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This eleventh, I take annual leave, a break is more than half a month. Go back to your home with your Shenzhen boyfriend and find your mother. Back in that little city, after two weeks, I began to feel lonely.
I was having dinner that day when I received a text message from Zheng Zhi: "I came back from my hometown in the countryside, can I have dinner together?" ”
In fact, he is my boyfriend before I entered Shenzhen, in the past five years, although he has been married and had children, my feelings have not stabilized, and whenever I come back, the two still have to "get together" a little.
Meet at a tavern you used to visit. After ordering two simple small dishes, Zheng Zhi went straight to the subject: "Wait to my house." ”
I didn't lift my head: "Your wife didn't come back with you?" ”
He said: "No, she will have to play in her hometown for a few days with her children before she can come back." Then he added: "The rules of the countryside, the man and the woman go home, the two can't sleep together, this week is really long." ”
There was some simple desire in his words, which made my heart rise a little, a little unhappiness. It seems that lingering has become the core purpose of our meeting, and it is natural.
After eating, I said politely, "Your house, or... Don't go, right? ”
Zheng Zhi was puzzled: "It's only six o'clock, why are you going home?" Go ahead and talk for a while. Looking at his innocent face, I had to agree.
2
When the taxi drove to the door of the community, I did not want to go in again, so I had to get off the car with Zheng Zhi and go inside one after the other, he was afraid of encountering acquaintances, and deliberately pulled away from me.
I struggled slowly behind me, as if eating a Rotten Tomatoes, slowly squirming in my stomach. Why is that? Why is this so?
I encouraged myself to turn around and walk away, and I felt that Zheng Zhi, who knew nothing about my struggles, would think I had a neurosis.
He was hesitating when he heard an argument coming from behind him. It turned out that the taxi that had just sent himself in had a slight injury with the back of the car, and the two drivers were scolding each other. I took a look at it and thought it was funny: two male passengers came up and down from the back of the car to relieve the driver, saying "And angry to make money."
I silently read their words. Yes, and angry to make money, first go up with Zheng Zhi, then say it later.
When I went upstairs, I saw Zheng Zhi slow down and wait for me in the corridor on the second floor. Two "persuasion men" also walked in. It turned out that I lived in the same unit as Zheng Zhi, so I leaned over and let them go up first.
Walking to the fifth floor, an accident happened.
I saw two men squatting in front of Zheng Zhi's house, an old man and a small man, and as soon as the old man saw Zheng Zhi, he greeted him warmly: "After waiting for you for half a day, how can the mobile phone not get through?" The little one said timidly, "Cousin is good." "None of them noticed me behind him.
Zheng Zhi was slightly embarrassed: "The mobile phone is out of power..." He said and opened the security door and let the two people in, but did not close the door. I was still quite clever, and in the space of their greeting, I went straight upstairs, as if I had nothing to do with Zheng Zhi.
Go to the sixth floor, which is already the top floor.
The two "persuasion men" entered the house, were about to close the door, and saw me.
One asked, "Who are you looking for?" ”
I had to glance at the security door next to me.
Another said: "I've been at the door for two years without anyone living. Then he said, "Come in and sit for a while, for the big festival, the visitors are the guests." ”
Absurd encounters were so ubiquitous that I walked in.
3
Two "persuasion men" brought me a glass of water: "You drink water first, we count things, and we have to go out." The two of them went into the bedroom, and I heard the sound of boxes and cabinets being turned over.
I sat still and didn't move. I thought, is there an aphrodisiac in the water? If so, it's a big game.
After a while, the two men came out of the bedroom and sat down on the couch: "Beauty, I just saw you get out of the car with the guy who lives on the fifth floor." ”
I was really shocked. These two people looked dazed, but they really looked at the six roads and listened to the eight directions.
The two exchanged glances. One said, "You didn't go in when you saw him coming?" ”
Another said: "Looking so temperamental, why do you want to be with such a man?" ”
I couldn't stand it, sat up straight, and offered my resignation. Neither of them kept it, and slyly instructed me: "Don't tell you that man you came to my house, so that people know that we know his secret, it's not good." ”
I nodded.
When I went downstairs, I saw Zheng Zhi's door closed.
Passing in front of his door, I texted him: "It's cold outside, I'm leaving." "Walking out of the neighborhood, I felt cold hands and feet.
Back at home, turn on the computer, ready to write a blog. No one knows my blog address, and there are very few viewers, which is my secret alone.
Here, I saw the journal written three years ago on new year's day: "He opened the door, saw that there was no one outside, and whispered to me to get out, and I quickly slipped out..."
A scene full of stealing, "he" is Zheng Zhi. At that time, he had just gotten married, and every time I went back to my hometown, the two still met. Maybe I still loved him at that time, so even this description came to life.
It is true that things are human. I'm no longer a little girl, and I think, years ago, I loved him too, but his destiny has been stagnant, and everything about me is rolling forward. Although he can't enter the marriage, because of the old love, the connection is broken, but why, gradually, even the simplest happiness is not willing to let him give?
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The next day, Zheng Zhi sent a text message: "Something is not good, a family upstairs of mine was stolen, the community security checked the video, found that at that time we both showed our faces, you have to come over to accept the investigation." ”
I almost broke down.
Rushing to the community, Zheng Zhi was already sitting in the security room with a gray face. Two small policemen came from the police station, and when they saw me, they said to take me back to investigate.
In the transcript, the young policeman asked: "What is the relationship between you and Zheng Zhi?" What did you do at his house last night? ”
I replied, "Friendship, I came to his house last night to be a guest." ”
They tit-for-tat: "Since you are going to be a guest, why did you go around the stairs again?" ”
My heart was tingling, but my mouth said, "Because he had no one else in the family at that time, I was afraid that his relatives would misunderstand and cause him a bad impact." ”
The two little policemen smiled tacitly and did not ask much. I was finally relieved.
Then I put a series of absurd encounters after entering the house to pour beans in bamboo buckets.
The confession was not flawed, and after I signed it, I was released. Outside the door, Zheng Zhi was waiting. Beside him stood a pair of elderly people. Zheng Zhi introduced: "This is the couple on the top floor. "I had to be interrogated again. The old man was indignant: "Don't you have a long brain?" Will anyone mess around in their own home? "I was dumbfounded. The old man didn't even say hello to Zheng Zhi, so he took a taxi and left.
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We walked silently down the street and saw someone selling baked sweet potatoes. Zheng Zhi said he was hungry, bought two, and handed me one. Both felt awkward, and they couldn't tell where it was, so they simply sat on a stool on the side of the road and began to eat, neither of them spoke.
The cleaners came, sweeping the fallen leaves while complaining about the sudden fall of the night, almost exhausting them to death. Zheng Zhi finally spoke: "This year is really cold, like our first year of college." I remember when your face was always frozen red, and I gave you a big red scarf. ”
My eyes were a little moist. In order to pour back the tears, I snorted: "It's very unlucky... Now that I think about it, the two thieves let me into the house in order to test my way, how did I go in... This matter will not be known to your wife, right? ”
He said, "Probably not, I can handle this myself." ”
I asked again, "Do you mean the old couple upstairs know about our relationship?" ”
He was helpless: "I want to know it with my feet!" Then we didn't speak for another few more minutes.
This awkward silence made me feel a great grievance. He was just a small civil servant, he cared so much about his reputation and influence, cared about his family happiness, and lived carefully every day. If that's the case, why don't you take me to the hotel? If you're bent on saving money, you should be prepared for the unexpected. Now that something bad has happened, why should I bear the unhappiness together?
Zheng Zhi broke the silence: "It's too cold outside, shall I send you home?" ”
I silently followed him, took a taxi, got out of the car, looked at his back, and suddenly thought, this is our last date.
The leave has been taken and I want to go back to Shenzhen. At the airport, when I was about to shut down, I saw his text message: "The thief has been arrested, so let's separate." You have to take care. ”
What made him make this decision? Did he feel bad about being openly because of a shady relationship, or did he see dissatisfaction in my eyes?
It turns out that neither of them knows that they are no longer in love, and they do not know that a small interlude will lead to a solemn parting. And my chaotic emotional life, it is time to sort out a vein.
Thirty thousand feet in the air, I looked at the vast sea of clouds, and my heart was suddenly clear and transparent.