One day, my father asked me for money, and the initial excuse was that he was not in good health and wanted to go to the hospital for a full body examination, so I sent him money. But I didn't expect that it wasn't long, and he called again and said that he wanted to buy an electric tricycle.
I hesitated, and he seemed to hear my hesitation, saying that you give me half, I give half of it myself, and then sell the sheep in the house, and my heart will soften.
In the past few years, he has been raising sheep, that is, four or five, and when he grows up, he will sell them as a daily expense.
After my mother died, I wanted to take her to the city, but he insisted on not, and my brother in the county town also wanted to take him to live with. He also refused, saying that he was used to life in the countryside and to the people in the village. We can't convince the father, we can only be by him.
But usually give money, he always refuses to ask, saying that life is simple, and the expenses are not small to spend. But now that I have sent countless money back, I feel that something is not quite right.
After three months, I decided to take my daughter back to my hometown to see, the door was locked, the third uncle next door said that he had gone to herd sheep, I led my daughter to the slope, I saw the small sheep in the distance, and I saw him when I got closer.
He sat dozing under a tree next to a plastic sheet on which he had eaten half-eaten bread, a small bag of pickles, and a pot of water.
Seeing this, my heart was sour, and I called out to my father, who was excited, and it took half a day to react, "Yatou, why don't you come back and say a word?" ”
The daughter rushed and said, "Mother said she wanted to surprise Grandpa." He was really happy, and he didn't want to say anything more to me, and led his daughter to see his precious flock.
The father said happily: "After a while, I will sell it, and I can sell it for a lot of money!" Now the price of sheep has risen again. ”
Back home, the yard was a bit cluttered, and in the corner was a tricycle he had ridden for many years.
"Dad, what about the electric car you bought?"
I asked casually, and he looked a little flustered.
"I... I...... I haven't bought it yet! People say that the price of electric vehicles will be reduced next month, and they will buy them again next month. ”
As I was cleaning up the yard, I heard him call my brother, "Your sister is back, so come back for dinner in the evening!" Then he whispered, "Buy more delicious food!" ”
I wanted to say something, but here it was. In those years, my heart was always suitable for my parents' eccentricity. Due to the jealousy of my youth, I deliberately distanced myself from my brother, and later I was admitted to a good university in a gamble, and finally left home with a raised eyebrow.
After graduating from college, I entered a good foreign company and became a white-collar worker, and my brother finally reluctantly finished reading vocational secondary school and became the kind of small worker who works on the assembly line in the county, which is more in awe of me.
In the afternoon, my brother and his son came back with their children, bought a lot of things, and my father personally cooked, let my brother cook his hands, and cooked a lot of dishes, all of which I loved to eat.
He didn't cook when his mother was there, and surprisingly, he made every dish taste like a mother. As I ate, I almost burst into tears.
I talked to him in the yard at night, but I didn't expect him to go around in a big circle. First of all, the village is now planned in a unified way, and said that my mother wanted to build a house before she was born, and finally tentatively asked, "Yatou, if you are not so tight on your hands, can you help them?" ”
I interrupted him and asked how much it would cost to flip over the house, and suddenly there was an indescribable sadness in my heart.
"It's about 20,000 pieces!" His voice lowered, and then he added, "If my sheep were all sold, they would be able to sell for thousands of dollars!" ”
I was stunned, more than twenty thousand, which is not a small amount for me. I said, "Dad, I'm going to go back and look at it, it shouldn't be a big problem."
He lowered his head, "It's hard for you, I'm old, and I won't spend money on anything else." ”
I smiled, and in the dark moonlight he must not have seen my smile, a little bitter.
I told my husband about my father asking for money, and my husband didn't talk for half a day. He's not a stingy guy, it's just that this year his situation was harder than mine. He runs a small export company and now even wages are in question. Finally he said give the money to Dad, let's save a little, and life is always passable.
Half a month after I remitted the money to my father, I met a relative from my hometown who came to the city to run an errand, and I asked if the house in our hometown had begun to be overturned.
He was a little surprised, he didn't hear that your father was going to build a house, and then he remembered something,
"Oh, yes, your father sold all the sheep.
Help your brother buy a pickup truck. Your brother is no longer in the factory, and he drives his own car to deliver goods to people, making a lot of money. ”
My heart was instantly filled with cold water, and it was cold and chilly. It turned out that he had lied to me, and he had always been partial to his brother, and he had actually cheated me of money to help my brother. Parents can't hate, but how much is that resentment?
When I got home, I finally couldn't help but shut myself in the bathroom and cry out loud at the sound of the rushing water.
After that, for several days I did not take the initiative to call him, and then he called first, and I coped lightly, and he had to hang up the phone.
But I didn't expect that it would be the last time I would hear his voice.
Three days later, I got a call from my brother saying he had died, from a myocardial infarction.
Suddenly remembering the trivial advice he had made on the phone three days ago and my indifference was like a heavy stone smashed into my heart. I was so scared that I couldn't breathe for half a day and rushed home.
The first time I hugged my brother and cried.
When my mother left, I still had him in my arms. And now a few days ago, the resentment against him had long been washed away by his sudden departure, surrounded only by pain.
When I finished taking care of my father's affairs and left, my brother went to the station to send me, "My sister will come back often, and my parents are still at home!" In a word, my dry eyes suddenly filled with tears again.
I shook my brother's hand and said, "Take care! "Then I got in the car.
I think maybe I won't go back to this so-called home often in the future, but life is really like this. The disaster is not alone, the husband's company has an accident, he was cheated out of all the funds by a customer, the husband almost collapsed, and people who never drank began to buy drunk every day. I was both distressed and anxious and had no choice but to think about it for one night and decided to sell the house.
My brother called at noon the next day, and after my father left, my brother often called, and I didn't have the heart to greet him.
My brother also heard my anxiety and patiently inquired. Unexpectedly, he actually took the train and rushed over early the next morning.
Entering the door without saying anything, he took out a wad of money wrapped in newspapers from his arms. "Sister, this is fifty thousand pieces, not much, first take the emergency."
I was amazed, "Where did you get the money?" ”
"In the past few months, I have earned a part of the money by driving and pulling goods, and I have borrowed thirty thousand with a house, and the houses in the county town are not worth much money, and can only borrow so much."
My heart was hot and I gave him the money back, "I can't use your money!" ”
The younger brother was anxious, "Sister! Last year, the factory closed, you and my brother and sister were laid off, want to buy a car no money, you gave Dad 40,000 yuan, let him give it to me, and don't let Dad tell me it's your money! ”
I froze. The younger brother is still saying, "Dad said, when I was a child, you always let me go, because I was a brother, and now I want to protect you because I am a man." Dad also said that if he is gone in the future, I will be your mother-in-law. ”
As soon as I turned around, tears fell, how my daughter of thin affection had misunderstood the bitter heart of my father's deep love, he had long known that he would soon die. She knows that I am arrogant by nature and will not even take and rely on family affection, so he will book future love and protection for me.
How difficult it was for him to ask me for money at the beginning, how much courage to muster, but he still did it, just so that after he left, I still had the love of my relatives to rely on. It turns out that I am still his favorite child!
I turned and hugged my brother, saying nothing, just hugging him tightly, thinking that my father, who was sleeping in heaven at the moment, must be at ease.
Because his daughter, who has always lived in his deep love but does not know it, finally understands his love.