The first real person to appear on camera!
1. Enlightenment
When I was 29 to 30 years old, I didn't feel it, I felt that I was still young, almost 40 years old, and I was suddenly very anxious and felt that I was old.
But because some masters have said that I have a difficult road in middle age, once I pass forty, it will be smooth, haha, and I am very much looking forward to it.
But when the 40-year-old really came, he was full of emotions, feeling that there were many things that were not done well, many things that were not tried, and many truths that were not realized.
But what can be done?
It is obviously unfair to blame my 20-year-old or 30-year-old self with my 40-year-old experience and mind, if I can turn back the clock, I think I will still do that, then choose.
Because there is no higher cognition.
All the way, they stumbled over by themselves, no high-ranking people gave directions, no good teachers gave guidance, and no experienced fathers gave advice.
In addition, the biggest disadvantage of oneself is that there is no clear plan for life, and it is easy to get by, and it is peaceful and soft-hearted.
It may be good to live like this, thank God for his mercy.
So there is no need to stand on the threshold of 40 years old, to regret the choice of 20 years old, to blame the 30 years old for their own tolerance.
I only hope that when I am 60 years old, I can smile with my eyebrows, smile lightly, and be calm in my heart, and my heart is calm and calm that I have eaten, drunk, gained, and lost.
I will no longer regret and regret what happened at the age of 40 or 50, and I can say it from the bottom of my heart: My sister tried her best! No regrets.
Sure enough, the people at work are the most beautiful, and I thank my colleagues for taking me so thin.
2. Work
For so many years, it is still relatively smooth to study and work, and since childhood, I dare not say that I have both good character and excellent learning, but the results are satisfactory to my parents.
Graduation has not been assigned, the work must be unified examination, and from the township examination back to the county direct unit to today.
I know that compared to good people who mix well, I really don't really count anything.
But I don't forget my original intention, I don't forget the road when I came, as a second generation of farmers born in a small mountain village, I am very content.
Coupled with the fact that I am more Buddhist and have not made the best efforts, I am more content to think about this.
Ask yourself, in the past 18 years of work, I don't love it much, but I never dare to slack off for half a minute.
What I am proud of is that no matter which unit I change to, I have never pulled together gangs and factions, bullied the small with the big, bullied the new with the old, and formed a deep friendship with my comrades.
When the new leader gave me his opinion at the democratic life meeting a few years ago, he said that I had a very good evaluation of the style in the jianghu, and the old leaders who had worked with me all commented that "good character is good and strong ability, and now I am a bit sloppy." ”
Ha ha.
I know my wife is average, but I also feel good about my conduct.
To be affirmed, the heart suddenly blossomed with joy, as if after so many years of silly white sweet, honest, soft hearted people were suddenly covered with a layer of holy light, and instantly rose up.
This is a cross-Chinese New Year's Eve friend to take a picture.
3. Feelings
Heaven is indeed fair, and man's life cannot be smooth.
On the one hand, if it goes well, on the other hand, there will be more tribulations.
So far, the most unpleasant thing is still feelings.
I thought that living an ordinary and ordinary life wholeheartedly, not seeking how rich, how big an official, how much money there is, as long as it is safe, secure, and stable is a good life.
Now I understand that ordinary and ordinary days, whether they are magnificent days, do not depend on your wishes, but on the people who live their lives.
It is not that you ask for the lowest in life, you can be safe in this world. It's not that if you ask too high, you won't be safe. All depend on the lowest point of the other person's character.
In this life, people are not called gambling on the card table, life is everywhere is not a casino, since they are on the gambling table, they can only be willing to gamble and lose.
Happily admit to losing, accept reality calmly, pack up your mood, and move forward.
After all, the eye is long in front, and it tells us to look forward, not to look back, not to settle, not to be impatient, not to be afraid, not to refuse.
I also understand that the road ahead is difficult, and maybe I will not find the right person in my life.
But in addition to feelings, life also has jobs, dreams, family, travel and so on.
The sky will darken, but you are the light.
Dare to put me P so thin is also considered brave, haha.
4. Be brave
I am very grateful to myself for so many years, no matter how time passes, no matter how difficult it is, I have always followed my own heart.
In 2008, I bought my first house. At that time, I was not married, my good friends were advised not to buy, I owed so much money, and I was under pressure.
I thought that my brothers and sisters were far away, what should my parents do in that small mountain village? If you have a headache and brain fever, there is no one around.
Unexpectedly, this house has become my refuge, otherwise I would be living on the street now.
In 2010, I planned business for my loved ones, and it is said that I made millions, but in 2017, I lost 515,000 yuan by hand.
In 2016, my father was hospitalized in the provincial city for surgery, and in 2018, I accompanied my mother to see a doctor in Xi'an, although it was a minor illness, but I had to get medicine on time, and my sister could not come back from abroad, and I went back to and from Xi'an more than 20 times in those two years.
Now my father and mother are in good health, able to eat, drink and have fun.
In 2018, I responded to the poverty alleviation and stayed in the village for a year, and at that time, unlike now, only one person was sent to the village.
I don't say how well I did my work, but I resisted loneliness in the village alone, and now in retrospect, I was stationed in the village and defeated in the village.
In 2021, my most trusted person gave me a slap in the head and asked me for half a life, but until now I have lived.
For my son, no matter how difficult it is, I try my best to accompany him, and the tutoring homework is not left behind. Taking him to play with his friends and classmates, party with relatives and friends, go up and down the mountain, it is also a lot of fun.
These are experiences and growths.
The only comfort is that when life is faced with choices, I have chosen goodness and honesty.
Blowing wind in the mountains, free.
5. Freedom
When I was in school, I saw a poem by the Hungarian poet Petofi:
Life is precious,
Love is more expensive,
If it is free,
Both can be thrown.
I thought, who is so stupid? Life and love are gone? Be free.
Now standing on the side of the 39-year-old, I can't help but sigh, how good it is for people to live freely.
Confucius taught us the idea of joining the WTO, that people should bravely move forward and make meritorious achievements.
Lao Tzu taught us the idea of being born, that man should rule by doing nothing, and that the Tao fa is natural.
And when we reach middle age, where there is any freedom, we are surrounded by people who depend on us.
Dying parents, more and more do not know how to educate their children, can not finish the work, not enough to spend the salary.
However, I still want to leave a little place for myself to repair the fence and plant chrysanthemums, and leave a few days for myself every year.
About three or five friends get together, climb a mountain, make a meal, buy a bouquet of flowers, you can go to Cangshan, you can go to Erhai, someone accompanies you, no one accompanies the group.
Don't be anyone's daughter, don't be anyone's mother, don't be anyone's leader, don't be anyone's colleague, don't be anyone's friend, don't be anyone's relative.
Just be yourself.
2022 is booming.
6. Smile
The newly transferred little beauty from the unit said that I looked a little younger than my actual age, and I couldn't see that I had been destroyed by life.
Haha, happy floating by.
This is related to my heartlessness and lungs, and I think my biggest advantage is that I can quickly pour chicken soup into myself, whether he is poisonous or not, and then fill it up.
I'm not good at showing my bad side, not that I'm strong and how much I love to do.
It's just that I feel that my own spirit can't fall, I can't admit that I am in the trough period, and my temperament still has to be pinched to death.
Doesn't it mean that people who like to laugh are not too unlucky?
Laughing at work, laughing at dinner, laughing at making friends, laughing at the loss, thinking about it is all beautiful.
It is also a sense of ritual that you give yourself, do not consume internally, use a sunny and positive attitude to face life, and be a woman who opens the way to the mountains and builds bridges in the water.
To be a better self, you can be a better daughter, a better mother, and a better partner.
In order to live up to this only once in life.
Wish me a happy birthday!
I hope that the rest of my life will be at peace with my heart, and I will be indifferent to my gains and losses.
Leaning on the building to listen to the wind and rain, look down on the jianghu road.