Noble origins, amazing talents, rebellious love, gorgeous exodus, quiet aging, lonely death. Just like a big drama, the noisy opening of the gongs and drums won the applause of the whole hall but suddenly stopped, leaving only the empty stage and the drama scattered on the ground and stirred by the wind, which is the modern Chinese female writer - Zhang Ailing.
Zhang Ailing longed for love all her life, longed to be loved, but family affection disappointed her, love also disappointed her, so she began to look at this world coldly, she was too lonely...
Therefore, love is the eternal theme of Zhang Ailing's novels, but it seems that she especially likes to describe the feelings that stop abruptly, perhaps in Zhang Ailing's eyes, "the most evocative love is that it has not been loved enough, and it has stopped abruptly." ”
The heroine Yu Jiayin and the male protagonist Xia Zongyu in the book "How Much Hate" are exactly like this, their love is pure and beautiful and desolate and helpless, and finally the heroine ends the relationship by leaving away from home...
Yu Jiayin, wearing a black coat, the chaotic green silk hair was draped down on both sides, and her face was like a red light reflecting snow. Her beauty seems to be because of her youth, but it is really because of her round face, the eyebrows and facial features are somehow combined, just like the wishes of all young people, and a wish is always young, and a wish is always a little pitiful.
This is the heroine of the book Yu Jiayin, since she was a child and her mother were abandoned by her father, her father has a new family, she and her mother are dependent on each other, Yu Jiayin understands her mother's hardships, so as soon as she graduated, Yu Jiayin came to Shanghai to work alone.
When the man was young, he didn't know if he was a little horizontal and vertical like Wen Tianxiang on the stage, after social torture, he was covered with a heavy dust color, but it looked much more pleasing to the eye. Jiayin held a ticket in her hand, which was still on the counter, and pushed it toward the conductor, who pushed it toward the man.
This is the first chance encounter between Yu Jiayin and Xia Zongyu, because of a movie ticket. After the end of the movie, the two people who originally thought that there would be no more intersection met for the second time because Yu Jiayin became the tutor of Xia Zongyu's daughter.
Xia Zongyu is a man with a family, and his marriage to his wife is a tragedy that has existed for many years, but he lets him drag it half-dead, neither has the courage to divorce nor think of a way to improve the relationship, so that his daughter's studies are delayed and his personality is getting more and more eccentric.
Xia Xiaoman was a lonely child, his father was busy with work all day and disappeared, his mother was recuperating in the countryside for many years, and in this huge house, only she and the maid Xia Ma lived. Perhaps because the child is very lonely, Xia Xiaoman is very attached to the gentle Yu Jiayin.
Xiao Man did not know that the female gentleman she was attached to was also the woman her father fell in love with at first sight, and the words that Xiao Man said when he was seriously ill: "Teacher, you don't go", but it strengthened Xia Zongyu's determination to like Yu Jiayin.
The acquaintance of the movie theater and the encounter of the gift shop have paved the way for the love affair between Yu Jiayin and Xia Zongyu, who gradually understands, talks together, watches movies, and enjoys the joy of love.
There was such a change in appearance, and she was not at all surprised—she had hated him too much, had "known" him too much, and the real understanding must have come from love, but hate also had a strange and thorough understanding of it.
Yu Jiayin hates her father, but she is very helpless, her father is a person who licks his face and says good things when he asks for his daughter, and once he can't get his wish, he immediately throws dirty water on his daughter to vent his hatred.
In order to hold the big tree of Xia Zongyu, his father actually found Xia Zongyu's wife and said to Xia Zongyu's wife, "As long as the daughter can enter the door of the Xia Mansion, she can not have any name" Yu Jiayin's father's words greatly agreed with Xia Zongyu, a wife who has no knowledge and culture
The story ends abruptly here, Yu Jiayin, a self-reliant and self-respecting girl who understands great righteousness, chooses to leave in order to give Xiao Man a complete family, and Yu Jiayin does not want Xiao Man to have a broken family like herself.
And this book, people fall into deep contemplation, Yu Jiayin hate? Obviously not, hate is powerful, it is tough, it is sharp and Yu Jiayin is not like this, the hate in the book is more like a regret, helpless, helpless, want to catch and can not grasp ...