I don't want to be defeated by this world, so you can see that you are defeated in seconds. (EGGER short story)

Original Ryo Zhao Egger

Photography / Long-necked fawn sauce Model / Zhong Enqi

Ten packets of instant noodles

I have to say that a person with a low laughing point seems to live happier than others. The road is a person with a very low laugh point.

A year ago, she worked as a small intern teller in a bank in the urban-rural sector. The people who came to their bank were very simple and extravagant, and she often saw a big aunt take money out of her socks and hand it to her, and the money seemed to be steaming. Some people came to withdraw money, and the password was incorrect after being entered several times, so they asked her with a look of chagrin: "What happened to my password, did you change it for me?" Even more exaggerated, rushing into the business hall shouted: "My death date has arrived!" My time to die is here! "Through the glass, the road is crying and laughing.

She told song qiao about this, laughing as she spoke, laughing until she rolled on the couch. But Song Qiao didn't feel funny at all, and he bounced up from the sofa: "I'm going to sleep, sleepy." ”

Song Qiao is Ma Lu's roommate, and when he was in college, Ma Lu's favorite thing to do was to go to the swimming pool. People brought swimming goggles, but she held a telescope and hid in the distance to watch Song Qiao swim. His figure is really good, the mermaid line is so beautiful that the road is drooling, and every stroke of the water is flowing and stretching. His swim trunks are also so cute, with a Q version of crayons on them.

The road was like this for half a semester, and finally decided to go into the water. She couldn't swim, but she thought that maybe she could get closer to Song Bridge in the water. How the road got from shallow to deep water was not even known to herself, and she felt like a stone, slowly sinking in the water. She screamed for help, and was finally held up by a pair of hands and dragged to the shore.

The person who saved her was Song Qiao, who said, "Mom, I didn't expect you to be so heavy!" The road was a little embarrassed, but he still said hard, "Can I invite you to dinner?" "In this way, they have really intersected. In the small stir-fry department on the third floor of the school canteen, Ma Lu proudly ordered a table of dishes and feasted on the life-saving benefactor Song Qiao.

After that meal, there was little left of the road's living expenses, and I ate ten packs of instant noodles.

Thousands of miles away

Later, Song Qiao also tried to teach the road to swim, he said: "Don't be afraid, I am holding you underneath." The road looked impatient: "Who said I was starting again, flashing aside." Then he fluttered in the water for half a day, and the water splashed Song Qiao's face. Until college graduation, the road did not learn to swim.

Song Qiao, who once had the perfect mermaid line, is now fat, and he no longer goes to the swimming pool, and every day except for work, he stays at home to play games. He also often complained about the work for various reasons, such as the weather was too hot, the salary was too low, and it was too far from home, saying: "Why can't someone as talented as me work in a Michelin restaurant and only be a humble cook in a school cafeteria?" God is so unfair to me! ”

Ma Lu is very envious of his work, making two meals a day, and winter and summer vacations, how good! And his cooking skills are really good, and she wanted to share a room with him in the first place, in large part because he made a good meal. She encouraged Song Qiao: "You are still young, life is still very long, maybe one day you can open a Michelin restaurant." ”

"Huh, huh, huh." Song Qiao glanced at her.

One day, Song Qiao suddenly said that he wanted to learn to drive, and came to find the road sponsorship point registration fee, which was called" as follows: "After there is a car, I can take you for a ride." "The road requires a bus to the subway for two hours to go to work every day, which is really troublesome. She calculated that if Song Qiao really went to pick her up, it would be very cool. So she actively transferred a sum of money to Song Qiao, looking forward to the day when he returned from school.

Half a year later, Song Qiao got his driver's license, borrowed some money from the road, and bought a second-hand Buick. But at this time, the road has been changed to a place only a few stops away from the rental house to work, and she wants to squeeze her head and get closer to home, but now she is made big by strange customers every day. A newcomer who has just turned around, in order to gain a foothold here, must have strong endurance and learn to digest negative emotions on their own. As you can imagine, the road is not mixed well at their business point, but she always tells herself not to rush and take your time.

When she worked overtime until late at night, Song Qiao would come to pick her up. Sit in the passenger seat and the road opens the invincible chanting mode. She said a lot of words that he couldn't understand at all, such as the bank's liquor bureau, which was nothing more than three sentences: "President, I toast you a cup", "I toast everyone", "I will drink this cup for you". She also told him that when he received a call from a customer, he must call him to honorific title.

"Then what should you call me?" Song Qiao interrupted her.

"What's it called?"

"Marshal Song, haha!"

"I'll just kick you away, thousands of miles away!"

Live so old

In the past, she went to work far away, and every day she thought of ways to let Song Qiao make a bento for her. Now that work is near, she is no longer embarrassed to bother Song Qiao. She comforted herself, anyway, there is a lot of food opposite, Northeast dumplings, Lanzhou ramen, Sichuan restaurants, Shaxian snacks... Get away with a Chinese food street. Sometimes sitting at the counter, the road will think, work is so hard, it is better to open a fried chicken shop. She felt that the most comfortable time in her life was when she and Song Qiao were eating fried chicken and drinking Coke and watching movies in the living room.

When did life become boring and realistic? Maybe it was when she kept counting the bills day after day, maybe it was when her friends around her were traveling, or maybe it was when Song Qiao suddenly said that she was going to learn to dance.

Yes, when Song Qiao first told her that he was going to learn Bachata, the road was covered, and he didn't even know which three words Bachata was. She silently took out her mobile phone and opened Baidu, Mom, he will not be going to invite me to join it, two people holding and dancing is so awkward!

Of course, the road thinks too much, and Song Qiao already has a favorite dance partner. They met in the game, and the first time they met, she asked him to experience a Baciata lesson, and she told him that dancing made her happy.

Song Qiao had to drive to the dance studio every night and come back in the middle of the night. Half a month later, Ma Lu asked him, "Have you learned?" ”

"I'm stupid, you don't know." Song Qiao laughed "hey hey".

"You're stupid, you're thinking about it somewhere else."

"Doesn't the old saying say live to learn, do you want to learn something too?"

"I don't want to live that old."

The road back to the room was a little lost, she was not a pessimist, on the contrary, she had been positive and optimistic since childhood. When she was a child in the choir, she always stood in the middle of the first row, and all the teachers praised her for singing well, saying that she would be a malleable talent in the future. Since then, her dream has been to become a singer and give her own concerts.

Now twenty-four years old, she failed to become a singer, but opened countless small concerts in KTV, and the audience was always only Song Qiao. Song Qiao likes to sing Jay Chou, he learned the Taiwanese dialect: "I want to climb up step by step and bring you a melon cow." ”

And she likes Cantonese songs the most, Xie Anqi is her favorite, she likes a song that is not very popular: "An old-school like me, when lonely, I inevitably understand." 」 Watching the world get worse, I would like to look forward to a worse realm. She thought that in a few years, she might end up alone, what expectations did she have for her?

However, this song has a positive name, called: I can be eliminated by this world, but I cannot be defeated by the world. Then try harder, in order not to be defeated by this world.

Big Bear BBQ

Every time Big Bear came to save money, the crumpled banknotes were always mixed with a strong smell of cumin, and the road almost choked out tears several times when counting the money. Big Bear is the owner of the barbecue stall at the entrance of the community, who is tall and big, and likes to hum songs while grilling and grilling.

Ma Lu often went to Big Bear for a barbecue after overtime, sometimes with Song Qiao, sometimes by herself. After getting acquainted, Big Bear would occasionally make a family deal with her.

Big Bear asked, "Are you rich when you work at the bank?" ”

"Do I look like I'm rich?"

"If you are good-looking, you will definitely bring wealth."

"Thank you." The road did not know whether to be happy or sad.

"Why haven't you seen your boyfriend in a long time?"

"You said Song Qiao, he's just my friend."

"Friends, friends are very good, people always have to have a few friends who are not."

She had a beer that night for the first time on the road, and she had been allergic to alcohol since she was a child, so she never dripped alcohol. As soon as she entered the neighborhood, she felt dizzy, and when she woke up, she was already lying on the bed. Song Qiao, who was sitting next to her, scolded her: "Are you crazy, running away to drink alone?" If I hadn't arrived in time, you wouldn't have seen the sun today. ”

"You know it's the end of the year, the deposit task is heavy, I'm anxious." The road explained quietly.

"Then you can't make fun of your life."

"Drink less next time."

"Next time I don't care about you!"

Ma Lu took three days of sick leave, Song Qiao cooked for her for three days of meals, and in the evening two people nestled on the sofa watching TV, and Ma Lu quipped to him: "How have you danced lately?" ”

"I haven't been there for a long time."

"Don't want to learn to get old?"

"People just think I'm too old!"

The road was laughing again and rolling on the couch. In fact, she already knew that Song Qiao had not contacted the girl, but he did not say it, and she did not ask. What if you asked? She and Song Qiao wouldn't do anything anyway. The night she was drunk, a second before she lost consciousness, she saw Song Qiao galloping over in the distance, and she knew how worried he was about himself.

She actually figured it out, and her relationship with Song Qiao was already the most stable. After graduating for so many years, I didn't get any closer, nor did I become strangers. He will care about her and hate her, but he will still not abandon her.

Like Big Bear said, friends are also very good. At least friends are a lifelong thing.

| The original article is published in the April 2021 issue of EGGER Blog