the second is that the character image is successful, vivid and vivid, and vivid; the third is that the details are both vivid and realistic, grounded; fourth, the emotions of the work are sincere and touching, and can move people. In general, "Swinging The Oars" is one level higher than the previous works I have seen, it comes from life and from the depths of the author's heart, such as the understanding and familiarity with the centralized rental place of the patient and the patient's family, and the grasp of the inner world of the patient, which is well integrated. Happy for Wang Yi, salute her.
The new work "Meal Bureau" feels very smooth overall, and the writing is old to mature. There are several characteristics, one is that the storyline is vivid, true, very grounded, the scenes depicted are vivid and vivid, especially the accusations of each other, the public is justified, the mother is reasonable, it is very meaningful, and it is a relatively advanced way to write about the chicken feathers of life, the entanglement that cannot be sorted out, and it is a relatively advanced way of writing. Second, the characters are relatively full, the personality is prominent, although it is a short story and there are many characters, but it can take care of the personality of each character, and it is distinct. So the novel is very easy to read, just think that this ending is a little abrupt, in fact, this ending is very good, suddenly swinging a stroke, so that the novel to a richer meaning.
Wang Yi's short story "Healing Against the Current" is very confident in writing, and the language and writing are relatively mature, and the inner world of the characters (Xiao Yi) is portrayed deeply and flexibly, with a sense of substitution. The first part of the love budding, written delicately and vividly, is very touching. Although the brushwork is light and slightly thin, fortunately, there is a counter-current behind the novel, which is the climax of the whole work, so that the story and ideological realm of the entire work have been improved, and the structure of the novel has also been perfected and stood up. Setting up an accident in the novel not only completes the whole picture of the work, but also expresses some unspoken meanings, which is a writing feature of "Healing Against the Current".
China Young Writers Daily, March 15, 2022, 1st edition
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