The Story of Noon: An Intriguing Suicide Note

The lame lady is dead.

The people in the village were talking about it. Some were sighing: God saw that she had suffered too much and recruited her to heaven to enjoy the blessings. Of course, there are also people who have doubts, although her health is not good, but she will not go so fast. The facts are the facts after all, and the lame lady is indeed gone.

Speaking of the crippled family situation, it is too difficult. Until the lame man was five years old, of course, at that time he was not lame, the family was very well-off, his father was a coal miner, the salary of fifty yuan in January was already very high at that time, and the lame family was the envy of the whole village.

One day when the crippled father came home and saw a group of people around the road watching something, he took her home when he learned that it was an abandoned baby girl. The red swaddle was embroidered with two words "Wang Qing" with white thread, and since then the lame family has called her Qing'er.

At that time, family planning was the most restrictive period, and anyone who had supernatural births, even if they were picked up on the road, was not allowed. The next day, all the villagers' committees came to the lame man's house with the members of the Family Planning Committee, and a leader-like person said: "I heard that your family has another daughter, and according to the laws of our country, it is strictly forbidden to have extra-childbirth, and in order to punish you for this illegal behavior, the town government has decided to fine you five thousand yuan." "This was astronomical at the time, and the life of the whole family pointed to the salary of the lame father, which would be five thousand yuan." So the chickens and dogs barked, rummaged through the boxes and cabinets, and the group took all the previous things in the house. For several days, these people went in and out of the lame family, moved everything that could be moved away, and left them a bed and pots and pans for cooking. The lame father's salary was also directly deducted from the mine, and not a penny was returned.

Two months later, the crippled father's coal mine was mired, and the lame father was trapped underground, and finally the body was not found. Because they were condemned as supernatural households, the crippled family did not even receive that pitiful pension. The top beam and pillar fell, and the lame man's family situation became more difficult. Someone advised the lame woman to put the baby girl on the road and let her fend for herself, maybe a good person would pick her up. The crippled lady said, "When his father picked up this baby girl, I was so poor that I couldn't throw it away when I wanted food." ”

Since then, the lame lady has been working as a small worker in the village's construction, and when she returns home, she has to take care of her two children, especially the baby girl, and give her milk powder. Milk powder was a luxury at the time, and the lame woman's January salary was just enough to buy milk powder. The townspeople also went to the lame man's house every three to five minutes to make trouble. Fortunately, the cripple was sensible from an early age and did what he could at home. It's not like other children who run around without a problem, and lame people often go to the field to dig up some wild vegetables, which has become a common thing for lame people.

The baby girl was two years old, of course, from the day she was picked up, and the cripple was seven years old, at school age. The lame lady cobbled together fifty yuan to send the cripple to school. The lame man has a relatively withdrawn personality from a young age, and he has no friends at school, and the students of the whole school bully him, and the cripple just keeps his head down and does not speak. At the same time, another job of the lame man began—picking up garbage, and he would pick up all the waste paper thrown by the students at the school. Every time he came home, his two-piece cloth sewn bag was always full of waste paper. On the way, he was often intercepted by his classmates, poured out the contents of his bag, threw them everywhere, and then laughed and left. The cripple grew up in such an environment.

Qing'er, a baby girl in swaddling, is seven years old, and when she reaches the age of primary school, the cripple drops out of school at home, the family is too poor to support two students, and the cripple also hates school. After dropping out of school, the twelve-year-old cripple also went to work in the construction team, doing a lot of chores every day, but he could only get half of the salary of others.

Qing'er's academic performance in school is very good, and her studies are also very smooth. After going to primary school and junior high school, and then being admitted to the local teachers' college, although it is a good thing to be admitted to the teachers' college, the cost of going to school is also called the burden of the family. Due to the overwork of previous years, the lame lady can no longer work in the construction team, and can only clean up the housework at home. Only the cripple worked in the construction team, and even the tuition was not enough. Still, the lame lady and the cripple went around collecting money for her to go to school.

Two months later, Qing'er returned home with a couple. Both were about forty years old, very neatly dressed, and at first glance they knew they were from the city. Both of them were carrying a lot of things in their hands, and Qing'er said to the lame lady, "Mother, they said they were looking for you." The crippled lady looked at the two men, and the man said, "Is this girl named Wang Qing, who was picked up on the road fifteen years ago, and there is a red swaddle with the words Wang Qing written on it." The lame lady did not know what the intentions of the two were, so she went to the cabinet and found the swaddle pressed at the bottom of the box. The woman couldn't wait to open her bag and also took out a swaddle, "You see, it's exactly the same, only this one says Wang En, your one says Wang Qing, it's really our daughter, Wang Qing, we want to take her home." At this time, the lame lady understood that the two originally wanted to recognize their daughters, and her voice immediately changed: "You don't want to take my daughter away, his father left this daughter without leaving anything, I can't let you take it away." Qing'er, come to the mother. Qing'er hesitated, but the habit of more than ten years still made her go to the lame lady. The woman said, "This is really our daughter, let's take her with us, life in the city is much better than here." Sister-in-law, we give you money, and what we have is money. Wang Qing was reported by the lame woman in her arms and looked back at the couple. The crippled lady said, "This is not your daughter, go away, my daughter cannot be taken away." "After pushing the two out of the house, the two returned with a sad look, and Wang Qing watched them go away reluctantly." Qing'er, don't listen to them, you are the daughter of the mother, and no one can take it away. The crippled man knew that his sister had returned, and had returned home from the construction site early, and when he heard that someone was going to take Wang Qing away, he shouted that he was going to beat up the couple. Wang Qing smiled silently and didn't say anything. Rushed back to school early the next morning.

Who thought she would go this way and never go back to the village where she had lived for fifteen years. The lame lady had asked the cripple to take her back to the teachers' college, but when the cripple went, her classmates told him that she had dropped out of school. He was also told that her father had brought her to the dropout formalities and that she might now be working at a state-owned enterprise. The cripple exclaimed: Did he really follow those two men? He stayed in the city for two more days and finally found Wang Qing, but he didn't go to talk to her, he just wanted to confirm whether she really left without a sound.

After returning home, the cripple did not dare to tell her mother that Wang Qing had gone away with others, but said that she studied very well and was sent to the south to work. The lame lady nagged all day: how to be photographed so far away, I don't know if she is used to it, it is definitely not as good as home.

In order to make the cripple earn more money, the lame lady invited the mason who worked in the construction team to eat a meal, and he promised to teach the lame man the technique of building walls. The next day, the cripple began to learn from the master. At that time, the wall was already more than seven meters high, and a few thin poplars supported a plank that was only one foot wide and more than three meters long. The lame man climbed up the plank and was just about to speak to the master on the other board, when suddenly there was a flower in front of his eyes, and the shelf fell. The cripple fell to the ground, and then the heavy plank smashed on his right leg—and the cripple was really lame from then on.

Due to the poor family situation, the lame leg is not good, and the lame woman's health is not good, the lame woman has not found a daughter-in-law. Both mother and son could not do heavy work, so they had to go out to check the garbage to make ends meet.

Although the pain was bitter, no one expected the lame lady to leave when she said she was gone. People cannot be resurrected from the dead, and in the countryside, red and white things are the most important things. The crippled man acted as if he did not want to die, and took out all his savings over the years to give his mother a funeral. The villagers advised him: "People can't be resurrected from the dead, so you should save some time and live a good life later." The cripple just murmured, "The mother has been suffering all her life before she was born, and now she is gone to go." ”

According to the old custom in the village, the son of the deceased should take a short poplar, wrapped in a white paper, bend over, touch the ground with the poplar, and walk from home to the cemetery. On the day of the funeral, the sky was surprisingly hot, and the villagers who had always loved to see the mourning were also quiet, and none of them came out to see. The funeral procession was only a dozen people, all of whom were the lame man's family, following the cripple. The crippled man stooped over, and there was nothing dry on his body. But the cripple was not heard all the time.

The village is still so calm, and everything is going on in normal order. The neighbor felt pity for the cripple and often went to see him and brought him a few steamed buns. Seeing that the cripple did not show greater sorrow, it was relieved.

Something that was not reassuring happened.

On the fifth day after the lame woman left, the cripple was seen heading for the city. When people asked him what he was going to do, he just laughed and didn't answer, and no one knew what he was doing in the city. The cripple returned two days later, wearing a new suit and a pair of leather shoes, even more incongruous on his limped legs. People can't guess what the cripple did.

The next day, the siren sounded in the village, something that had never been seen before. The people in the village are very honest, and they rarely go out of the village, let alone do bad things. Several uniformed men with live ammunition got out of the car, and one of them asked, "Is there a cripple in the village?" Four people died in the city the day before yesterday, and he was seriously suspected. "The people in the village were stunned: a cripple can kill? The whole village rushed to the lame man's house, the door was unlocked, and a foul smell came from pushing the door open. Everyone stood outside the courtyard and looked out, and the village secretary and a few policemen entered the house. The cripple, dressed in that suit, and the leather shoes that looked so awkward, lay motionless on the bed—dead. There was nothing in his dilapidated house except pots and pans, a bed, a broken cabinet, a few chairs, and of course the suicide note:

"I know that I did something bad, I killed my mother, and I also killed the four people in Wang Qing's family." You'll come back to me sooner or later, so I'll go first. ”

The villagers were shocked again: the cripple really killed people! He also killed his own mother-in-law! At the same time, people also remembered the girl named Qing'er who had lived in the village for fifteen years.

Ever since she left, the lame lady has been obsessed with it. The cripple lied to her that she had always believed in teaching in the South, and she would talk about her all day when she was fine. After the lame leg was lame, he stayed at home all day, watching his mother miss Qing'er so much, he wanted to find her in the city and let her come back to see the old man who had raised her for many years. He went to the city to find Wang Qing's house and knocked on the door. Unexpectedly, I was insulted before I even entered the door: "Hey, a countryman, still a cripple." Did you go through the wrong door? Wang Qing stood in the doorway and said. The cripple bowed his head and said, "Qing'er, you go home and see, our mother misses you!" He's nagging you every day! Wang Qing also recognized the cripple and immediately changed his face: "Who is with you and our mother, my mother works in the city." I don't know you, so let's go! The door then closed, and the cripple squatted in the doorway for half a day, thinking about something.

After returning home, he said to his mother happily, "Mother, Qing'er will come back to see you tomorrow." "Really? Great, great! Qing'er is coming back! Is what you say true? Sunny! You go buy something good and get ready. Qing'er is back! That's great! "The cripple kept mumbling at night. The cripple sat on a low stool and listened, raised his head and said, "Mother, Qing'er asked me to bring you back a bottle of nutritional products, I just forgot." He said and handed his mother a vial. The lame lady excitedly took over: "Qing'er bought supplements for me, what a good girl!" "Mother, Qing'er said, eat five tablets at a time, so that your body will be healthier." The cripple poured a glass of water for the mother, and the cripple swallowed five small pieces in one gulp. Muttering "Qing'er" in his mouth, he slowly fell asleep and never woke up again.

After the lame man finished his funeral for his mother, he entered the city for the second time. This time, he killed all four members of Wang Qing's family, including her parents, the couple who had gone to the lame family that year, and a younger brother. He poured some money out of Wang Qing's house and went to the market to buy a suit and a pair of leather shoes. After returning home, I wrote a suicide note of dozens of words, then opened the box of "nutritional products", poured a brain into my mouth, lay on the bed, fell asleep...