"I want to live, the world is so beautiful. Will the world be red-hot and want to die? Said an extant grandmother who had been a comfort woman.
Grandma's words contain the calmness and let-down of the experience, and there is also the nightmare horror of recalling.
She said that they had experienced "pressing poles" (a kind of torture that tied women to a stool and then added bricks to the soles of their feet to torture people), "four-legged cows" (letting women support all four limbs on the ground, and then putting a sharp knife under the woman's abdomen, and the punished person was not allowed to look up, and if he fell down because of physical weakness, he would be killed by a sharp knife, because the action looked like a cow, so it was called a "four-legged cow"), "comfort chair" and other torture. Terrible memories are vividly remembered in their minds frame by frame.
Perhaps most people's understanding of "comfort women" is the same as when I was ignorant, all I know is the introduction that my family has brought, and what I see is only a slight flash of footage in the TV series, but when I really watch every shot and every sentence of their memories in the CCTV documentary on "Thirty-Two" and "Twenty-Two" about the existing comfort women in China, I can more truly understand the experience of the comfort women.
The book "Comfort Women from the Army" entered the public eye, and the Japanese author Chida Natsumitsu was immediately sanctioned by the Japanese authorities. The book chronicles the lives of comfort women like pigs and dogs, where the inhumane abuse was made nakedly publicized, and the Japanese government sent people to collect, destroy, and remove the book overnight.
When watching the comfort women documentary, many netizens left a message in the comment area: Our descendants are not qualified to forgive the viciousness of the Japanese for their predecessors. Indeed, we cannot empathize with them, we cannot feel their suffering, so no one has the right to forgive the wicked on their behalf. But our roots and origins, Chinese blood is an invisible vein, which connects us together and tells us in our own hearts that the twisted hearts and cruel acts of the Japanese army will always be spurned and warned.
In the documentary "Thirty-Two", I remember my grandmother saying: "She was bullied to death, and finally escaped from the devil with her daughter and returned home." The husband thought she would not be able to come back and scolded her for going outside to learn badly. After returning home, Grandma repeatedly thought about ending this humiliation with death, but she was saved. Later, grandma's grandmother said to her, "Don't die, just live."
It's hard to imagine how hard she had accepted all this as a little girl at that time. How much courage did it take to decide to survive and see the world.
In the movie, Grandma said: "Only worry about short life and don't worry about suffering." This open-mindedness and optimism are also worthy of the admiration and admiration of future generations. Now that the War of Resistance has been won, people's lives have changed drastically in the 21st century, and Grandma has actually gained a new life. She chose to live again and survive.
Some people may say that why it is better not to choose to die or die with the devil before being bullied by the devils, it is better than being a comfort woman; it may be said that being a comfort woman is not equivalent to helping the Japanese kill Chinese; Some people will also say that they are pregnant with a Japanese child and actually gave birth.
Users who have commented on the above can still be said to have deviated on the road of sentimental patriotism. But each girl's personality and environment, as well as her ideas and mission, will be different. Those countless comfort women who have been bullied and maimed but have passed away, they can't see the days when the Japanese devils were driven out of China, they can't see china's prosperous today, and they can't see that the Japanese troops who bullied them have been punished or have died; and the comfort women who survived, they have seen a lot, waited a lot, and heard a lot with the regrets of their dead sisters.
After the protagonist of the documentary "Thirty-Two" decides to survive, he discovers that he is pregnant. But her husband objected, her grandmother objected. But in her eyes at the time, he was the life in her belly, regardless of nationality, just a living life. She kept the child despite her family's objections.
But her children have been accepting the malice and ridicule of him as Japanese all their lives.
"It is said that children are innocent", but in the face of this situation, in the face of national hatred and hatred, not everyone can accept the children of japanese people calmly!
She will psychologically think that after she is bullied, no one will want to marry her, or she can no longer have children, even if such a bad behavior makes her carry a child, but at least she can have her own child, no matter who the father of the child is, but the child's mother is definitely her. Psychologically, it is a piece of flesh on his own body, how can he easily give it up. We cannot empathize with their pain and grievances, and any evaluation and definition is an invisible or tangible deepening of the harm to them.
Some of them are bullied, humiliated, killed, and survived at the same age as 9, 12, 15, 18, etc.; but most people should feel that experiencing the life of comfort women has caused them to die once, while those who survive are still alive, laughing, and living their new lives.
"This world is really good, and eating wild things must be set aside for life", this is what the protagonist's grandmother said in the film.