——To every young person who is not willing to be ordinary and burns for his dreams
After the 2022 Lunar New Year, I have stepped into the threshold of 40 years old without suspense. At this time, looking up at the sky, what you see is no longer the rising sun; looking up, what you see is no longer the flowers; listening to the side of your ear, what you hear is no longer the breeze, the spring water dinging, the birds are graceful...
Although before the 2022 Lunar New Year comes, I have been silently saying countless times in my heart: 40 years old, you must not come! Come, a few years later, and when I succeed, come again?!
But no matter how silently you read and how you pray, ten thousand people refuse to be "40 years old", and it will come after all! Indeed, life, old age, illness and death are the objective laws of all living things, and no one can reverse them! Over the age of 40 years old, for the vast majority of men and women, whether divorced or unmarried, in the field of marriage and marriage, they are completely at a disadvantage! Then this can only be compensated by working hard in the cause and making great achievements!
I believe that many of my peers, who have just entered the 40-year-old age, have such a feeling: the years are not spared! How did I suddenly turn 40?! All want to refuse to enter the 40 years old! 20s, 30s, what a wonderful age! The wind is flourishing, youthful and vibrant, even if the sun sees it, it will blush; even if the moon sees it, it will hide in the clouds!
But in turn, I have to ask: when you are in your 20s and 30s, God has given you such a good Jinsehua year, what did you go to? What have you done?!
Standing at the threshold of forty years old, an age that inherits the past and the future, looking at the mountains and mountains, looking at the water and the water... In these years that were as heavy as a boulder, my heart was in turmoil, and I wrote such a modern poem that was not a poem, "The Broken Years":
Neither sad nor joyful
Don't be alarmed
Decent
There is no color in the memory
Up and down
perfunctory
Don't cry or laugh
Minecraft
Lake Mirror
There are no big waves
Nor is it like a pool of backwater
Gray heart
Can't make a single wave
I don't know if I'm getting lazy
Or some other reason
in a word
Don't want to move
Strange
Eat more delicious
They couldn't even gain weight
It wasn't like this before!
In these years
I forgot how to grieve?!
Pathetic
Tears could not flow
But the heart is like a knife
……
That's how my life is?
Is that really how my life is?
Once a teenager's sharp edge
It's bleak
Once a teenager's polished edges and corners
Smoothed out
Heartbroken
Liver and intestines are cut off
Once a grand dream of a teenager
Swing
Just the bottom of my heart
Still powerless to preserve that share of the future
Incredibly fiery, sincere faith
Say goodbye to your dreams now
Will it be too early?
Half dead
The brain melon is as heavy as a lead block
You can only grit your teeth
Clench your fists
Hold on!
Once a spirited, hot-blooded green teenager, to now, fat head, big ears, willing to moderate middle-aged greasy uncle, this is the so-called "maturity"? Is it "mature" or "decadent"? Really have to think about it...
On the surface, people are the same; deep divergence, people and people are really different! From the past when I invited friends to drink thousands of bottles of red wine without blinking my eyes, to now, "Is it to buy a dollar and a roll of paper towels?" Or buy two dollars a roll of tissues? "It's going to be a good time!" Looking back on the past, it is really full of emotions and sadness!
Indeed, the critical point of life is just a few years, and it is very likely that "those years" determine that the house you live in your life is different from people, the tickets you earn in your life are different from people, the women you marry (or the men you marry) in your life are different from people, and the children you have in your life are different from people...
But no one should be crazy, now it is only the first half of life, just a little half, there are still decades (most of life) of competition? No one should boast about Haikou too early, saying that they are sure that they are now the big winners in life!
I always believed that I was just a wounded lion, a sleeping lion! I've been injured for twenty years, even if only a few more years, so what? Bleeding wounds will eventually scab! I firmly believe that one day, I will dry the dust off my body and set off again and rise again!
Taking 10,000 steps back, how about a lifetime of ordinaryness? But should the two bricks of "peace of mind" and "dignity" be placed in a more prominent position on the human growth embankment?!
(The poet Ning Wen's first draft was on February 11, 2022; finalized on February 19, 2022.) ）
Author's introduction: Ning Wen, born in 1982 in Ningdu County, Ganzhou, Jiangxi, the word poetry Huai, the number of retreating residents; contemporary strength of young writers, poets, in the poetry world enjoys the "soul poet", "true love poet" elegant title (true nature and true feelings, temperament poets, true love poets, Ning Wenye). Certified poet of China Poetry Network and officially certified poet of WeChat public platform. Over the years, with the innate sensitivity to words, he has always insisted on his unique way of walking in language and pursued an extreme emotional publicity! So far, it has won nearly 30 awards in various international and domestic essay contests and poetry competitions. During his university years, he successively served as the president of the Literary Club of the Youth League Committee, the head of the writer's group, the reporter of the school newspaper, and the deputy director of the information department of the college. He has published the poetry collection Dance on the Blade and the essay collection City of Desire. It is now ready to publish a second collection of poems, The Year of Kinsehua. His poems include "The Most Beautiful Man", "Waiting for You", "Fair God", "Singing and Singing", "Time", "If There Is a Next Life", "Life and Death", "Aphasia", "Silence and Singing", "Understand What Is White? "Pain and Happiness", "If You Say Goodbye After Many Years", "Tragic Meteor", "Let's Go", "The Last Poem", "Cherish", "Amorous Spring", "Farewell", "Drifting in the World", "Two Poems of the Night" and "Jinsehua Nian", etc., the style of the work: a kind of personality, a kind of passion, and even the burning of my personal life! A silent cry to the world, a cry to the vastness! Poetic view: look at the real world, face the true heart, lyrical temperament, realistic life! The song of poetry, the dance of dance, the flow of pen and ear!
