Over the years I have developed the habit of the winter sun not yet coming out, the outdoor air is cold, I am willing to lie in the bed, turn off all the lights, quietly think about something.
On the eve of the college entrance examination that year, on the way home. After I went to the cornfield to relieve myself, I came out with my pants belt on, and just walked to the edge of the field, when suddenly a few female classmates on the road ran back to the school with a frightened "Ma Ya". I followed, and the dean of education called me to the office and scolded me for molesting girls! I argued that I just went inside to untie my hands, and when I came out, I happened to meet them, which probably startled them. But the Dean of Academic Affairs did not spare me, insisting that I was plotting against me. At this time, one of my father's friends was also teaching at the school, and they were asked how they explained it to the dean, but he just wouldn't listen. Later, I learned that the political views between them were different, my father and his friend were rebels, and the dean of education was a royalist, and they made a big fuss about these things in me, with the purpose of attacking my father's friend, and this matter became a stalk in my heart, how could I not get out of that kind of resentment, I don't know where those girls who have wronged me are now?
One day the principal called me to the office and asked: When you went to the toilet yesterday, did you climb the wall to see the women's toilet? My face immediately turned red, my head shook like a wave drum, and I replied: Yesterday I went back to my hometown, I was not at school. But the principal insisted that someone had testified that you had peeked at the girl. I cried out for wrongs, and finally called my father to the school to say that he had no way to teach his son, etc., and my father later told me that the school was still trying to exclude him and create trouble on me. These two things in my heart, every time I think of the river and the sea, I can't sleep all night.
Why should I be wronged like this? Who's going to whitewash me? These two things are very embarrassing, in retrospect they make themselves depressed, and there is no way to solve it, every time you think about it, it is a bad experience, but you can't control to think about these two things, and slowly your thoughts can't control it, and it becomes a wild thought. Not only that, but there are also embarrassing things when interacting with relatives. One year I borrowed 1,000 yuan from my sister, and after my lover paid her salary, I rushed to pay her back. I remember very clearly that she was washing things in the big basin, and I came to her and said, "Give, pay back your 1,000 dollars." She shook the water on her hand: "Oh, you don't have to pay me back, wait for your nephew to get married and do it" I casually said this, that's that! She carried the money in her trouser pocket.
Later, when I heard others say how stingy I was and how I owed money to others but didn't pay it back, I heard the tone of others, so I went to my sister's house and asked her. She actually looked dazed and said, "You have repaid my money, why don't I remember?" "There were no witnesses at that time, this was blocked in my heart for several years, let me argue a hundred times, we are not bad at this 1,000 yuan, but if you give him another 1,000 yuan, it seems that we have really become a villain, do not give it to him, as if we owe something, let people be embarrassed." Isn't it a shame to encounter something like this? Afterwards, I regretted it, why didn't I let her get a receipt at that time? Why wasn't the sound recorded at that time? This was repeated in my mind for a long time. Later, his psychology became more and more sensitive, and he even suffered from social phobia.
Further development, sometimes when chatting with people, he said his things, but in my heart I was thinking of other things, which became a typical awkward chat, and slowly colleagues were unwilling to chat with me, and no one could understand this loneliness. Sometimes I quarreled with others, and I kept thinking back to the details of the quarrel, how I didn't use any words to scare him at the time, and I regretted it afterwards. Sometimes I accidentally say a word, and I am worried about being pregnant for a long time, maybe others have forgotten....
These thoughts kept flashing, and every day the brain was like a non-stop machine, exhausting itself physically and mentally. Mr. Yang Said, your biggest problem is that you think too much and read too little. Psychologists call this kind of wild behavior a high internal friction behavior, constantly thinking and torturing yourself. People who think too much tend to be highly sensitive people who expand the details of their lives indefinitely to the point where they scare themselves. People who think too much are easy to get stuck in their emotions, and they can't extricate themselves from falling into emotions and always feel very tired and tired. Highly sensitive people are prone to empathy fatigue, which is not beneficial to others and hurts themselves. Empathetic fatigue people are prone to dizziness, panic, insomnia, psychological denial of themselves, poor attention, and decreased problem-solving ability. Thinking too much will cause your own psychology to appear and bear the weight that you can't bear, resulting in six gods and no master and even psychological collapse.
How do we get out of this prison of wild thinking? 1, let go of yourself, accept yourself. For their own various ideas, we must carefully sort out, accept it, obey it, the so-called "borrowing wine to pour sorrow is more sorrowful, drawing a knife to cut off the water more flowing", we must be like Dayu Zhishui, facing the gushing flood of their own thinking, not to block it bluntly, but to slowly channel, "flood" naturally will not cause harm to themselves. 2. Express your ideas and make them. People are accustomed to "thinking of thousands of roads before going to bed, and walking the old way after waking up", so those who think too much may wish to confide in reliable people, and even put some ideas into action to reduce the frequency of wild thoughts. 3. Take care of your own business. A philosopher said that there are only three things in the world, the things of God, the affairs of others and the affairs of oneself. If you carefully comb through many of your thoughts, you are thinking about God's affairs and other people's affairs, and your own affairs only occupy a little bit. Old Master Kong's "think twice before acting", if you can't grasp that degree, don't become a wild thought. A person who thinks too much loses the joy of being a human being. Remember that you are first and foremost an animal, not a tool of thought. First let your senses get happiness, eat and drink Well, and then do the day's work well, this is enough, whimsy increases troubles, there is no use, it is better to go light.