I owe the world a promise, I said, I want to live myself, to prove that I am the only unique being in this world!
But I haven't done it yet.
I owe my parents a good son, they gave me life, with hard work to raise me, but I never cherished myself, did not honor them well...
I owe my grandmother, who is far away in heaven, and in her lifetime, I have not given her happiness, and all these years, I have lost her beloved grandson.
I owe my brothers, I owe my friends, I owe people who have always cared about me, they have never abandoned me, but I think they often take much more than they give me...
I owe the man I love because I said I was going to take care of her for the rest of my life and to cherish her with my life, and I lost her.
I owe it to my body, I haven't been treating it well, sometimes I even deliberately hurt it, I make it scarred and overwhelmed, so now it protests.
I owe it to my heart, how long have I not faced it so well that it has let the weeds grow and even begin to rot and deteriorate! And it should be calm.
I also owe myself a trip, a walk, a walk alone, a dialogue of intimate contact with the earth, a embrace of body and mind and nature.
I owe my brothers, I owe my friends, I owe to the people who have always cared about me, who have never abandoned me, but I think they often take much more than they give me.
I also owe myself a book, a book for myself to read in dialogue with my own soul...
I owe so much and so much that I've been running away from it, and it's not the state of life I should have. I should have the courage to face everything, face myself, I should read well, read the world well, I should exercise well, cultivate myself, I should cherish everything, I should take responsibility.
Yes, from now on!