I didn't sleep all night for a few days in a row, almost a month, I wanted to go to bed early last night, I was also very sleepy, I finished eating at nine o'clock, I finished washing, I took a bath, I lay in bed at ten o'clock, and I fell asleep after a while. I thought it would be a good night's sleep. Finally, I woke up at 1:30 in the morning, and I couldn't sleep anymore: I couldn't sleep listening to songs, I couldn't sleep listening to books, I couldn't sleep listening to the rain, I couldn't sleep.
In fact, I have been sleeping, but also my own problem, always do not want to sleep, the phone to see very late, do not know what they are watching. There is also the fact that I didn't want to sleep when I was alone, and I actually slept very well with my daughter-in-law. Now I can't sleep anymore.
why? I've been asking myself, too. And often do not know when to sleep, suddenly woke up, in the dream: someone chased me, shouted loudly, stayed in a place how can not go out, etc.; I thought I slept for a long time, but in fact, I finally found that I slept for two or three hours, when did I start to become very worried.
Why can't I sleep, why don't I want to sleep? If you have something in mind, it's as simple as that. Why people don't sleep well: They don't live well during the day, so they don't sleep well at night. That's for sure. I didn't handle it well, I didn't know how to deal with it, and now I have no way to deal with it. It used to be always felt that there would be a way to everything; there were always more ways than difficulties; and that hope would be invincible. Now I feel that if I do a good job, I don't have to say the above words to myself. And because I didn't do well, I was disappointed in the results, so I hope to cheer myself up, cheer up, and think of a way. However, the solution is often impossible to think of, because after all, many things in this society are shelved and cannot be handled.
Is there a way? There is no specific way, only to hand over to time, time will ease a lot of things, will consume a lot of things, but also slowly unconsciously, in fact, things can be solved. A very deep point that has been deeply experienced recently is the superficial meaning conveyed by Yu Hua's "Alive": living is the most difficult. I think it is: because I have to bear it when I am alive. Bear the unpleasant heart, bear the incomprehension, bear the complaint, bear the limitations of their own ability, bear the inability to solve, in many bears, to experience a slap, to a pond to eat. Or: turn it upside down, give a candy to eat, and then feel the negativity. Maybe everyone is thinking about my degree of problems, some people have more sugar, less bitterness; some people are more bitter, less sugar. Or maybe everyone is the same.
It's so difficult, but who can give the best solution to the problem of life? They are all trying, thinking, implementing, wandering. So-called: The family has a difficult scripture, not only the family, but also the individual, both sides, the collective, and the society. The brilliance of the surface cannot represent the extreme bitterness of the heart, and the simplicity of the surface does not represent the real repeated entanglement. I also understand these truths, but I still don't know how to solve them, or leave it to time, to experience, to feel, to the heart.
I just don't want to give all my emotions to sustenance like this anymore, in fact, I don't want to, it's passive, but where is the 100% passive, not sustenance, and then respond to the disappointment, to the end do not want to sustenance. Want to say later? One hundred percent will still reach sustenance. Or the problem of degree, do not want to be so obvious, disappointed so obvious, do not want to deny the self so obvious, or negative energy is so full, showing their own powerlessness, transmitting their own incompetence, let others feel their helplessness.
Well, life, go through it well, it will have sweetness and bitterness, but your heart is too weak to withstand this bad experience. Leave it to time, let it develop, and let it happen.