"The more I like something, the more I suddenly lose it, the more my heart weeps for it. Over and over again, I still have to endure this pain and have to continue to spend the rest of my life. What a cruel thing that is. Instead of that, why don't you just treat me like I don't love anything, I don't have a human heart..."
《ZOO》
Shy people usually leave the impression of being informal and not generous at first, but they also restrain their behavior because they are delicate and consider things that take more into account the feelings of others. Slow-heat people usually feel cold at first, but also because they are slowly understanding who you are and are good at expressing their emotions, after a lot of short-lived friendships have left, when you really need help, it is often these slow friends behind you to support you. You can't easily label the people around you, and the labeling itself is extreme and narrow.
Standing on the long axis of time, with a variable stacked on the present self, looking back, I really want to say to my past mutilated and inferior self: Thank you, I did not choose to give up at that time.
I kept watching, the rusty rails that stretched into the distant forest, and my own feet standing on the rails, shaking and still insisting on staggering on the rails.
The brighter the smile on my face, the more desolate my soul became.
Even though I was killed, I loved the world, even to the point of a mess. So, I don't want you to hate the world either.
"Happiness Like a Kitten"
The deeper the love, the heavier the meaning of death, and the deeper the sense of loss.
Although the inside of the tunnel is dark, but the outside will be a clear sky, as long as you go out, there will be a bright light in front of you.
The Frequency of Loneliness
I think that the world we live in must be just a movie projected on the screen, which is actually thin and has no thickness.
I am terrified of the existence of others, and I feel that my bad behavior towards others is also because of this. Being hated by others, looked down upon by others, and ridiculed by others is an unbearable pain for me, so in order to escape from this, I raised such an ugly animal in my heart. If there is no one else in this world, I am alone, how easy it will be!
Adults are really selfish creatures, destroying children's play places while complaining that children do not go out to play
If one day others knew that I was actually a cold and heartless person, you can imagine how difficult it would be for me to survive in this world. If I compare my current situation with the state of existence I was in at that time, it is difficult to say which way would be more lonely.
"Goth Break"
I was thinking about when I died. It's not just about stopping the activity. It is the difference from everything in this world, the difference from oneself. No matter how much you like it, you must also be different. So scared, so sad. The deeper the love, the greater the sense of loss after death. Love and death are not two different things, they are the surface and the inside of the same thing.
By understanding the values that ordinary people advocate and using this as a standard to disguise myself, I can start my life as a normal person.
Learn to love and die, and survive the cycle of light and darkness.
There is no such thing as a time to meet. When you want to meet, it's time to meet.
"Only You Hear Cooling You"
In the long and endless years to come, I will look up at the night sky because I regret my sins and finally I can't stand the pain. But at that time, your gentleness will surely save me, and you will surely soothe the loneliness of this sad beast.
"Heavenly Emperor Demon Fox"
Goodbye, thank you, people willing to touch me.
In the morning I was greeted with everything but me, and everyone but me was alive.
The foundation of everything is not empty of memory pots. Busy and lonely human beings, but can not inherit memories, even if you strangers, existence is only imaginary beauty.
It's strange to be so full of gratitude and hatred at the same time. But that's what I thought. And, I think everyone is like that. Don't human children, who disappeared a long time ago, live with the same ambivalence towards their parents? Isn't it the same as growing up in learning love and death, and surviving in the light and darkness of the world?
The past gradually passes, dies, and disappears without a shadow. Just as roads or railways gradually disappeared from the town, people gradually withered away and became another world that was slightly different from before. But the time of sand weaving seemed to stop, and the mind kept haunting those who no longer existed.
At first, I was amazed at how someone in the world could live like me, living a life of indistinguishable from others.