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In the night
I have suffered three times: wandering, love, and survival
I have three kinds of happiness: poetry, throne, and sun
Excerpt from Haizi's poem "Night"
Before nightfall, the talented teenager Haizi committed suicide on March 26, 1989, at 5:30 p.m., near Shanhaiguan, Qinhuangdao.
Only 25 years old, he has come to the world once and seen the dazzling sun.
Poet Haizi
After I learned about the life of the poet Haizi, the saddest thing in my heart was his poor parents, because before Haizi was born, his two sisters died one after another, and this kind of pain of a white-haired person sending a black-haired person is difficult for an unexperienced person to understand.
Who would have thought that their proud son would be separated from heaven before he was born.
Even in this short life, Haizi advocated love and had 5 girlfriends, but he still could not enter.
Why wouldn't he want to get married? He also advised his two best friends in life, Luo Yihe, not to marry Xichuan (formerly known as Liu Jun).
This must be said about Haizi's love story.
The young Haizi is undoubtedly a prodigy, this child born in Chawan Village, Anqing City, the family has been farming for generations, and his father, Cha Zhengquan, does not know a single character, and is a local veteran tailor.
Today's Haizi Memorial Hall
Therefore, Haizi's surname is Cha, and his name is Cha Haisheng, and "Haizi" is the pen name he gave himself when he wrote poetry.
Haizi's mother, who came from a wealthy family, discovered that he was sensitive to writing when he was 3 years old, and at the age of 4, Haizi could memorize 50 classic quotations of Mao Zedong in one breath, which caused a sensation in the village for a time and was called a "prodigy".
Haizi as a teenager
He jumped all the way to the grade, and at the age of 10, he was admitted to Anqing Gaohe Middle School.
In just 5 years, Zha Haisheng, who had just turned 15, was admitted to Peking University with the first place in the liberal arts in Anqing.
It was 1979, at the time of reform and opening up.
A young genius, it can be said that the ancestors of the Guangzong Dynasty.
Today, in Haizi's hometown of Chawan Village, Anqing City, Anhui Province, there is also a former residence built by his parents with his manuscript fees.
Haizi's former residence
At Peking University, Haizi studied law, but because she liked literature, the magazine founded by the poet Kitajima and her friends became popular at that time.
Haizi was deeply influenced and was also fascinated by the poetry of Gu Cheng, Kitajima and others.
Four years later, Haizi graduated and, after choosing, entered the China University of Political Science and Law to teach. The following year, in 1984, Haizi was transferred to the Department of Philosophy to teach aesthetics.
At the time, he had just turned 20.
It also ushered in the most unforgettable first love of my life. The girl's name was Bo Wan, a native of Inner Mongolia, and she was born into a family of high-ranking intellectuals.
Haizi's poem to Bo Wan
Sadly, 5 years later, Haizi's suicide site chose the place where she had played with her first love.
According to Haiko's friend poet Nishikawa in The Afterword to Death:
When Bo Wan was a student, she liked Haizi's poetry very much, and I was under the impression that she was of medium stature and had a round face.
In the university's poetry club, when others liked the poems of Gu Cheng, Kitajima, and Xu Zhimo, Bo Wan said that she liked Haizi's poems.
Men naturally like to be adored, and women are born with a desire for love.
20-year-old Haizi, suddenly fell in love with this girl, wrote many love poems for her, and launched a love letter that can write more than 20,000 words.
Because of Bo Wan, Haizi published a lot of poems in Inner Mongolia publications at that time, and also took her to Qinhuangdao for tourism, which shows that she has a deep affection for her.
This relationship of more than a year was finally known to Bo Wan's parents, and out of the view of the portal, they could not accept Haizi, who was only 1 meter 6 tall, bearded, and from a poor rural area.
At that time, Bo Wan was about to graduate, and the relationship between the two was finally broken up under internal and external troubles.
The first love ended like this, but Haizi never let go.
A stage play in honor of Haizi
Perhaps because he couldn't put it down, Haizi wanted to get out of the relationship, and he went to Sichuan many times to find another woman, Annie, and had a relationship.
Anne worshipped Haizi when she was at Peking University and fell in love with Haizi when she taught her to write poetry, but although Haizi was a child prodigy, she did not realize it at the time, and he did not know it until his friend Luo Yihe reminded her later.
At that time, Anne had returned from Beijing to her hometown of Sichuan and was also married.
When Annie's husband discovered her affair, he stopped it until 1988, a year before Haizi committed suicide, and the two separated, and Annie appeared several times in Haizi's poems.
Haizi and Luo Yihe and other friends
At the age of 22, Haizi went to the Changping Cultural Center and met Shi Fen, a worker here, in the reading room.
Shi Fen is 4 years older than Haizi, and she admires Haizi's talent and is very good at taking care of people in life, which makes Haizi move her heart.
The two began to fall in love, and Haizi wrote a poem for her, the poem "Dedication Poems - To S":
Who in the beautiful fire flying
And there are unlimited gifts to me.
After talking for 1 year, Shi Fen was 27 years old, which was almost an "old girl" for that era, but Haizi was only 23 years old, and he did not want to go into the grave of marriage prematurely.
Haizi poses with her friends
After several negotiations, Shi Fen was rejected by Haizi, and after much deliberation, she instead married another man.
According to Zhou Yubing's "Facing the Sea/ Spring Warm Flowers Blossoming - Haizi's Poetic Life":
Because of Shi Fen's lack of poetry, he did not have much influence on Haizi after leaving, and at that time he had a confidant with a red face, Bai Peipei.
Bai Peipei is a female poet, and Haizi is a colleague, from Delingha City, Qinghai, but has given birth to a child, Haizi regards her as an emotional support, calling her "sister".
When he was "deeply in love" with her, he wrote the most famous verse in the "Diary":
Sister, tonight I'm in Delingha, and the night is shrouded
Sister, I only have the Gobi tonight
Sister, tonight I don't care about humans, I only want you
However, due to external pressure, Bai Peipei reduced her contacts with Haizi, but she still acted as his emotional sister.
In addition, when Haizi went to Tibet, she fell in love with li Hua, a Tibetan female poet who had only one side, and was also the founder of the "Sun City Poetry Society".
This has made others wonder why, Haizi loves Van Gogh, likes to play "Anna Karenina" and "La Traviata" like Garbo such a very stylish, charming woman.
This was all he told his friend Nishikawa before he died.
Garbo
However, Li Hua was 11 years older than him, and he had just been divorced, and his body was stronger and darker.
But Haizi is generally infatuated with her as a "goddess of the snowy land", and after drinking at her house late at night, he longs for Li Hua to stay with him for a night, and although Li Hua did not turn his face, he also rejected the 24-year-old brother.
His close contact with Li Hua is estimated to be so much, and he also wrote into the poem.
I have trouble sleeping tonight
It's because of my wings that are blacker than the night
I'm not crying, I'm not singing, I'm going to fly back north with my wings
In 1988, Haizi won the Honorary Award of the Third October Literary Award.
In 1989, he went to Qinhuangdao, where he was playing with his first love, BoWan, and after the sun went down, he chose to commit suicide by lying on the track.
At the age of 25, fireworks in the world, he still failed to keep the son of the sun.
And his love also disappeared, and none of these 5 love histories were cultivated to a positive result.
Haizi sat on the tracks
In fact, in his friend Nishikawa's "Afterword to Death", there is a slight talk about why Haizi refused to enter the marriage.
Not only that, but Haizi had advised his two best friends, Luo Yihe, and Nishikawa not to marry either.
Haizi's life in Beijing is very closed, he is simple, paranoid, stubborn, sensitive, but refuses to change the closed state, it seems that only by maintaining turnover and status quo can his creation be more complete and rich.
In fact, in addition to this, Haizi's age also has some relationship.
As a "madman among geniuses", although his IQ is outstanding, he entered Peking University at the age of 15 and did not reach a mature state emotionally, coupled with the blow of breaking up with his first love, which had an impact on his feelings afterwards.
Not only that, in his love history, some women who have been wives are not allowed to marry them, and there are cases of rejection.
Excerpts from Haizi's poems
In the end, several factors added up, and Haizi, with a deep love for these women, went to another paradise in an extreme way to pursue him to "become the life of the sun".
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