Xiu'er was dressed in a wedding dress, carefully dressed in front of the mirror, today was the big day of her marriage to Chuanwu, but Xian'er did not know that this was her happiest day and the most tragic day of her life.
Ever since Chuanwu saved her from the jackal's mouth many years ago, she had vowed not to marry her in this life. Now that her dream has finally come true, Chuanwu rides a big horse and comes to marry her with a huge procession of relatives.
On the night of the candle in the cave room, Chuanwu was drunk, Xiu'er advised him to rest early, but Chuanwu pretended to be mysterious and said that there were people outside listening to the wall roots and could not sleep too early. He can tell Xiu'er stories to relieve his boredom and spend this long night. Chuanwu spoke with flying eyebrows, chuanshen and funny, Xiu'er laughed happily, and she thought excitedly, from today onwards, Chuanwu will tell her stories every day, how happy her marriage should be.
Xiu'er finally couldn't stay up and went to sleep with a smile. Chuanwu looked at Xiu'er's sleeping face and immediately switched from a newly opened hippie smiley face to an indifferent expression. His purpose was achieved, and in the courtyard, his parents and brother and sister-in-law had fallen asleep, and only Xian'er had not yet slept. He sneaked into Xian'er's room and fled the house with her.
The next morning, Xiu'er woke up to look for Chuanwu, only to find that he and Xian'er had eloped. Xiu'er was lying on the ground and crying, she did not expect that Chuanwu and her marriage were to cover up for the escape. Since Chuanwu didn't love her, why did he marry her?
Xiu'er could not accept this betrayal, was mentally stimulated, and went crazy for a while. In order to avenge his daughter, Xiu'er's father often found trouble for Zhu Kaishan, and several times he also brought people to Zhu Kaishan's house and smashed the pots and pans into a mess.
Zhu Kaishan's family dared to be angry and did not dare to speak, the loss of some things is small, and the injury is big. Chuanwu eloped with Xian'er on the wedding night, which was a great shame for Xiu'er and Xiu'er's parents, how could they still gain a foothold in this place in the future?
Xiu'er hated Chuanwu's ruthlessness and took advantage of her feelings, but she was not willing to let go, and when Zhu Kaishan wanted to leave the village with her family to go to Harbin, Xiu'er decided to follow Zhu Kaishan as Chuanwu's daughter-in-law. She believed that if she kept the clouds open and saw the moon, Chuanwu would one day know her good and return to her.
After Chuanwu and Xian'er eloped, they defected to the old one-armed. Although the old one-armed man is old, he has been wandering in the rivers and lakes for many years, born in a chaotic world, and has the experience and wisdom to break into the rivers and lakes. Chuanwu and Xian'er follow the old one-armed, and can find a corner of the land to settle down. Unfortunately, Xian'er fell ill not long after arriving on the ship, and the high fever did not go away, and he did not get better after taking many medicines.
The people on the boat were worried that Xian'er's illness would be contagious and forced Xian'er to leave. Xian'er couldn't bear to drag Chuan Wu along, dragging his sick and weak body into the water. Chuanwu's brain was blank, and in order to save Xian'er, he also planted his head into the river. By the time he carried Xian Er ashore, Xian Er had already fainted.
The old one-armed man didn't know why Xian'er and Chuanwu didn't find a place to live a good life, but he wanted to follow him outside, but seeing that the two were so deeply in love, his heart was touched, and he took Chuanwu and Xian'er in against the crowd. After Xian'er's illness improved, Chuanwu also saved a sum of money and bought a bracelet for Xian'er. In the future, he will work hard to earn money, settle a small home in a strange place, and live a happy life with Xian'er.
But no one expected that at the happiest moment of Chuanwu and Xian'er, they suddenly encountered robbers, chuanwu in order to protect Xian'er, fell into the water after being shot, and when Xian'er jumped into the water to save Chuanwu, he was scattered by the turbulent water and separated from Chuanwu.
Xian Er fished on the shore for three days, and did not see the shadow of Chuanwu. No one knows where Chuanwu went, and no one knows whether Chuanwu is alive or dead. Fishermen nearby said that if Chuanwu had been alive, he would have appeared long ago. The fact that he could not be found for three days showed that his hope of survival was slim. Xian Er knew that it would be fruitless to continue to search, so he erected a monument for Chuanwu and left this sad place.
Xian'er did not dare to tell Chuanwu's parents about Chuanwu, and could only drift away from the outside. Fortunately, heaven took pity on him, and in the most difficult and tormented days of Xian'er, he met the bandit Zhen Sanjiang, who fought for people's righteousness, and learned that Xian'er was a man of temperament, so he let Xian'er stay on the mountain as the second boss and became one of the leaders of the bandits.
Xian'er and Chuanwu were separated for 18 years, and Xiu'er also waited for Chuanwu for 18 years until Chuanwu returned.
Not long after Chuanwu disappeared, Zhu Kaishan took his family to root in Harbin and opened a restaurant. Zhu Kaishan knows how to do business, coupled with exquisite craftsmanship and kindness, the business of the restaurant is very prosperous, the family also lives a good life with no worries and spare money on the restaurant, and Xiu'er has also changed from the previous earth girl to a beautiful person with the same temperament as the girl in the city.
In the eyes of outsiders, Xiu'er is happy. If she hadn't followed Zhu Kaishan to Harbin, how could she have seen the world and lived a better life? But the bitterness in it was only clear to herself. Every night, everyone else slept together as a husband and wife, and only she fell asleep with a pillow every night in order to pass the loneliness. The pillow was draped with the clothes that Chuanwu had worn, and xiu'er could only use this way to ease her longing for Chuanwu.
The greatest sin and punishment in life is to make the person who loves you deeply endure the torment of longing, and this pain has nowhere to tell, but can only grit your teeth and swallow into your stomach. Xiu'er waited day after day until Chuanwu returned.
Originally, after Chuanwu was scattered by the current, he was saved by the soldiers, and since then he has joined the army to fight outside all day. His ability to pass on martial arts was outstanding and moralistic, and he was promoted to the rank of regimental commander and became a red man around the young marshal.
After 18 years of not seeing, Xiu'er looked at the Chuanwu in front of him, familiar and strange, his appearance was the same as before, but he spoke and did things with a little more maturity. Chuanwu learns that Xiu'er has been waiting for him, and his eyes are full of guilt. At night, before going to bed, Xiu'er brought a basin of hot water to wash Chuanwu's feet. Chuanwu looked into Xiu'er's affectionate eyes, bowed his head, and said: Xiu'er, I will wash it myself.
Chuanwu knew Xiu'er's intentions, and he didn't dare to look at her. Over the years, he knew how difficult It was for Xiu'er to live, but he still couldn't convince himself to accept Xiu'er's love wholeheartedly. Before going to bed, Xiu'er simply cleaned up, and when she was ready to enter the bed, Chuanwu dragged the quilt and said: Xiu'er, I am used to sleeping alone, this cold is not around someone, not very used to it, you go to bed early!
Xiu'er's heart was like suffocation, so sad that she couldn't speak. She had waited for him for eighteen years, didn't she just hope to be with him and live a normal married life? Since Chuanwu had returned, why did he have to avoid her and even sleep separately?
Xiu'er wanted to be angry, but when she thought of Chuanwu disappearing for eighteen years, it was not easy to come back, and she could only bear the grievances that were about to gush out, and hugged a quilt again.
The next morning, Xiu'er sent Chuanwu back to the troops, and Chuanwu said to Xiu'er with apologies: I don't come back, and I miss my father and mother, but as soon as I come back, I feel sorry for you. I also want to hurt you, but I don't have that mood anymore. You are very good, but after so many years of fighting, you have fought all your hearts and hearts, and you don't have that mood.
Xiu'er said with tears in her eyes: After so many years, I still haven't been able to drill into your heart.
Chuanwu didn't say a word and turned away. Chuanwu did not deny it, indicating that Xiu'er's words reached Chuanwu's heart. It wasn't that he couldn't marry her, it was that he didn't want to marry her in his heart.
Xiu'er didn't understand, she had waited for eighteen years to pass on martial arts, why was she still inferior to Xian'er? Where is Xian'er better than her? Since she loved to spread martial arts, she was single-mindedly devoted to him, when Zhu Kaishan planted dozens of acres of water lacked water, almost died of drought, it was Xiu'er who ignored her father's obstruction, opened the floodgates and released water, only to save those crops and save the family property that Zhu Kaishan exchanged for his life.
Her family is a famous large family in the village, from childhood pampering, but in order to get the heart of Chuanwu, she learned to do housework, running to the Chuanwu family at both ends for three days, sometimes Chuanwu's mother is too busy, Xiu'er will help her lay hands. She is sincere with Chuanwu and wants to live with her, but what about Chuanwu? She was always shunned, annoyed by whatever she did.
She had seen Xian'er, and Xian'er was not as young and beautiful as she was, nor as innocent as her. At that time, in order to save Chuanwen, Xian'er sold herself as a child bride, and later on the way to Kanto, she was tarnished by bullies, whether from her family lineage or from the reputation of her daughter's family, she was far better than Xian'er. When Chuanwu and Xian'er eloped, she told herself that Xian'er loved Chuanwu and that she loved Xian'er more than Xian'er. In order to prove her heart for Chuanwu, she guarded her body like a jade for 18 years.
I thought that this love was enough to impress Chuanwu, who knew that the only one who was moved was herself. Later, Chuanwu came home from the army several times, each time he came and went in a hurry, not staying at home overnight, Xiu'er felt that Chuanwu was hiding from her, and the eldest sister-in-law Nawen also sensed the abnormality, and said to Xiu'er, hating the iron and steel: I want me to see, or you can't do it, being a soldier for a year, the old sow racing cicada, you are also true, women do not have the ability to seduce men, are you still a woman?
Xiu'er was stabbed in the ribs by Na Wen and ran back to the room and cried. Yes, she looks good-eyed, and usually lives a thrifty family, why is she so good, but she can't let Chuanwu be moved?
Xiu'er was not willing to concede defeat like this, and on this day, when Chuanwu returned home, Xiu'er lied that she was unwell and lay on the bed to rest. After Chuanwu entered the door, he saw the red rope around Xiu'er's neck and asked her what it was? Xiu'er said shyly: It is the belly pocket, the belly pocket for you men to see. Pass on the martial arts, you will hurt me!
In the face of Xiu'er's initiative, Chuanwu sat still, and his voice was calm and could not be rejected: Xiu'er, I tell you not to be sad, since the year when Li and Xian'er were separated in the water field, I have been dead to women.
Xiu'er stared into Chuanwu's eyes and asked: She is a woman, she is also a woman, where is she not as good as her? You say that these are all lies, and you have never forgotten your fresh sister in your heart.
Chuanwu didn't know how to explain it to Xiu'er, and watching Xiu'er cry and make trouble, he slammed the door in anger. Xiu'er regretted it, dragging Chuanwu's arm and crying: Chuanwu I was wrong, you don't go, I was wrong.
ChuanWutou left without looking back. Xian Er was completely disappointed this time, no matter what she did, no matter how many years she waited for Chuanwu, she could not enter Chuanwu's heart. He said that his death to women was just an excuse, and he had never forgotten Xian'er in his heart. Just when Xiu'er is discouraged by love, Ichiro appears.
Ichiro is a Japanese who was saved by Xiu'er, when Ichiro was sick and was pulled to a remote place to be burned, Xiu'er couldn't bear to watch him die, saved Ichiro from those people, and found a doctor to cure his illness. Although Ichiro lives in Zhu Kaishan's house, Xiu'er visits him every day.
Xiu'er is innocent and cute, and has already unconsciously entered Ichiro's heart. At that time, Ichiro was still young and didn't know what love was, he only knew that Xiu'er was happy, he was happy, Xiu'er was sad, and he would be sad. Watching Xiu'er and Chuanwu become intimate, he will be lost and heartbroken. He was later taken home by his parents and left China. But he never forgot Xian'er, and he returned to China many years later and kept looking for her.
At this time, Ichiro has long been handsome and tall, and his manhood is not lost. Now he is no longer a teenager who is ignorant of love, Ichiro's love for Xiu'er is straightforward and strong, he will praise Xiu'er for being good-looking, seriously confess to her, these years he has never been married, or his heart is not xiu'er. After the death of his parents, Xiu'er was the only courage to support him to live, and the woman he loved most in his life was Xiu'er. Long pain is not as good as short pain, as long as Xiu'er is willing, he is willing to fly away with Xiu'er.
Ichiro's feelings for Xiu'er are the same as Xiu'er's feelings for Chuanwu, she knows too well how intense the pain of missing a person to the extreme is, and Ichiro's love makes her deeply moved. She thinks that she only loves Chuanwu in her heart and can't fit anyone else, but every time she sees Ichiro, she will blush and be shy. Knowing that he didn't have enough to eat, would worry about his body, and with Ichiro, she always felt that time was short and didn't want to separate.
Xiu'er's changes are all seen by Nawen, and she concludes that Xiu'er likes Ichiro, but she just deceives herself and refuses to admit it. Under the persuasion of Nawen, Xiu'er decided to recognize her heart and be brave for love once. She wants to have a showdown with Chuanwu, return each other's freedom, and find her love.
When Xiu'er said and left these words, Chuanwu's eyes changed slightly. Xiu'er had loved him for so many years, he never thought that Xiu'er would leave there, and now Xiu'er was in love with someone else, and a trace of shock and loss flashed in Chuanwu's eyes. Ke Chuanwu knew in his heart that letting Xiu'er leave would be liberating to each other. He had been delaying Xiu'er for 18 years, and since he couldn't love her wholeheartedly, he couldn't continue to delay her.
After Xiu'er and Ichiro got married, they had a few years of comfortable life, and later too many involuntary things happened, causing Ichiro to commit suicide and pass the martial sacrifice. After experiencing a brief sweetness, Xiu'er once again returned to the life of being alone in an empty house.
Xiu'er's life is miserable, she has loved Chuanwu for 18 years and can't, and wasted the best youth of a woman on not loving her, but she doesn't deserve sympathy, because she has been widowed for eighteen years and is self-seeking.
Ishikawa Juanko said: What is love, love is fulfillment. Fulfill her happiness, complete her happiness. When she loves you, you fulfill her into your world; when she doesn't love you, you fulfill her to pursue her happiness, this is great love!
Does Xiu'er love to pass on martial arts? If she loves Chuanwu, how can she empathize with each other and not fall in love with Ichiro? She thought that her attachment to Chuanwu was love, but she did not know that what she loved most was herself and her obsession. She thinks that she is young and beautiful, only she chooses others, no one else chooses her share, so when she learns that Chuanwu does not love her, it stimulates her desire to win or lose. She did not believe that she had grown up to be windy and rainy, and that she would lose to a fresh child whose reputation and age were not as good as hers.
In order to get Chuanwu, Xiu'er did not hesitate to use her father to exert pressure, so that her father and Zhu Kaishan joined forces to force Chuanwu to marry her. To truly love someone is to hope that he is happy, not to know that he does not love you, but to use your kindness to him to kidnap him and let him marry you.
Xiu'er has not been able to get the heart of passing on martial arts all these years? Because she had never thought about problems from the standpoint of Chuanwu and considered his feelings. She didn't care if Chuanwu loved him or not, nor did she care how painful it was for Chuanwu to marry a woman she didn't love. But Xian'er is different, And Xian'er's love for Chuanwu is great and inclusive. She was willing to die in order not to drag Chuanwu down, willing to watch him happy from a distance, and not let him be embarrassed.
It is precisely because Xian'er understands him and is willing to pay silently for him, Chuanwu will be more distressed about Xian'er and can't let go of her. If Xiu'er can do half of Xian'er, instead of just fighting with Xian'er to win or lose, maybe she can also win the heart of Chuanwu. Unfortunately, she missed the most suitable time to meet Chuanwu, and also missed the opportunity to win his heart. If she had given up on this fruitless relationship earlier, she might have had a happier life.
There is a saying in "I Can Wait for You": Some feelings are better than forced; and some people, encounters are gifts.
In fact, life does not need such unnecessary attachments, learning to give up, is a kind of wisdom. There is a feeling called no chance, and there is a kind of abandonment called fulfillment. Good feelings, marriage must be a win-win, not a one-sided sacrifice. Crossing people also cross themselves, encounter people who do not love themselves, stubborn persistence, will only suffer themselves, complete others, but also complete themselves.