Sun Bingwei
One
Ku Yu, this is the name her grandmother gave her, her big name is Ji Miao.
When Xiao Jimiao was one year old, in a mining disaster, his young father unfortunately died. A year later, my mother remarried to the northeast. Before leaving, her mother sent her to her grandmother's house. Grandma wiped her tears and said to Xiao Jimiao, who was still ignorant, "Child, you are really a bitter girl!"
At that time, the second uncle of the grandmother's family had just finished high school, and the third uncle and sister-in-law had just entered junior high school and the other had just entered elementary school. How much embarrassment will there be for three generations of this model? How many pro-estranged grudges? It is said that the generation of relatives, how can grandparents be able to do the generation of relatives? Delicious food for your children first, good clothes for your own flesh and bones first. The little Ji Miao under the fence can only eat the leftovers in the eyes. Clothes and shoes were picked up and worn, never worn new. Although they are two generations with their uncles and aunts, the age difference is not very large, and it is common for quarrels, beatings and scolding. Xiao Jimiao swallowed his breath and was always the one who was wronged.
At that time, a pack of calcium milk biscuits produced in Qingdao was the best food for children. Xiao Jimiao watched her uncle and aunt eat sweetly, and she only had a share of the saliva. After all, it was a child, that day she took advantage of the grandmother's lack of attention, secretly took a page, just took a bite, was found by the little aunt, went up and snatched the past, and scolded vigorously in her mouth, You little dead, hungry to death, hungry to death! Frightened, she secretly cried.
When Xiao Jimiao was 6 years old, a relative came to visit the door and brought a bag of sea rice. The uncle stole a handful, thought it was too delicious, and then pulled the aunt together to "commit a crime". Within a few days, this bag of sea rice went to a large part. Grandma found out and immediately asked, helpless uncle and aunt have long made an "offensive and defensive alliance", no one admits it. The target immediately locked on this fatherless and motherless little poor worm, Xiao Ji Miao repeatedly pleaded that it was not her, the rough grandfather picked up a straw and smoked at his granddaughter, Xiao Ji cried and shouted that she did not know, although Grandma went up to protect and did not let her fight, but scolded vigorously, "Damn, call you hungry again, call you hungry mouth again."
The little soul suffered, long-term malnutrition, she did not grow tall, her face was not good, her hair was messy, and she had no good hygiene habits, and the whole thing was a little hanako. Xiao Jimiao's childhood immersed in bitter water has no father's love, no maternal love, no sunshine, no rain and dew.
Finally went to school. Ji Miao is a "lone goose." In the face of a group of beautifully dressed female classmates, she wore the old clothes that her aunt wore that did not fit, and she was humbled and ashamed of herself. In the hip-hop happy group of classmates, she never seems to laugh or speak much. When her classmates' parents came to pick up their baby from school, she quietly walked down the side door of the school.
She only spends almost all her time studying, and her grades in the first and second grades are not very prominent, and from the third grade onwards, her homework has been outstanding. All the mid-term and final exams are the first in the class, and rank in the top three in the entire level department. Participated in the district math competition and won the first place. An essay written participated in a citywide essay contest, won the "Top Ten Essays" award, and was also included in the excellent essay collection. In the first semester of the sixth grade, the Education Bureau invited a foreign English teacher to observe an English open class in her class. Ji Miao used pure spoken language to talk to foreign teachers, and the answers were flowing, which was very brilliant. The foreigner frequently nodded, thumbs up and said OK, OK!
Ji Miao's three junior high schools relied on the solid learning foundation, self-discipline ability and learning methods of the primary school to become the school's bully with ease.
The two major events that happened in the past three years at her grandmother's house have vividly changed her fate of being bitter and affectionate, but after all, she has a place to live. In the first year of junior high school, Grandpa was seriously injured by a boy riding a motorcycle in the town, and was rescued in the town hospital for three days, but finally failed to save him and left. Grandpa's eyes did not close when he left, and he walked with hatred. At the end of the second semester of the third year of junior high school, Grandma found out a bad illness and left again in less than three months. Before dying, Grandma called Ji Miao to the sickbed and said with tears, "Miao Miao, a child with a bitter life, you are really a bitter girl!" I'm going to find your grandpa and your dad. What can you do in the future? Grandma took out a cowhide envelope and gave it to her and said, "This is the address of your mother's home in the northeast, and you will go to her in the future." ”
Ji Miao cried loudly, crying about her grandfather who died of death, crying about her unfortunate terminally ill grandmother, crying about her father who left when she was young, and crying about her mother who had abandoned her since she was a child.
We are facing the critical moment of the middle school entrance examination. Ji Miao wiped away her tears and secretly made up her mind that she must be admitted to the city's key high school. Kung Fu pays off. Ji Miao was admitted with an excellent score of nearly 10 points above the admission line.
At this time, the second uncle, who has been a parent for two years, has been living in his grandmother's house and is about to become a father. The second aunt with a big belly went in and out, and when she saw Ji Miao, she didn't have a good face. The third uncle worked in other places, and the sister-in-law and her partner opened a restaurant in the city. Grandma's house had no place for her. Fortunately, the high school has to live on campus.
After three years of high school, Ji Miao continued to maintain the status of a school bully. Teacher Miao, the kind-hearted homeroom teacher, sympathized with Ji Miao's orphan plight. He values her simplicity, intelligence, spirituality, and diligence, likes her very much, and often cares about her in life. Teacher Miao's husband died early, and there was a son named Jiang Sen, who was the same age as Ji Miao, and he also liked her, and the two often studied at Teacher Miao's home and took tutoring classes. Teacher Miao looked at the closeness of the two children, looked forward to the children's future, and placed high expectations.
Two
Before the college entrance examination, Ji Miao rushed over according to the address that her grandmother left for her mother in the northeast three years ago. In 17 years, Ji Miao went from a 2-year-old yellow haired little girl to a 19-year-old girl. When she saw her mother, she did not cry in her mother's arms as demonstrated on the TV series, but just looked at her mother coldly and thought, Is this the mother who has fostered herself in her grandmother's house since she was a child and never cares about it again?
The mother, who is not yet 50 years old, is already an authentic yellow-faced woman. Her eyes were dodgy and evasive, as if she were a little timid. There is love, joy, and more guilt in the cloudy eyes. The waist collapsed, the legs did not seem to be sharp, thin, and the face was haggard.
Ji Miao stayed, and within a few days she figured it out. The stepfather with a rosacea nose is an alcoholic who is addicted to alcohol. As soon as he was drunk, he threw the plate and the bowl, and his mother did not know how many times he was beaten. The two people have no feelings at all, and the divorce has been made many times. That night, her mother cried in bed to show Ji Miao the tired scars on her body, after all, blood was thicker than water, ji Miao felt a burst of heartache, hugged her mother and cried. She told her mother that if she stayed a few more days, she would have to rush back to review the preparation for the exam. She confidently told her mother that she would be able to enter college, and after graduating from college, her mother would definitely divorce her stepfather. Mother heard the two "musts" and nodded solemnly.
Unsurprisingly, Ji Miao was admitted to a prestigious school in Beijing with excellent results. When her mother learned of this happy news, she wept with joy and felt that there was hope. Who knows that there are unpredictable storms in the sky, and people have bad luck and bad luck. Ji Miao was only a sophomore in college, and her poor mother left her forever due to illness. Just in her early 20s, she has no grandparents, no father and mother, and has become a veritable "lone goose". No more tears, no sadness, the road is under your feet! She lowered her heart, gritted her teeth, worked hard to study, and spent almost all of her extracurricular time in the library reading books. When she traveled in the sea of books, she accumulated knowledge, broadened her horizons, felt the true meaning of life, and felt joy.
Johnson, who also studied in Beijing, has been in touch with her. He was getting more and more handsome. Xin's long figure is like a tall poplar tree, the eyes that shimmer with wisdom are bright and bright, and the teeth that are exposed when they smile are fresh and refreshing. Every time they met, Johnson always brought her a bag of Qingdao dried seafood, including sea rice, shrimp, etc., as well as her favorite squid shreds, which were carefully ordered by Teacher Miao, so that Ji Miao felt the maternal love she had never enjoyed, and she really wanted to cry.
In the middle of the moon, in a university campus sprinkled with silver glow, they strolled along the boulevard, exchanging learning experiences, life insights, and ideal love, which always made ripples in Ji Miao's heart. She pondered the fate embedded in the names of the two people, Miki and Sanshui, which was a bit interesting, and for the first time she felt that there was love in the world. The two of them care for each other and draw a bright future together.
After graduating from university, Teacher Miao urged Ji Miao to follow Jiang Sen to the beautiful island city. Two years later, Ji Miao and Jiang Sen walked into the palace of marriage hand in hand. Teacher Miao, the former division commander, was upgraded to a mother-in-law. A happy little family gave Ji Miao a home from then on. Lang Cai female appearance, Lang Cai female talent, raising eyebrows, Qin Ser and Ming. With his intellectual ability, Johnson founded his own company, wisdom and diligence and connections, and did a good job, which is really "spring breeze triumphant horseshoe disease". Ji Miao came to a middle school as a math teacher. Her profound knowledge and teaching style quickly became popular in the school. Over the years, she became one of the few math teachers in the district to send to the graduating class.
The son came into being, named Xiao Tao, looking at the small appearance of the baby son, so that the bitter water accumulated by Ji Miao from childhood all flowed out, and replaced by the warm current of happiness of the new mother. She poured all her maternal love on Xiao Tao. Milk is not good, milk powder must buy the best in Australia. Scientific feeding, meticulous nutrition. Every day Lasa was recorded, and the color, shape, and weight were recorded day by day. It was really held in the palm of my hand for fear of falling off, and I was afraid of melting in my mouth. Bathed in sunshine and rain, a small sapling thrives. The longer Xiao Tao grows, the more cute she is, both the beauty of a little girl and the masculinity of a little boy.
Ji Miao spent a high price, and also found the relationship of old classmates, so that the child entered a tall bilingual kindergarten. Three years of early childhood education, Xiao Tao has always been the star of this kindergarten. At the age of 5 and a half, Ji Miao bought a Xinghai piano for her child and found a senior piano teacher, and Xiao Tao began to learn the piano. The child has no musical talent, has poor understanding, and learning the piano has become a sin. Ke Jimiao believes that this age is the best implantation period for learning the piano, and the child cannot lose at the starting line. No child learns the piano voluntarily and must be forced to learn. The husband is a person who has no musical cells at all, and he is very disgusted with his children learning the piano. For this reason, he often quarreled with Ji Miao.
Xiao Tao went to school, and Ji Miao used her strength to tutor the children wholeheartedly. Xiao Tao's homework remains at the first place in the whole department. Spare time is fully arranged. After obtaining the piano level 10 certificate, he reported for Xiao Tao's Go class, host class, and wind music class. In the six spring and autumn seasons, Ji Miao's mind was full of sons, sons, sons! From Xiao Tao's body, she saw the shadow of her own school bully at that time, and her sense of achievement and pride filled her heart.
Three
Xiao Tao was about to rise to the top. One day, Ji Miao received a call from a woman asking her to talk. "Who are you?" Talk about? Talk about what? Ji Miao was confused. The woman said, it's about your family, you must talk about it. Ji Miao was full of doubts, or went to the appointment. When a woman younger than herself and more beautiful than herself pulled a little girl who was more than a year old appeared in front of her eyes, Ji Miao's heart thumped.
The matter quickly became clear, and the woman said that she was the financial director of Johnson Company, named Fang Xiaohan. The child belonged to her and Johnson. Johnson told her at the time that he would divorce his wife when he had children. Now that the children are more than a year old, Johnson has not moved. What to do? You can not leave, you live your good life, you break some money as compensation, not much, tens of thousands of yuan on the line, good discussion.
Ji Miao almost didn't faint, you stole my husband, gave birth to a child, and then asked me to take money to compensate? She really wanted to rush up with an arrow, and the lion roared and gave the woman a violent beating. But looking at the little girl's timid look, she just stood there shyly, and then fiercely and dismissively said the next sentence to Fang Xiaohan, who was smiling badly at the corner of his mouth, "Then you wait, don't face the goblin"! Gritted his teeth and left.
At night, she lost sleep, her heart turned upside down, she wanted to throw up and couldn't spit it out, and she turned over and over until dawn. Floating in front of her was always the faces of Fang Xiaohan and the little girl. She thinks that over the years, her teaching career has done a good job. At the same time, pouring all her efforts into the child, she and Johnson have not been married for many years. In the bottom of his heart, there was not even a little place for Johnson. Full of children, when did you ever think of Johnson? But I never expected that my husband had an affair and even blossomed. She was in a trance, her eyes were confused, she looked silly. For several consecutive days, after thinking about it, as a high-achieving student from a prestigious school, she felt greatly insulted.
Johnson's derailment deeply hurt her heart. This poor woman, who has been soaking in bitter water since childhood, carefully healed the wounds of fate after marriage, has just achieved some results, and has fallen into the abyss of emotional rupture without thinking. She made up her mind to divorce. When she told her mother-in-law about this idea, Teacher Miao could not suppress her tears, and the old tears flowed. She asked Ji Miao to think about it a little more, after all, Xiao Tao was about to rise to the beginning. Ji Miao only said a word coldly, Mom, we have broken off our feelings, I have fulfilled them.
It is said that "a woman is weak, but a mother is strong." But after the mother's Ji Miao experienced the blow of this marriage change, she was just outwardly just outside, but her heart was often bleeding. In the face of the collapse of Johnson's human set- and she couldn't figure out how a sympathetic couple could let a third party step in? How did a honey-soaked love nest overturn?
Something that made her want to cry without tears began to happen. Since Jiang Xiaotao went to junior high school, he entered the period of youth rebellion that people often say, coupled with becoming a single-parent family, the child has become less and less reticent, likes to stay by himself, and the words between mother and child are getting less and less. Ji Miao felt that the child was increasingly indifferent to her, even hostile. Looking forward to Jackie Chan, her heart was weak and overwhelmed. She doted on the child "even more". Be more responsive to your child's needs. Eat and wear with play, as long as it is proposed by the child, she will do everything possible to please the child. Seeing that people have it, even if Xiao Tao didn't bring it up, she still had to buy it back. In order to save the child's time, she drove early to deliver and late pick up. She worries about her children all the time. Afraid of the east and the west, afraid of children contacting bad children, afraid of unhygienic buses, afraid of accidents across the road...
Ji Miao's excessive concern made Xiao Tao extremely annoying. It appeared "You say east, I'm west. What you ask to do, I will not do. You don't let you do it, I'm going to do it" infuriating situation. Want to ask the child about the learning situation, the child said in a rough voice, this has nothing to do with you. Bring some fruit to the child's study at night, the child yells, get out, get out! A note was then written and posted on the door, which read, "No admission without permission." Carefully considering what the child is willing to eat, busy with a pass, the child glanced at it, skimmed his mouth and shouted, what a mess, I want to eat takeaway. After saying that, I picked up my mobile phone and directly ordered takeaway. Ji Miao was so angry that tears were about to come out.
In the first semester of the first year, Xiao Tao's final exam results surprised her. The child went from the top three of the full-level department of the first entrance to the school, after falling to the top 100. This made her, a famous math teacher from a famous school, teaching in a key middle school, too disgraceful and felt that she was losing the elderly. Children cannot be beaten, scolded, said, or taught. This excellent teacher who "pointed out the country" in the graduating class was helpless in front of the children at home. At the seminar on junior high school mathematics education held by the municipal bureau, she had to close her mouth at this moment. She had never felt so helpless, lost, or confused as she did now.
She felt that life was a mess, no clue, really boring. She lost her enthusiasm and pleasure in life and work, and was interested in anything. He often lives alone behind closed doors, alienates relatives and friends, and avoids socializing. She felt that there were no emotions in this world, emotions were numb, and nothing could make her happy.
She often couldn't sleep all night, couldn't sleep and lived movies in her mind, thinking about the suffering she had suffered for more than 40 years, the road she had traveled, and the hurt she had suffered, and she felt that she couldn't do it, that was not right, it was simply useless, and the future was dark. When she first had the idea of simply going to Elysium, her tears wet the pillow. Think of Heaven's father, mother, grandparents, think of Jiang Sen and Fang Xiaohan leading the little girl, think of Xiao Tao's hostile gaze, she crossed a heart, and took out the bottle of sleeping pills that had been stored for a long time.
Her hands were shaking, she wanted to go to see Xiao Tao again before leaving, pushed open the child's bedroom, and saw that Xiao Tao was already asleep, the quilt was on the ground, and the look after sleeping was so cute, there was no anger and naughtiness in the daytime. Her heart seemed to have been hit hard, and tears flowed involuntarily. I thought to myself, once I left, the child became an orphan, how did he live? He will be more miserable than his own boyhood. She hesitated, gently covered the quilt for the child, quietly walked out the door, and returned to the bedroom to hide the bottle of medicine.
Four
Since then, Ji Miao often feels that her thinking has slowed down, her brain is not good, her abilities have declined in all aspects, and she often feels guilty and blames herself, and is not satisfied with everything she does. Lost at work, in class, the brain often deserts, even incoherent. Once, the answer was not what was asked, which caused the whole class to laugh.
Her math grades in her class plummeted, and her midterm exams fell to Sun Shan. Students go home and tell their parents. Several parents jointly wrote to the school leaders, strongly demanding the removal of the math teacher. The school leaders talked to her and found her dumbfounded, just nodding silly and saying yes. Before leaving, he repeatedly said that he was guilty and deserved to die, which made the school leaders look dazed and overwhelmed.
There are also problems in life, almost every day there is insomnia, it is difficult to sleep, wake up in the early morning, wake up and do not fall asleep again. Various physical discomforts ensued. There is no appetite, the weight has quietly lost a lot, headaches and brain fever have become commonplace, routines and holidays have been disordered, and painful menstruation has occurred.
She always felt that she had some bad disease, but the physical examination did not find any problems. The obvious and persistent depression and pessimism made her feel very bitter, pessimistic, and hopeless inside, feeling that life was a burden and not worth nostalgia. A terrible thought came to her mind, and she couldn't help but fight a cold war. But after a while, as if she had made up her mind, her eyes revealed a hateful, fierce, and obsessive gaze.
On that day, the meteorological station issued a strong wind warning, and in the evening, the wind was particularly strong, blowing the whole campus "chicken flying dog jump". After a while, heavy rain fell, wind and rain, and there was a dull thunder.
After school, she stayed in the teaching and research room and did not go home, telling her colleagues that she would have to work overtime. Seeing her dodgy gaze and abnormal state, Teacher Cai, who has always cared about her, has doubts, this is a loving big sister, advising Ji Miao to pay attention to her body and go home early to rest. She nodded silently, without looking at anyone squarely.
Teacher Cai outside the door did not leave, and through the window I saw Ji Miao sitting in a chair, silent and contemplative. She felt very abnormal, and she did not dare to leave. Suddenly, she saw that Ji Miao seemed to have made up her mind, suddenly pulled open the drawer, panicked and took out a medicine bottle, hurriedly opened it, closed her eyes, frowned, and took a handful of water one by one, each swallowing looked very painful but very determined.
Not good! Teacher Cai suddenly realized that Ji Miao's move was taking poison. She jerked up and pushed the door, which was locked. While slamming the door with her fist, she shouted loudly, "Teacher Ji, Teacher Ji, open the door, open the door, open the door!" "Teacher Ji, Teacher Ji, open the door, open the door, open the door quickly!" Ji Miao in the room eagerly continued to swallow, allowing Teacher Cai to smash the door.
The shouting and slamming of the door alarmed the two guards on duty at the school, and two young people rushed over to listen to Teacher Cai, but did not say a word, one slammed the door with his arm, and the other kicked the door with his foot. After tossing and turning for a while, the door opened, and Ji Miao lay motionless on the table, already asleep.
Teacher Cai panicked, and she quickly took out her mobile phone and quickly dialed 120. Maybe it's rain and wind, traffic jams on the road? Ten minutes passed, and the ambulance had not yet arrived. Death to death! More than ten minutes passed, and the ambulance with a mournful whistle finally arrived at the school gate. Everyone carried Ji Miao to the ambulance with seven hands and eight feet.
After a series of rescue measures were implemented by the hospital, Ji Miao was pulled back from the death line. The news spread quickly, and the school leaders and the whole school were shocked. Neighbors, colleagues, and friends called to inquire, but the phone was turned off. Want to go to the hospital to visit, the hospital does not allow during the epidemic prevention period, the relatives of the accompanying bed patients can only enter one person, and nucleic acid testing is also needed to enter the ward.
The hospital informed the patient's family, and Teacher Miao was shocked when he heard the news, and quickly rushed over with Jiang Xiaotao. As soon as she entered the ward, the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law hugged her head and cried, Teacher Miao hugged Ji Miao's head, wiped the tears for her, and said vigorously, "Child, child, sorry, sorry!" We Are sorry for you! Ji Miao whimpered and said, "Mom, Mom, don't complain about you, don't complain about you, I'm sorry for you, I'm too tired to live, I want to go to my parents." Teacher Miao comforted Ji Miao, "Silly child, how can you think like this?" I know you hate Johnson, but you don't want to think about it, you are so gone, what should Xiao Tao do? How old is he? ”
Jiang Xiaotao, who had been standing in front of the hospital bed without speaking, heard his grandmother's words, suddenly cried, suddenly lay on the hospital bed, took his mother's hand, and trembled and shouted, "Mom, Mom, I'm sorry for you, I'm too mixed, I'm sorry for you." Mom, don't do this, don't do this! I can't live without my mother, do you want me to be an orphan? ”
Ji Miao's face became even more miserable, hearing her son's words, especially when he said that he was going to become an orphan, her heart was deeply stung, mother and son hugged each other tightly, Teacher Miao wrapped her mother and son together, and the three generations of grandchildren cried together, causing doctors and nurses to wipe away tears.
Teacher Miao arranged the nurse, and when he left, he took out a letter and put it on the small table, telling Ji Miao that he had time to look at it, and after a few more instructions, the grandson left.
Five
At night, Ji Miao felt much better, and took out the letter to prepare to see what her mother-in-law said? Unfolding the letter and looking up, I was stunned, it turned out not to be my mother-in-law's letter, it was him, Johnson! Her anger ignited at once, and she threw the letter on the small table with force. In an instant, Fang Xiaohan and the little girl seemed to appear in front of him again, Ji Miao's breathing became rapid, and he turned his back in hatred and closed his eyes.
She thought, Johnson, we have broken up, I have reached this time, what letter do you write? Are you going to humiliate me? Do you want to see jokes? But she thought again, no, if this were the case, her mother-in-law would not give him a letter. Ji Miao reached up and took it and read the letter.
The letter reads:
"Hello Miao! I'm Johnson. Hearing the news of your life, my brain went blank, and tears flowed involuntarily. At this moment, I want to fly to your side immediately to visit you and comfort you!
A year ago, you left me. I was in a lot of pain and helpless. I was scolded by my mother, who told me why Ji Miao was called Bitter Girl, a child who grew up in bitter water, an orphan without a father and a mother. She is talented, has perseverance, and with superhuman diligence, she has been admitted to prestigious schools. After work, she is a rare talented woman in the education world. Filial piety to the old at home, dedication to the young, love for the husband, question why I don't cherish a woman like you? Is there still a conscience of heaven and earth? Mom's anger and condemnation ripped my heart. I was deeply in remorse.
I often think back to the sweet time when you and my high school classmates studied together in my house; I think of our walking together on the boulevard on the university campus; I think of your love and care for me in the happy days after our marriage; I think of the great joy and beautiful hope that Xiao Tao brought to us after she was born...
In the past year, my mother did not recognize me, Xiao Tao ignored me, and colleagues in the company talked about me and gave me disdainful eyes. The company's business plummeted. Coupled with the impact of the epidemic, employees have jumped ship, and I am discouraged, and I am in a situation of self-blame and self-torture all day long. Sleep is not good, diet has no appetite, the other day the heart continues to appear stuffy and hold their breath, to the hospital for medical treatment, the doctor arranged for me to be hospitalized for cardiac angiography, two stents. I was drowsy, groggy, drunk with wine, drunk and dreaming, without the joy of life, without courage and hope.
Next, I want to focus on telling you the truth about my deception and blackmail by Fang Xiaohan. It was the summer of two years ago, and I took her out of town to start a business. That night, I drank too much at the social banquet, and I didn't know how to get back to the room. When I woke up the next morning, I found Fang Xiaohan sleeping in my bed. I got up in a panic and told her to leave quickly. She pounced on me and hugged me tightly. I kicked her away and told her to roll away.
After returning from a business trip, I ignored her all the time. Two months later she came to my office one day and told me that she was pregnant afterwards that night, and I was stunned, angry, and scolded her for her nonsense. Because I knew that I didn't rely on her at all. She sneered and said to me, do you dare to do it, you took advantage of the drunkenness, raped me in the middle of the night, and now you don't admit it, what kind of man is it? If you don't admit it, I'll let the whole company know about your affair with Jiang Zong. If you can do two things, I will keep you secret, one is to promote me to the financial director, and the other is that you will have to divorce your wife as soon as the child is born. Fang Xiaohan picked up the next sentence and gave you three days to consider. After saying that she walked out of my office with her head on her back, I was on the verge of collapse.
What the hell happened that night? I was caught up in bitter thinking, probably remembering that Fang Xiaohan, who was in my bed in the morning, was kicked out of bed by me, and as for what happened in the night, it was up to her side. It is really dumb to eat Huang Lian, there is bitterness that cannot be said, jumping into the Yellow River, there is a mouth that cannot be said clearly. For the development and future of the company, and for the sake of our family, I weighed the pros and cons, and finally made the decision to promote Fang Xiaohan as the financial director against my will. But divorce you, I can never say. Oddly enough, she wasn't bothered about it. I think this bad woman is actually trying to blackmail me and achieve her goal of ascending to the throne.
But I was too naïve. Fang Xiaohan is like a vicious beauty snake, after serving as the financial director, he colluded with the company's vice president to evade taxes by making false accounts. Caused significant losses to my company. After the incident, the two ran away with the money and were arrested a month ago. According to the facts of the case, two years ago, the vice president bought a house for her in the city, and the two lived together. That little girl is the product of her and the vice president, and she brazenly pulls the little girl to blackmail you. I was completely innocent of being bitten by a poisonous snake. I was so blind. This is god's retribution for me!
If a person is not a sage, who can be infallible? I'm not using this sentence to free myself, but I want you to use this sentence to forgive me. I am well aware that this detour on the road of life, although I am a victim, but also a great hurt to your feelings.
My heart was buried with a stent, my wounded heart was bleeding, my soul was being whipped, and my spirit was on the verge of collapse. Please look at the love of our husband and wife, see the mother's ardent expectations of us, see our baby Xiaotao is only in junior high school, can not be without the father. Please accept that a lamb who has almost lost his way will return.
At this moment, I am in front of the flower bed in front of the hospital, and you can see me through the window. Can you take a look at me?
Your sen, hurry. ”
Ji Miao finished reading the letter in one breath, and did not feel the tears falling on the letter paper, and the chest cavity was like a wave rolling. She felt a heart that had belonged to her beating. Getting up and looking down through the curtains, a familiar and unfamiliar figure was hovering in the bleak moonlight, it was Johnson! It could be seen that he was much thinner than a year ago, his original tall figure was slightly stooped, and his head was also shrugged in frustration, and he did not have the arrogant spirit of the past. Her heart was faintly aching, allowing tears to flow, but she gritted her teeth and decided to turn her back and stop looking at him who made her heartbroken and led her to a dead end.
Six
This night was sleepless, and a pile of past events appeared in front of her: she stole a page of biscuits in her childhood and was snatched by her sister-in-law and scolded; she was beaten with straw by her grandfather because she was suspected of stealing sea rice; the envelope that her grandmother gave her before she died; her mother was beaten by the alcoholic stepfather; she went from elementary school, junior high school, high school to a famous school; Teacher Miao loved herself; the love given to her by Jiang Sen after marriage; the joy and rebellion that Xiao Tao brought to herself; her severe depression and pain; she took 60 sleeping pills and went to the end of the road...
But what most disturbed Ji Miao's mind was what he had just read Jiang Sen's letter above, fang Xiaohan took advantage of Jiang Sen's drunkenness, shamelessly turned a tolerance into an adulterous affair, and coerced Jiang Sen to let him take the throne. Subsequently, he colluded with the vice president, resulting in the near bankruptcy of the company. Suddenly, the little girl's timid eyes appeared in front of her again. It turned out that this little girl was not Fang Xiaohan and Jiang Sen's. Thinking of this, Ji Miao breathed a long sigh of relief and felt an inexplicable ease.
The east revealed the white belly of the fish. Ji Miao came to the window with sleepy eyes. When her gaze fell on the flower bed in front of the hospital, she was suddenly stunned, she quickly rubbed her eyes, fixed her eyes on a large tree with his back against the edge of the flower bed, his arms crossed in front of his chest, and his eyes were closed. It turned out that he had spent the night there. Ji Miao's heart tingled. What to do? Let the caregiver go and call him up? The thought had just flashed through her, and she pinched herself hard, telling herself, don't be mean!
Suddenly, she saw an old man and a young man come over, it turned out to be the mother-in-law and Xiao Tao, still carrying the insulation bucket and food bag. The grandchildren walked all the way to Jiang Sen and saw the look on his face, and it was the mother-in-law who was blaming Jiang Sen. Xiao Tao went over and pulled up his father and said something, and then the three of them walked to the ward together.
Ji Miao was a little flustered, and quickly returned to the hospital bed to pull up the quilt. There was a knock at the door, and they really all came in, along with a doctor. Ji Miao rolled over, and her mother-in-law introduced that the original doctor was the director of the hospital, Zhan And was her student 20 years ago. After knowing Ji Miao's situation, he was very worried. No, they were specially approved for three generations of grandchildren to enter the ward together, and the dean also came to see it together. Of course, Ji Miao, who was a teacher, knew the number of etiquette, and quickly shook hands with Dean Zhan and thanked him repeatedly.
Teacher Miao kindly asked Ji Miao if she slept well last night? Is your stomach still uncomfortable? Xiao Tao poured out a bowl of steaming rice porridge for her mother, put her hands on it, and asked her mother to drink it while it was hot. Embarrassed, It was Jiang Sen, who was uneasy and did not dare to face Ji Miao, and when his eyes stayed on the letter on the small table that had been soaked with teardrops, his heart thumped and jumped. He knew that Ji Miao had already read the letter with tears in her eyes. He secretly glanced at his former beloved wife, whom he hadn't seen in more than a year, already haggard, and those big beautiful eyes had lost their former luster and were covered with blood. The face that had been filled with satisfaction and happiness all day seemed to have collapsed a lot, and its cheekbones were extremely high. The voice is weak and hoarse, not the good sound with a sense of resonance in the past. Johnson's tears swirled in his eyes, and his heart tightened, so sad that he couldn't say a word.
After understanding Ji Miao's condition and comforting and encouraging him a few words, President Zhan took Jiang Sen's hand and said, General Manager Jiang, I still have some things to deal with, so I won't stay longer. Teacher Miao has told me about your affairs, and I believe that the stick cannot beat the real Mandarin duck. What a good family you are, you must cherish it! You are all high-achieving students in famous schools, with high IQ and emotional intelligence, find out the truth, eliminate misunderstandings, ascend to the heights and look far, and meet each other to laugh and hate. Bless you!
After sending Dean Zhan away, Teacher Miao gestured to Xiao Tao, who took his father's hand with his left hand and walked to Ji Miao's bed, and his right hand took his mother's hand, and the three of them' hands were connected. Xiao Tao said a word with tears, Mom and Dad, Xiao Tao can't leave any of you, you are for me and good.
Jiang Sen's eyes were red, and he stared deeply at Ji Miao, and there was guilt, pity, begging, and a little expectation in those eyes. Ji Miao's eyes were tearful, and there was indignation, pain, grievance, and some forgiveness.
Teacher Miao wiped a handful of tears and said, "Child, you two are my students, as your teacher, I am particularly optimistic about you." You both went to elite schools and put gold on my face. I'm proud of both of you. Both of you are my dearest family members, and as a mother, my greatest wish is that you will be happily married and grow old. In a good family atmosphere, let Xiao Tao thrive and seek family fun. Something is wrong with your marriage, and I'm heartbroken. I was so angry that I didn't recognize my son and wouldn't let him in my door. Johnson explained to me many times, and I didn't listen. Now that Fang Xiaohan's pair of dog men and women have been arrested, the case is clear, and it is time to return Jiang Sen's innocence."
Hearing this, Ji Miao looked at Jiang Sen, and Jiang Sen nodded. Ji Miao straightened the messy hair before his forehead and subconsciously straightened his chest.
Teacher Miao continued, "Miao Miao, you are a bitter girl who soaks in bitter water. Some people say that the injuries suffered by children and teenagers must be healed in a lifetime. You have stubbornly fought against bad luck since elementary school, to heal the wounds of your soul, and to change your destiny. The whole stage of study, silent cultivation, hard study, live off a bully, you are the best good look. You're married, and you're doing a great job, both in your business and in your job. Because you understand that healing the wounds of the heart requires struggle, success. Sorrowful and affectionate, short in front of people, do not seek progress, can only give up on themselves, can not complete self-redemption. ”
Teacher Miao lovingly touched Xiao Tao's hair and said, "Xiao Tao was born, what a comfort for me to be a grandmother." Xiao Tao has inherited your genes and has always been the best. His performance during the rebellious period of adolescence left you overwhelmed and distressed. But I firmly believe that Xiao Tao's heart is pure, and his true colors are those of our family. He will definitely become more and more sensible, and he can't do without you! ”
Hearing this, Xiao Tao suddenly knelt down to his parents, and he said, Parents please believe me, I will not let Grandma and you down. Teacher Miao pulled up Xiao Tao and said, "I am already a person who ran to the ancient rare years, how long can I accompany you?" You will take a stand in front of Me today. ”
Ji Miao sobbed, and the crying became louder and louder, like a flood breaking the embankment. Johnson hurried up and held her head to his chest, and the two of them cried together...
The door opened, and the smiling Dean Zhan came in, still holding a bouquet of flowers in his hand, and he said in a loud voice, "Congratulations, congratulations!" ”
The head nurse who came with him proposed to take a few pictures. She handed over a tissue and asked Ji Miao and Johnson to dry their tears. One is Dean Zhan and Teacher Miao in the center, and Jiang Sen and Ji Miao are separated from each other with Xiao Tao; the other is three generations of Teacher Miao's grandchildren snuggled together.
The head nurse personally arranged for Ji Miao and Jiang Sen to stand side by side, letting Ji Miao hold flowers, and between the flowers was a pink card with eight big characters written "Bitter lady is not bitter, bitter and sweet". Amid the applause and cheers of everyone, several photos were taken of the couple who had broken the mirror and regained their circle.
Outside the window, a pair of magpies chirped and came to join in the fun, it was to bless it.
(This article 2022.3 was launched by the Writers Alliance "Contemporary Literature and Art" micro-station)
The author Is Sun Bingwei, a member of the Communist Party of China, with a bachelor's degree. He is a member of the Chinese Prose Literature Association, the Shandong Provincial Prose Literature Association, the Qingdao Contemporary Literary Creation Research Association, and the Qingdao Qindao Writers Association. He was formerly the secretary general of the Qingdao Railway Literary Association and a member of the sixth qingdao Municipal Federation of Literature and Literature.
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