I have fantasized countless times about what will happen three years after graduation, whether I have been admitted to civil servants, public institutions, or have achieved small achievements in enterprises, or have achieved success in entrepreneurship, and become the pride of my parents!
At that time, when I was young, I was less experienced in the world, and I always felt that there were countless ways to let myself go in the future, no matter which one I chose, it was ultimately a sunshine avenue, and I didn't know... What awaits me on the side of the road is the reality of the needle, and I myself have made my 26-year-old life a farce through step-by-step choices.
For three whole years, standing still, contributing countless examination fees, not grasping the tail of youth, and also not riding the fast boat ashore.
A job that does not die or live, day by day.
I thought about writing a novel, 50,000 words halfway abandoned; tried to edit a short video, few viewers; operated a public account, the response is even more mediocre. There were a lot of ideas that weren't put into action.
Affected by the epidemic, the job that I loved and hated, did not die or live, and the company went out of business, which sounded quite miserable.
Someone told me that the future can be expected, the future... There is no future in sight.
26 years old, not very old, but the parents are old, the girls around them also need an account, the house, the car, marriage, have a baby, I don't want to sell my anxiety, but anxiety is really oppressive.
I don't know if 26-year-old boys will be confused and anxious, but even if they are confused and anxious, they still have to move forward unswervingly.
Because, there are still parents to raise, there are girls who have been accompanying them to take care of, and there will be a little angel to protect in the future.
So, no matter how hard it is, no matter how painful it is, I have to be strong.
Sometimes I also think about what is the meaning of people living in this world, step by step to think clearly, parents are still there, someone is cute, then every day of living in this world is a steady profit.
Life is too short, someone needs my protection, in the future, there will not be so many times to say that I will not, I am afraid, I can't do it!