One
Every year, she and her husband would take their father-in-law from the countryside to the city for the New Year, this year was a little different, and there was a pair of sons and daughters of her brother who wanted to come, and she agreed. The two children are very poor, the mother is mentally ill, and there is a mother and no mother.
The house where the original three people lived was not spacious enough, but now, there are twice as many people, plus a large bag of things, filling the room to the full, and the heart is also full. Fortunately, she was a grumpy woman, and after a while of regularity, she was much fresher.
The most headache is how to solve this big people's sleep problem at night.
Winter is no better than summer, the floor is absolutely invincible, only in two beds to make a fuss. She arranged for her husband and father-in-law to sleep, and she took her three children to sleep in the one-meter-five-meter bed.
The son who was accustomed to sleeping alone protested one after another, and under her soft and hard treatment, the son agreed with tears in his eyes. The original reluctant boy, just into the bed, said for a moment that their feet stink, and the next moment he felt that they were crowded with him out of place, he was worried that his son's words would stab the fragile hearts of the sisters and brothers, and with a loud rebuke, the son was stable.
She was like a soldier on standby every day, and the hours on the wall were the trumpets urging her to go to her death.
At eight o'clock in the morning, with a nutritious breakfast; at eleven o'clock in the afternoon, prepare lunch; in order to let the sisters and brothers grow up and see, they will generally arrange to go out to play in the afternoon; play until dark, return home, and it is a busy call. As for washing dishes, washing clothes, and mopping the floor, she did it with a stare.
She is like a spinning top, and if she has no complaints, she will be quiet.
That night, my husband helped dry the duvet cover, she led one head, he led the other. Only to see him quietly approach her and whisper, "This nun is also too lazy, she has been here for more than a week, and she doesn't know how to help you do housework!"
So many days of hard work, somewhat emotional. Seeing that her husband said it opened, she only nagged twice: "Seventeen or eighteen-year-old big girl, to the people so blind, after looking for the in-laws, do not give people to scold to death!"
"Her mother is like that, and no one teaches her, so you should teach her as your own child, so as not to suffer losses later." My husband thinks she makes sense.
"No matter what, I said it was inappropriate!" After all, she is a foreign surname, afraid of children's sensitivity.
The next day, the days were still business as usual. After lunch, the whole family went to the park again. She was a little tired from the days of toiling, and sat alone in a chair, enjoying the moment of tranquility alone.
The sun was shining warmly, and she fell asleep in a trance, suddenly awakened by a rebuke. Opening his eyes slightly, an index finger pressed straight to his eyes: "I tell you, the child only lives for ten days and half a month, and you will work hard to serve."
She looked at him sheepishly, and in her husband's angry accusations, she understood why he had said such a thing.
The husband took advantage of her absence, said a few words to her niece without any obstruction, and Xiao Nizi immediately cried and wanted to go home. The unforeseen ending, the husband was confused, looking at the niece with tear marks on her face, he was distressed, chagrin, and had nowhere to vent, so she became his punching bag.
The index finger that stayed in mid-air dispelled the warm sun and poked her cold to the bone. Like a warrior who has lost her fighting spirit, she unloads all her baggage, sits softly on a chair, and says grievously: "Am I not doing a good enough job?"
"Did you do that?" The husband, who has never spoken from the brain, threw this sentence away from the words, completely breaking her psychological defense line, and tears gushed out.
The husband who broke into trouble, left her alone and sad, and took the children to play. Looking at his distant back, she thought hatefully, I didn't do a good job, then you do it!
Since then, the Cold War has begun.
Two
Tomorrow the sun will rise as usual, and tomorrow's days will pass as usual. She was happy and relaxed, coldly watching how he could do better.
Breakfast is no longer pay attention to nutritional collocation, eat enough to eat; lunch lost exquisite, to a large pot stew, simple and convenient, can not eat, come back at night to continue to eat. She automatically quit the family's outings. Even though she had hatred in her heart, she subconsciously looked at the clock, estimated the time of their return, and cooked the rice early.
More than ten days passed in his sighing busyness, and as school approached, my husband was going to send the children back.
She silently stuffed her children's bags with the new clothes she had already bought and many 80% of the new old clothes, as well as a variety of delicious snacks that were difficult to buy in her hometown.
Looking at the children, they said goodbye timidly as they left, knowing that she had hurt her sisters and brothers in order to gamble with her husband.
The family of three returned to its usual rhythm, she still did her duty as a housewife, the only unusual thing was that he and she no longer spoke, even if they had to say something, it was the son who made the microphone.
The cold war between the two men continued.
Such battles often appeared between the two men. The very experienced son had already smelled the gunpowder hidden under the calm, and secretly told her: "Mom, if Daddy divorces you, don't go!" He couldn't get married alone. She touched her son's head and looked at him bitterly and smiled.
The Cold War has been going on for a month.
That night, after her son fell asleep, she couldn't hold back. Seeing the people who are close at hand, her heart seems to be separated by thousands of mountains and rivers, unable to blend together, and she feels miserable, this is not the life she wants.
She really hoped that after a statement, it would awaken the softest corner of his heart. Who knows, he left behind the cold words: "You have lost all the good and virtuous qualities that can impress me the most, how can you live?"
The harsh words poked her heart into holes, and she kept pouring blood out. Finally, she exploded, her voice hysterical, and he used her as a jumping beam clown, occasionally pushing a sentence, and making her half-dead.
"Don't argue, Mom." The son woke up and begged her with tears. No matter how much anger, no matter how much hatred, she had to hold back. In an instant, the night was quiet again.
The son was afraid and insisted on sleeping with her. As soon as the small body came close to her, tears poured out without a fight. The son looked at her with trepidation: "Mom, don't cry! Mom, don't cry!" She hugged her son tightly in her arms, wiped the tears from her cheeks fiercely, and felt a firmness in her heart.
The next day, after her son went to school, she told her husband about her decision: "Let's get a divorce!" Still lying on the bed, he responded weakly: "If you really want to leave, then leave!"
Although there is no extravagant hope for a long time, but really hearing such a cheerful response, my heart is still sour. Her eyes were a little warm, and she was stunned to hold back the tears that were about to roll out.
Three
Across a wall, she was in the living room, like a movie rewind, telling her husband who slept in the bedroom about the past. Not to recall his throbbing, but to polish his dusty eyes.
The first time she went back to her rural hometown with him, her father-in-law, who had seven children, was still living under someone else's roof.
During the meal, the unknown Chen Mi choked her chest, and she threw himself at his obligation to support the elderly with his brothers and sisters.
The problem of father-in-law pension has not been solved, but it has attracted a burst of tearing and beating of debt and injustice.
It turned out that the brothers believed that all the debts in the family were borne by their husbands at school and were unwilling to bear them. Angry, he wanted to get a knife and fight with them, but she stopped and hugged him and said loudly, "It's okay, I'll pay you back!" The commotion stopped, and there was a dead silence in the room.
She advised him: "If your father has only one son, you will feel better." Since then, she and he have lived a hard life, slowly paying off all the debts they owe, and at the same time, bearing the life of the old man.
Later, they bought a big house, and the old man was also taken in to live. In order to develop, he continued to study, left home to study for three years, she still brought tea and food, and wholeheartedly took care of her father-in-law's food and clothing. The father-in-law boasted: "My daughter-in-law is even better than my daughter-in-law!"
After that, when the son reached school age, they replaced the big house with a school district house, and the house shrank to half the size of the previous one. The father-in-law was not accustomed to living and insisted on returning to the countryside. They paid for it, the brothers contributed, built a new house for the father-in-law in their hometown, all the household appliances were complete, the living expenses were also given enough, the father-in-law who had no worries about food and clothing was no longer troublesome, humming a little song to live a life, envying how many people in the village died!
As the saying goes, a brother is a broken bone connected to a tendon. Although he almost moved the knife that year, when there was really something, he and she were still unambiguous and helped each other. Paying for money when you are in a hurry, and trying to find a relationship when you need connections, it is really a response.
Two years ago, in the summer vacation, the sisters and brothers had been taken to the city for a period of time, at that time, she was also doing her best, due to many days of fatigue, coupled with the hot summer, one night was unconscious, was sent to the hospital by 120, lived for more than a week, and then retrieved a life.
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The past is like a classic old movie, after a long time, the plot will fade, her story, as if pressing the replay button, he and she are immersed in the past.
"After the divorce, how do you live?" His question came from the bedroom.
"Then you don't have to worry, whoever leaves is a photo!" Although she had never thought about how to live after leaving him, she still replied hard.
"I know that the days are passed, just good and bad. Actually, you're not happy without me. I'm even worse off without you!"
Tell yourself not to cry anymore, but this sentence is like a raging fire, burning her frozen heart, crackling and shattering, and then turning into a pool of water, too much to put, surging down from her eyes...
"Mom, I'm back!" She hurriedly wiped the tears from her face, her eyes red and swollen, and gave a smile to her son who came home from school. She hurriedly changed her clothes and took her purse to go out.
The son asked in surprise, "Mom, where are you going?"
"Mom forgot to buy vegetables, I went to the vegetable market!" Her chest, which had been clogged for a month, was finally clear.
When she rushed home with the dishes, her husband had already washed the dishes in the kitchen.
He silently took the vegetables in her hand, and the two of them prepared the lunch of the day. Mu Ne's husband didn't say anything, only gently giving her a hug from behind while she skillfully wielded the spatula.
Under the same roof, almost many couples are constantly arguing and hurting each other in proving who is right and who is wrong, until they say the two most ruthless and helpless words in the world, "divorce." "However, it is still not far away, just a thought. As long as the other party has a soft word, it can often redeem a wrong decision.
"You're not happy without me; I'm even worse without you!" This should be the most beautiful love story she has heard in so many years of marrying him, and this sentence has given her the courage to continue to live with him!